if i could love you

The first thing Jiaoer did when he opened his eyes in the morning was to turn on his mobile phone to check the weather forecast. Today, Nancheng is still in high temperature warning.She casually snapped a bright red picture with 40°C written on it.She posted this picture to her circle of friends with the text "Today's Nancheng", and then blocked the family column.

After finishing the recording all morning, Jiao Erchao's assistant hurriedly asked for the mobile phone.She found her circle of friends news, read the comments from top to bottom twice, but couldn't find the comment she wanted.After quitting the circle of friends, there is still no movement in the top chat column.Jiao Er lost the phone and returned it to the assistant.

After a period of rest in the afternoon, the sun at five o'clock is no longer so vicious.Nancheng finally passed the most difficult time of the day.Jiaoer and his group followed the film crew to the pier in Nancheng, ready to go out to sea with the boat.

The cool breeze blew the broken hair on Jiaoer's forehead. After so many days, Jiaoer was able to take a good look at this southern city today.The sun fell on the surface of the sea in a waning way, and the whole sea shone with sparkling golden light.There are a few seagulls strolling by the seaside, bringing a bit of laziness to the summer in Nancheng.The summer in this small town in the south is very beautiful, and Jiaoer really wants to share it with another person.Thinking of this, her heart tightened again.

Before boarding the boat, Liang Jia also jokingly said, "If there is a strong wind blowing on the sea, I will suffer!"

Everyone laughed after hearing this, but no one took it seriously.How did I know that Liang Jia really hit the nail on the head.

In the evening, a sudden wind blew up at sea.The smooth surface of the mirror-like sea was no longer calm, and rolled up one after another.The sea water became turbid, and it staggered towards the hull.The ship also shook violently, floating alone in the sea.If a big wave hits at this time, the whole ship may be destroyed.

"Liang Jia, you crow's mouth is so clever!" Jiang Tu held onto a pole on the boat tightly, his face pale.

Liang Jia over there was also feeling uncomfortable, and tightly covered her mouth, as if she was about to spit it out in a second.It took him a long time before he said, "I didn't expect myself to be so accurate."

Jiaoer's thin body was shaking violently with the hull, as if she was about to be thrown out.The mind is spinning, but the stomach is turning upside down, which is much more uncomfortable than heatstroke.Jiaoer gritted her teeth fiercely, feeling that death was nothing more than that.

Out of the corner of her eye, she glanced at Yu Fuman next to her, her eyes were tightly closed, her face was pale, her hands were tightly clutching a pole next to her, she was so uncomfortable that she couldn't speak a word.

This kind of bad weather was probably unexpected by the program crew, and the filming and the like might not be able to continue.The ship returned with difficulty on the turbulent sea.

When they got back to the shore, Jiaoer's legs were already weak, and Liang Jia almost helped him get off the boat; on the other side, Jiang Tu also helped Yu Fuman to get off the boat.

Simon and his assistant had been waiting for a long time, and when they saw the pale-faced Jiao Er, they rushed over immediately.

"How is it? Are you okay?" Simon asked with concern, holding Jiao'er's arm.

Jiaoer nodded, not even having the energy to speak.Put all the weight of your body on Simon.

"Today is our director's team's mistake, which caused everyone to suffer. I'm really sorry." Several directors who followed the filming apologized to the artist team one by one, and their voices sounded weak.

Fortunately, the four artists are not difficult to deal with, and they also know that things like the weather are unpredictable.Everyone waved their hands and let it go.

"I almost won't see my wife and children!" Jiang Tuhou said in fear.

"Brother Tu, you are married anyway! I don't even have a girlfriend!" Liang Jia spoke from the side.

These two people are still in the mood to joke now!

Jiaoer shook his head helplessly, and turned his head to ask Yu Fuman how he was.But he saw her leaning weakly on the shoulder of a tall woman.

Fuman Yu only brought one assistant to record this time, and that assistant is standing by the side right now.

"Ruan Ning, why are you here?" Yu Fuman even spoke in a much weaker voice.

"Nancheng has been so hot these days, I can't trust you. You still won't let me come," the tall woman named Ruan Ning touched Yu Fuman's face distressedly while speaking, "Look at how hung you are this time." ah!"

Yu Fuman lowered his eyes and smiled softly, without speaking.

Jiaoer watched the two of them in a daze, until Simon coughed twice.She took her gaze back belatedly.

After returning to the hotel, Jiao Er's dizziness still persisted.She leaned weakly on the bed, staring at the ceiling unfocused.

"When you were at sea, Li Li called you. It might be something, do you want to call her back?" Simon handed her the phone.

Jiaoer took the phone, but didn't make any next move, just stared at Simon blankly.

"Okay, I see. Can't I go out?" Simon walked out of Jiao'er's bedroom while talking.

"Hey."

"Hey."

"Where are you in Nancheng?"

"Yes."

"It's hot in there, isn't it?"

"Yes."

"I, I saw your circle of friends, you pay attention to sun protection, don't suffer from heat stroke."

"Ok, I know."

"Also, that, I'm back home."

"Ah."

"..."

"Anything else?"

"Well, it's nothing. I just want to tell you that a director wants to ask me to make a movie. I think the script is good and I want to give it a try."

"Well. Come on."

"..."

"..."

