Death Beliefs

Although the ordinary life we ​​live every day is not as ups and downs as in TV dramas, it is also interspersed with infinite drama. When you are distracted, it jumps out and scares your face.

Therefore, don't say that the occasional exaggerated plots in TV dramas are not sublimated in life, it's just because you haven't encountered them yet.

At that moment, there was a sound of opening the door of the dormitory. We looked at each other in a panic and knew what happened.At that time, there was no one else except Xi Xiang who came back from the outside, let alone six of us missing one.

So, when did Xi Xiang arrive at the door of the dormitory? Did she hear everything? After all, we always rely on shouting in the dormitory. Even if we are chatting about other people's gossip, we don't know how to restrain ourselves.

When Lu Qin was obsessed with a singer who suddenly became popular, she happily made an unprecedented comment on the Weibo of the singer who was delayed by the joker - I want to be your wife, she has never done this before Overheated.

At that time, we had a blast in the dormitory. Although we knew that the singer must see many such passionate confessions every day, for Lu Qin, this was a breakthrough from emotional repression, and we all shouted She finally moved her heart, and then our classmates from the dormitory next door knocked on our door.

I remember a girl standing at the door we opened with a wooden face and said, "Rival, do you want to have a fight?"

During our panicked tugging, Xi Xiang stepped on high heels and carried a handbag that was obviously stretched by age, and she walked in with a graceful posture. She smiled at us, as if nothing had changed.

I sat sullenly, and even regretted this dinner. If it was just me and Xi Xiang, maybe I wouldn’t be so cold at this dinner table. I really didn’t expect that she would bring her boyfriend to my eyes He came down to show off his might, and he hadn't been greeted in advance.

Of course, if she had greeted me, I would not have come to have dinner with her today. I have a thousand reasons that she has to give up to refuse her sincere invitation.

"You were pretty good at talking before. Why are you so quiet today? It's not like you."

I think Xi Xiang is looking for something to say, otherwise this meal would be too embarrassing, especially when I watch her distinguished boyfriend from time to time.

"You say that a person who has run away for most of his life can still be a teenager?" I looked at her funny.

"Hearing your tone, there is something in your words." Xi Xiang lowered her head, most of her hair slipped down, covering her expression.

I laughed even harder: "I'm such a straightforward person, I can't learn so many detours, you think too much. I don't mean anything else. I just want to express that I am going to follow a fresh literary style to avoid nothing. Convulsion."

She showed a disgusted expression, and her words were full of nostalgia. She said: "Come on, I don't know you yet. Can you pretend to be a literary youth for a few days? Don't look at your appearance, you can pretend, you In his heart, he is just a joker. In front of acquaintances, he doesn't hide his secrets. In front of outsiders, he is as if he has eaten Xiang Xiang. He refuses to say a word, and pretends to be noble and glamorous."

"That's my specialty, too."

She was even more disgusted, "That's also called characteristic? Did you know that there is also an adjective for your kind, which can't be called on the stage!"

Me: "...Okay, you are the most generous." After finishing speaking, I picked up my chopsticks and started eating.

Seeing that I suddenly became interested in some delicate dishes on the table, she couldn't help being curious, but the truth was that I was unhappy and needed food to relieve, and I didn't worry about whether her boyfriend's saliva fell on these beautiful dishes. On the vegetable leaves, feast on it.

However, I had no more than three or four mouthfuls, and I still had no taste, so I had to put down my chopsticks, not daring to continue to toss my stomach.

But she said, "I've always been better than you, it's not like you don't know, why are you angry with me?"

"Then I've always liked to get angry with you, and it's not like you don't know it, so why are you trying to make me angry on purpose?"

I stared fiercely at the cup in front of me, and my heart was filled with anger. I must be jealous of Xi Xiang from the bottom of my heart, otherwise why would I be angry even when she said that I was not good at all.

"Meng Xuan, do you still blame me?"

Xi Xiang suddenly held my hand, and when he looked up, he even burst into tears, and the pear blossoms were hanging on his face with rain, which made me feel pity.This kind of routine can be used against people in her first year of college.

