The director is too flirtatious

"One thought... Mom, please... change it..."

In the white ward, the pale mother was injured, her eyes were red, and she begged in a low voice.

"I beg you……"

"I beg you……"

The red eyes were getting redder, the red blood flowed from the eyes, the cheeks were sunken, and the hair was graying...

"what!"

I cried out in horror and opened my eyes suddenly.I was shaking, overwhelmed.

"What's wrong?" The director's gentle and worried voice sounded from one side, and I was immediately hugged.My whole body was cold and sweaty, feeling her body temperature, my body was shocked again.

The sticky feeling was really uncomfortable, I blinked blankly, and it took me a while to realize that it was a dream.

I dreamed again, and I still had such a dream.I breathed a sigh of relief, my tense body immediately softened, I closed my eyes in pain, and shrank into the director's arms.

"Dreaming again?" The director hugged me with one hand, and took out a tissue to wipe my sweat with the other.

"Yeah." I couldn't deny it, after all, I woke up from a dream, so how could I deny it?I cupped her face tiredly and guiltily, "Did it bother you?"

The director shook his head lightly and said nothing.After wiping my sweat, she kissed my forehead, "Ever since you came back from the hospital, you've been dreaming."

Yes, ever since my mother begged me in the hospital and I ran away, I have been falling into a dream like this.I really bite to death and refuse to let go, insisting that I cannot change.But there was no way to stop these terrifying scenes that fell into a dream as soon as they closed their eyes.

"Fortunately..." I didn't want the director to bear these burdens with me, so I didn't want to say it.

It's just that these days, the director who didn't ask much questions still asked, "What happened at the hospital that day?"

When I looked up, I saw the director's serious and complicated expression. My heart ached slightly, and I tried to smile, "Actually, it's nothing... You also know that my coming out of the closet was not going well, and what I said was just those words... ..."

"But I haven't seen you falling into such a dream for the past two months." The director didn't want me to escape, so he forced me to tell the truth, "Yinian, you haven't been to the hospital for half a month, and you have been doing it for half a month." Woke up in the middle of the night from a nightmare."

I didn't know what to say, so I opened my lips with difficulty.

"What did your mother tell you? One thought, is there anything you can't tell me?" The director hugged me tightly, and there was some pain in his voice.

Facing such a director, my heart was in a ball, and the scene of my mother begging me ran in again.

Such a white ward, such a haggard mother, such bright red eyes.

I trembled, and the director hugged me tighter.I shook my head desperately in pain, trying to get rid of that picture so that I would not be so painful.

"Don't shake it, don't shake it." The director's voice trembled slightly, she held my head in her hands, and lowered her head to press against it, "Yi Nian, don't do this, I am here, I am here."

My lips trembled, and it took me a while to calm down.Taking a deep breath, I raised my head and cried to the director, "Yi Er, do you know... Mom begged me in tears...she begged me to change..."

This kind of pain is indescribable. Under such a scene, I really have no way to let go.

The director froze for a moment, as if he hadn't expected such a situation.Seeing that I was emotional, she held my face and comforted me in a low voice: "It's all over, it's all over, one thought, calm down..."

The director's words were more or less effective. I was hugged by her, and I slowly calmed down, but I was still very sad, "I dare not go to the hospital to see her, dare not contact her. I can only secretly I called my father, and my father said that my mother's leg has recovered very well, and she can be discharged from the hospital in two days."

"I want to see her, I want to pick her up and leave the hospital, but I dare not, I dare not face such a mother."

"Yi Nian, she is your mother after all." The director sighed, his voice was a little hoarse, as if he was suppressing some sad emotions, "No matter how she treats you, you should visit her, shouldn't you?"

"I know, but... I'm really scared." I shook my head cowardly, but I didn't say my truest words.That is, if I face such a mother again, can I really hold on and not change?

The director stroked my hair and said softly: "Don't be afraid, just face it bravely... There are some things that cannot be avoided. If you don't visit your mother like this, it will make your mother even more sad, won't you? Today , let's go there after get off work today..."

