The director is too flirtatious

It's just that it didn't take long for me to be calm. In the morning, I had a quarrel with my mother at home, and at night I received a call from my mother.

Severing the mother-daughter relationship is bogus, but saying the call will be enjoyable is also clearly bogus.

When I looked at the caller ID, it was my mother, and my mood was hard to calm down. It seemed that I had returned to the scene of arguing in the morning.Those scenes are definitely not heartbreaking, but they also make me feel very uncomfortable.

I didn't have the courage to answer the call for a moment, but when I saw the director chatting with her friend on the mobile phone from the corner of my eye, I felt that the one who should come would still come. How long can I hide?

The hand that I picked up the phone was trembling slightly. Seeing the director talking on the phone on the balcony, I subconsciously took the phone and went back to the study.After closing the door of the study, I got through to my mother's phone.

"Hello? Mom?" I couldn't hide my nervousness.

Mom's voice quickly came from the other end of the phone, as if she had recovered her original calmness after a day of calm, "Yinian, where are you?"

"At home." Mom's question easily made my heart tremble.I am at home, but it is not the home she recognizes. I am lying, but I have to lie.

"I hope you're not lying to me." My mother didn't ask me to take pictures to prove where I was, but the doubts in her tone combined with her own concealment still made me feel very uncomfortable.

"Is what you said this morning true? Or are you kidding your mother?" When my mother mentioned these things, she obviously became less sure, with some hope that I could hear.Mom, she is not willing to accept this fact at all, is she?

But I can't give her hope. I took this step with great difficulty, so how could I just shrink back like this?

"Which thing are you talking about? If you're talking about the fact that I'm gay, I'm sorry, but it's true." I said this in a calm tone, but my hand is trembling.

There was silence for a while, and then I heard my mother sigh, and then there was a low cry, which made my heart tug.

"Mom, don't do this." My voice trembled slightly, "Even if I'm gay, I'm still your daughter, right?"

"I don't have a gay daughter, my daughter is not gay." The mother's emotions broke down instantly, and she almost roared from there, "Why are you so stupid?!"

"Mom, don't be like this." I heard my mother say this again, and my tears flowed down. "What does homosexuality mean? It's just a different sexual orientation, isn't it?"

"Homosexuality is a disease, it's a disease!" Mom cried intermittently, "You are not young anymore, why are you still so ignorant? Listen to Mom and change it..."

"It can't be changed, it's innate. Mom, why do you have such a big prejudice against homosexuality?"

"Am I prejudiced against them? It's not prejudice, it's a fact, isn't homosexuality a pervert? It's a disease, it's a disease!"

I cried and asked back: "So you think I'm a pervert, right? Is it just because my sexual orientation is homosexual that I'm classified as a pervert?"

"Yes, but as long as you change it, none of this will happen, right? Look at this world, how can there be any homosexuals? How can any homosexuals end well? I checked it online this afternoon. It is said that it can be cured, as long as you are willing, read it once, listen to mom, go and see with mom.”

"Mom, there are all kinds of information on the Internet. You can't just believe what other people say. The gay community is getting bigger and bigger. One in a hundred people is gay. It can't be changed."

"I've never seen anyone gay. The only one was the boy who jumped off a building in my school a few years ago. Look, what's the end of this? Do you want this end? And if you keep doing this Go down, what will you do when you get old? Without children or companions, what will you do in the future?"

"Mom, why don't I have a partner? I'll just find a girlfriend. Two people support each other. What's the difference between you and your father? Even if it's the certificate, if you really want it, you can go abroad to get it, right?" ?"

"Let me tell you, don't even think about it!" My mother sternly refuted my words, "What kind of girlfriend?! Don't even think about it, don't hurt other people's girls, and what about the two girls? Maybe they will be together sincerely? If something happens to you, she will definitely take all your things and run away, why are you so naive?"

"Mom, it's not that I'm naive, it's that you have demonized homosexuality, why do you think that it will definitely end up like this? Nothing is absolute, and even if I'm with her, it's only wishful thinking, so what? Harm someone?"

"It's fine if you don't get married yourself, and if you drag others down by not getting married, what is it if you don't harm them? And even if she is with you, will her family agree? How could anyone agree to such a thing? "

"Why did no one agree? Her family agreed. Her family didn't think there was any problem with two women being together. It's because you have always firmly believed that this is a disease. Mom, this is really not a disease. " I impetuously refuted my mother's words, but found that after I finished speaking, my mother fell into silence.

I calmed down a bit, and slowly recalled what I said in this passage.

