carol

Tian Ruixin's heart fluctuated constantly, as if floating in the turbulent waves, sometimes on the surface of the water, sometimes under the water surface.And this phone is that fragile little piece of wood, she clutched it tightly, listening to the voice from inside,

"Rui Xin, do you need me?" That was Ke Kailuo's gentle voice. She missed her so much that her heart ached and she couldn't recognize the expression in this voice.That sound would prove to her that Carol "existed," so her heart could keep beating.Because she was so excited, she could hardly understand what this meant.But she closed her eyes and played her words one more time in her mind.She asked me if I needed her, which was an absurd question,

"Of course!"

"What do you need from me? ... What if it's something I can't give you?" Carol's voice repeated.

When Rui Xin felt like she was drowning, Kai Luo's gentleness could keep her alive, but when she was floating on the surface, panting and thinking about the next step, she madly angered Kai Luo again.

"Is there anything you can't give me?" Didn't you give it all?Don't you want to give it?Rui Xin didn't understand her question, her head was suddenly filled with many black and angry waves, making her tears burst out again,

"Is it because you don't want to give it? I said I need you to hold me now, so don't you want to hold me?! Don't you even want to hold me?! Are you going to leave me?!" She burst into tears while yelling at Carol,

"No! No, Rui Xin!" Carol was also anxious,

"Please don't leave me behind! I'm so scared!" Rui Xin sat curled up beside the bed, begging the cruel person on the phone,

"Oh my God! Rui Xin, I won't leave you behind!" Why did Carol sound like she was crying and begging her?

Rui Xin was sobbing, the faint assurance that Kai Luo was in the distance made her calm down a little.She wiped her snot and tears with the back of her hand,

"But... you left me twice." She finished speaking sharply, pursing her lips nervously,

"That's why I said I'm not suitable for you! I'm sorry for you..." Kailuo replied excitedly, but her voice became smaller and smaller,

Rui Xin regained her sanity. She may have understood Carol's logic a little bit, but she couldn't understand her decision, "Don't you even want to work hard? Are you going to give up on me like this?"

"Rui Xin...I'm too bad, you should find better ones," Rui Xin heard Kai Luo cry. "Rui Xin, Rui Xin...I'm sorry..." she murmured while crying.Rui Xin clung to the microphone, wishing she was on Carol's face, she really wanted to hug her.

"If you feel sorry, come back, don't give up on me..." Rui Xin only wanted her back,

Thinking of Carol being so far away made them both so sad, she really didn't understand why she would do it,

"You make me so sad..." Rui Xin was no longer angry, but she felt very powerless.They were so far apart that she could never touch her.She fell into a pool called Sorrow again, tears and stuffy nose...she smelled water.

"Rui Xin, listen to me, listen to me," Carol's tone became excited again, "I don't think I should leave you, I made a wrong decision again, I regret it!" She hurried talking,

"Hmm..." Rui Xin nodded while listening, and continued to wipe away her tears.

"You didn't want to abandon me?" She thought she could breathe again.

"I...I just don't feel like I'm right for you, it's different."

When Carol said she regretted it, Rui Xin felt the water recede quickly and left her head, but she suddenly felt very tired.Hearing what Carol said, she couldn't think about the difference.

"Yeah." She replied meaninglessly.

"Rui Xin, are you okay?"

"I just want you. I don't care what fits or not..." She felt as if she had degenerated into a little girl or a cat about to fall asleep.In fact, looking at the room, she noticed that it turned slightly, making her dizzy, so she closed her eyes and lay down straight away.

"Carol...I'm so tired from crying." Ruixin said weakly.

"Baby, you rest first. I have dinner later."

"What time is it?" Rui Xin asked her, and replayed the scene of Kai Luo calling her "baby" in her mind,

"It's almost six o'clock in the afternoon."

"Then you go to eat." Rui Xin almost lost the strength to grab the phone.

"Carol?" But she was reluctant to put down the phone. On the other side of the small piece of tempered glass on the phone was Carol.

