if i could love you

Ever since Li Li kissed Wen Jiaoer that day, there has been no further development of the matter.As if nothing happened, the two of them stopped mentioning this matter very "tacitly", and got along as usual.Wen Jiaoer didn't mention this matter because it was Li Li's initiative, and she hoped that Li Li would speak first.But Li Li didn't explain anything about it, and he looked completely fine.Wen Jiaoer even began to suspect that what happened that day was a dream.She wanted to ask Lin Sen, what should you do if the person you like doesn't express anything after kissing you?But her pride won't allow her to do so.If Lin Sen found out about such a cowardly matter, he would not be able to raise his head in front of him in the future.well!But who could she turn to?If you ask Simon, Simon will definitely break the casserole and ask the end, and he must not be able to handle his own affairs at all.So this matter became the tide that surged up in Jiaoer's heart from time to time.

After four classes in the morning, it's almost twelve o'clock after class.The canteen was overcrowded, and the two decided to go back to the dormitory to order takeaway.

Today, a fashion magazine released several groups of cool-girl-themed photos that Jiao Er had taken before, but the online reviews were just as Jiao Er imagined.Jiao Er was flipping through the comments on the Internet, and kept stirring the rice box with the chopsticks in his hand, but he didn't put a single bite into his mouth.

"Didn't you say it's not good to play with your phone while eating?" Li Li couldn't help reminding her when she saw that she had been staring at her phone for more than ten minutes.

"Hey! Eat." Wen Jiaoer put down his phone, his eyes drooping, like a wronged puppy, pitiful.

"What's wrong?" Li Li put down his chopsticks, with a concerned look on his face.

Wen Jiaoer turned on the phone again, and showed Li Li the photos she took for the magazine, "Here! Take a look!"

Li Li took the phone, slid his fingers left and right on the screen, and looked at Jiaoer's photo seriously.Her face was as calm as usual, without any waves.After watching it, she returned the phone to Jiao Er, and then slowly asked, "Aside from the comments on the Internet, what do you think of your own filming?"

"Myself?" Jiao Er raised his eyebrows upwards, but then wrinkled them into a ball again, "It's weird. I probably don't suit this style."

"It's indeed a little strange, like a good boy who insists on a problem student!" Li Li said sharply.

"Oh! I also think it's very strange! I felt this way when I was taking pictures." After listening to Li Li's words, Jiaoer simply put down his chopsticks, rested his chin on his right hand, and said while staring at the phone whose screen had gone dark.

"Then what do you think a cool girl should look like?" Li Li asked, tilting his head slightly.

"I think..." Jiaoer still rested her chin on her right hand, aimed her eyes upwards, looked at the whitish ceiling and thought for a while before saying, "It should be the kind of maverick. For example, the kind of girl who plays rock and roll That's pretty cool."

After hearing this, Li Li smiled noncommittally, then lowered his head to eat his own meal.

Seeing this, Jiao Er couldn't figure out Li Li's attitude, so she asked again, "What do you think? What does a cool girl look like?"

"Should be the kind who has his own opinions and ideas, and insists on being himself without fear!" Li Li collected his expression and said solemnly.

"For example?" Jiaoer listened with interest, and motioned Li Li to continue.

"It's not that she must do something to be the coolest, but that her inner personality is cool." Li Li continued to explain.

"Actually, I think you're pretty cool!" Wen Jiaoer looked at Li Li, with stars hidden in his eyes.

"Why?" Li Li obviously didn't expect Wen Jiaoer to say that, so he couldn't help asking with a smile.

"After all, there are very few people who don't explain themselves after kissing someone. Isn't that cool?" Wen Jiaoer pouted and muttered in a low voice.

Wen Jiaoer sincerely thinks that Li Li is cool, but also sincerely thinks that Li Li should explain to her why he kissed her.But she didn't dare to speak, she was afraid that Li Li's answer would disappoint her.So she waited for Li Li to speak first, and let Li Li decide the relationship between them.Whether it is to go further, or return to the relationship of friends, it is up to Li Li to decide!In a relationship, the seemingly active party is always passive.

"What did you say?" Li Li didn't know if he really didn't hear what Wen Jiaoer said.

