Six Records of Floating Life

Yuan Yuan Liu Chang', the first word for a woman is "Ruyi Jixiang".Then my little nephew's name is Lin Shiyuan. "

"Lin Shiyuan? Not from our dormitory."

"Yes, I almost laughed out loud when I heard his self-introduction when I was reporting." I ate an eggplant with chopsticks in my mouth, "However, according to my father, our family name was not Lin, but Gu .”

"Huh? Why?"

"I heard that some of my ancestors were officials and businessmen, and their family background was not bad. But these made my grandfather suffer. My grandfather was criticized during the Cultural Revolution. After smashing it, I pulled a pair of trouser belts and hanged myself. My grandma took my dad and fled to Gansu, but I’m actually from Shaanxi. My grandma asked my dad to change her surname for fear of being criticized again.”

"That's it."

After drinking almost, the two of us planned to go back to the dormitory.Seeing a couple having a conflict on the road, Song Qing quietly asked me: "Hey, what kind of girlfriend do you want to find." The girl in front said "I don't listen" and shook her head desperately, and the boy next to her looked helpless.I also whispered in Song Qing's ear: "Anyway, don't be so unreasonable." Song Qing lowered his head and laughed twice.I asked him: "Then what kind do you like?" Song Qing raised his head, his eyes were particularly bright: "I like you like this." Then he laughed again: "Just kidding."

At that time, I really thought that Song Qing was drunk and talking nonsense, but now that I think about it, did this little fool like me at that time.

(fifteen)

Later, I found out that I liked him in the first semester of my freshman year.

It was Zhang Aobing's birthday that day, and it was rare for eight people in the dormitory to get together. They brought two beers without telling the management, and ordered a lot of marinade, barbecue and so on.After the lights were turned off, the carnival started and lasted until after three o'clock. The head of the house asked us to clean up and go to bed.I went to bed first.When I woke up, I found Song Qing sleeping next to me, and I sat up immediately, he was woken up by me, looked at me and laughed twice: "I drank too much yesterday, and forgot to climb to the upper bunk. ’ And so he climbed into his bed on the top bunk and fell asleep.

Then I realized... I actually had a reaction.Reassuring myself that this is normal in the morning, I quietly hid in the bathroom.However, when I was in the bathroom, I found sadly that all I was thinking about was Song Qing.

At that time, I only heard about homosexuality on social platforms, but never thought that I was one.

I was very scared, I felt uncomfortable when I saw Song Qing, and I didn't know what to do, so I had to avoid him first.

(sixteen)

Then I found out that while I was hiding from Song Qing, he was also avoiding me.I go out early every day and come back after turning off the lights. Sometimes I have to take a shower. At that time, there is no hot water, so I just hold on.

At that time, I was so distressed and hated that my teeth itched.

Later, he fell in love.

Lin Shiyuan told me this news.Song Qing made a bet with him in physics class to see if he could ask out a girl from each class.

It went well, they made an appointment to go to the movies one night, Lin Shiyuan, a gossip guy, was always nagging, betting on when Song Qing would come back.Jiang Lan was in the dormitory that day, and he joked, "Maybe he won't come back. There is a small hotel next to the theater ticket I gave him, which is clean and cheap." Others started booing, but the more I listened, the more angry I became.If you do high numbers, you will be even more upset.I threw away my homework and played with my phone for a while.My mobile phone at that time was a Nokia, and only one Tetris could be played.While playing, I also pay attention to whether the door is opened, and I don’t know how many times I died.

After some time, Zhao Jingtang reminded me that it was my turn to clean up today.I picked up the broom and swept for a while, and Song Qing came back.

"Are you finished with being lewd?" I looked at him, feeling a little sour in my heart, and I still insisted on pretending to be indifferent.Lin Shiyuan stabbed me: "It's only early nine o'clock, so there's no time to be lewd." Then the gossip guy was ready to move: "How is it? How is the date? Did you take Xiaoying down?" Song Qingqian She smiled lightly: "She's a nice person, we're together now." I was thinking at that time, if I could, I really wanted to wipe his smile away.

([-])

At that time, I secretly looked up information on homosexuality behind everyone's back, and opened up a new world.Even, even that kind of film has.I quietly downloaded one, frowned and watched the whole process, and found myself unresponsive, so I breathed a sigh of relief.

But that night, I had a dream.In the dream, I became the main character in the movie, and the other person was Song Qing.To make matters worse, when I woke up, my body was in a mess.

I thought, I'm done.

(Eighteen)

Song Qing and I are actually not in the same class, and when we were divided into dormitories, the uncle of the life management saw it wrong.Therefore, I didn't take the same physics class as them, so I don't know which one Xiaoying is.