"Huh?" Kailuo's 'huh' was so familiar, Rui Xin closed her eyes, she felt that Kailuo was just like usual, with a slender and elegant body lying on her side,

"My heart hurts so much." Rui Xin had no strength left, she let her mouth say what it wanted to say.

"Rui Xin..."

"So you have to call me again, okay, you can't leave me." No.

"Okay, you go to sleep...I..." Kailuo, who was lying on the side, wanted to tell her something, but the little girl didn't fall asleep because she wanted to hear it.But Rui Xin knew that she was about to lose it, and she had to tell Kai Luo before she fell asleep.

"I love you Carol"

"Hmm..." Carol answered her, she could see Carol looking at her.But Ruixin waited patiently, what would Kailo's beautiful lips say to her?Could it be that the latter words could not be passed on because Italy is too far away?

Carol's voice reappeared in her ears,

"... Me too. Go to sleep! Good night, Ruixin."

"Kai Luo... good night." Rui Xin seemed to be finally able to die with peace of mind, she relaxed her whole body, put down the phone, and then fell asleep.

Tian Rui tossed and slept restlessly all night.In the daylight the next day, she suddenly opened her eyes, but she felt very heavy and tired, and had almost no energy to get up.She lay on the bed trying to wake up this body, and found that she might have sweated a lot, and besides the uncomfortable feeling left between her skin and clothes, what remained on her chest were residues of anxiety, anger and despair, Must have been a nightmare.And I also have the impression that I feel very cold in the middle of the night.

Finally she sat up and found her phone.She rubbed her eyes, thinking about all the things of yesterday and today, 9:02, battery 14%, made an appointment with Amin at ten o'clock, near her home.

It's more polite to take a shower before meeting Sister Aiming.Rui Xin thought so, while connecting the phone to the charging cable.

As she walked towards the bathroom, all the remaining emotions in her body seemed to shake off with her steps. She felt that she could cheer up, but when she swallowed, her throat hurt.This is inflammation of the tonsils, Rui Xin knew it, but knew it was not good!How come you have a cold?No wonder it's so uncomfortable.

While taking a shower, Rui Xin thought that she hadn't been sick for a long time, since she moved here, right?There should be no cold medicine on hand.I don't know if Kailuo will have this medicine at home?It doesn't matter.If there's nothing in the medicine drawer later, go to the drug store to buy it after you're done with Ai Ming.

She tried to dress as warmly as possible before going out.Ai Ming made an appointment with a coffee shop nearby. In fact, Rui Xin has never been in it, but just passes by it often.Thinking that Abby should have made a special appointment here for her convenience, she felt grateful.

In the alleys of Dunhua South Road, after entering the store, she found that it was more spacious than she had imagined.With a comfortable atmosphere and a certain distance between tables, I feel that I can have a good chat.It was almost ten o'clock in the morning, and the guests were not full. She looked around and saw that Ai Ming hadn't arrived yet.The kind waiter led her to sit down first.She flipped through the menu, only to realize that the price of this coffee shop is a bit high.

Her throat hurts every time she swallowed, and the waiter just happened to bring water, smiled at her, and put down a glass bottle of water.Rui Xin quickly took a few sips, the cool water made her throat feel much more comfortable, she continued to study the menu.

"Rui Xin! Are you here?" Looking up, Abby walked towards her with a smile and sat opposite her.

Rui Xin told her that she had never been to this store,

"Ah? Haven't you been here before? I think it's pretty good, of course I found out because your family moved here!" Ai Ming seemed to be very energetic and energetic. She just sat down and stood up again. He took off his coat, took out a storage basket from under the chair, and folded his clothes in.

"I often pass by, but never really come in..." Rui Xin said to her with a smile.I don't know if Kai Luo ever made an appointment with Aiming here?

Rui Xin thought that this was the first time she met Ai Ming, which made her a little nervous.The menu was full of beautiful things, and she didn't know what to order for a while.The waiter came over, and Ai Ming smiled and told her directly that the cinnamon rolls I ate last time were delicious, do you have them now?

"Of course, that's our signature." The waiter's voice sounded happy,

"Then give us two! Then... I want a cup of Cappuccino, hot." Seeing that Ai Ming didn't open the menu at all, she just ordered the dishes in a chatting way. How familiar is she with this restaurant? store?

