Baima Weiyang

Since that day, I have never said anything similar to Tashi Phuncuo again.It seemed to be a very unexpected tacit understanding, and my mother didn't mention it again, and my father's attitude towards me was the same as before.It's just that from their eyes, I can no longer see the previous expectation, replaced by a touch of sadness.

In fact, I would rather they scold me, hate me, or even drive me away.Getting a certain degree of punishment is undoubtedly a reduction in psychological pressure.But they didn't, and even cared more about me than before.When some sensitive topics are mentioned inadvertently, they will always turn away quickly and quietly, and then carefully observe my expression.At that time, I was so guilty that I wanted to kneel in front of them and apologize.But I can't, because I understand too well.If I can't let go, this thing will never pass.

Obviously he can't be a bad person, but he still wants to do bad things.Perhaps this is the reason why I have suffered various debts for a long time.

"Alas—" I breathed out softly, and I was half-sitting on the low wall, with the rough and thick wall behind me, and the bright sunlight in front of my eyes.Looking up, the wind-horse prayer flags printed with the BMW sutra are swaying in the wind, stretching between the sky and the mountain.The sky is azure and blue, and the turbid color is earthy yellow, which is cut by long strips of multicolored holes.The flag tail of the flag kite seems to shake the meaning of summer more and more.

In the sixth month of the Water Horse Year in the Tibetan calendar, Tsangyang Gyatso refused to accept the monastic precepts at Tashilhunpo Monastery.When the news reached Qiongjie, Tashi Pingcuo deliberately hid it from me.Only Dhondup, who didn't know it, told me inadvertently.I was taken aback when I heard it, but after thinking about it, it must be about this time.

The bhikkhu precepts are the full precepts for male practitioners in Buddhism, also known as the great precepts. There are 250 precepts in total, which are grand and complete, which is equivalent to the coming-of-age ceremony in Buddhism.Tsangyang Gyatso is already twenty years old, and he can become an official monk after receiving the monk's ordination.But he sternly refused, even unwilling to give lectures to monks in Tashilhunpo Monastery.

"For those who become monks, the precepts should be pure and should not be influenced by the five aggregates of the secular world. The precepts are in the body, and the original mind and behavior are contrary to each other. Compared with the two, only temporarily abstaining from the precepts can safely deal with worldly affairs disputes." This is Cang The reasons for Yang Gyatso’s refusal to take the precepts, except for the fifth Dalai Lama and Diba, none of the eminent monks of the Gelug Sect present would think that it is high-sounding.This reason even made it impossible for Master □□ to refute. He only asked him not to wear common clothes, and to be cautious about recent affairs.

When I heard this from Dunzhu, I thought about it for a long time, but I still couldn't figure out the deep meaning of Tsangyang Gyatso's words.If I had never walked by his side, I would have thought that his heart was so pure that nothing could stop him.But, having been loved by him for so long, how could I not know.That warm heart is filled with boundless Dharma, all living beings in the snowy region, and me.There... I have been there, for so long.I watched the waves of its water shake with my own eyes, and slowly the waves became rough. In the end, the calm water of the pool was almost turned upside down by me...

Did he miss me?Did he expect the news to reach my ears, did he want to tell me that he wanted me to go back... Thinking about it, tears fell like broken threads, and he couldn't control himself to the point where even in front of Dhondup face, I can not stop.Fortunately, he always thought that the person I was thinking about was Ngawang Rinchen, so he persuaded me a few words with disdain in his consolation, and didn't ask any more questions.Although I don't know how he connected Diba's son with the Living Buddha's refusal to take the precepts, but this is a topic I don't want to bring up. If he doesn't ask, I naturally won't say more.

Looking at the rough plateau scenery in front of him without focus, a layer of white light appeared inexplicably in his eyes.The sticky air flowed slowly against the human face, but I felt a chill in my chest.Subconsciously, he raised his hand to cover it, but the two completely different temperatures could not fuse together.

It seems that since the day on the streets of Drepung Monastery, despite the warm sun all over my body, I often have a cold feeling in my heart.Every time it happens, it makes me feel overwhelmed.Unable to find a way to reduce it, I closed my eyelids and waited dully for my chest to warm up slowly.

There was a "click" in my ear, which seemed to be the sound of stones being crushed.I paused, looked away, and suddenly two heads protruded from the side of the low wall.Immediately, his back was pushed back in fright, and his two shoulder blades rubbed against the rough wall.Before I had time to adjust my posture, I stretched out my hands and grabbed the stone tiles under my hands that were a little hot from the sun.

Feeling inexplicable for a moment, I stared suspiciously at the two heads shaking back and forth by the low wall, "You... what are you squatting there for?!"

Seeing that they couldn't hide anymore, they stood up boldly.After a careful look, they were two young men of eighteen or nineteen years old.They are dressed in serge robes, one is clay-colored and the other is blue-gray, both of them are dark, and each has a bronze right arm exposed.It was a bit scary to look at, I swallowed dry saliva, and unconsciously retracted my left leg hanging outside the wall.

The clay-colored man seemed to have noticed my panic, and hastily stretched out his hand and raised his big felt hat.Only then did I see his face clearly, his features were simple and honest, and his complexion was swarthy.He grinned at me apologetically, showing his shiny white teeth, "Hehe, sister, don't be afraid... Brother just came to see you..."

