After the white moonlight cuts the black

Yan Hui's "Rongchun 3" is half finished, and he gradually becomes talkative, and often gets stuck in a circle and can't get out.

Some people don't like to be reasonable as they grow older, and prefer direct imperative language.

Because some hurdles have to fall, some twists and turns must be overcome, and the bitterness has to jump on the tongue, so that you can know how uncomfortable it is.

"So move your heart and patience, and gain what you can't."

The two of them went out and heard the article recited by the students on the subway.

This is the first time they pay attention to the meaning of the month.

The intense study in the first half of the year was all about accumulating strength for an exam, including the seventh day of junior high school and one after another.

The third year of high school will send another group of students away.

They now have difficulties of their own age.

And even if I live another 30 years, I may not be able to fully understand the meaning of this sentence.

The meaning of the article cannot be given a full definition. Obtaining happiness, experiencing sadness, and gaining wisdom are all of value regardless of depth.

And if it can be remembered at a difficult moment, even if it is the slightest pillar of strength, then there is no need to care too much about whether it is useful or not.

After all, if judged by absolute "usefulness", the world would suddenly be empty.

Yan Hui was chewing deeply about the past, and the doctor said that if he could bear it, it would be fine to remember.

The source of the pain is mixed with a lot of regret and self-blame, which also reflects the present in reverse.

He will find that he does not need to be fully responsible for some mistakes, and learning from the past is a way to temper his mind.

Meng Huaiming felt that this doctor was not very reliable, but only they knew the result of the conversation.

Of course, the doctor also suggested to Meng Huaiming, who is a family member, not to try to completely turn the past.

It has happened, it has existed, and it will not become false just because of a few words, it is self-deception, of course, sometimes such deception is needed, you can choose to face it squarely, or it is a way out.

Whether it is Yanhui or Meng Huaiming, they all need to try a step.

Meng Huaiming no longer thinks about reunion after a broken mirror.

How can a broken mirror be so intact, only pieces can be glued together so as not to cut the skin of the two of them.

What is examined is no longer appearance.

He knows that some people should not talk about the past when getting along, just tell them to "look forward".

The other kind needs to look back, even if the wind and rain are turbulent, it is still the clouds left in the sky in the past, coming out wet all over, it is better than blindly persuading him to move forward.

This relationship really cannot be explained clearly in a few words, and there are countless mistakes and mistakes in it. Instead of muddling along, it is better to speak openly.

During the long talk that lasted more than three hours, both parties turned off the work at hand, bought appetizers, and drank two rows of beer.

Yan Hui cried terribly at the end, Meng Huaiming didn't remember whether he cried or not, but the man didn't flick his tears lightly, but they didn't reach the sad point, so it was nothing serious.

Strength belongs to oneself, and it should not be an intention to impose on others. Crying and cowardice are not linked together, and collapse and loss of control are not always related.

— but not all mistakes are forgiven.

The accounts of Yan Hui and Yan Ran cannot be easily let go.

Meng Huaiming has always known the horror of the Butterfly Effect, but he never imagined it could reach this point.

It's not that he can't think in another way. Maybe Yan Hui's evaluation of An An's acting skills was not absolutely objective at that time, but if he can really have a clear conscience, he won't rely on all kinds of crooked ways.

This circle is fighting for resources, or there are too many filth, and the group that may survive to the end and kill the front line must be determined by many factors.

Opportunity is necessary, and it is okay to understand that it is okay to take a slanted edge. However, seeking fame and fortune should not be too harmful.

The evidence Yan Hui could find was not much, and the more restrictive reason was the limitation of his connections.

And the important clue he held was the physical characteristics of those who broke through the door.

This account is extremely difficult to calculate, and the lack of evidence collection makes it difficult to file a case. As a star who can tolerate stains.

As long as they can maintain the recognition of their names and appearances in the eyes of the audience, there is a possibility of resurgence.

Even if they have committed the unforgivable crime, even if too many heroes have given their lives to catch the evil they condone.

Meng Huaiming thought that if a mistake cannot negate a complete person, then it can also judge a part of him.

At least the label of "public figure" qualification can be vetoed.

Meng Huaiming can contact someone to directly hide An An in the snow. He is not afraid that An An is related to the Qin family, but the difficulty is that if the Qin family supports him, he will increase his popularity because of this incident.

Yan Hui only has one chance.