I think she probably attributed my unhappiness to the blow that she broke up with Wen Ling in a self-indulgent way.

I brushed off her hand without a trace, and said lightly: "Thank you so much, I blame you for ordering these dishes today? Indeed, none of them are my favorite. This sweet taro, I used to love it Yes, but it’s not from this company. Besides, people’s tastes will definitely change. It’s like I didn’t like carrots when I was young, but now I like carrots very much. I can’t miss a meal. I’m almost like a rabbit .”

"Forget it." Xi Xiang discouragedly pushed away the man's hand that came up to hold the fish for her, "I never thought of asking for your forgiveness. But Meng Chen, please look at me in our fourth year of college. In terms of the friendship of the year, don't make yourself so noble, we don't owe anyone? We are also girlfriends, do we need to be barbed when talking between girlfriends? I know, you have an opinion on me, you can do it Don’t wait to see me. Then do you dare to say that there is nothing wrong with Wen Ling?”

"Who is speaking with thorns!"

I don't even know which sutra she got wrong, and suddenly I got involved with "forgiveness". When did she do something sorry to me, and did she need to remind me?

I put down the spoon, made a crisp sound, and stood up in a huff. I ignored those probing eyes, stared at Xi Xiang's hand, and asked her in her tone: "Xi Xiang, how dare you?" Are you saying that you have never done anything to apologize to Wen Ling?"

Well, I also cared about this matter in the bottom of my heart, so in the blink of an eye without thinking about it, I turned back and became aggressive.

This state of being in a fight frightened her noble boyfriend, and she stood up in a hurry. Although he stood too fast and was a little awkward, it didn't prevent him from tightening his fat face to me, as if at any time. Cut me to pieces.

I'm scared.

I thought it was a reunion dinner, at least that's what I really thought when I went to this appointment.

However, in the end, it ended in unhappiness.I stood there, and the people at the meal time were waiting at the door to look around. I was afraid that I would miss an opportunity to sit down, so I immediately became the focus of everyone.

From my point of view, the black heads all involuntarily stopped eating because of the movement on our side, and even the bustling waiters couldn't bear the heart of gossip, and they stood in the center resolutely and silent.

Originally, the form of our combination has attracted their attention, not to mention that we have to make a big fuss during the meal?For the people who eat melons, this scene is enough!

The back of Hei Hei's head at the table next to us was the highlight of the whole scene, he didn't show his gossip at all, he kept his back to me from the beginning to the end, until my gaze was too eager, his female partner was really I couldn't stand it anymore, and poked him twice under my fiery gaze, and he got up from his seat in a panic, and then turned around and saw me.

I thought to myself that this world is so pitifully small, that random appointments for a meal can collide, and I really don't know if such a fate is a blessing or a curse.

Zhang Mianyang was obviously very surprised to meet me here, so I was not surprised, I was still very frightened!He actually has a contract with me to fall in love, and at the same time has a blind date in full swing. I really thank him, a man can be so eager, is he waiting to hold a grandson?If I'm exposed, my mother won't kill me!

"Meng Xuan?"

He couldn't even say hello.I just watched him stand there stupidly.Raising my hand, I stared at the back of my hand in disbelief, I was moved and cried?

Xi Xiang stood up with me, as if looking down at the people waiting to eat. Xi Xiang looked at Zhang Mianyang suspiciously, looking from bottom to top, as if Zhang Mianyang couldn't get on the table too much , but the fact is that Zhang Mianyang is just too white, and besides that, compared to her boyfriend, he is so handsome.

She asked me, "Who is he?"

The tone was questioning, and I was instantly upset again.I don't like her self-righteous tone very much, but she has talked to me in this tone since the day we met, and I have endured it for so many years.

"Oh, Meng Xuan and I are boyfriend and girlfriend...relationship." Zhang Mianyang pronounced the strange four words "boyfriend and girlfriend" surprisingly neatly and loudly, and he answered Xi Xiang's question for me as a matter of course .

