Baima Weiyang

He walked up to me in a few steps, stretched out his hand to touch my forehead, frowned and hugged me horizontally.I was taken aback by this sudden movement, but when I struggled, I felt that my limbs were too tired to use any strength.Staring blankly at his side face, it seemed that the warmth of his palm still remained on his forehead, imitating his example and stretching out his hand to his forehead, only to realize that he already had a fever.

Cangyang Gyatso carried me into the side hall, silent all the way, but his expression was unusually stern.I turned my head to look along the corridor, only to find that Danba had also followed in, holding a bowl of dark concoction in his hand.Putting me on the couch, Cangyang Gyatso withdrew his body, lowered his head and stared at me indifferently, "I don't cover myself with a quilt at night, I don't wear a coat when I go out, and I have to row a cowhide boat when the dew is heavy... Are these just for me to see?"

I avoided his gaze, and my eyes fell on the empty Aga ground, "I don't want to, but this is the only way I can see you..." Before I finished speaking, my jaw was suddenly clenched.I took a painful breath, but I heard his cold voice ringing in my ears, "You can try, like before, act like a baby with me after crying, and see if I will soften my heart."

I reached out and pulled his palm away, and stood up with difficulty.I touched his cheek with a slightly cool palm, and I gently stroked the slight blemish on his jaw, "I don't mind if you get angry with me, you can even take it out on me. But...you don't look happy at all ah……"

"Hmph..." Cangyang Gyatso grinned, reached out and took the medicine bowl in Danba's hand and handed it to me, "Drink the medicine." I paused and took it in silence.Feeling weak and unable to stand up, I quickly sat back on the couch.

Seeing the wooden bowl in front of me trembling in my hands, I leaned over to the edge of the bowl.Fearing that I would not have the strength to hold it after a long delay, I swallowed the warm medicine in my mouth hastily, but a little of it slipped into the trachea, "Cough...cough!" I was choked and coughed violently , shaking his hands, only to hear a "bang", and all the dark concoction spilled on the ground of Aga.

I was taken aback, raised my hand to cover my mouth, and looked at Cangyang Gyatso with a little helplessness, "I'm sorry, I'm sorry... I didn't mean it, I didn't want to drink..." He looked at me calmly. Pain and anger.I turned my eyes away, the tears did not flow down after all, but my chest was already in extreme pain.There was no sound in the room, until a voice came from the side, breaking the dead silence, "Danba, go get another bowl!"

As he said that, he was about to turn around and leave, but Cangyang Gyatso stopped him suddenly... "No need." The cold words came, but the accompanying pain just sank into my heart like a stone sinking into the sea.I had expected him to say that, and this level of indifference was too numb for me to feel the pain.It's just... I took a deep breath, suppressing the trembling in my throat, "Cangyang Gyatso, do you want me?"

Hearing this, he slowly squatted down, held my shoulders with both hands, and pushed me back on the couch, "Don't remember? You were the one who left two years ago..." I closed my eyes suddenly. Eyes, tears slipped out as I turned around.Facing the wall covered with murals, I trembled and panted, slowly digesting the deep pain in his eyes...

After a while, there was a sound of footsteps behind him, and the satin curtain was raised and lowered, and no sound was heard anymore.Feeling the burning of my forehead, I struggled to support my body.Looking aside inadvertently, Danba was standing there bent over, holding a bowl full of concoction in his hand, steaming hot and white.My throat was so sore that I couldn't open my throat, so I simply reached out and greeted him.

Just about to take it from his hand, Danba didn't intend to let go, seeing me looking at him, he said softly, "It's too hot, I'll give it to you after Danba cools down." I paused and turned to him He nodded, "Thank you." Danba's eyes turned red again when he heard this, and he didn't know if it was because of his master, me, or both of us...

I lowered my head to sip the warm concoction, and there was no other feeling in my mouth except for a burst of moistness.After slowly drinking the whole bowl, Danba came over with a copper basin and carefully placed it on the short stool beside the couch.I was fascinated by the sloshing water in the basin, and remembered that when I was sick in the past, whether it was a minor injury or a serious illness, he would always accompany me every step of the way, but now...

Just as I was thinking about it, Danba suddenly took cotton cloth and wanted to soak it in the copper basin. I was taken aback, and quickly snatched it from him.I stretched out my hand and pressed the cotton cloth into the basin, got it thoroughly wet, then picked it up and slowly wrung it dry. I looked up at Danba, "Go and do your work, I can do it myself." As soon as he touched his forehead, a chill came, but it overlapped with the scalding heat in his body, making him extremely uncomfortable.