In fact, I really wanted to see my mother, but I couldn't make up my mind.These dreams exhausted me, nearly dragged me down, and I rubbed my temples, "Well... tonight."

After I finished saying this, I subconsciously looked at the director.Under the environment that was not yet bright, I unexpectedly saw the director's eyes, which were filled with frightening complexity and pain.

It's just that these emotions converged quickly, and the moment the director and I looked at each other, they all disappeared, as if they were all illusions just now.

I felt a pain in my heart, and the uneasiness quickly entangled, making me look terrified all of a sudden.

There is an inexplicable emotion, like a black cloud overwhelming the city, arriving in my world.I nervously grabbed the director's hands with my backhand, uneasy and didn't know how to express my panic.

"Yi...you..."

"What's wrong?" The Director's voice was as gentle as ever, even softer than before.She hugged me tightly, "I'm here...I'm here..."

Although her reassurance had an effect, the eyes I saw at that moment just now still made me restless.I wanted to say something, but it was hard to express the anxiety.

My head was in chaos, and I felt a dull pain. If I thought about it a little deeper, I felt that it was about to explode.I had no choice but to force myself not to think about it anymore. I curled up in the director's arms and whispered her name uncomfortably, "Yi... Yi..."

All the motivation comes from these two words. I dare not imagine what will happen if these two selves are no longer my support and motivation.

The director patiently hugged me until dawn and the alarm clock rang before she kissed my hair, "One thought, it's time to wake up."

I hadn't fallen asleep, so I woke up too.It's just that the spirit is very poor and a little dizzy.The director took my hand, took me into the bathroom to wash, and half helped me change my clothes.

I followed the supervisor closely, she was actually no different from usual, she had the same patience and gentleness.But the look in her eyes before, I can't get rid of it.

The director noticed my gaze, so he put his arms around my waist, touching the tip of his nose intimately, and asked softly, "Why are you looking at me like that?"

"I just want to watch." When I said this, I was unexpectedly sad.

The director rubbed the tip of my nose funny and kissed my lips.I wrap my arms around her neck, deepening the kiss.It was just a shallow taste at first, but it turned into tongue entanglement.The kiss was intense and restless, just like my current mood.

It wasn't until both sides were out of breath that they let go.The originally bloodless lips turned red, and the whole person looked more refreshed.

The director held my face fondly, rubbed my lips with his fingertips, and murmured in a low voice: "One thought...one thought..."

The director's voice trembled, and my heart trembled violently. I wanted to ask something, and then I heard the director say: "I miss you...I miss you so much..."

I'm not here...

"I really want...I want you..." Only then did I know what the director had said. She hugged me tightly, and breathed a little shortly, so she let it into my ear.

I didn't expect the director to say this, my legs were a little weak, my anxiety was suppressed by my shyness, I said a little embarrassedly: "This... the time is wrong, we have to go to work..."

"Well... I still have to go to work..." The director repeated what I said, with a slight arc on his lips, full of bitterness and pain.

She let go of her hand, "Okay, let's hurry up, or it will be too late."

Although something seemed wrong in the morning, I really didn't have enough brain capacity to analyze anything.The daytime was the same as usual, without any exception, the director drove me to dinner after get off work.

Thinking that I will face my mother at night, I can't eat.The director spooned me a bowl of soup and said, "Even if you can't eat it, eat some, or you will look even more haggard."

"A little nauseous." I said helplessly, I was really nervous and couldn't eat.

"Then have a sip of the soup." The director took a sip by himself, then lifted a spoon and handed it to my mouth, and said with a gentle smile: "I heard that the things my lover has eaten before are very delicious. You have to try it." down?"

I was amused by the director, "How can there be such a reason? Is it possible that if you eat it first, it will become different?" Although it was true, but the director fed me, I opened my lips and took a sip.I don't know if it's a psychological effect, but I really think it tastes better than what I drink.