As a result, as soon as he finished speaking, everyone's gossiping eyes turned to me and the girl who was still sitting in a daze. They were sure to see a scene where the original partner hit the mistress.

Hearing Zhang Mianyang's reply, Xi Xiang looked at me with more playful eyes, snorted coldly, and said eccentrically: "I thought you valued me so much, you made a boyfriend, I didn’t see you introduce me either. Fortunately, I invited you to dinner in such a grand manner, and also to catch up with you.”

"Do you think everyone is the same as you! Maybe one day they will be separated, and you will save it for others to laugh at?" I grabbed my bag and coat and rushed out of the wall between them.

Zhang Mianyang chased to the door, and I could see that he seemed to have something to explain to me. I thought to myself, what the hell, the two of us are just helping each other at best, there is no need to apologize and explain so much, the only one who is right What made him feel resentful was that he actually called me by my name in front of Xi Xiang, and even admitted our relationship to Xi Xiang, what is this?What is the female companion he brought with him?Isn't this magnifying my embarrassment in front of Xi Xiang and letting her humiliate me?

I was too lazy to talk to him, in order to get rid of him as soon as possible, I had the extravagance to stop a taxi approaching like the wind, and immediately got in as if I saw a savior.

The driver is a veteran, and he knew from my posture that I had an argument with my boyfriend. Although his idea was wrong, boyfriends and girlfriends are actually the same type. Anyway, it was a quarrel, so I had to run away quickly.

In line with the dinner party that wanted to clear up the suspicion, Huang became the rice of autumn in an instant.Looking at the icy wind passing by the car window, I let out a heavy breath.

And after the car drove straight for a long distance, I could still see Zhang Mianyang standing alone in the doorway of the hotel in the rearview mirror, looking at the direction the car was driving.Suddenly there was an unspeakable joy in my heart.

Open-minded people say that if you really like someone, you should wish her happiness, wish her happiness, let your love turn into a heartfelt prayer, and bless her for a lifetime. This is selfless love.

It is completely different from crazy love. If you like her, you must get her. If you can't get it, then destroy it. In this way, no one can have her.

I am the former, and I have an inexplicable longing for love, even though I know that the love shown in reality is not satisfactory, and even makes people feel disheartened, and I also have strong hostility towards marriage.But we can't generalize a "false" definition of love. There must be true love, and whether we can meet it is another matter.

A long, long time ago, I also liked someone, or I fell in love with the relationship between her and another person. I rejoiced for their sweetness and wept for their brokenness.

I think that although I have not experienced the heart-wrenching love in the legend in my life, I also feel the panic of losing love because of it.

To me, Wen Ling and Xi Xiang exist like this.I believe that besides me, the few of us who witnessed their emotional journey also had such stupid feelings.

After they broke up, we all tacitly placed the role of bitterness on Wen Ling's head, because Xi Xiang was the one who made a new love first.

We always think that Wen Ling must be very painful, because the person she loves very much abandons her, and finds a new love in a blink of an eye, and she is still alone.She will definitely use alcohol to drown her sorrows, and she is in pain. Even if she locks herself quietly at home and listens to music all day, she is actually looking for inspiration, which has nothing to do with our speculation, but we just think that she is hurting her. Sad autumn, because her lover left her.Are people like us holy?Not at all, not even disgusting.

We forced them to pay for our YY, even if the two broke up, we would not let any of them go, we pitied Wen Ling with our thinking, and resisted Xi Xiang with resentment.

Disgusting people like us are proud of our own compassion for the person involved, and unconsciously intensified it, hearing that Ling chose to walk out of our lives.

For us, we no longer have to pretend to condolence her as the top priority in life, and for Wen Ling, it is a relief. She no longer has to look at us with sad eyes to remind her of the fact that she was dumped, and she doesn't have to. We have been persistently living in that premature relationship in our thinking, and we are in constant fear.

I want the driver to take me around a long way. I haven't decided whether I want to go home first, and it will definitely be uncomfortable to go home. I might as well just sit in this warm car and enjoy a rare night view time.

