Baima Weiyang

Instinctively opened his mouth to inhale, but what poured into his mouth and nose was stream water with an earthy smell.I quickly held my breath, trying to scream but couldn't make a sound.Seeing more and more bubbles coming out of my mouth, I waved my arms vigorously and pushed my head out of the water.But after breathing only a little bit of air, the body suddenly sank again.

"Sister! You are crazy! Zhuomala doesn't know water, how could you push her into the water?!"

In a trance, it seemed that Mei Duo's anxious voice was heard, passing through her ears like a skin drum.Through the misty sight of the water, I saw Qu Zhen standing on the shore with a calm face, her lotus-colored robe was wet and water dripped down, "Who said I pushed it?! It was her I stumbled and fell!"

Mei Duo was so anxious that she had no choice but to say, "Okay, okay, let's not care about this! Sister, I don't know how to swim, go down and save Zhuomala!" Then she pushed and shoved Qu Zhen.But after twisting for a long time, Quzhen still looked indifferent, so Mei Duo had no choice but to rush towards the stream by herself.Unexpectedly, after walking a few steps, she was stopped by Qu Zhen, "Oh, Mei Duo! She can't die, she just jumped a few times!" Qu Zhen turned her head and looked in my direction, "Today I will Teach her a lesson, and see if she dares to pester you Brother Tashi in the future!"

"Sister, what are you talking about! I just..."

"Okay, Mei Duo! Do you think Elder Sister can't see your thoughts? If this girl didn't hang around your brother Tashi all day long, he wouldn't even look at you?! This girl is a scourge! "

"...Sister, how can you say that about Zhuomala, you...you are too cruel!"

"What are you talking about?! I didn't do all this for you!"

"Sister, I know you don't like Zhuomala, but can you save her? Just think it's for me..."

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The sound on the water became weaker and weaker, and I only felt that the scene in front of me was clear for a moment and then blurred.My hands were tightly stuck between the creek stones, and I was holding my breath hard.In fact, what Mei Duo said is not right, Dolma does not know water, but I do.Speaking of which, I have to thank the sports system of the high school entrance examination in my hometown. In order to get full marks in swimming, I spent two whole summers in the swimming pool.Although my swimming skills haven't improved much, I can hold my breath so well.

The turbulent stream around me kept washing my body, I adjusted my posture to ensure that I would not be drained by the stream, and then I slowly spit out air bubbles towards the water.It was just an accident that I followed Qu Zhen into the water, but staying underwater like this was intentional.

It has been a year and a half since the scourge, if Quzhen hadn't mentioned it today, it would have been so long that I would have almost forgotten it.That memory is like a burning blister in my heart, if I don't touch it, it will be fine, once it is punctured... There is no way to know the source of Quzhen's news.But one thing is for sure.I must not let this news reach Joan Knot.It's not that I'm afraid of being isolated, it's just that once the news spreads, it will be difficult for my parents to gain a foothold here.

While his thoughts were wandering, there was a sudden pain in his chest.I instinctively reached out to cover my chest, but my other hand slipped.He hurriedly tried to grab hold of the stream stone, but his body was slid out by the rushing stream.With my mind distracted, a large amount of stream water rushed violently into the nasal cavity and throat.I closed my eyes, and a coolness soaked through my limbs.There was a burst of dizziness in my mind, and I was so uncomfortable that I almost surfaced...

"Brother Tashi——" Mei Duo's hopeful and inexplicable voice came from the shore.Immediately afterwards, there was a "plop", and the sound pushed the water into my eardrum.When consciousness began to blur, the stream around him shook violently.His waist suddenly tightened, and he was led to swim a few steps in a daze. I got out of the water with a "crash", and as soon as the clear air entered my throat, I immediately coughed violently.He pressed heavily on his abdomen, spit out a few mouthfuls of stream water, and a smell of earth spread between his teeth and under his tongue.

Tashi Pingcuo helped me onto the shore. I tried to stabilize my body, but my legs were so weak that I was shaking.After stumbling a few times, Tashi Pingcuo reached out and grabbed my waist, allowing me to lower my body and cough violently.

"Still uncomfortable?!" The voice full of anger came, and I only felt that the hand on my waist was so strong that it seemed to strangle me.In any case, it can be considered that I have just experienced life and death, and I can't help being a little annoyed that I have to be tortured so half-death after I got my life back.But when I looked up, Tashi Pingcuo's extremely angry face came into view, but I dared to swallow the smell of earth in my mouth.