Ai Ming and the waiter were waiting for her, Rui Xin just lowered her head and looked at the menu harder, Abby said again,

"I want the one with Bagel with cream cheese and a bunch of breakfast stuff..." Abby tapped her cheek with her fingers,

"New York American breakfast? No problem!" The waiter replied neatly.

Rui Xin looked at the menu and felt that the set meal that Aiming ordered was good, but she didn't want to order the same...

"Rui Xin, do you like hamburgers? I ate his CheeseBurger at noon once, which was pretty good!" She offered to suggest, "Ah! But maybe you want something lighter?" Aiming then opened the menu ,

Rui Xin hesitated but still nodded, she really has no appetite.

"What about this chicken Caesar salad? I think it should be good..." So Rui Xin ordered this and asked the waiter to take away the menu.

Looking up at Ai Ming... She seems to have changed her glasses, the low-key dark frames feel much softer.

"Did you sleep well? Is everything okay?" she asked.Rui Xin really didn't know how to answer.

"What stupid question did I ask! Of course it's not good..." Ai Ming crossed his hands and leaned back.She also sighed.

But then she leaned forward on the table again and said emphatically, "You know, Carol is worried about you. Of course I am too."

How do you know she is worried about me?Rui Xin really wanted to ask this question, but she looked at Ai Ming and hesitated to ask while drinking water.

Ai Ming looked at her with a smile and took a sip of water.Halfway through the drink, Ai Ming seemed to understand Rui Xin's eyes suddenly, and quickly put down the water, causing the water to spurt out a little.

"Oh! Because she called me early in the morning, it seems that it was midnight on their side..." Rui Xin was a little surprised when she heard that, her hands were tightly clutching the napkin.Ai Ming looked at her, reached out and touched her hand lightly,

"She doesn't want to disturb your sleep....so she disturbs me!" she said jokingly,

"Carol asked me to report back to her about your recent situation. I said I would meet with you today, Butyouknowwhat? I won't tell her about you! I just want her to worry about you, and then she will call you herself! She I'll talk to you directly!" Ai Ming pointed to the air excitedly and emphasized,

"What if she didn't call me? Did she ignore me?" When Rui Xin asked calmly while sitting in the coffee shop, she felt as if she was responsible for supporting the wall of the dam. She had to be strong, Here at least, you can no longer be overwhelmed by emotions.

"Then 'I' will call her! 'I' will scold her to death!" Ai Ming is like a parent who can teach his children a lesson at any time.

Ai Ming kept talking about how much she disagreed with Carol's behavior, but from her words, she could feel that she knew Carol very well. Although she thought it was wrong for her not to communicate and "flee to the ends of the earth", she He also knows her well, saying that her personality is the kind of person who would do such a thing.

Watching Abby talk about the most important person to Rui Xin vividly, Rui Xin couldn't help but still feel a little uncomfortable.Is it because Abby is so familiar with Carol?Or because Abby criticized Carol so mercilessly?Rui Xin drank some more water, she told herself in her heart: Don't think so, Sister Ai Ming is here to help me, she can definitely help me understand Kai Luo better.

"Did she... tell you anything else?" Rui Xin wanted to know what else Carol said these two days,

"The main reason is that she is very worried about you, saying that you... are sad or something..." Ai Ming hesitated, probably because she was embarrassed to tell Rui Xin how Carol described her, "So I am very angry with her! I really don't know her Why did you do this!"

Amin sighed again.Rui Xin looked at Abby carefully, her eyes were gentle, full of concern, and without reservation.

Ruixin took a breath, took out the letter from Carol from her bag, and said to Amin:

"Maybe you know it all, but... I still want to discuss it with you, so... would you like to read the letter that Carol sent me?" It may be inappropriate and abrupt, but Rui Xin thinks this is the most direct way.

When Ai Ming read the letter seriously, Rui Xin felt a little regretful. She whispered, "Maybe you think... I shouldn't show you her letter...?"

"...No, Rui Xin, I will definitely help you. I will definitely help you." Aiming raised his head with a serious face.