After Zhang Mianyang watched me snatch the car and flee in a hurry, he only watched the direction of my departure for a few seconds among the bustling crowd at the entrance of the hotel, and then returned to his seat impatiently.

His expression is dull, in fact, he is always in this spectrum all day long.So, it's really hard to see if he has a different taste because of me.

The girl who was having dinner with him tonight was already looking miserable, looking at him pitifully, as if he had just done something outrageous.

And the truth is, he just happened to meet his girlfriend on the way to dinner, and that wasn't enough to bother him at all, and he could have put our unpleasant encounters on the back burner, but obviously, he did He didn't arrive, and took this unhappy meeting as the top priority, with his head drooping, as if he had been wronged so much.

His unhappy appearance soon attracted the girl's worried attention, and the girl said, "I never heard that you have a girlfriend, so you can lie to me!"

"We met each other on a blind date." Zhang Mianyang replied sullenly, his absent-minded expression made the girl a lot more worried, and her restless brows frowned even deeper.

"Acquaintance on a blind date? Can that be successful? I don't think you should look like you have a dead parent..."

A very discordant voice came in, and the girl's unattractive face suddenly looked as if she was overwhelmed. She stared at the source of the sound, lacking confidence but strong enough anger, "Who are you? We are talking, shut you up." What's up!"

"Why is it none of my business? You didn't see my friend because you saw the two of you, so you left in anger!"

"Oh, I remembered, didn't that person just eat at the same table as you?" The girl tapped her head, her face suddenly enlightened, "I was still wondering, that person was so angry, so there was someone like you son's friend."

Xi Xiang didn't bother to care if she was enlightened or not, and threw the chopsticks directly on the plate, making a crisp noise. She looked at the two bewildered people with satisfaction, and smiled triumphantly.

"What's the matter, can you continue to be arrogant if you dare to mess with the relationship? If you want me to say, don't even think about apologizing to my friend, isn't it just a blind date? What a deep relationship!"

Xi Xiang smiled coldly, then turned his eyes, and flung viciously at the girl who kept speaking rudely, "And you, a three little monster, how can you talk so much nonsense! You just sit and no one cares." What drama do you add to yourself?!"

"I can add any drama to myself as I like, do you need to yell here?"

The girl originally wanted to impulsively pick up the boiled water on the table, stand up and float to Xi Xiang's table together, and use the insufficient water in the cup to help Xi Xiang wash his face, but she was vigilant to find that although Xi Xiang's face was not beautiful, Rao Ren, but there was a burly and scary man standing beside her. She turned the cup around in a daze and poured it on Zhang Mianyang's head.

Zhang Mianyang: "...?" What the hell, it's on me again.

Fortunately, the water temperature was not too high, so he wouldn't be bald, but his hair was still wet and sticky, like a drowned chicken. He felt very uncomfortable, and when he wiped his face, his hands were covered with water.

He sighed silently, tilting his head to one side like an old man, almost paralyzing Ge You.

The girl was still in shock when she poured water on Zhang Mianyang. When she woke up, she hurriedly took a tissue and called the waiter again. Zhang Mianyang waved her hand, not to mention being tired.

Then his whole face met a large tissue that was spread out, and the girl forcefully washed his face unwillingly. His delicate skin screamed at the girl's rudeness.

Zhang Mianyang: "..." The girl's unskilled technique seemed to tear off his entire face, causing him to gasp in pain.

The girl said anxiously: "I used to wash my brother's face like this when I was a child. Whether the water is hot or not, are you okay?"

He said calmly: "I'm fine." After a pause, he gently pushed away the girl's hand that seemed to be about to continue, covered his face to clear his mind, and then said: "I don't know how to persuade you, I think what the lady said is quite reasonable, you should take it to your heart. Don’t always talk about your ideal type. When it comes to emotional matters, just let nature take its course.”

"Ma'am? Who are you talking about, Ma'am?"

In Xi Xiang's life, she hates being called old by others, which are some very common terms of address. She also needs to be divided into young and old. For example, this "Ms." is obviously a respectful title, but from her brain circuit, she wants to be understood as someone else. Calling her old.

