if i could love you

After the New Year's Eve dinner, the Spring Festival Gala has already started for half an hour.Wen Jiaoer still didn't get the desired news.She threw the phone on the bed casually.Are you too worthless?Being led by the nose by Li Li all the time, her every move, every frown and frown is a big deal to me.But what about her?Did you take yourself to heart?Even as a friend?He obviously kissed himself, but he didn't say a word, not even an explanation.Did she take herself to heart?

"Bah!" The phone vibrated suddenly, and Wen Jiaoer, who was swimming in his emotions, immediately returned to reality.She picked up the phone, glanced at it, and threw it on the bed in disappointment.If I continue like this, I will become crazy sooner or later.

It was a WeChat message from Jagger, "Jiaoer, Happy New Year!" At the end, three fireworks emojis were added.

"Thank you, and I wish you a happy new year!" At the end, Jiaoer still picked up her phone and replied politely.

"Has the Spring Festival Gala started now? It's still early morning here in California." Jagger added a disappointed expression.

"Are you back to the United States?" Jiaoer looked at the WeChat message sent by Jagger, especially the disappointed little expression, and the look of him making this expression instantly appeared in his mind.

"That's right. For Chinese New Year, of course you have to be with your family."

Jiaoer looked at Jagger's WeChat, shook his head with a smile, and replied, "It's okay if you don't have a job, but if you have a job, you can only celebrate the New Year with the crew."

Although Jiaoer celebrates the New Year at home every year, there are many seniors around me who can't make it home for the Spring Festival, so they can only spend it on the set.In Jiao Er's consciousness, this is a matter of course, and if she encounters this situation, she will definitely choose not to go home.After all, if you are running out of time, you can't let so many crew members wait for you.She thinks Jagger is really a big boy!

"You don't have to pick up work! But the Spring Festival is such an important day, you must spend it with your family! Although I am Chinese, my parents are still very traditional Chinese, and they attach great importance to these traditional festivals. The Spring Festival must be reunited! In the past, I I always thought so, but after returning to China, I realized that Chinese people don’t seem to value reunion so much.”

Jiaoer looked at the long string of texts sent by Jagger, and really didn't know what to reply.Do you want to discuss with him the changes in the thinking and concept of Chinese people today?She rubbed her temples, and replied helplessly, "It seems to be like this."

Before waiting for Jagger's reply, he heard someone knocking on the door.

"Please come in." Jiaoer was talking, and was about to get up to open the door, when he saw Uncle Wen Xiyang had come in.

According to the practice of previous years, uncle should be chatting with dad in the study at this time.Both of them are usually very busy at work, and the fields they are engaged in are not related to each other. Basically, only during the Chinese New Year, the two of them will sit down and have a good chat.How can there be such an opportunity?

"What's the matter, uncle?" So Wen Jiaoer didn't understand why his uncle came to look for her.

"It's okay, let's come and see you. What are you doing?" Wen Xiyang sat on a chair beside the bed, apparently wanting to have a good chat with Jiaoer.

"Oh, I'm chatting with a friend." Jiao Er casually put the phone on the bed.

"Boy?" Wen Xiyang raised his eyebrows.

"En." Wen Jiaoer nodded hesitantly, and then asked, "What's wrong?"

"It's okay, I'm just asking casually." Wen Xiyang said with a smile, but then said, "Recently, there is a script that is not bad. It is a traditional idol drama. But the plot is not old-fashioned, and it looks quite pleasing. The producer The most favorite candidates over there are you and Lin Sen."

"Ah?" Wen Jiaoer thought in his heart that his uncle really deserves the title of "workaholic"!He didn't even let himself go on New Year's Eve!

"Don't be in a hurry, I'll show you the script later and make a decision. I just want to let you know in advance!" Wen Xiyang paused, and then said, "Jiaoer, now is a critical moment for transformation. Uncle doesn't want to put pressure on you either. , but you also saw that the actresses of the same age as you are all staring at your position! Don’t make any mistakes now, you know?”