"No matter what you have to do or what you shouldn't do! I will help you!" She continued to look at it, her brows were wrinkled, and her mouth was pursed.In the end, she returned the letter to Rui Xin properly.

"I really... can't agree with her at all." Ai Ming was talking, when her meal was delivered, the waiter asked her if the cinnamon rolls were being served now?Ai Ming shook his head and simply asked her to come after dinner.Ai Ming's eyes quickly returned to Rui Xin, as if waiting for her to speak first.

"I just think that she shouldn't make a decision for the two of us by herself." Rui Xin said frankly after the waiter left.

"That's right! And what kind of bad decision is this... She likes you, you like her, why make it so complicated?" Ai Ming spread her hands, then picked up her tableware, and the waiter brought Rui Xin's salad.

"Eat quickly." Ai Ming urged her to eat with a smile, and then took a bite of scrambled eggs.

She didn't have the heart to eat, and she kept thinking about various problems in her mind.Although Abby was enjoying her breakfast, Rui Xin couldn't help but asked directly: "I probably figured out something... I want to ask Abby for your opinion, can I?"

"Of course!" She wiped her mouth, put down her cutlery, and looked at her intently.

"I think . . . she's embarrassed about her drinking,"

"Hmm..." Aiming nodded,

"And the most important thing is that she must have some 'situation' and needs to drink to escape." Rui Xin is very grateful that someone can finally discuss the problem with her,

However, after talking a little, my throat became more and more uncomfortable.Rui Xin casually looked at the green salad in front of her, it looked quite delicious.She took two bites, only to feel her throat hurt when she swallowed.

"What's the situation..." Ai Ming pondered, and then agreed with Rui Xin's argument: "That's right... I was also shocked, and she started drinking uncontrollably again,"

"Again? Has it happened before?" Rui Xin's eyes widened.

"Before..." Ai Ming looked up and thought for a while, her face became a little embarrassed again, "Just in January, after she came back from a trip with you..." She was talking about after Carol left her last time .

"It's actually not very obvious. If you don't see her often, it is definitely not easy to find. Because she is fine during the day," Ai Ming continued. She was eating slowly while thinking about it.

"But that time she drank and drank, and she found a job smoothly. And in the end, she figured it out by herself... You know, it's the fact that she really wants to be with you." Ai Ming said.

Listening to Abby going on, Carol often drank too much wine anxiously because of her daughter...and her affairs. It's weird.It was the first time that Ruixin knew that Kailuo was in such a state at that time, although when she was in Bali, Kailuo also said that she regretted and felt very painful...Rui Xin recalled these, imagined the haggard Kai Luo, and felt a little complicated and sad in her heart.

Ai Ming clicked his tongue, "How come we finally got together and messed up again!"

"Sister Ai Ming... Abby, I haven't messed up this time, because I won't give up." Rui Xin seriously corrected Abby.

So... Carol's pain, is it the same as the previous winter?Rui Xin recalled her despairing mood at that time, washing her face with tears every day, compared with her own who had wet her pillow with tears these days, why was she so sure in her heart that this time was different?Obviously sad and angry...

At that time, I thought that Carol didn't want me anymore, and I didn't even know if she loved me.But now I know, I know very clearly, not just because of what Amin said, not just what Carol said on the phone, but this year of living together, every day she can feel that Carol loves her very much , cherish her very much.As if she was the most precious treasure in the world.

After she unearthed these new ideas, she immediately had new experiences, and she couldn't wait to tell Aiming,

"Actually, I feel sad, not just because Carol left me to go abroad. I think it's more...she doesn't want to tell me her pain," she looked at Aiming and nodded, encouraging her to put herself to speak more clearly,

"Besides, I'm also angry that I didn't notice her thoughts in time and let her make things like this by herself."

Rui Xin went further and asked Abby: "Do you think...does she feel sad? I don't even know what she is suffering from? After all, I still don't know?!" Thinking of this, Rui Xin was worried and regretful, she Wringing hands, frowning into a ball,

"Rui Xin..." Ai Ming lightly touched her hand again, trying to comfort her, "I don't think she will ask you to know her thoughts... because she really is the one who keeps her thoughts in her heart. Do people really expect others to understand her?" Ai Ming asked while thinking,

"Who doesn't want others to know themselves? Everyone does, right?" Rui Xin was almost sure.