"Is it delicious?" The director smiled with his lips hooked.

"It's delicious." I couldn't help but smile, not because of anything else, but because she was also smiling.

"That's good, drink this soup."

"Then hello." I said coquettishly.

"Well, I'll feed you." The director simply sat next to me and fed me a bowl of soup spoon by spoon.

Later, I ate half a bowl of rice, and the director rubbed my hair contentedly, "You're so good, do you want to take a break?"

I looked at the time, and it wasn't too early. If I thought about it, I would always have to face my mother, so I shouldn't avoid it at all. "No, let's go."

The Director, who was still smiling slightly, seemed to have lost some of her smile. There was a flash of struggle in her expression, but it changed so quickly, I thought it was my eyes that were dazzled.

"Well... that's good." The director got up and went to pay the bill.

Nothing happened along the way, until the director stopped the car at the entrance of the hospital, he hesitated to speak.

I saw it in my eyes, a little puzzled, and asked, "What's wrong?"

The director smiled at me, and to my horror, the director's smile contained a complexity and bitterness that couldn't be concealed.My heart ached, and the uneasiness that had been suppressed for a whole day suddenly broke out, "What happened?" I held the director's hand, "You seem to be not right all day, what happened?"

"Nothing happened." The director gently held my hands back, "Go and see your mother."

"I'm not going, I'm not going." The director's gentleness could not appease my uneasiness, I shook my head again and again, as if I realized something, my eyes turned red first.

"You have already made an agreement with your father today, and you are already here, do you want to turn back?" The director held my face and comforted me in a low voice, "One thought, we can't turn back..."

I don't know if the director said that he can't turn back is referring to the coming out of the closet, I suppressed the desire to cry, "I'll see it another day."

"Another day, why isn't it the same? After procrastinating day after day, you still have to face it in the end... Isn't it?" The director's eyes also turned slightly red, "Yi Nian, come on, you can do it."

My heart was throbbing, obviously the director was encouraging me, but I felt something different, I shook my head stubbornly, "No, that's not the case..."

"One thought, good boy." The director took a deep breath and took off his seat belt, "Let's go, I'll take you a short distance."

I was forced to obey the director's actions. The moment I got out of the car and closed the door, I heard the sound of the door closing, but I couldn't take a step anymore.

The director stood on the other side of the car and didn't come over. We just looked at each other across a car.

I saw the director shed tears. Under the light of the street lamp not far behind, her eyes were full of sourness and pain.

I also shed tears immediately, I finally realized what my uneasiness was, and I finally realized why the director's expression was in pain.

My lips trembled, as if some painful switch had been flipped, and my whole body trembled immediately.My legs were weak, and I held onto the car to stand up straight.

The director was still crying, but tried his best to smile and cheered me up, "Yinian, come on, you must come on."

My tears flowed harder and my voice trembled, "Why...why..."

I reluctantly took a step, and wanted to walk towards the director, but the director said, "Yi Nian...don't come here, don't come here..."

The director's voice was also trembling, and it was hard to imagine that the director's voice would tremble.

I stopped in my tracks, tears streaming down my face, I raised my hand to wipe it off, but I couldn't finish it.While sobbing, I said intermittently: "You...I..."

I wanted to say something, but my mind was muddled.

The director took a deep breath, wiped away the tears on her face with her fingertips, and forced a smile to me, "Yinian, you want to see your mother, don't come towards me. This direction is wrong, it's wrong .”

"No...that's right..." I repeated what the director said, and my heart ached so much that I almost fainted.

"Well, the direction is wrong." The director cried a little harder. I've never seen her like this. She is mature and stable, and she can't stop crying for a day.I couldn't breathe, I couldn't hold myself, I walked to her place, I couldn't wait.

"One thought, stop! Calm down!" The director called out hastily, and she took a step back, as if she could distance herself by doing so.

My feet stopped again, and then I heard the director slowly say: "Yi Nian, let's break up."

"let's break up."