Cold sweat broke out immediately, and I even revealed that I had a partner without knowing it.Does mother's silence mean that she has reacted?The uneasiness in my heart was running around, and I tentatively called out, "Mom?"

"Are you sure you're at home?" Mom mentioned the matter again, "Take a photo for me to see."

My heart sank, I bit my lips tightly, and stood helplessly in front of the window sill of the study, my voice was so low that I was about to cry in the next second, "Mom, does it have to be like this?"

"Are you at your so-called girlfriend's house?" Mom still heard my subtext from what I said before, "Xu Yinian, let me tell you, break up, you must break up, I don't allow you to be with a woman, this I have never heard of such a thing, let alone accept it.”

"Mom! Why do you have to do this? What did I do wrong!"

"Your biggest mistake is to say the word homosexual!" My mother screamed a little bit, this sentence directly turned into a sharp sword and pierced my chest, making my body tremble, and every breath brought Got severe pain.

"This is a pervert, it's a pervert!" My mother cried out with a "wow" over there, "Wow... why did I have such a hard life, I worked so hard to bring you up, and finally reached the age of happiness, you Heartless, woo woo..."

In addition to the mother's crying, there was also a low voice of comfort from the father.I covered my mouth to keep myself from crying, but my body was shaking uncontrollably.

I'm sorry, mom, I'm sorry, but I have no choice, I can only do this.

"I just thought of being able to hug my grandson at the retirement age, and I thought that you could hold the child and bring your husband back to see the two of us from time to time, but you can't do this. Have you considered our feelings? You have no conscience Yes, how did you become like this?"

"Mom...don't cry..." I heard my mother's crying, and thought of her collapsed appearance, the guilt in my heart couldn't be added.I wiped my tears while crying, "Mom, if you want a grandson, I can have one too... No... It's okay if you don't need a man. Nowadays...the technology is so advanced..."

"How can you have a baby without a man?!" My mother couldn't accept my proposal, and screamed out sharply, "Can you have a baby with your girlfriend without a man?! What are you thinking about! "

"Mom, I can go to the hospital for artificial insemination. The hospital has a sperm bank..."

"Don't even think about it!" Mom screamed so hard that her voice almost broke, and then she gasped. I was so scared that I hurriedly asked, "Mom, what's wrong with you? Calm down..."

There were some small voices over there, and then Dad's voice came from the phone. Dad's voice couldn't hide his exhaustion, "Yi Nian, your mother is not in good health, so don't stimulate her anymore."

I couldn't stop crying, "Dad, there is really no way to change my sexual orientation... I can't imagine being with a man, I can't accept it..."

I anxiously hope that my father, who has always loved me so much, can say a few words of comfort, but my father, who has been responsive to me in the past, was silent for a moment when faced with this matter, and then when I was desperate When I got it, I heard him say, "How do you know you can't do it if you haven't tried it?"

"I know without trying, don't I know what I want?" I was so uncomfortable that I was dying, but it was difficult to explain this feeling to them, "Only you know whether a pair of shoes fit or not, don't you?" ?”

"People and shoes are different after all." Dad's voice was very calm, so calm that it made people feel a little scared. "I won't tell you anymore, your mother's condition is not very good."

After finishing speaking, Dad hung up the phone, and I watched the call hang up with my mobile phone for a long, long time.

how is momWill something go wrong?Am I doing this right?And what else can I do but give in?

I trembled with my hands but didn't dare to call back, standing here at a loss.I didn't know when the study door was opened, until the director gently hugged me into her arms from behind, and I slowly realized it.

The director hugged me without saying a word, just bowed his head and kissed my hair.I raised my hand in embarrassment to wipe my tears, and the director carefully took out a tissue to wipe my tears and snot.

Where am I willing to let her come?She avoided her hand, but took her tissue, wiped her face and said in a nasal voice: "I just talked to my mother on the phone, and she seems to be mad at me."

"Is the aunt okay?" the director asked softly.

"I don't know. My father said that my mother's condition didn't seem to be very good, so he hung up on me." When I said this, I couldn't hide my worry.

"Do you want to go back and have a look? I'll take you back." The director suggested.

My heart moved, and I just thought about it. I just came out today, so it's better to separate and let both parties calm down.I am always a little sad that my mother asked me to break up with the director, but I will not tell the director about it.I turned around and hugged the director with nostalgia, and shook my head lightly, "No need, I'll ask my dad on WeChat, I'm afraid that if I go back now and quarrel with my mother again, it will be even more difficult to end."

After listening to my words, the director nodded slightly.She touched my hair, once and again, with the same frequency, as if she was casting magic to soothe my restless heart.

"It's okay...everything will pass..."