if i could love you

The cold light of the mobile phone in the dark night cannot reflect the expression on Jiaoer's face.She stared blankly at the message from Li Li on the phone screen.

"I think we should really calm down for a while. It just so happens that I'm going abroad to see my friends these few days, let's all think about it!"

It was so quiet at night that not even a cicada could be heard.Jiao'er curled up into a ball on the bed, the sleepiness that just hit her disappeared instantly.The corners of her mouth were tightly pursed into a straight line, and it took a long time before she replied to Li Li, "Okay. I happen to be going out to film a variety show tomorrow, so let's not contact each other during this time."

The love in girlhood is as pure as a glass of water, not out of fame or profit.It all comes down to a hormonal rush.But with such a physical impulse, how far can love go?No one knows.It's not that when you were fighting with me, you didn't think about the eternity, and you wished that the world would die at this moment to show your sincerity; but when the sword is on the verge of breaking out, you will also act recklessly with your heart, and never care about the feelings of the other party.At that time, no one knew how to love each other well, and only after going round and round with Qian Fan did they understand how precious each other was.

After the summer vacation, Jiaoer only rested at home for a week before going to other places to record variety shows.Since she is a resident guest of this variety show, she has to record two consecutive episodes before returning to Pingcheng.

Before Jiao Er accepted this variety show, Wen Xiyang suggested her not to accept it.A program that only plays humanistic feelings without any gimmicks will not be popular in this era of entertainment to death.But Wen Jiaoer was deeply attracted by the original intention of this show.The design of this program called "Passing By" is to allow these artists and guests to walk across the border of the motherland, and to record the beautiful natural scenery and the stories of ordinary people through the eyes of the artists.It is not so much a variety show as it is a documentary.

Jiao Er likes the design of this program very much. She can feel the real world through her own eyes and heart.Even if it's thankless, she doesn't want to be what others call a "superficial girl who grew up in Vanity Fair".

"Isn't it good to be at home during this time? Even President Wen said to give you a vacation!" Simon couldn't help asking.She feels that her little star has become more and more stubborn recently, and she doesn't listen to anyone's words.

"We're on our way to the airport, isn't it a bit late for you to tell me this now?" Jiaoer replied with a smile.

"I think you've become more and more strange recently!" Simon leaned his head on the back of the chair and closed his eyes to rest.

"Actually, do you think I'm getting disobedient?!" Jiao Er looked out the window with his chin in his hands, and the speeding vehicles flashed past through the glass.

Simon opened his eyes when he heard this, and there was an inexplicable smile on the corner of his mouth, "Not only is he disobedient, but he is also sharp-tongued. It can be seen that a teacher has taught him!"

Jiao Er unnaturally tucked her broken hair behind her ears, and then said, "I am self-taught without a teacher."

Simon snorted with a smile and stopped talking.

Jiao Er was still looking at the speeding traffic outside the window, and her thoughts went to nowhere.

As soon as we arrived at the airport, according to the program flow, there were already cameras following the filming.Jiaoer was the last one to arrive at the airport, and there were three artists who recorded the show together.Liang Jia, who claims to be a literary and artistic young man who doesn't do well in filming; probably true, in his twenties is when his career is on the rise, he has good looks and strength, but he doesn't take on a few films all year round, and runs around the world.Jiang Tu, a well-recognized capable actor in the industry, is known as the "Golden Supporting Actor" and is low-key. This is also his first variety show.The last one is Yu Fuman, an actress of the same generation as Xiao Lin, who was also one of the hottest female stars when she was young; for some reason, she later gave up her high popularity and only made niche literary films all the year round.After all, Jiao Er is the only one responsible for the ratings here.

After Jiaoer greeted each other one by one, she obediently stood in her place.

The first stop of "Passing By" is Nancheng. If you look for it on the map, it is probably in the southeast corner.

As soon as Jiaoer and the others got out of the airport, they felt the oncoming heat wave, and the bright sunlight made people's eyes hurt.The director team urged the guests to get on the prepared bus as soon as possible.