One day, on a whim, I quietly hid in the back row of their class to watch.

That Xiaoying was very beautiful, she whispered to Song Qing, and smiled secretly after a while, just like every young girl, youthful and beautiful.Song Qing is also like a qualified boyfriend, with gentle eyebrows and eyes.

It's hard for me to describe how I felt that day.I seemed to be very angry, but I didn't want to swear like usual; I seemed sad, but I couldn't shed a tear.Thinking about it later, that feeling is called despair.

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([-])

Song Qing is still the same as before, leaving early and returning late, the difference is that he always talks on the phone with his little girlfriend when he comes back at night.

Every day, rain or shine.

Have you ever heard of a punishment called Lingchi?My heart was like that at the time.He was cut with a knife and forced to stay awake, watching his own blood flow continuously.

I really hated him back then.Obviously he climbed into my bed, but instead he avoided me like the plague.I turned around and held my little girlfriend's hand lovingly, leaving me alone at a loss.

Sometimes I toss and turn in the middle of the night, so I get up and light a cigarette to relax.It was also at that time that the growing addiction to smoking came out.

(twenty)

After a few months, they broke up.

I heard this news through Lin Shiyuan, and he also specifically said that people who are broken in love are not easy to mess with, so let's not mention this matter in front of Song Qing.

I can see that he must have a lot of emotional experience from his serious appearance.However, in fact, this little boy has never even held a girl's hand.

I have to admit, I was very happy to hear the news of their breakup.It seems that if they break up, Song Qing and I will be able to return to the way we were before.Very naive idea.

But in fact, before I had time to reconcile with him, he was farther away from me.

(21)

In his sophomore year, he moved out.

Except for meeting him in class sometimes, I never saw him again.

One day, I pretended to be indifferent and asked my roommate what homosexuality was.

Jiang Lan reacted first: "That pervert, why are you asking this?"

"It's just... I saw it on some social platforms before, and I was a little curious."

Zhang Aobing suddenly said: "Homosexuality means having love and sexual desire for the same sex."

Jiang Lan frowned: "I was drunk once before, and I met a pervert like this. I sat on a bench to sober up, and suddenly felt someone touching my thigh. I opened my eyes and saw an uncle looking lewdly at me. Looking at me, I have a general’s belly, and most of my head is bald. That scared me, and I dare not go that way again.”

Lin Shiyuan and Yu Zhou shivered with aversion to cold.

Zhang Aobing also told a story: "I also met a gay couple, but it wasn't that disgusting."

I remember that time, it was the time I saw Zhang Aobing talking the most.

"Before, the son of a family near my house was gay. After the man told the family, he pissed off his grandfather. His family locked him up. Later, he said that he would be sent abroad for treatment, but he ran away at the airport. There is no news so far."

"Is homosexuality a disease?" Yu Zhou asked.I had read a lot of materials before and wanted to refute, but Lin Shiyuan preempted me.

"That's not true!" Lin Shiyuan shook his head, "I have a male celebrity I like very much, but he just doesn't have a girlfriend and a boyfriend. I don't believe that my idol is sick."

At this time Zhao Jingtang came back: "What are you talking about?"

"We're talking about homosexuality, the kind of person who falls in love with the same sex." Lin Shiyuan turned his head and explained to him.

Zhao Jingtang smiled: "Why would someone look for someone of the same sex to fall in love with?" He closed the door, "Anyway, I'm not, I have my Xiaojing."

Then the topic turned to a group of single dogs criticizing Zhao Jingtang.

(22)

After listening to the conversation of my roommate that night, I suffered from insomnia again.

Thinking about it, I became more and more afraid.Based on their reactions, knowing that there is such a pervert in their dormitory, they are not scared to death.Song Qing will be scared if he knows that I like him.And he had a girlfriend before, so he must not be gay.And, what about the future?Dodge and hide?Does such a relationship still make sense?

At dawn, I found out that I hadn't slept all night.

(23)

One day, I came back to the dormitory after class.When I came back, I found that the latch in the dormitory was closed, so I knocked on the door.To my surprise, Song Qing, whom I hadn't seen for a long time, was in the dormitory.

Not knowing what I should say to him, I sat nervously on the edge of my bed.Later, I felt that it was useless to be stiff, and I might as well drag a box of beer back. I drank too much, and I could only speak out when I had something to say.

I got up, and Song Qing hugged my waist from behind.He said: "I really want to kill you, and then cut off your head to make a specimen. In this way, you can take it with you wherever you go."

At that time, I was only thinking about him hugging me, but when I heard that my head was cut off, I broke out in a cold sweat.

He broke his hand and walked out.Then my mind cleared up a bit, and I remembered that what he said was "