if i could love you

Luo Nian's few words were like a fishbone stuck in Jiao'er's throat that was hard to swallow, and it would cause a dull pain from time to time, making Jiao'er unable to ignore its existence.

The next week is the exam week, because Jiaoer has been filming outside for about two months, she has left behind a lot of homework.In her free time, Li Li would help her with some key points of cultural lessons.

Tomorrow morning, there will be a literature test, and Jiao Er is still flipping through the textbook, but she can't remember whose work "Public Enemy" is.

"Li Li, whose work is Public Enemy?" Wen Jiaoer asked.

"Ibsen, Ibsen. How many times have I said that!" Li Li's tone sounded impatient.

Jiao Er said aggrievedly, "Isn't it just asking a few times, I'm getting impatient."

"You, it's just that you don't read too much." Li Li didn't look up when he said this, still looking at the book in his hand.That tone sounded like he was talking about the cat next door.

The fish bone ached in my throat again.Jiao'er tried hard several times, but still couldn't swallow the fishbone.The place where the fishbone was stabbed became more and more painful.

The words on the book in front of him turned into musical notes on the stave, bouncing up and down, Jiaoer suddenly couldn't understand a single word.She felt inexplicably irritable, and threw the book on the table, and the loud sound of the spine hitting the table startled even herself.

"What's wrong with you?" Li Li raised his head and asked at this moment.

Jiao'er stood up, the drooping eyelashes covered the eager anger in his eyes.She pursed her lips and said, "Li Li, do you look down on me?"

Li Li frowned after hearing this, she didn't know where Jiao Er's question came from.She put down the book in her hand and asked, "Huh? What's the matter with you?"

"I just asked the question a few times, and you are getting impatient and think I don't read enough. I have been in the entertainment industry since I was a child, and I haven't studied for a few days." Jiaoer's temples have been twitching all the time. The melancholy in my heart can't wait to vent it out.

Li Li stepped forward to hold her arm, and said softly, "Okay, okay. It's my fault, I shouldn't be impatient. I didn't look down on you. Don't be angry, okay?"

Jiao Er threw Li Li away, took a few steps back and said, "I'm just a superficial girl. There will be many times to make you impatient in the future! Are you afraid?"

"Where is this going? What happened to you today?" Li Li paused for a moment, then his beautiful eyebrows twitched, "Did you see the chat records between Luo Nian and me?"

Li Li's words hit Jiao Er's sore spot thoroughly, she asked with a sneer at the corner of her mouth, "What did Luo Nian say?"

A nervousness flashed in Li Li's eyes, and she explained unnaturally, "It's nothing, nothing."

The fishbone was as hard as a needle at the moment, piercing the softest part of Jiaoer's throat with a sharp light.Jiaoer closed her eyes tightly, and after a slight pause, she said, "Li Li, what are you guilty of?"

"I..." Li Li opened his mouth to explain, but he couldn't say anything.

"What are you talking about!" Jiaoer raised his eyebrows, looking fierce.

It was the hottest time in Pingcheng in early July, and the cicadas outside kept chirping, as if there was no tomorrow.Even though the air conditioner was turned on in the dormitory, it still couldn't stop the heat in the hearts of the two of them at the moment.Li Liyang touched his forehead, his face looked tired.She said, "Jiaojiao, let's talk tomorrow if we have anything to do! It's getting late today, and we have an exam tomorrow morning."

"What's the best thing to say today." Jiao Er refused to make the slightest compromise.

Li Li sighed, raised his hand and said, "Jiaojiao, can you stop making trouble for no reason?"

Jiaoer's eyes froze, and he continued to ask, "I'm getting impatient, aren't you?"

"You're not calm today, I don't want to chat with you anymore. I'm going to bed first, and you should go to bed earlier." After Li Li finished speaking, he was about to turn around and lie on his bed.

Jiao Er grabbed Li Li's wrist, "I don't want to sleep, I just want to have a clear chat with you."

Her tone was still tough, but her eyes revealed her weakness.It's just that Li Li, who turned his back to her, couldn't see anything.

"Okay, let's chat." Li Li pulled Jiaoer away, took a chair and sat in front of Jiaoer and continued, "Then let's talk. Tell me what kind of evil fire did you send today?"

"I've apologized and said good things. What are you fussing about? It's my fault that I'm impatient, and I shouldn't say that you don't read enough. It's all my fault, okay?"

Li Li's every word sounds like a concession, if you ignore the impatient tone.

The cicadas outside were still screaming hysterically, Jiaoer had never found them so annoying as at this moment.She opened her mouth, wanting to say something but couldn't say anything.A tiredness rose from the bottom of my heart and then led to my limbs.

"Suddenly I don't want to say anything anymore. I'm sleepy, I'm going to sleep." Jiao Er lost the aggressive momentum just now, and her eyes lost their luster.

"It's you who wants to talk, and you who don't want to talk. I really don't know what happened to you today." After Li Li finished speaking, he stretched out his hand and pulled the chair back to its original position.The chair rubbed against the floor, making a sound like fingernails scraping a blackboard.

Jiaoer lay on the bed, covering her face with a quilt.She closed her eyes tightly and tried not to think about anything, but it was like a TV with no signal in her mind, and the crashing snowflakes kept disturbing Jiaoer's nerves.

"Pa-ta!" Li Li turned off the light, and the bedroom immediately fell into darkness.