"Yeah. I almost died, and now my whole body feels uncomfortable." I said in a low voice, and glanced at Qu Zhener's face.Sure enough, she was staring at Tashi Puncuo with a pale face.It seems that I am on the right fire.Although Quzhen never said it explicitly, I could see that she had always liked Tashi Phuncuo.Teach me for Mei Duo, that's just a fabricated cover.If it weren't for that, she wouldn't be so cruel to me... Now I just need to give Tashi Pingcuo a timely hint, there shouldn't be any gossip from Quzhen's side.

"Ajiala, are you alright?" Mei Duo carefully held my arm, her expression full of apology, "I'm sorry, it's all because of Mei Duo that sister..." She paused, the second half But the sub words have not come out yet.

I held her back and grinned, "Mei Duo, it's none of your business, I accidentally fell into it myself." As soon as the words fell, Qu Zhen looked at me, and in her dark eyes, His eyes are complicated.Ignoring her eyes, I turned my head and leaned on Tashi Puncuo's shoulder.To be honest, after being deprived of oxygen for so long, the functions in his son's body seem to have been drained.

Tashi Pingcuo glanced at me twice, and then his eyes snapped to Quzhen.I was taken aback, and just about to stop him, he quickly twisted Qu Zhen's skirt.She trembled in shock, and looked at Tashi Puncuo painfully.

"You..." I stretched out my hand to grab his arm, the hot body temperature was transmitted to my palm along the tight lines, and I immediately gave up the idea of ​​pulling it back.I wanted to be a favor, but unexpectedly, I seemed to have overdone the show.If Zhaxi Pingcuo's son volcano erupts now, I'm afraid Quzhen will break the pot and fall, and then the rumors will spread all over Qiongjie...

Just as he was in some distress, Tashi Puncuo suddenly let go of his hand.Qu Zhen in front of her was in a trance, and her feet were almost numb.Mei Duo hurriedly supported her, and when she raised her eyes, there was some doubt in her eyes.

"If there is another time, I will never let you go." Zhaxi Pingcuo glanced at Quzhen indifferently, and when he turned his gaze back, he wrapped his arms around my shoulders.Before they had time to see their expressions clearly, their eyes were separated.I simply stopped looking at it, and was only led back by him.

The robe on his body was dripping with drops of water, and his steps were pulled a little heavy.The wet Songba shoes stepped on the dry gravel road, making a "ziliuziliu" sound.After walking slowly for a while, Tashi Puncuo suddenly hugged me up.I'm still dizzy after being underwater for so long.I didn't have the strength to talk anymore, I closed my eyelids slightly, and leaned quietly on his chest.

When Tashi Puncuo walked into the courtyard, Grandma was startled.It can be seen that I looked uncomfortable, so I didn't ask any more questions, I just hurried back to the back room to boil hot water.After being carried up to the second floor, Tashi Puncuo kicked open the door of my room and placed me on a short stool.He stretched out his hand and pulled the towel, and then took a clean set of robes from the low cabinet and handed them to me, "Take this to dry off first, and replace the wet robes." After speaking, he turned his back.

Although I felt a little awkward, but since Zhaxi Pingcuo's anger still persisted, I had to wipe it off quickly, changed into my robe, and got into the bed.Hearing that I hadn't moved, Tashi Phuncuo turned around.He walked to the bed, bent down to pick up the towel, and then reached out and tore off the hair tie from my braid.The wet curly long hair didn't come loose, Tashi Pingcuo lowered his body and wiped it for me.

I stared blankly at his chest, feeling the movement from the top of my head, and my thoughts froze for a moment.A layer of mist gradually formed in the fundus of my eyes, fearing that the memories would ripple, I hurriedly reached out and rubbed my eyelids.I didn't reach out to comb my hair with my fingertips until the movement of the top of my head stopped.

Seeing Tashi Pingcuo sitting on the short stool, I couldn't help pushing away the pulu blanket, and wanted to stand up, "Hurry up and change into your robe, don't catch a cold..." But before I finished speaking, my body was covered with cold. He pushed back, "I know..."

Retracting into the pulu blanket, I put my arms around my legs, and then I felt warmer.I raised my eyes to meet Tashi Pingcuo's gaze, hesitated for a while, and then said, "Quzhen...she knows about my stay in Lhasa."

Tashi paused, and slowly wrapped his hot palms around mine, "I'll take care of it."

