if i could love you

"Aren't you busy today? Why are you here?"

Only then did Jiaoer realize that Li Li's hair color had turned maroon today, and he was wearing a light khaki baseball cap on his head.

"I'm done. Have you dyed your hair?" Wen Jiaoer pointed to Li Li's hair and asked.

"Well, it's needed for the performance. It's a one-off." Li Li replied.

"Oh. Let's go." Jiao Er finished speaking and walked forward.

"Where are you going?" Li Li followed behind.

"Study..." Wen Jiaoer originally wanted to answer "school", but his body tilted uncontrollably.

"Be careful!" It turned out that it was Li Li who gave her a hand.

Behind him were two or three boys who were too drunk and staggered over.If Li Li didn't pull her, she might be knocked down by these people.But none of that matters.At this moment, she could only feel Li Li's hand wrapping her hand.Li Li's hands were cold, as if they had no temperature.

Seeing those drunken boys walking past, Li Li immediately wanted to let go of Jiao Er's hand.The moment Li Li let go, Jiao Er grabs Li Li's hand again.

"Your hands are so cold! Let me warm them up for you!" The night covered Jiao Er's reddish face, she pretended to be very natural and said.

"No need. Thank you!" Li Li's tone seemed to be the same as usual, nothing else.

"Oh." Jiao Er immediately let go of her hand after hearing this.

Probably aware of Wen Jiaoer's loss, Li Li explained again, "I'm afraid of being photographed by reporters, it's not good!"

"It's okay, there should be no reporters now!"

Originally Wen Jiaoer, who was disappointed because Li Li refused her to warm her hands, heard this sentence, like a tiny grain of red carbon meeting a flammable object, "噗" ignited.

"Alright then!" Li Li replied.

Then Jiaoer's palms felt cold, and she looked at Li Li in disbelief.

"Didn't you say to warm my hands?" Li Li smiled, his eyebrows and eyes were extremely gentle.

After hearing this, Wen Jiaoer wrapped Li Li's hand with his own.Li Li's hands are very thin, and when he held them, Li Li's hard finger bones just hit the softest part of Jiao Er's palm.The two walked hand in hand to Jiao Er's nanny car.

Jiaoer noticed Li Li's hesitation after seeing the nanny's car, and said cautiously, "I stopped here on my way back to school today, so I want to go back with you. There are only the driver and my assistant in the car, no one else."

"Oh. Then get in the car!" Li Li opened the car door while talking.

"This is my assistant, Sister Yang."

"This is my roommate Li Li."

After getting in the car, Wen Jiaoer introduced each other to his assistant and Li Li, and then they sat in the back row.Probably because the stranger was there, Li Li didn't speak after getting into the car.

"Are you tired from performing today?" Jiao Er took the initiative to find a topic.

"It's okay." Li Li replied.

"If you're tired, you can sleep in the car for a while. I'll call you when you get to school." Wen Jiaoer thoughtfully suggested.

"No need. It's all right."

Then the two of them stopped talking, and neither did the assistant and the driver, and the car fell into silence.Fortunately, the distance is very short, and we will arrive at the school in a while.

After returning to the dormitory, Li Li took off his baseball cap, and Jiao Er was able to take a closer look at Li Li's new hair color.The maroon color became warm under the light, and Li Li looked so gentle like this, not as cold as before.

"What are you looking at?" Li Li asked, probably sensing Jiao Er's eyes.

"No, I just think you are very suitable for this hair color." After hearing Li Li's words, Jiaoer came back to his senses.When speaking, the tone is full of tenderness.

"It's just a one-time use. It will be washed in a while." Li Li touched his hair as he spoke.

At this time, Wen Jiaoer suddenly remembered that he still had a Christmas gift for Li Li, so he quickly picked up his bag and searched for it.

"What are you looking for?" Seeing this, Li Li asked suspiciously.

"Christmas gift!" Jiao Er said, and she had already taken out a beautifully wrapped red box from her bag.Then put it in Li Li's hand and said, "Merry Christmas!"

Li Li obviously didn't expect that Wen Jiaoer would prepare a gift for her, so he couldn't help being stunned, with a rare expression on his face.After waiting for a while, he said, "Thank you! But I didn't prepare a gift for you, I'm sorry." When Li Li said this, he looked really embarrassed.