"It's nothing, I didn't say anything." Wen Jiaoer hesitated, lowered her eyelashes, and waved her hands.

In the early days of January this year, Pingcheng Academy of Drama had already started arranging year-end exams.Jiaoer also entered the tight stage of the exam.The matter between her and Li Li was temporarily put aside.Jiao Er has never been to school seriously since she was a child, and she actually doesn't know how to review exams.Li Li was different, she looked calm and calm, she didn't seem to care about the upcoming exam.Every day, I casually read a few pages of books on the table, and when it’s time for the exam, I grab the admission ticket and a few pens and leave. It’s very free and easy!Sometimes Wen Jiaoer wondered whether Li Li had studied seriously.But who made him a top student!When Wen Jiaoer asked a random question, Li Li could answer it fluently.

After the exams are over, the winter vacation will come.Jiaoer sat on the chair and watched Li Li pack up his luggage for home.For a moment, she didn't know where to start. She was still thinking about Li Li kissing her that day. Does Li Li's delay in speaking mean that she was just a whim that day?

"When did you get the high-speed train?" Jiaoer randomly picked up a topic.

"Eight o'clock in the evening." Li Li, who was packing his things with his back to her, put a pair of pants in the suitcase.

"Will it be too late?" Jiaoer said while squeezing her hand.

"No, the high-speed train is very fast. We will arrive at Acropolis in half an hour." Li Li still turned his back to her.

"Then will you miss me when you go home?" Jiaoer squeezed her hand more forcefully unconsciously.She didn't have the courage to ask Li Li directly why he kissed her, so she could only make indirect remarks.

"..."

Her answer was silence, and she saw Li Li's movement of packing her luggage pause.As time passed by, Jiaoer tightly clenched her hand, her fingers turned purple due to the force, but she didn't even notice it.

"I……."

well!never mind!Wen Jiaoer felt that she already knew the answer, and when she heard Li Li speak slowly, she felt that she didn't want to embarrass her anymore.So with a cheerful tone, he asked, "Is there anything interesting in the Acropolis?"

As if she hadn't asked the last question, Jiao Er smiled softly at Li Li.

"There's nothing particularly interesting about the Acropolis, right? Maybe I grew up in the Acropolis, so I don't feel much about it. Have you never been to the Acropolis?" Li Li didn't bother with the last question anymore.

"I've been there a few times, but it's either for performances or filming, so I haven't had a good time shopping." Jiaoer still had a smile on her face, but her heart cooled down inch by inch.

"Actually, the cities in the north are pretty much the same, and they're not interesting." At this time, Li Li had packed up his things and sat on the bed to rest.

At this time Jiao Er's cell phone vibrated suddenly, it was the assistant and the driver who came to pick her up!What a time!Jiao Er turned off the phone screen after reading WeChat.

"They came to pick me up! I'm leaving first, see you next year!" Jiaoer breathed a sigh of relief in time, but luckily the topic ended in time.

Winter vacation means rest for students, but it means work for Jiaoer.Looking at the big and small announcements that the assistant gave her, Jiaoer couldn't help feeling a little tingly in the scalp, is she going to be a trapeze again?Either way, at least I don't have time to think about it.

At this time, it was already dark, and there were lights of various colors on the road, car lights, street lights, and street lights.Jiaoer didn't feel lively, but felt a little desolate.She stared at these lights until her eyes became sour, and she simply closed her eyes to rest her mind.In fact, the night view of Pingcheng is nothing to see. I don't know what fascinated me at that time.

Before the new year, Wen Jiaoer's work was full, recording programs, shooting commercials, and participating in various parties, large and small.At first, Simon was worried that she would complain. After all, Jiaoer was still a child, and he was more playful.She persuaded her cautiously, "Mr. Wen is also doing it for your own good. After all, you didn't take any jobs this year because of the college entrance examination and class. You should show your face at the end of the year."

"Yes. I know." Wen Jiaoer looked calm, without any complaints.She can't wait to keep spinning every day, so she doesn't have any free time for herself.Because whenever she was free, she couldn't help but think of Li Li.Think of the way Li Li sang in Verlaine; think of the scent of burning pine branches on her body when she was close to Li Li; think of the scene where Li Li kissed her that day.