"It's really hot here!" Jiang Tu said as he closed the blue glass curtain of the car.

"I heard it's 42 degrees in Nancheng today! We've really caught up!" Liang Jia could hear the vague excitement in his words.

"Teacher Liang looks very happy!" A director of the director team teased.

Liang Jia smiled and said nothing.

On the contrary, Jiang Tu slumped in his seat and said, "Young people have good physical strength and are not afraid of anything!"

The bus started in a short while, and the camera recorded the whole process.Liang Jia and Jiang Tu chatted back and forth one sentence after another, Jiao Er occasionally made a conversation, and Yu Fuman hardly spoke.

When the filming was halfway through, the director finally couldn't bear it anymore, "Teacher Yu, please say a few words too!"

Jiang Tu responded immediately after hearing this, "Fu Man, have you just finished filming a movie recently?"

"Yeah. It's not long after the filming." Yu Fuman nodded and said, with little expression on her face.

"Brother Tu, did you know Teacher Yu before?" Liang Jia asked curiously.

"When we were young, we filmed together. She played the heroine, and I played the gangster who molested the heroine!" Jiang Tu replied with a smile.

Jiang Tu's words made everyone present laugh out loud.

Even Yu Fuman couldn't help laughing, "Don't tell me, I remember you always acted as a gangster back then. They all called you a professional gangster."

"My brother Tu looks so decent, how can he be a rogue professional?" Liang Jia patted Jiang Tu on the shoulder while speaking.

There was laughter again in the car.Because of this, Jiao Er felt a lot more relaxed.

However, when it came to the official shooting later, everyone never laughed so happily.Although Jiaoer was already mentally prepared, the hardships during the filming were still beyond her imagination.

Today is Jiaoer's tenth day in Nancheng.She glanced at the weather forecast before going out, and Nancheng was still under high temperature warning.She patted her face vigorously to cheer herself up.In order to take a beautiful night scene last night, she almost stayed up all night.I didn't return to the hotel until early in the morning, but I had to catch up with the schedule before I slept for a few hours.

"You're clearly here to participate in the Metamorphosis!" Simon said distressedly, looking at Jiao Er's thick dark circles.

Just as Jiao Er was about to speak, a sudden dizziness came over her.She quickly grabbed Simon's arm tightly to prevent herself from fainting.

Seeing this, Simon was startled, and immediately supported Jiaoer and said, "Jiaoer, what's wrong with you?"

Jiao Er buried her head in silence, and she let go of Simon's arm until the dizziness passed, and said, "It seems to be a little hypoglycemia, it should be nothing serious."

"Are you okay?" Simon asked with concern.

Jiaoer smiled and said, "Even if I have something to do, I have to record it! I can't show the pigeons of the program group!"

"You!" Simon shook his head and sighed again, "Drink a bottle of Zhengxianghuo soda first, it's so hot outside. You're probably suffering from heat stroke."

When Jiaoer thought of the pungent taste of Huoxiang Zhengqi Water, his stomach felt sick.She quickly waved her hand and said, "Farewell, goodbye. I'm fine."

"You kid..."

"The program team is still waiting, let's go!" Jiao Er interrupted Simon's words and walked forward.

Arriving at the recording location, Jiaoer saw that the three senior artists were all well-dressed.None of the straw hats, headscarves, and sunglasses were left behind.It doesn't feel out of place for Yu Fuman to wear a flowered scarf. Liang Jia and Jiang Tu are also wrapped in this way, and they both wear rustic straw hats on their heads. It's really ridiculous.

"Brother Tu, Brother Jia..." Before Jiaoer could finish speaking, she laughed out loud.After getting along with each other for these few days, Jiao Er became familiar with them.

"Jiao'er, stop laughing. You have a part too." Liang Jia was speaking, and threw the straw hat and flowered scarf to Jiao'er.

"Put it on quickly, don't get sunburned!" Jiang Tu also said beside him.