"Can you give me a Christmas hug?" Wen Jiaoer boldly expressed his thoughts.After she finished speaking, she felt a little regretful, if Li Li rejected her, then the good atmosphere tonight would be ruined by this incident.

Wen Jiaoer, who was worried, was hugged into his arms.Before she could react, she heard Li Li whisper "Merry Christmas" in her ear.

The rich fragrance of pine branches enveloped Wen Jiaoer, and she greedily smelled the smell of Li Li, as if a traveler trekking in the desert encountered a rare water source.This hug is only a few tens of seconds, and it is fleeting but it has changed forever.Until many years later, Wen Jiaoer woke up in a dreamy night, thinking of this hug, the gap in his heart could be filled in an instant.

"Can I open it and have a look?" Li Li asked politely with the gift box in his hand.

"Yes, yes!" Wen Jiaoer was a little nervous when Li Li opened the box.

"Lip gloss?" Li Li opened the box and took out the red Armani tube inside.

"Well. 506, it's bean paste color. I think it suits you quite well." Wen Jiaoer lowered his eyes while speaking, trying not to look at Li Li.

"Thank you!" Li Li smiled lightly, like a cup of freshly brewed tea.

"It's okay." Wen Jiaoer shook his head, needless to say the excitement in his heart.

After that, Li Li washed up in the bathroom, while Wen Jiaoer lay on the bed and played with his mobile phone.She opened Weibo, refreshed it habitually, and saw a new Weibo post by Lin Sen.He posted two group photos of him and Wen Jiaoer at the banquet tonight, one selfie, Lin Sen making a face in front, and Jiao Er in the back comparing scissors hands; the other one he took was Lin Sen hugging Jiao Er intimately Er's shoulder.The accompanying text is "Look who I met?", and then Ait called Wen Jiaoer.Wen Jiaoer clicked forward casually, and attached three Weibo emojis of cats.Then she clicked on the comment under Lin Sen's Weibo.

"Always stand by your childhood sweetheart, please like it"

"Who says a bamboo horse can't fall from the sky"

"I climbed the wall and fell from the sky, and I climbed back"

"Lin Sen is scheming"

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Wen Jiaoer looked at the comments on Weibo and couldn't laugh or cry. She knew that ever since the program group of "Gasha Egg Brother" fired her and Jagger's CP, some fans called this CP "Heavenly CP", corresponding to her and Lin Sen childhood sweetheart CP.Wen Jiaoer didn't know if Lin Sen did it on purpose. It was obvious that the heat between her and Jagger had just gone down, but he came out again, and the heat of the three of them was fired again.But Lin Sen posted a Weibo related to her, and she couldn't help but not respond. Even if she didn't respond, the company would help to respond.

When Wen Jiaoer was scrolling through Weibo, Li Li had already come out of the bathroom.She had washed the chestnut color out of her head, and her wet black hair hung down her back.

"Did you finish washing?" Wen Jiaoer asked, taking his eyes away from the phone.

"Yes." Li Li nodded in agreement, and went to bed.

"Don't you blow your hair?" Wen Jiaoer looked at Li Li's still wet long hair.

"I don't like blowing my hair, I'm too tired." While speaking, Li Li was already lying on the bed.

"Let me blow it for you!" Wen Jiaoer got up from the bed while talking.Dig out your hair dryer in the drawer.

"Forget it! I often sleep like this, it's fine." Li Li declined.

If it was normal, Wen Jiaoer would not say anything after hearing Li Li's refusal.Probably because of Li Li's tenderness to her tonight, Wen Jiaoer has the courage to insist on her own idea.Holding a hair dryer in her hand, she stood in front of Li Li's bed like that, looking at Li Li with a serious face, as if she would not leave today until Li Li did not blow her hair.

Seeing this, Li Li couldn't stay on the bed anymore, so he had to sit up and turn his back to Wen Jiaoer.Wen Jiaoer knew that this meant Li Li agreed.She happily plugged in her hair dryer, turned on the switch, and crawled onto Li Li's bed.

She knelt with her knees close to Li Li, then lifted a lock of Li Li's hair and blown it with a hair dryer.Because this was the first time she had blow-dried someone else's hair, she asked Li Li while blowing, "Is this temperature okay?"