Jiaoer immediately understood the reason why his uncle talked to him tonight, he was suspecting that he was in love!Thinking of this, Jiaoer felt annoyed for no reason, but still suppressed his temper and said, "Uncle, I know how important this period is. I know what to do and what not to do."

"That's good, our Jiaoer is sensible. As long as you go on the road of actors, uncle will do his best to make this road smooth." Seeing that he had achieved the purpose of the conversation, Wen Xiyang also planned to get up and leave people.

Well done?If so, that's great!Jiaoer smiled wryly in her heart, how could there be so many smooth things in the world?Uncle tried his best, but he didn't protect himself well.How else could that happen?Naturally, she didn't mean to blame her uncle, she chose this path herself.No matter what happens, you have to take care of yourself.All choices have a price to pay, this is the truth Wen Jiaoer learned when he was still young.Others only noticed that the ground was full of flowers on her future road, but they didn't see the dead body hidden under the flowers.

The phone kept vibrating, but Jiao Er was no longer in the mood to look at it.She was lying on the bed, immersed in her emotions again and couldn't extricate herself.Today was exhausting, so Jiaoer fell asleep after lying on the bed for a while.She fell into a dream in a trance, and she returned to the day when Li Li kissed her.Like that day, she lay on the bed and rubbed Li Li's lower abdomen for dysmenorrhea.Her hand touched Li Li's abdomen, the softness was so real, it didn't seem to be in a dream.Li Li in the dream was as gentle as that day, she patted the pillow lightly, motioning Jiao Er to lie down.Li Li's face approached little by little, Jiao Er knew that the kiss was about to fall on her lips, she closed her eyes.But when she opened her eyes, she saw the man's face.She could even smell the strong smell of alcohol on him.She fell into the 16-year-old nightmare again!The man's hideous expression because he was drunk kept magnifying in front of her eyes. She wanted to scream, but her mouth seemed to be blocked, so she had to wave her arms desperately to keep the man away from her.

"Kang Dang!" The sound of the phone falling to the ground in reality pulled Jiaoer back from the dream.She opened her eyes suddenly, having a nightmare again!She stared blankly at the pale ceiling above her head, her back was already covered with cold sweat before she returned from her thoughts.When will he let himself go?When will this nightmare be able to let me go?Wen Jiaoer looked down, and found that he had fallen asleep without even changing his clothes.It was already quiet outside, presumably it was late at night.Wen Jiaoer wanted to stand up and change clothes, but found that her legs and feet were already weak.She lay helplessly for a while longer before getting up and changing into her pajamas.

After laying on the bed again, I didn't feel sleepy at all.Even if there was, Jiaoer dared not close his eyes, for fear of having that nightmare again.She picked up the mobile phone on the ground and opened it to check the time, but saw that various WeChat messages had filled the screen of the mobile phone.She no longer had any hope, but she still flipped through WeChat habitually.However, he never expected that the name that he thought about day and night really appeared on the screen of his mobile phone!Li Li sent her a WeChat message!

She opened WeChat almost tremblingly, "Happy New Year!" Li Li only sent four simple words.She looked and looked, and suddenly an indescribable emotion surged in her heart!Tears rushed out of her eyes immediately, she didn't know why she shed tears, not just because of Li Li's words.She just wanted to shed tears. These tears were what she had been hiding for a long time. She didn't say it, but flowed out of her eyes.She just lay on the bed like this, thinking of nothing but crying violently.I don't know how long it took, until Jiao Er had no more tears to shed, she slowly turned on the phone again, and replied to Li Li, "Thank you, and I wish you a happy new year too!"

Apart from this blessing message, Li Li never sent Jiaoer a WeChat message again.After the night of New Year's Eve, Jiao Er didn't think about it anymore.The tears flowed and the emotions were vented, but it doesn't mean the relationship is over.Jiao Er can still feel the weight of Li Li in her heart.It's fine to call her spineless, or call her worthless, but what can she do?She annoyed herself more than anyone else for being so unlucky.Some people say, I don't mind being alone, at least it's more comfortable than loving you.