"Okay." Jiao Er obediently agreed, and then covered her face tightly with a flower scarf, and put on a straw hat.

"Today we..." The staff talked about the flow of today's show in front.

Nancheng is really hot, even the air seems to have little sparks in it.Jiao'er looked up at the bright sun in the sky, and the dizziness returned.The camera and the staff in front of him gradually blurred into a white shadow, and then Jiaoer's eyes were completely dark, so he didn't know anything.

When she woke up again, Jiaoer was already lying on the hotel bed.

"You're awake. Do you want to eat?" Simon sat on the edge of the bed and asked immediately when Jiaoer opened his eyes.

Jiaoer shook his head, and said weakly, "My stomach is so sick, I don't want to eat anything."

"Drink water?" Simon asked again.

"No drink," Jiaoer shook his head and asked again, "Simon, did I faint?"

"That's right. I fainted on the spot when I was recording the show, and I was about to scare us to death!" Simon went to pour a glass of water for Jiaoer and said, "Drink some more! You are suffering from heat stroke. You were asked to take medicine before but you didn't take it, just look!"

Jiao Er took the glass of water handed over by Simon, took a sip, and asked again, "Didn't you tell my parents?"

"No, don't worry!" Simon handed over two capsules and said, "Eat this capsule! It's much more delicious than Huoxiang Zhengqi Water!"

"Oh." Jiaoer put two capsules into his mouth and sent them down with water.

"I asked Xiao Yang to buy you a bowl of porridge, so you have to eat some at least!" Simon said, taking Jiaoer's water glass.

"I feel sick to my stomach, and I don't want to eat anything." After taking the medicine, Jiao Er lay back on the bed again.

"Then you have to eat something. I'll ask Xiao Yang to bring you porridge and some light side dishes. You can eat more or less." Simon coaxed Jiaoer like a child.

"Yeah." Looking at Simon's tired face, Jiaoer couldn't help but said distressedly, "Simon, I'm fine. You go to rest too! You haven't slept well with me these few days."

"It's okay, I'm not tired. I'll go back to rest after watching you finish eating." As soon as Simon finished speaking, the assistant came in with the meal.

In order to reassure Simon, Jiao Er suppressed the nausea in his stomach, and drank all the porridge, leaving only one plate of side dishes.

"Slow down, no one will fight with you." Simon looked at Jiao Er eagerly eating.Can't help but blame.

"Okay! I'm done eating! You two go to rest!" Jiao Er said, and handed the cleaned lunch box to the assistant.

"That's fine. You go to bed early too. If you need anything, call me at night!" Simon still asked worriedly before leaving.

"Understood." Jiao Er showed a sweet smile.

Seeing that the door was closed tightly, Jiao Er lay back on the bed again.She had just woken up, and even though she was weak all over, she didn't feel sleepy.She took out her phone and opened WeChat.The message on the top chat was still eleven days ago.

She habitually went to the circle of friends, and the update in that column showed Li Li's profile picture.She couldn't help but click on it.

Li Li only posted a photo of herself. In the photo, she was wearing a black fisherman hat, a white T-shirt with a cartoon pattern on her upper body, and black shorts on her lower body; smiling.

Jiao Er hastily scanned the photos, then threw the phone aside in anger.Feelings of grievance filled my heart like sour lemon juice.She stayed up all night to record the show, and fainted on the street under the scorching sun; but some people ignored her and laughed heartlessly on the streets of foreign countries.

But in the end Jiaoer clicked on the photo and stared at it for a long time.The phone screen went off several times during this period, and she pressed it on several times stubbornly.Her fingertips are carefully rubbing Li Li's photo across the screen, she doesn't want to admit that even now seeing Li Li's photo, her heart still can't stop beating faster.

I don't know how long it took before Jiaoer blinked her pantothenic eyes, and pressed the lock screen button of the phone.She turned off the small lamp in front of the bed, and the whole room was plunged into darkness.

This dark night is really infinitely long, and longing floods Jiaoer's heart like a rising tide of sea water.

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