"You're right..." Ai Ming thought for a while, "But she didn't confess, it's a big problem... And I believe she didn't blame you. Rui Xin," Ai Ming looked at the pale Rui Xin with concern,

"Don't blame yourself! You are not wrong." Ai Ming put her warm hand on hers.Rui Xin nodded, feeling relieved because of the warmth.Amin picked up the tableware again and finished the rest of her breakfast.

"Hmm...Okay." Rui Xin also calmed down her slightly agitated emotions, and sorted it out in her heart.

If Carol doesn't blame me for not understanding her, then she doesn't want to say it, maybe it's a habit, maybe she doesn't want to say it.

Simply put, she didn't intend to ask me to help her solve the problem.Did she ever think that I could help her?

Rui Xin weighed in on this thought.She rummaged through her bag, took out her notebook, and jotted down the discovery.

Seeing her take out the notes to write, Ai Ming raised her eyebrows in surprise...Rui Xin looked at what she had just written, and turned to a few pages more attentively, confirming back and forth, she almost said to herself: "If we know her well enough and stand in her perspective, maybe we can know what she thinks?"

Ai Ming suddenly said: "Rui Xin, you should eat first, aren't you hungry? Your salad hasn't moved at all. Let me think about other clues..." She wiped her mouth and lifted her chin to think stand up.

"Ah! Carol doubted you and the director!"

"Doubt me and Director Ge? Doubt what?" Rui Xin was at a loss.

"Ah! I'm wrong, I don't doubt you...how should I put it, in short, she has been worried that the director likes you. Maybe she is worried that this will affect you and her, I mean...the relationship between you and Carol? I remember She told me. Moreover, I have always felt that she is very conflicted... She hopes that you can work for the director, but is also very worried that the director likes you and will pursue you. "

"Pursue me?" Rui Xin was simply too surprised that Carol had such an idea,

"Did he not treat you particularly well? Carol was worried that he would... empathize with you because you looked like her former classmate? Is this what the word says? It means that he will like you very much because of this?" Amin explained .

"Director Ge is as good to me as he is to everyone else. There is nothing between us..." She was still in a state of surprise,

"I know. I told her that too. She was thinking too much."

"To me, Director Ge is a senior who is willing to teach us things. And he doesn't have anything special to me..." Rui Xin thinks she is not a nervous person, which is true.

"I believe so. I don't know why Carol is so insecure, and she's really conflicted, agreeing with you and thinking too much... Right! She's just insecure! You should take a note on this!"

They discussed Director Ge again.It seems that Ai Ming also began to worry that she would make Rui Xin feel uncomfortable if she revealed these thoughts of Carol, after all, this is really unwarranted suspicion.But Rui Xin won't let herself think that way, maybe it's some kind of contradictory self-entanglement of Carol, and Aiming is right, the point is that it comes from Carol's uneasiness and lack of confidence in the relationship between them.

Ai Ming urged her to eat again, but she still took two bites.As soon as I relax, new ideas come out,

"Abby...I think it's a key point that Carol writes that it's 'her own pain'...I think she probably feels like it's some kind of problem that she can solve on her own, or she doesn't want to, or feel What can't be solved, causing her own pain?" Rui Xin felt that she was getting to the crux of the problem,

"Do you think it's work? Is it her family? Or... her ex-husband or Lingling? Or, her past... I don't know much. I should have asked her more..."

"Rui Xin, don't worry. I know her past, I think you are very smart! You are very analytical, maybe we can find out the answer together?" Ai Ming widened her kind eyes, and her words made her Rui Xin felt very hopeful and relieved.

"But I'm a little worried about you not eating like this..." She urged Ruixin to eat again.

"Abby, I have a bit of a cold, and my throat hurts when I swallow..." Rui Xin finally told her honestly.

"Ah? You have a cold! Oops!" Ai Ming said in panic, "Then drink? Drink better? You have to eat more nutritiously and get more rest!"