"I..." Danba looked straight at me, unable to speak for a long time.Seeing that he didn't intend to leave, I finally couldn't help sniffling, "Danba, can you turn your back and don't watch me cry?" He was taken aback when he heard this, and said repeatedly, "Okay, okay... ..." Then he turned around in a panic.

I took off the cotton cloth on my forehead and kept wiping the tears off my face.Although he didn't restrain himself too much, he still didn't dare to make too much noise.The depression, grievance and helplessness that had come over the past few days gathered into a heavy punch, which ruthlessly hit my heart.

Tears really can't solve the problem, but that's my only vent now... Just now, he seems to have broken the tight string in my body... Whether it's paranoia or stubbornness, I don't care about all of them. No, I want... only him... nothing can be more important than him...

I thought about it for a long time, maybe I was tired from crying, but I fell asleep on the couch with my clothes on.When I woke up, I didn't know what time it was, and I stretched out my hand to touch my forehead, and the fever had subsided. Although my body was neither painful nor itchy, I felt an indescribable discomfort.

I pushed away the pulu blanket, turned my head and looked around, but there was no one in the hall.I got up and went to bed, I lifted the curtain and went outside, Danba was guarding outside the side hall.Seeing me coming out, his slightly tired face immediately showed joy, "Are you awake?"

I smiled at him, glanced out of the window, only to realize that the sky was dark again, I couldn't help asking, "How long have I been asleep?"

"It's been almost a day and a night." Danba said, looking at me inquiringly, "Should I help you get some food?"

"No, I'm not hungry." I waved my hand and took a deep breath, "Where did Master go?"

Danba paused, but his voice became softer, "Master has gone to the Maggie Ami Tavern."

"Is he going these days or every night?" I asked calmly, seeing Danba nodding, but feeling a bit puzzled in my heart.Is it because you don't want to be seen by Diba?Or... Ever since I came back from the tavern that day, I haven't been able to think about anything else.Now it seems that the doubts are getting more and more tiring.Well, if you don't understand, why not go and see for yourself?What's more, I haven't seen Maggie Ami for a long time. I didn't have a chance to see her last time. This time I should be able to reminisce...

I told Danba that I was going to the tavern, but he didn't stop me, he just changed into an ordinary robe and followed me all the way.Barkhor Street is not far from Zongjiao Lukang, but it still takes some time to walk.I was not in a hurry, so I walked slowly on the street.It is estimated that the time is not too late, the shops on both sides are still brightly lit, and the streets are full of people.

From time to time, a young girl's laughter came to my ears. Although I didn't find it harsh, I was more or less unwilling to hear it.Hastily quickened his pace, only to feel that the street in front of him suddenly narrowed.Turning a corner again, I stopped in my tracks.On the gray and white wall, a series of crooked iron-black Tibetan characters are lined up in rows, and the incense cloth on the window is "snapped" by the night wind.

Stepping into the tavern, the hall was crowded with people, and the noise was loud... I was a little at a loss, the proprietress standing behind the counter had recognized me, she quickly walked over and grabbed my hand, "Dolma, come here Looking for Maggie Ami?"

"Ah?" I was taken aback, "Yes... and no!" Seeing me nodding and shaking her head, she couldn't help laughing, "Hey...then you can find whoever you want, you and Ma Giami is so nice, even if you treat this place as your own home, don't be fooled."

"Okay..." I smiled embarrassingly, wondering if it was because she was too similar to Maggie Ami, which always made me feel a little strange.Seeing my answer, she went to the hall to greet the guests.I followed her figure, only to find that Gesang, who was waiting in the hall, was looking at me solemnly.Sticking out his tongue at him, he froze for a moment, then grinned.

Ignoring him, I walked up the stairs to the second floor.The moment he turned his head, his heart was heavy by Gesang's expression.But before he had time to think so much, he had already walked quickly to the private room.Although there are many wooden tables on the second floor, it is not as lively as the lobby, especially near the private room, which is unusually quiet, as if... it was cleared out on purpose.

I shook my head, feeling inexplicably nervous.I have already finished the draft, I hope that I can speak smoothly after I go in, and I must not be left behind.If you make him angry again, let alone him, even I won’t forgive myself... After praying with my hands together, I only felt a thin layer of sweat on my palms, and I wiped two handfuls on my robe. Taking a breath, he raised his hand and pushed open the wooden door.Accompanied by a soft "squeak", my sight slowly unfolded, but I immediately froze in place...