Li Li didn't seem to hear clearly, "What did you say?"

Seeing this, Wen Jiaoer turned off the hair dryer, then put her head on Li Li's shoulder affectionately without knowing it, and asked again, "Is this temperature okay?"

"Oh, that's alright."

Wen Jiaoer, who was next to Li Li's body, could feel the stiffness of Li Li's body when he answered.Only now did she realize how affectionate the two of them were, her head was next to Li Li's ear, and as long as Li Li turned his head a little, he could kiss her...

"Then I'll use this temperature!" Wen Jiaoer quickly got up from Li Li, and said unnaturally, even his tone was a bit twitchy.

There was no words between the two of them for a moment, only the slight whirring sound of the hair dryer.Wen Jiaoer carefully and clumsily divided Li Li's hair into four parts, and then picked up a part and gently blown it.Li Li's hair is very long, but Jiaoer blows it from the top of the head to the end very professionally.When the hair was half dry, Jiao Er said to Li Li, "In the future, you must finish drying your hair before going to bed. Sleeping with wet hair is not good for your head."

"Well, good." Li Li agreed.

"Otherwise your clever head will become stupid." After Jiao'er finished speaking, Li Li's laughter was heard.Hearing Li Li's laughter, she also laughed.The whirring sound of the hair dryer mixed with the laughter of the two girls made the atmosphere in the dormitory warmer.

After Christmas, the two girls grew closer.

One Thursday afternoon, Wen Jiaoer returned to school after recording a variety show.The dormitory was so quiet that no one was there, Jiaoer thought Li Li had gone out.It was only after walking to the bed that Li Li was lying on the bed, his face was pale and his eyes were closed.

"Li Li, are you alright?" Jiao Er asked lying on Li Li's bed.

"You're back? It's okay, I just have dysmenorrhea." The weak Li Li's voice was as thin as a thread, and it would break if he pulled it.

As girls, Jiaoer naturally understands the pain of dysmenorrhea.When the pain came, it was crushing, as if the entire uterus was being held in one hand and kneaded.The pain finally eased, and before I could catch my breath, another burst of pain came on fiercely.Wen Jiaoer once suffered from dysmenorrhea to the point of doubting her life, and wished she could die.But fortunately, my assistant, Sister Yang, has learned acupoint massage from somewhere, and every time she suffers from dysmenorrhea, Jiaoer's lower abdomen, which was massaged by the assistant, feels much lighter.

After Jiaoer took off her coat, she took Li Li's cup and poured a cup of hot water for her, and put it on the bedside.Then he lay down in front of Li Li's bed and said softly, "Li Li, move inside, I'll go to bed and rub your stomach. My assistant has a trick, which is especially effective for dysmenorrhea. Let me try it for you."

Li Li didn't say anything, but obediently moved into the bed.After Jiaoer took off her shoes and went to bed, she rubbed her hands vigorously for a few times, and then covered her face for a while, her hands that were not cold at first gradually became hot.Only then did Jiao Er dare to put her hand into Li Li's quilt. She found Li Li's lower abdomen, and imitated her assistant's technique to gently rub Li Li up.

"Take it easy, don't be tense, it will be fine in a while. Every time I have dysmenorrhea, my assistant rubs it like this, and I feel much better..." Jiaoer chattered endlessly, without noticing Li Li's weakness How long did the sight fall on her.Until her arms were sore from rubbing, she was about to stretch out to move around, but when she turned her head, she happened to meet Li Li's gaze.Li Li's eyes are so gentle, Wen Jiaoer felt that she was going to melt into those eyes.

"Are you tired?" After Li Li finished speaking, he patted the pillow on the other side, signaling Jiao Er to lie beside her.

"Yeah. It's okay." Jiao Er lay down and faced Li Li face to face, and found that Li Li's complexion was better, so he asked, "Does it still hurt?"

Li Li didn't speak, but slowly approached Jiao Er, point by point, inch by inch, until the tips of their noses touched each other intimately, just like when they were rehearsing a play for the first time.Then, Li Li pressed his lips to Wen Jiaoer's.

When Wen Jiaoer realized it, he realized that he had been kissed!

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