Apart from a sore throat, Rui Xin was still suffering from a faint headache, but she was very anxious, she wanted to find out the reason why Carol was sad.She must be with Carol, and she will stick to it.From the bag, she took out a new secret weapon - a few blank sheets of paper.

She began to write down a few possible problem points in a big way, such as: work, family, ex-husband, Lingling... .She made another circle with the words "in the past?" After thinking about it, she made another circle with the words "A certain situation of Tian Ruixin?"

She looked up and saw Ai Ming smiling broadly, and her eyes had just shifted from the paper to her face.

"Actually, this is how I usually work. Sometimes I teach my colleagues these analysis methods... It's just that I never thought of analyzing Carol like this..." Amin said to her with a smile.

"Ah! Don't you think it's not good?" Ruixin worried that she should not "analyze Carol",

"Not at all. I just think Ruixin you are a genius. No wonder Carol likes you so much."

"Strange, isn't it? But because I usually organize things like this, so..."

"Come on, don't worry. Let's take a look one by one, Today we'll "HACK" the system called Carol!" Amin really rolled up his sleeves as he spoke.

As a result, they talked for noon and almost forgot to eat.When the cinnamon rolls were delivered, Rui Xin was taken aback. The cube-shaped dessert was drizzled with thick and thick hot chocolate sauce, which made her almost unrecognizable as cinnamon rolls.The taste is fragrant and sweet, and it is really delicious.But as soon as she finished eating, she found that her inflamed throat could barely speak.

Rui Xin frowned in pain, stroked her throat, shook her head and whispered to Ai Ming: "I can't make a sound..."

"Ohmygod..." Aiming stood up worriedly, "I'm going to ask for a glass of ice water, I think you'll feel better drinking that."

After the discussion stopped for a while, Rui Xin felt that her body was more uncomfortable than in the morning. She held her forehead and felt that her whole body was hot.She closed her eyes, feeling dizzy too.No, I haven't figured it out yet...

She looked at the key points of the problem she had recorded on the white paper, and tried to concentrate and think again.In Carol's past, what surprised her the most was...she struggled so long in her previous marriage.

Ten years, that's almost half of Rui Xin's life, and...According to Aiming's memory, she regretted marrying that man very early on, and then she lasted like this for three or four years, because she had a child and...it was a grievance to herself Well, ten years have passed.

Rui Xin can't imagine living in unhappiness every day and not being able to live freely.How often does her beloved Carol regret her decisions at the time?every day?How painful that must be...

Rui Xin suddenly opened her eyes and raised her head. Although she was so dizzy that a bunch of gold stars appeared in front of her eyes, she suddenly thought that Kai Luo would also drink to escape these days, right?She turned her head to find Ai Ming in a hurry, and saw that she was hurriedly bringing a glass of water over.As soon as Rui Xin raised her head and turned around, she felt that her whole body was really weak.

"Drink your saliva. I love ice cream when I have a sore throat. I also ordered some for you. They will bring it later." Aiming was still standing next to her and patted her on the shoulder lightly.

Ai Ming's hand rested on Rui Xin's shoulder, and then she squatted down, and touched Rui Xin's forehead with the back of her hand,

"Oh Shit! You have a fever!" Amin said anxiously,

"It's okay, Amy...I have something to ask you,"

"what's up?"

"Kailuo...Kailuo she..." Rui Xin couldn't make a sound, and couldn't speak clearly in a hurry and weakly.

"Oh! Leave Carol alone, look at you, you need to rest or go to the doctor."

Rui Xin persisted, "Help me, Ai Ming... I'll just ask two more questions..."

Ai Ming, who was still squatting beside her, held her hand and looked at her with concern, "Are you really okay? Rui Xin?"

Rui Xin nodded affirmatively.

The author has something to say:

Uh... I think this is the scale of "meeting minutes". I accidentally have 8 words.

Originally, Chapter 17 thought there were only 2 chapters, but it seems that it can only be added further down.

Thank you for waiting patiently and reading this far... If you have any thoughts, please leave a message to me, I really like to read your thoughts.