He also couldn't afford to pay the price so many times. This is undoubtedly uncovering the scars. If it is not handled properly, it will become a dog-eat-dog scene.

They went to see Yanran, and the doctor said that if the condition can be stabilized, Yanran can consider leaving the hospital at the end of the summer.

She was no longer able to testify, and Yan Hui did not find her letter.

It is hard to know whether the letter stored in Yan Hui's mind exists or not.

"sister."

Yan Hui and Yan Ran are sitting side by side, their appearances are so similar, Yan Hui is aged by time, and Yan Ran is pale due to illness.

As soon as the afternoon sun shone, Meng Huaiming seemed to see a pair of young siblings sitting on a bench in the garden.

The hourglass of the years flows back, such a good weather, it seems that the white paper can be restored to its original state after being wrinkled.

But the folds that were tightly grasped are so shocking.

"When you were young, you said that we should not quarrel all the time. If we quarreled, we should leave a letter to each other. If we could write many unspeakable things on paper and put them on the tip of a pen, we would be able to speak."

Yan Hui took Yan Ran's hand and closed her eyes, "Sister, now I understand the 'I'm sorry' you asked him to convey to me... I won't be obsessed with that letter anymore, just this sentence, and I'll go back, sister."

Standing behind them, Meng Huaiming could feel that Yan Hui still had a lot to say. If this knife was indeed true, it would not be a hurdle that could be healed in a short while, and the current Yan Ran could not give it to them. Answer.

Is the answer really that important?

It is so important.

It doesn't have to be a request.

Meng Huaiming was carrying two large bags of reusable bags, walking in the evening breeze, the clouds gradually became rich and dark, and when he looked up, he could see a thin moon hanging in the sky.

Yan Hui squinted his eyes for a moment, Meng Huaiming was half a step behind him, waiting for Yan Hui to stop, but he didn't stop in the end, but slowed down his pace.

"Have you ever felt that everything in the world is black and white?"

Yan Hui held a roll of paper in one hand, and a stack of A4 manuscript paper in the other, as the sun in the sky sank to the east, and the moonlight became brighter and brighter.

Meng Huaiming nodded, "Yes, at that time I watched a few heroic movies, good and evil were clearly distinguished, the bad ones were bound to lose, and the good ones won in the end."

"Later, the characterization has changed, and the round characters have been put on the stage. The bad guys also have their own difficulties, and the actions of the good guys may not be completely upright."

The moonlight in Meng Huaiming's eyes was as clear as water, "Afterwards, it's even more difficult to distinguish."

"When I was in adolescence, my mind was very messy. There was a lot of information refreshing my three views every day. My old man didn't care about it. My brother was tortured by the old man's tasks every day. I'm not like Chu Qi who can live alone. I like to be lively, and I have made a lot of friends, and I have never been able to calm down. I pursue excitement, seek happiness, and now I think I am really lucky to be able to do so.”

"The reason why I like Su Yaowen is not a whim."

This is the first time they have talked about each other's past.

Yan Hui laughed: "Talking about ex-boyfriends, isn't it really a challenge?"

"Maybe." Meng Huaiming nodded, "More than one person told me that he wasn't worth it, but I didn't listen to any of them. I sent a message and heard that Su Ye and Huang Tiantian were getting married, so they came here to comfort me."

"Actually, Su Ye was not completely innocent when he was bullied in class. He received money to cheat people, sued others, and hated the rich for no reason. I didn't mean to discredit him deliberately. These may be true or false. , It was only in the end that I realized that he just showed his side to me and looked very strong."

"But at that time, he was indeed a wish of mine. I thought there was still a place to think about it. I was very contradictory and wanted to find an exit from entertainment to death. In fact, to tell you this way, change someone, Everyone will think that I am just whitewashing, so I can't have ideals and ambitions at that time, so I have to act like this kind of fake worry?"

Yan Hui said: "Because even if you know everything, you can't take a single step."

He looked at the silver moon again, "When we speak the truth, it's always easy. In fact, we can't give a clear method. What can really help is to become the strength for them to find their own way out, and what' you want? If you have a goal''you have to work hard'''you can't waste your time', if you don't be understood, it's all empty talk."

He talked about his past, "You are right, sometimes I think too highly of myself, but not all moments can be measured by the same standard, after all, it is difficult for people to share, emotions are not what we say You can overcome it by saying it, the reason why it is a reason is because it can be accepted, and the reason that cannot be accepted is nagging.”