People are always greedy, it’s okay when they get nothing, but once they get a little, they will imagine getting everything.When she decided to give up last time, Wen Jiaoer didn't think it was so difficult, after all, when she thought of Li Li at that time, she only had a dull and calm face for her to recall.But it was different now, she could think of Li Li's various appearances and various scenes with Li Li.As soon as work is over, Li Li will automatically appear in her mind when she is in the nanny's car on her way home, or in a hotel room alone, and she can't be driven away.

Wen Jiaoer wanted to hate Li Li, but he couldn't make up his mind.So she can only hate herself, hate herself for being so unbelievable and humble.Even after knowing the other party's answer, this kind of liking did not diminish at all, but intensified.Facing the menacing love, she was at a loss, as if the love didn't come from her heart.So she hopes that she will be more and more busy, so busy that she has no time to rest, no time to think about that person.

At noon on the New Year's Eve, Jiaoer, who had finished his trip, rushed back home.Mother Wen complained that Wen Xiyang didn't know how to be considerate of children, and she kept Jiaoer busy until now before going home for the New Year.

"Okay, Mom! Uncle is also doing it for my own good. Look at the rising stars who are not like this. I can still go home to celebrate the New Year. How many people are still on the set!" Wen Jiaoer bent his eyes and hugged Mother Wen said coquettishly.

"Didn't I love you? Look at the red blood in your eyes, how many days haven't you rested?!" Mother Wen held Jiaoer's face and said distressedly.

"It's all right. Go and cook me a bowl of noodles! I haven't eaten anything since I got off the plane! I'm going to starve to death!" Jiao Er said with a pouted mouth.

Seeing her mother enter the kitchen, Jiaoer picked up the phone, opened it, and saw that there were many messages, but none of the ones she wanted.She sighed and put the phone down again.Today is the last day of the year. Could it be that she won't even say "Happy New Year"?It has been more than [-] days of vacation, Li Li seems to have disappeared, and has not contacted him once.At least as a friend, you should chat on WeChat a few times, right?Could it be that she is busier than herself?Jiaoer smiled wryly, forcing herself not to think about it.

For the New Year's Eve dinner, Wen Xiyang, who is single, ate at his brother's house as usual.

"Yo! I thought you were eating at the company today!" Mother Wen said half jokingly and half seriously.

"Where?" Wen Xiyang lost his vigor in the company, and felt a little embarrassed listening to Wen's mother's teasing.

"My friend has a younger sister, who is a few years younger than you. She just came back from the United States. Introduce you two?" Papa Wen also said.After all, his parents left early, so he, the elder brother, had to worry about everything.Although he knew that this younger brother had never heard of him in this regard, he asked again without giving up.

"Forget it! I've been very busy recently, so I don't have time. Just don't delay other girls!" Wen Xiyang said.

"You..." Papa Wen already knew the result, but he still couldn't find a word to reply him.

"This dish is delicious! Which restaurant did you order the New Year's Eve dinner this time?" Seeing this, Wen Xiyang quickly changed the topic.

Jiaoer still looked down at the phone from time to time, not paying much attention to what the elders said.

"Jiaoer, what's the matter? Why are you always looking at your phone?" Wen Xiyang, who had just escaped safely from his brother and sister-in-law, noticed that his niece was always looking at her phone, looking preoccupied.

"Oh, it's okay. Just chat with friends." Jiao Er immediately put down the phone and picked up the chopsticks in his hand.

"Don't always look at your phone while eating, it's bad for digestion. How many times have I told you!" Mother Wen also spoke beside her.

"I know! Don't watch it!" Jiaoer scooped up a spoonful of soup and put it into his mouth.There was no relief from the frowning.

Wen Xiyang took everything into his eyes and didn't say much.

The author has something to say:

Thank you guys for commenting, I really love you guys.

Thank you also Beibi who came to read my novel, for giving you a heartfelt comparison.

Finally, I want to say sorry to everyone, because I have something to do all day tomorrow, so I shouldn't update it.I'll see you the day after tomorrow, okay?I love you!