Even though the quilt covered Jiaoer's eyes, a black shadow appeared in front of her eyes in an instant.She turned over, and a breath of fresh air slipped in through the gap in the quilt.The tiredness wrapped around her body tightly like a quilt wrapped around her, but her mind was much clearer.The scene of the quarrel with Li Li just now is still vivid in his memory, and he refuses to disappear no matter what.Jiao Er felt stuffy, so she simply tore off the quilt to breathe fresh air.

The street lights outside the window shone in through the curtains, and the room was dyed azure blue, like a silent sea.The sound of cicadas outside still refused to stop, and the vents of the air conditioner also made a huge roar, continuously pumping out the hot air in the room.Jiaoer inhaled the slightly cool air in the room, and felt a little more comfortable than before.

I don't know how long it took before Jiaoer fell into a deep sleep.When he woke up again, it was already bright.Although the eyelids were opened, the head was still heavy.

Li Li was sitting at the table reading a book at this time, and he didn't know how long he had been up.

"Are you awake? Hurry up and wash up, I'm going to take the exam soon." Li Li's expression was flat, as if nothing had happened.

"Yes. Good." Jiaoer nodded in agreement.It seems that what happened last night has been forgotten, but it is still aching in my heart.

Literature is the last exam.The end of this subject means the coming of summer vacation.

Jiao Er slowly packed her things in her place, and she almost waited until everyone in the examination room had left before going out.As soon as she went out, she saw Li Li standing at the door waiting for her. The two walked side by side without talking.Until a group of classmates swarmed up from behind, hugging and chatting around the two of them.

After the exam, everyone seemed to be much more relaxed.

"Li Li, are you going out to play during the summer vacation?" A female classmate suddenly asked.

"Me? I should." Li Li replied with a smile.

"Where are you going? Do you have any plans?" The female classmate continued to ask.

"Not yet, what's the matter?"

"Let's hang out together, okay?" The female classmate suddenly climbed onto Li Li's arm, her tone so sweet that it couldn't be melted away.

Seeing this scene, Jiaoer turned his head awkwardly, pretending he didn't see anything.

Li Li glanced at Jiaoer from the corner of his eye, then pulled his arm out of the female classmate's arms, and replied, "Why me?"

"That's right, why is it appropriate to be called Li Li?" A classmate next to him also spoke.

The female classmate didn't notice the strangeness in the atmosphere, and continued, "Li Li has the power of a boyfriend! Didn't our class hang out together last time? Li Li and I were in a group. When I was too tired to walk, She just helped me carry the bag and encouraged me all the time. I was a girl at the time. I really want to be Li Li's girlfriend!"

"Yo, yo!" The students next to him started booing unanimously, but no one paid attention to Jiao Er's strange expression.

"But Li Li is a girl, so I can't be my boyfriend. So let's be a donkey friend! Hanging out with Li Li must be very safe." The female classmate was a little shy when she spoke, and added at the end, "And Li Li Li's photos are very beautiful!"

"But I promised my classmate to go abroad to see her, so I might not be able to hang out with you. I'm really sorry!" Li Li refused with a polite smile, which didn't seem like a lie.

"Yes?" The female classmate said regretfully with a flash of disappointment on her face, "That's really a pity."

Li Li is still smiling, but his eyes are looking for Jiaoer.I don't know when there were two or three people between her and Jiao'er, she turned her head and could only see Jiao'er's expressionless side face.

After going to the dormitory building and all the students around him dispersed, Li Li carefully went to pull Jiaoer's wrist, but before he could say anything, he was thrown away by Jiaoer.

Li Li wrinkled the tip of his nose in grievance, and called "Jiaojiao" timidly.

"It's still outside, please pay attention." Jiao Er said in a cold tone.

After returning to the dormitory, just as Jiao Er closed the door of the dormitory, Li Li hugged her from behind.The scent of burnt pine twigs wafted around her.

"Are you angry?" Li Li asked in a low voice.Her head was pressed tightly against Jiaoer's neck.

"I haven't." Jiao Er looked ahead unfocused.A strand of Li Li's long hair hung down her arm, causing itching.

"I will definitely not take pictures of others in the future, okay? I won't help others with things, okay?" Li Li's tone sounded like a child admitting his mistake.

Jiao Er became cruel, broke away from Li Li's embrace and said, "I'm going to pack up and go home. You should pack up earlier too."

"Jiaojiao." Li Li still stood there blankly, as if he was being punished.

Jiao Er ignored it, took out all her clothes from the cabinet and threw them on the bed.Then they were pulled out one after another and stacked carefully.

Li Li walked up to her and whispered, "Let me help you!"

Jiaoer stopped Li Li's outstretched hands, turned around and said to her, "Thank you, Li Li. I'll just do it myself."

"Oh. Good." Li Li replied with his head bowed.

"Go and pack your own." Jiao Er's eyes were like a long frozen river.

"I..." Li Li hesitated to speak.

Jiaoer suddenly stopped the movements in his hands, and then turned his back to Li Li and said, "Li Li, let's calm down for a while! Okay?"

Li Li behind him lost his voice.Jiao'er doesn't want to worry about it anymore, her heart is like a mess of twine.She just wanted to escape from this place as soon as possible at this moment.

Jiao Er leaned her head against the car window, letting the memories take her anywhere.I still remember that during the last winter vacation, the relationship between her and Li Li was also so ambiguously frozen.Everything seemed to be back to the original point, but this time it was started by myself.She couldn't tell what she was angry about, it wasn't just Li Li's impatient words, nor the ambiguous behavior of the female classmate.

Maybe it's just a fan of the authorities, just like Xin Yu.Some things can only be understood from a distance.She is very confused now, she just wants to be quiet for a while, and think about the relationship between her and Li Li.

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