Anecdotes with Dr. Cheng

The content of the form is similar to but different from the online questionnaire he once made. It doesn’t ask “if you go to a banquet, what color tie do you prefer?” It pays more attention to how you feel, whether you are happy or Where is the degree of unhappiness?

It's a bit like giving you a full score of 100. The higher the score, the more painful it is. Let the patient choose the corresponding number.This data may not be [-]% accurate, but it is also very helpful for doctors to understand the patient's situation.

That's right, Ning Yi now deeply feels that he is being treated as a patient, even though Teacher Liu has been treating him with a relatively natural attitude.When the form was filled out, although the result was unknown, he had a vague conclusion in his mind.

Next, he talked with Mr. Liu for a few more minutes, and agreed on a time to come every week, and then he left the hospital naturally.When he reached the entrance of the hospital, he couldn't help but turned around and looked up at a certain window on the top. After a few seconds, he quickly withdrew his gaze and rode away on his second-hand bicycle.

Mr. Liu's words are always in his mind. To be honest, he is sure that he has depression that he has never met before, so he can't believe it.After all, he was absolutely sure that he didn't want to die at all, and he wanted to chase Cheng Xiuyuan back in his lifetime.

However, he couldn't answer many of Teacher Liu's questions, such as the core question, "What are your expectations for the future?" Even if he chased Cheng Xiuyuan back, it would be difficult for him to find what he was really looking forward to.What's more, he knew very well in his heart that once Cheng Xiuyuan was lost, he could not be easily found.

Thinking about it this way, is he really sad enough?

However, from the bottom of his heart, he is still unwilling to put himself in the position of a psychological patient.He refused to take medication, and promised to cooperate with psychotherapy, try to regulate himself, and try to keep anxiety and sadness away from him.

This is not a difficult task, just to make himself happy and comfortable, he thinks he can do it easily.

Ning Yi never expected that his confidence would rise quickly, and the slap in the face would come even faster.Focusing on making himself better, he didn't expect him to make himself worse. The spirit is like a plant that has lost its nourishment, and it withers quickly. As the owner and gardener of the plant, he can only do nothing to worry about it.

So, he made a stupid decision to escape.

On the appointed day, he naturally called Teacher Liu, saying that he was very busy with work and could not spare time, and hoped to make another appointment to see you next week.Teacher Liu expressed her understanding, and the two exchanged a few words like friends before hanging up the phone.

In his other hand he held a cigarette, a little pastime he had only recently learned, along with alcohol.No need to take medicine, a glass of wine at night is enough to make him fall into a dreamland.

See, sometimes it doesn't take much fanfare to go to a doctor, a psychiatrist?More unnecessary.By next week, he'll have a new reason to push back.

In the city of H, once it enters autumn, the temperature will drop rapidly. You may be wearing a thin T-shirt the day before, and you will have to wrap a coat with long sleeves on the next day, and the coat will not last long. , You have to put on thick winter clothes.

The cold weather is undoubtedly a suffering for many people who want to go out. The frozen road is really difficult to walk, and even the cold wind that blows is like a stabbing knife.But for Ning Yi, the arrival of winter is actually a good thing.

There are many clothes wrapped around his body in cold weather, and when he wears a mask, few people focus on talking about how skinny he is, and the world without nagging will be a little quieter.

Mr. Liu didn't make any calls after several phone calls were rejected by him. It wasn't because he was ruthless, on the contrary, he was very conscientious.If it were another doctor, even if he wasn't angry, he would be too lazy to talk to a patient who was disobedient and let go of others several times.

He was not the same. He tried to talk to him in a friend's tone on several phone calls. Even though his few words were like a handful of hot springs in winter, and the temperature was quickly deprived by the cold winter, he did not give up completely.

Ning Yi felt somewhat guilty towards him, so he felt both sad and relieved the week Teacher Liu stopped calling.

From then on, try to be nice to yourself, and you will be the only one left when you come and go.

Christmas is coming, and the joy of the approaching holiday began to float in the air. Although the factory will not be on holiday, it does not prevent them from celebrating Christmas happily.Buy apples and get free apples, as well as ribbons and stickers. You don’t need much money to bring the joyful festival to yourself.

Cheng Xiuyuan walked out of the ward wearily, and the sound of family members crying bitterly came from behind. His colleagues will do the comfort work, and now he just wants to find a window to get some air.The heating in the room is too high, making the air a little cloudy and stuffy.

Just now, a patient under 25 in his hands died of postoperative complications, and they tried their best to save this young life, but failed.This is a very common example in the hospital. Successfully walking off the operating table does not mean that he has completely regained his life from the hands of death.

Usually, he would only feel regret and guilt, for the patient and for the family members.Now he felt a little more pain that shouldn't have happened, maybe because the young man's outline was three points similar to Ning Yi's, maybe it was their equally young bodies.

Anyway, the result was that he uncontrollably thought of Ning Yi and his pale face lying on the hospital bed.