"Then... beauty?"

Zhang Mianyang was discouraged, after all, the robber-like boyfriend next to Xi Xiang had a huge advantage in physique, especially when Xi Xiangping raised his eyebrows, he seemed to be about to punch someone immediately.

Xi Xiang hummed twice, rolling his eyes.She also looked down on Zhang Mianyang to some extent, perhaps because she was too jealous that Zhang Mianyang was fairer than her boyfriend and had a well-proportioned figure.In the end, her eyes fell on her boyfriend who carefully picked fishbone for her.

"From what you mean, are you going to break up with the girl you met on a blind date? Isn't it just a misunderstanding... You really care about her, so if you explain it clearly, it's over? Mother-in-law, do you still look like a man?"

The elderly woman who still has a passion for love said happily, completely forgetting that she was still crying for her parents and distressed about breaking up an hour ago, and now she is standing in the emotional world of others, waving the flag and shouting majesticly, Not to mention the smell.

Of course, when she said this to Zhang Mianyang, she paid special attention to Xi Xiang, making sure that the neurotic woman would not interrupt, and that's why she spoke so confidently.

However, what is fatal is not that she is filled with righteous indignation too much, but that she has grasped the wrong focus.

Zhang Mianyang looked at her helplessly, "Isn't it thanks to you that I can do this today?"

"Ha! This is your fault. You were the one who encouraged me to pursue true love at that time. I have only dated her for a long time now, and she is about to break up with me... Tell me, true love has reached this level, why do you still do it? Not suitable!"

Talking like accusations, the girl's eyes turned red again and again, and finally she just covered her face and cried bitterly, the scene seemed to be broken for a while.

At this time, Xi Xiang, who was preparing to watch the farce, was panicked after hearing the girl's last words, and the bitterness and meanness that had accumulated in her chest disappeared in an instant.

The girl wiped her tears by herself, and the tears flowed like a fountain. She sat down, as if she had lost her strength, "You don't know how much I like her, she is my ideal type, I like her, I don't care Whether she is a girl or not, I just like her. But she told me that we are not suitable, hehe, although our time together is quite short, like a month, but this month also has feelings. Why did she just break up when she said break up! Then why did you stay with me in the first place. "

Zhang Mianyang didn't know how to comfort others, so he looked around helplessly. Firstly, he must have noticed the scrutinizing eyes of his surroundings, and secondly, he really panicked to the point of a nervous breakdown.

Xi Xiang quietly walked to their table, put his hand on the shoulder of the crying girl who was out of breath, and looked down at the pair of red and swollen eyes.

When the girl looked up and saw Xi Xiang, she became angry and was about to explode, but Xi Xiang easily pressed her on the seat and couldn't move.

She lowered her body and whispered in the girl's ear: "There are not many people who are in love, and you are the few I have seen."

The girl didn't understand, and looked at her blankly. She smiled and said: "What I mean is that I have seen so many people who are calm after breaking up. This is the first time I see a person like you who wants to die. As for it? Just one person, you really think there is true love in the world. I think you have been poisoned, and you don’t know what to think that same-sex must be true love. Stupid.”

"Have you never believed that love really exists in this world?"

The girl didn't resist Xi Xiang, Xi Xiang was also surprised, but the hand holding the girl's thin and fragrant shoulders continued to exert force, she didn't want to suddenly lose face in public.

"I used to believe it, but now that the vicissitudes of life have changed, I don't believe it. Love is an illusory thing." Xi Xiang glanced at the lost girl lightly, knowing that she was remembering this sentence in her heart, she couldn't help feeling funny, but the smile Before reaching her heart, she inexplicably felt sour again, biting her internal organs, and she also became lonely.

The girl said: "You are so open-minded. If you are not together, don't you have any regrets?"

"There is nothing to regret. I am rational and she is emotional. We both know that we cannot be together."

Zhang Mianyang sat obediently in a daze, his brows twitched, and he felt that he knew something extraordinary, and he was still a little excited. He smirked twice, and then successfully attracted the two of them. Meeting with affection is like looking at a neurotic gaze.