"The difference between life and writing is that writing is like casting a net. As long as you accept someone, you have fulfilled your mission. When you live your life, don't try to persuade everyone, because the most needed thing is to persuade Subdue yourself."

"Only if you can do it yourself, you have the basic qualifications, and only if you can do it yourself, can you understand more. Those who can't do it, we are destined to be unable to force them. Based on the differences in the three views, we once let I am in great pain, and now let me know that there are too many ways to not speculate, and if the three views are not in harmony, the only way is to keep a distance and deal with it."

"And there is only one person who really wants to deal with it for a lifetime."

Meng Huaiming saw two long shadows under the light, and the radiant lights were burning in the city day after day.

"I always look for someone who can be my sustenance. Now I find that expecting too much from others is indirectly reducing my burden, as if I don't make any changes, as long as the other person changes for me, it will become what I want. The appearance of wanting, but this in itself is selfish and evasive."

"That's it."

Yan Hui stood on tiptoe, and the edge of the shadow was covered with a halo, "I want to change you through various methods, although my starting method is to change myself, but is there anyone who knows better than myself? ? Changing yourself is just a buffer, what I really want to tamper with is you."

"But that's not advisable."

There are men and women coming and going on the street, this vivid and different night.

"What is the starting point of love?"

Meng Huaiming asked casually, he didn't expect to get an answer, because the answer was never conclusive.

Is it a poor-quality labor contract?Or is it an equivalent exchange that looks more upscale?Or is it a step forward, an opportunity for family affection, a promise to spend a lifetime together?

"Love sees me through you, reflects you through me."

Meng Huaiming was taken aback.

Yan Hui turned sideways, "The model I'm talking about is limited to you and me."

His eyelashes fluttered a few times quickly, and he seemed very nervous.

Lights flow in this bustling city.

"I haven't asked you all this time, will you be disappointed by me now?"

He cast his eyes towards the end of the busy traffic, making his vision slightly blurred, and the light melted together. "

"I once arrogantly thought that I could master love, and I made many mistakes because I boasted that I was morally complete. During that time, I thought more than once, if I didn't comment on An An's acting skills, if I hadn't acquiesced in Zhao Hao's The verification method for changing actors."

"If I could have discovered Yanran's strangeness earlier, everything would have been different. Why am I, what qualifications do I have, why am I so cheap, why can't I be cautious in my words and deeds, and why don't I play my role well?"

"I think about these things every day. If I don't have something, I will be a lot better."

Meng Huaiming didn't hear Yan Hui's sigh.

Couples walking by walked by, shedding a string of laughter, and fathers with children walked by, leaving a string of crying.

"Later, I figured out that my real pain didn't come from these ifs. I just asked myself that I didn't lie, didn't make a mistake, and didn't do anything to frame others, but why did I still end up like this?"

"But did I really make no mistake?"

Yan Hui murmured, then raised her eyes to look at Meng Huaiming: "I know now that everyone will find many reasons for themselves, just like we fabricate painful pasts and reasons for what we have to do for flat characters, but this is not the case. Rep, the error is average."

"At least An'an's fault is unforgivable." Meng Huaiming was categorical.

"Yes." Yan Hui approved him, "What I need to do is to discover my blind spots, and there will always be people who can't justify intentionally harming others no matter how serious they are."

Meng Huaiming returned the topic to Yan Hui's reply: "You see this from me?"

Yan Hui looked back from the melting lights.

"Because of your change."

At that moment, Meng Huaiming suddenly felt Night Breeze hitting his chest in a wild manner.

In this bright night light, he understood the meaning of his rebirth.

He is not trying to save everything, and what he has the ability to influence is only this limited but important scope.

—He is changing himself.

Chu Qi got close to him and let them know Li Jun. In times of crisis, Chu Qi called his uncle.

Yanhui's past experience and his truth surfaced because of his approaching again and again.

"I just wanted to ask you..."

Yan Hui solemnly looked into his eyes, "This was also my initial question, but now it's even more serious. I want to ask you, are you still willing to accept a person who has a flawed character, made mistakes, was cowardly, compromised, or even gave up, who was arrogant?" The arrogant and unbearable Yanhui?"

Are you willing to accept this kind of you and me?

Meng Huaiming smiled.

——This is the real butterfly flapping its wings.