Having said that, is it really up to you to be cute or not?Before meeting Li Li, Wen Jiaoer seldom felt lonely except for the late nights of nightmares.But since falling in love with Li Li, she often feels lonely.When I can't see Li Li, when I think of Li Li crying for others, when I get drunk for others, loneliness is like a chill from the soles of my feet to the sky.

Wen Jiaoer seemed to give up on herself, no longer restrained her feelings, and let the hopeless feelings flow by themselves.She wanted to see where this relationship would go.But she didn't bother Li Li, this feeling turned into a vine in the darkness, absorbing Jiaoer's emotions and growing wildly.

The days passed peacefully, and the script that Uncle Wen Xiyang mentioned on New Year's Eve was handed to Wen Jiaoer not long after the year.The name of this drama is "Hello, Junior Chen". The female lead, Gu Chen, is a sophomore. She just started her summer vacation as a drama club cadre in charge of recruiting activities. However, she did not expect to meet Chen Nian, who is in the class next door to high school.After repeating his studies for a year, Chen Nian was admitted to Gu Chen's school, so he became Gu Chen's junior.And so the fate of the two began... The novelty of this drama is that the hero Chen Nian has been secretly in love with the heroine Gu Chen since high school. After failing the college entrance examination for the first time, he chose to repeat his studies in order to get into Gu Chen's school.The whole play is filmed from the perspective of the heroine, revealing the hero's thoughts bit by bit. This process itself is very attractive.And this drama is also different from the previous dog-blood TV series. This drama has no car accidents, no terminal illnesses, no amnesia, and no parents to stop it. It is a story of two energetic young people falling in love.

Both Simon and Uncle Wen Xiyang are very optimistic about this drama, and feel that the plot of this drama is very novel, and it also suits the tastes of young girls today.And Lin Sen has already taken over the show, if she also takes over, then the combination of the two of them will become the biggest attraction of the show.Don't even think about it, the ratings of this drama will definitely explode!

But Wen Jiaoer didn't think about these things, she was most worried about the emotional drama between men and women.If the heroine is Lin Sen this time, will her condition be better?After all, she and Lin Sen grew up together, so it should be more natural for her to act in a male-female rivalry.Wen Jiaoer decided to take over the drama.

Just after Wen Jiaoer signed the contract for "Hello, Junior Chen", Lin Sen sent a WeChat message the next day, "I heard that we are going to act as a couple?"

"Ask knowingly," Wen Jiaoer only replied with four words.

"Act well then, don't hold me back!"

When Wen Jiaoer saw this sentence, she rolled her eyes and wished to roll to the sky. She replied to Lin Sen, "Take care of yourself first!" After she sent this message, she still felt puzzled, so she sent Lin Sen another one, " Take care of your private life, don't be photographed by reporters dating other girls during this time."

This sentence is nothing more than ranting against Lin Sen. After all, Jiaoer knows that Lin Sen cares more about this drama than herself.All child stars will face the same problem when they reach a certain age, that is transformation, and Lin Sen is no exception.After he became an adult, the ratings of the few dramas he acted as the male lead were basically very mediocre.When people mention Lin Sen, they still refer to the roles he played when he was a child, but the few dramas he played as an adult are hardly mentioned.This is not a good sign. Although Lin Sen's nationality is very high, there is no masterpiece that matches it.

In the past few years, small fresh meats have appeared frequently. Although they don't want to admit it, there are already two or three that have overshadowed Lin Sen's limelight.Although in terms of strength, they are far below Lin Sen.But people have a lot of fans, fans are economic benefits, the entertainment industry is a place where fame and fortune are pursued, and any power that can be converted into money will not be let go.

Lin Sen, who was born as a child actor, has limitations in attracting girlfriend fans.But as a young actor, girlfriend fans are the main fans.The variety show where he was a resident guest had already attracted a lot of fans for him, and now he lacks a role that will allow him to transform successfully.Although variety shows are a powerful tool for attracting fans, actors still have to speak based on their performance.Lin Sen, who has been in the entertainment circle since he was a child, knows this better than any other youngster of his age.

So the cooperation between him and Wen Jiaoer is a win-win thing.

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