Jiao Er held the phone, listening to Li Li's breathing over there, felt a sense of powerlessness all over her body.Obviously there are a lot of things I want to say to her, I want to tell her how hot Nancheng is, I want to tell her that I fainted because of heat stroke a few days ago, I want to tell her that I almost died at sea just now, I will never see her again, I want to tell her There is a senior's girlfriend who came to see the senior, and they are very sweet.But these words were like a block in his heart, Jiao Er only felt depressed, but unable to express it.

"If it's okay, I'll hang up first. You should have a good rest!"

Li Li hung up the phone first.

Jiaoer held the phone in a daze, and heard the sound of "beep beep", but still did not take the phone from his ear.She didn't know what happened to herself, what happened to her and Li Li.She was so insecure, she felt that Li Li was like a gust of wind, unable to hold her in her hand.

"Why haven't you gone to rest yet?" Jiao'er felt thirsty and came out to pour himself a glass of water.Only to find that Simon was still in her room.

"Aren't you worried about you?" Simon answered her words, fingers still tapping on the computer keyboard.It appears to be working.

"Have work to do?" Jiaoer sat beside Simon holding a water glass.

"Well. The company is a little urgent." Simon replied.

Jiaoer saw that the blue color in Simon's eyes was no lighter than his own, and said distressedly, "Simon, why don't you just go back! I just have Sister Yang on my side."

Simon replied without raising his head, "The recording will be over in a few days, I will accompany you! Besides, I don't worry if I leave!"

Jiaoer put the water glass on the coffee table, looked out the window blankly and said, "Simon, am I being too willful?"

After hearing this, Simon put down his busy work and asked, "Why are you asking that again?"

Jiaoer rubbed her fingers, and said disappointedly, "At the beginning, you and your uncle advised me not to accept this program. I decided to accept it, but now it has made everyone so hard."

"Jiaoer, it's my job and Xiao Yang's job to stay with you and take care of you. We can give suggestions on what artists choose and what to do, but we have no right to intervene. No matter how hard or tiring it is, it is our responsibility and obligation. Do you understand? ?So whatever you do, we will support you!" Simon said softly.

Jiao Er shouted the name of "Simon", her eyes were red, and she couldn't say anything.When people are physically uncomfortable, their hearts are also very fragile.A simple reassurance may break through the psychological defenses.

Seeing this, Simon quickly dropped the computer, leaned forward and asked, "What's wrong?"

Jiao Er shook his head, did not speak, tears almost came out of his eyes.

Seeing that Jiaoer still didn't speak, Simon guessed something in his heart, "Did you quarrel with her?"

Jiao Er sniffed and denied, "No."

Simon sighed and said, "Jiaoer, this road is really difficult. I am indeed on your side, but I really can't bear to see you wronged. Do you know?"

"You also saw Yu Fuman. Do you know how popular she was when she was young? Even your sister Xiao Lin wanted to give her a three-pointer. But now, she hasn't even won an actress. In terms of appearance and strength, how can she Not bad at all. But why did it come to this point?"

Jiaoer shook his head and said, "I don't know."

Simon continued with a wry smile, "When Yu Fuman was young, her appearance and acting skills were top-notch among the actresses of that generation. In addition, she came from a major, so many big directors asked her to play the heroine by name. At that time, which actress in the circle didn't envy her? But who knows what happened later? She actually fell in love with the same sex, and even fell in love with her."

When Simon said this, he took a meaningful look at Jiao Er before continuing, "It's nothing if this kind of thing spreads in a small area in the circle. But if it is exposed, her acting career will be over. She also What courage! In order to protect my love, I am willing to give up my bright future to act in niche movies and dramas."

"This circle is like this. If you leave, you will naturally be replaced by others. It won't take long for the public to forget about you."

Jiaoer didn't know that there was such a story behind Yu Fuman, she was speechless for a moment.It took a long time before she said, "Is the woman who picked her up at the pier before her girlfriend?"

"It should be. I just heard about it." Simon replied.

"Jiaoer, you have to know that all choices come with a price. This world is not as simple as you think." These are the last words Simon said to Jiaoer before leaving this night.

It was late at night, and Jiaoer was still sitting quietly on the sofa.She only left a small lamp for lighting, and the warm yellow light slowly flows in the space, bringing a sense of warmth to the room.It was pitch black outside the window, not even a single star.The clock in the room was ticking, and the time passed quietly with the rotation of the hour and minute hands.In addition to the sound of the clock turning, this room can only hear the beating of Jiaoer's heart, beating again and again.

Jiaoer remembered that when she was lying in Li Li's arms, she heard Li Li's heartbeat so clearly.She didn't know how far she and Li Li would go.It turned out that she really thought of everything too simply.Even if she is willing to give up, what about Li Li?Her acting career has just begun.

Even now the two of them can give up without complaint or regret.What about the future?In the face of the ordinary life, all the passion will turn into a phantom.Maybe at a certain moment in the dead of night, all the loneliness and unwillingness will come to my heart.When the relationship is tired, maybe this will be the dagger that the two stab each other's chest.When Jiaoer thought of this, her heart suddenly ached.It was as if there was really a sharp dagger stuck in his chest.

The adult world may be so cruel.All the things you want don't come for free, you always have to exchange your treasures.As for whether it is worth it, no one knows before the exchange.Maybe what you get is gold, maybe what you get is a blade of grass.It was a bet.

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