It's been almost half a year since we separated, and I don't know how he is doing?Have you become more mature and learned to take care of yourself?Are you... starting to love yourself?He would think of similar problems almost every once in a while, but every time he ended up without a problem.

Suddenly there was another person beside him, wearing the same white coat, the one on the other party was obviously much newer.After all, that white coat is more symbolic than practical.

"Old Cheng, from a professional point of view, your mental state is not right, it should be said that it has been wrong for a while. Why, are you broken in love?"

Cheng Xiuyuan leaned against the half-person-high wall in the corridor, the snow-white tiles were similar in color to the white coat he was wearing. "I can only say that your news is too late. It's been half a year since I broke up. Am I still sad?"

"Tsk, avoidance and resistance. Time is nothing. Some people seem to lose half of their love after falling out of love, and they will never heal. Coincidentally, you are one of them.

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Cheng Xiuyuan kept his eyes on him, "Maybe you are right, but my condition has not affected my work and life, so it is within the controllable range. Therefore, I don't need your professional knowledge for the time being, Liu Teacher, are you right?"

Liu Churong sneered, "What kind of sarcasm are you talking about? The concern of old classmates can be regarded as good intentions, right? It's too much for you to do so. In fact, if I really want to be honest, you may not be affected by work, but outside of work, you It’s gradually spiraling out of control.”

"It's not easy for the iron tree to bloom. Why did you give up? I suddenly became curious about you, even more curious than a patient I received half a year ago."

"...Others say that surgeons are ruthless. What do I think, you, a psychiatrist, are even more ruthless? When patients come to you for help, you don't want to help, but you still treat people as research objects. What are you like? look!"

Liu Churong still smiled at Yan Yan, "Old Cheng, you have wronged me. He came to register and fill out a form, but he didn't come at the appointed time several times, and I even called several times to care about him , but he refused to come, what can I do?"

After hearing this, Cheng Xiuyuan subconsciously asked: "It's serious? His family doesn't care about it."

"This child is pitiful. His parents have their own families, and his other relatives have no contact with him. He has just broken up in love. It can be said that his relatives and friends are constantly clean, and he is alone. Who will care about him?"

The more Cheng Xiuyuan heard it, the more uncomfortable he became, and he hurriedly asked, "Did he come to see you half a year ago? About how many months?"

Liu Churong talked about the approximate time, and wondered why his friend suddenly became curious about his patient.Then when Cheng Xiuyuan asked him the patient's name with a troubled face, he couldn't help straightening up and said, "Old Cheng, you have crossed the line. I can't disclose the patient's name to others."

Cheng Xiuyuan took a deep breath and said, "What if I am the object of his broken love? The only one who can take care of him now."

Liu Churong's jaw almost dropped in shock, "Are you kidding me!?"

Cheng Xiuyuan's face was serious, he didn't seem to be joking at all, and he finally restrained his face and said, "It just so happens that you have time now, come with me."

Ning Yi pushed the bicycle into the corridor, stuffed it into the corner and locked it.Breathing on his frozen hands, he ran upstairs. He walked too fast this morning, and even forgot to wear gloves. He rode all the way back, his fingers were numb from the cold.But don’t get chilblains, it’s too torture to have chilblains in winter!

Unexpectedly, he saw a dark figure at the door of his house. His first reaction was that there was a thief. The word "catch the thief" was about to pop out of his throat. Suddenly he saw the man's face clearly, and his whole body froze.

After a long time, he heard himself pretending to be calm and say, "Why are you here? What's the matter?"

Cheng Xiuyuan took a deep look at him, especially his eyes paused on his hands that looked like chicken feet and his protruding cheekbones.Suddenly aware of Ning Yi's nervousness, he moved away and said in a natural tone as much as possible: "Go in first, I've been waiting for a long time, it's very cold."

As soon as he heard that he was cold, Ning Yi immediately frantically took out the keys from his bag, but his frozen fingers were a bit recalcitrant.Instead of taking out the key, he took out chocolates, apples, and a bunch of miscellaneous things. In the panic, he couldn't hold his hand firmly, and the bag fell to the ground.

He just bent down to pick it up, when his hand touched another big hand that was much warmer, and he immediately retracted like an electric shock.

Cheng Xiuyuan paused for a moment, picked up the bag and took out a bunch of keys from it, skillfully found the correct one, inserted it into the keyhole and opened the door.

Ning Yi stood behind, somehow, only felt the crisp 'click' sound as if more than opening the door of his house.The moment the two reunited, there was no smoke or tears between them, there was only peace, as if...they had never been apart.

The author has something to say:

The [-]-point scale of the pain scale is really there. It is written in a professional book. I forgot the original name... As for the psychological content, I only took elective courses. I went to the library to read books about psychological counseling, and then read a few. I don't know what to write about personality books, and I have learned a few superficial things in professional courses...

Well, I'm stuffing the 30-word plot into a dozen or 20 words, and I'm going very fast, and it may even be less than the expected end-word count.