"Hmm..." I couldn't help feeling warm in my heart when I heard it, and my palm was wrapped in a hot and humid breath, like a delicate rope, entangled in Jiuyu's heart.Several faces alternately changed in my mind, Abba's, Grandma's, Mei Duo's, and even Quzhen's...Unconsciously, I shook my backhand, and I looked at him fixedly, "Tashi Pingcuo... can you please?" Trying to accept others?"

He didn't speak, and rolled up his wet sleeves an inch, but slowly pulled his hands away, "No." The indifferent voice pierced my eardrums, and just as I was about to speak, Tashi Pingcuo pressed down hard. my shoulders.The bright black eyes stared at me like fire, and the huge force was transmitted to my body along the phalanx, and the pain seemed to penetrate into the internal organs.

"Dawa Zhuolma, in this life, I only like you." The low voice rang beside my ears, and it was as sweet as a rhythm stone.I was stunned when I heard it, and my eyes seemed to pass through the handsome face in front of me... "Bang Dang!" There was a crisp sound outside the door, and I stopped breathing in shock. When I recovered, I quickly stretched out my hand Tashi Puncuo was pushed away.I ran out staggeringly with bare feet, and when I lifted the door curtain, my grandmother's pale face came into my sight.

Hot boiling water spilled all over the floor, and the copper basin was still shaking and humming on the terrazzo floor.I took Grandma's hand and knelt down with a "boom".My knees hurt for a while, and the steaming water seeped into my trousers, burning my skin.

"Grandma, I'm sorry..." I raised my head and looked straight at Grandma's face. On my dark skin, the wrinkles built up over the years were deeper than ever.Under the crescent-shaped eyebrows, there was water in the brown eyes.My eyes felt hot when I saw it, and hot tears welled up from my eyelids...

"It's all my fault, but I... I really can't help it, Mom, I'm sorry, I can't do it, I never... never wanted to hurt him..." After choking up a series of words, his eyes were blurred Tears flooded, and I felt my palms being tightly clenched.Grandma slowly lowered her body, wrapping her thin arms around me, "Good boy, why is Grandma willing to blame you? Tashi is Grandma's son, and you are Grandma's heart."

I was stunned, and hugged her shoulder with my backhand, but tears flowed more and more on my face, "Grandma..." Thousands of words were stuck in my throat, but I couldn't say anything other than this address.

Ever since I traveled to this time and space inexplicably, Grandma was the first person who made me feel warm.But this is not really my home, and I have been subconsciously resisting it.It wasn't until my parents forgave my "ridiculous behavior" in Lhasa that I blended in without any grievances.But now, Grandma is tolerant again, what should I give in return... I have nothing left, numb like a walking dead...

"Good boy, don't cry, you don't like to cry when you were young, but when you grow up, you will become weaker..." Grandma reached out to wipe the tears from my face, and then lifted the Bangdian on her waist to wipe it for me clean.I sniffed hard, commanding myself to hold back my tears.He grinned at the corner of his mouth to his mother, perhaps because he smiled too badly, but his bright brown eyes suppressed a smile, "Get up quickly, there is water dripping on the ground, don't catch the cold anymore."

Grandma reached out to help me, I quickly helped her up, and heard her say, "Look at me... this water was overturned as soon as it was boiled, I will bring some more." He picked up the copper basin on the terrazzo floor.Grandma turned her head to look at Tashi Pingcuo beside the curtain, paused for a moment, her eyes became moist again, "Tashi, hurry up and change into your robe."

"Hmm..." Tashi Pingcuo nodded lightly, and then walked to his room.Watching Grandma's back disappear at the entrance of the alder wormwood stairs, I reached out and rubbed my dry cheeks for a while, and closed my eyes, a tingling pain flowed into my heart along the eyelids.I have never been very clear about what Dawa Dolma was like before.But deep down, I thought I knew enough about myself.But in fact, what I saw was not me at all...

Although I have never positioned myself as a good person, at least I feel that I have no evil intentions.But now, I realize... In addition to being selfish, I also have a heart of stone.I gave up Cangyang Gyatso, but I still couldn't give up on love.So the obsession in my heart became the reason for me to hurt Tashi Puncuo.

What qualifications do I have to persuade him to accept other people, I am even more unable to let go than him... Nothing in this world is easy to say, but it really has to be spread on my own head, that feeling of chest pain, who Can't empathize either.And all of this comes from our choices.It's like an unsolvable shackle, once fastened, you can never escape...