"Look at me?!" Suddenly I was speechless, I stepped down from the low wall, and glanced at the two people outside the wall, "Why do you all come to see me? What's going on..."

Seeing me like this, the two young men were taken aback.This time it was the blue gray who spoke first, "You don't know, sister?!"

"Of course I don't know..." I waved my hands a little weakly. It's strange to say that during this period of time, there are always strange men squatting outside the low wall, looking furtively into the courtyard.As soon as he saw me coming out, he immediately stared at me with frightened eyes, which made my heart tremble.

Thinking back carefully, I haven't done anything earth-shattering since I returned to Qiongjie.Why did his son suddenly become a "celebrity"? !I wondered if the Lhasa incident had pierced the window paper, but there was no disgust in the eyes of these people.

While reassuring, it is even more puzzling.If there is something in those eyes, it probably does have two points of admiration.But I don't understand why these people flocked to Qiongjie almost overnight.Those in the nearby neighborhoods, those in the next county... no matter how far they are, they can't go to the Shannan area.But today these two look like shepherds from northern Tibet.

Thinking of this, I couldn't help panting.The two young men were taken aback by me, and they poked each other's arms, and then the green-gray man looked back at me with a disheveled face, "Sister, are you Dawa Zhuoma? That Qiongjie The number one beauty..."

"What?!" When I frowned, the two young men were startled.Seeing their pale faces, I couldn't help but coughed and eased my tone, "Who did you listen to? It's just made up..."

"Ah?" The gray man was stunned, scratched his head with his hands, but glanced at me secretly, "No, I think the rumors are true, and everyone says so..." Yue Mo said I didn't answer, he stretched out his hand and tugged at the sleeve of the clay man.The pottery man paused for a moment, and then agreed with a silly smile, "Yes, yes, I think so too, A-mei is really pretty..."

My face became hot when I heard it, and I wiped my face with my sleeve to cover up.To be honest, since I came here, no one has praised me for being beautiful except myself.To be praised so suddenly at the moment is still such a high hat as "the number one beauty in Qiongjie".There are also those who can't cope with the compliments for a while.

Probably because the people I met before were too popular, either handsome or beautiful, all of them were beautiful.Although I haven't completely denied my face, it seems that I haven't positively affirmed it either.Except for Dhondup, of course.In his eyes, my appearance is worse than the mud in the ground...

"It's his grandma's! And what kind of bastard dares to make noise at the door of my house—" Thinking, Dunzhu's anxious voice came from the room.Before I could speak, the back collar suddenly tightened, and my throat was pinched so that I almost lost my breath.After coughing twice uncomfortably, it was only then that he realized that the person had been pushed into the room.

Looking up, Dunzhu was standing in the courtyard with his back straight.The tall body blocked most of the light. Although I only saw his back, I could still feel his murderous aura at the moment. "Okay, I got a pair today, right! Let's see how I deal with you!"

The two young men were obviously shaken by his aura, and they ran towards the entrance of the village, their black boots rattling the gravel under their feet.When turning the corner, the gray man still looked at me with nostalgia, "Sister Zhuoma... I will come to see you later!"

When Dunzhu heard this, he was trembling with anger, and immediately chased him out, "Look, what are you looking at! She is ugly, and she is worth seeing!" Seeing that the two disappeared immediately, he stood at the gate At the stone intersection outside, the voice was still furious, "Let me see you next time, I will break your dog legs!!"

I sighed, although I knew that these people were not malicious, but their actions somewhat disturbed the lives of me and my family.It's just that there is a problem that really confuses me. Dhondup's reaction to this matter is far more intense than that of my client.I don't know if it's because his aesthetics has been greatly questioned, so every time he sees those people, he always rushes out of the house like being stepped on by his tail.However, if you are scared, there will still be people who risk "life-threatening" to come...

"Hmph!" Just as he was dreaming, Dunzhu had already walked in front of me, staring down at me with round eyes angrily, "You really are—"

Before he finished speaking, I quickly picked up the quarrel, "Ah... I know, I know, I'm a disaster, a disaster! Is that okay?" Dunzhu saw that I was sincere, and didn't scold me any more. , but still staring at me with good eyeballs.Looking back silently, I reached out and grabbed the soft pine wood on the door frame.Once Dunzhu swears, he will greet all the birds and animals over and over again.In order to prevent my ears from being cocooned, I can only implement the policy of "If the enemy does not move, I will not move."

After staring at each other for a while, Dunzhu suddenly leaned towards me. "Ah..." I was hit by him and my head hurt, and I staggered a few steps before barely holding onto the wall. "What are you doing!" He rubbed his forehead in dissatisfaction, and raised his gaze, only to see Dunzhu clutching his chin in pain.He paused, his half-closed eyes widened again, "What are you doing, your forehead is made of iron, so hard!"

"Hey——" I rolled my eyes and stood up straight, "Obviously you bumped into it yourself, you must have been struck by a thunderbolt on a sunny day, so come and hit me...wait!" I suddenly figured it out What, Dunzhu hurriedly rushed into the house.I grabbed him, and he was stunned for a moment. Just as he was about to stretch out his hand to pull me away, he heard a string of silver bells ringing in the courtyard... "Brother Dunzhu! I have found you!"