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Although I have always missed Shi Xiaofeng, but I always feel that the missing is a little different now. If the first spring missing is ordinary missing, then crazy missing, desperate missing, arrogant missing, pity missing, plain missing If there is no longing, then the current longing is different from the past.

Not long ago, almost a few hours ago, I still missed Shi Xiaofeng lightly, and I thought that this mood would never be shaken, but I heard others talking about Shi Xiaofeng, I don’t know why I couldn't bear the original calm mood.

When it was almost dark, after the eldest sister drove me away, I was alone in the room, still thinking about Shi Xiaofeng, and thinking about it, I went back to the problem I was struggling with not long ago, about Shi Xiaofeng He won't forgive me for torturing and killing people everywhere...Will he think that I have changed, that I am not kind, and will hate me?

I couldn't toss and turn that day, and I didn't have trouble falling asleep. It was probably because I was overdrawn in despair a few days ago. I fell asleep very quickly, and I didn't sleep well. I had a long, long dream, and I couldn't remember the beginning and the end. Clear, but I only remember a bridge in the middle - probably because I have been thinking about that problem, this dream just solved my doubts.

Probably in middle school, I was wearing the most beautiful black and white school uniform in the city, but it was still ugly. I talked to another girl in black and white school uniform, and I actually talked a lot. She said a lot of pitiful things to me, which can be regarded as Let’s talk about my troubles. I tried to comfort her with no EQ, but it was counterproductive. She looked very unhappy and said to me seriously: "If ten years have passed and you and your Arnie K meet again, Still believe that nothing has changed between each other?"

At that time, I couldn't get over it, because if it was over, this tangled topic would never end-I think so unilaterally.

But I already had the answer in my heart——

Yes.

Even if ten years have passed, I have grown taller, he has gained weight, and we can't recognize who is who when we look at each other, but it must not have changed, because I always think that whether a person has changed or not has changed depends on observing him It is determined subjectively by a person. If this person thinks he has changed, he has changed; if this person thinks he has not changed, he has not changed.

After all, this is only a unilateral emotional issue, and unilateral trust can naturally determine everything.

As long as we trust each other and feel that he is still the most compatible person in the world back then, then he must be—whether it is ten or twenty years later, or he is dying, and we meet on the hospital bed, as long as we believe, as long as Believe in him, nothing will change.

Of course, it's probably because I have a low EQ, that's why I feel this way...

After waking up that day, I felt a little confused between dreams and reality. I always felt that what I dreamed last night was not a dream, but something that happened in the past. Because the moment I woke up, I was so dizzy In the void of death, a single person blesses the girl in his dream for no reason—hope she is happy now.

At the same time, I also feel that I am suddenly enlightened - because if I think whether the other party changes or not is a matter of trust, then Shi Xiaofeng must feel the same way.After all, we get along very well, not to mention, my EQ is low, and his EQ is still negative...

So he must have felt the same way.

And, since we hit it off so well.Then I trust him, I believe that he will solve everything as soon as possible and return here, and he must also trust that I can get out of the mud and remain as kind as before.

That's good, when we meet again in the future, no one has changed, so it's good, no one has changed, we can live like the beginning......

It was still midnight when I woke up, around two o'clock, and then I probably solved a knot in my heart, I was overdrawn, and after that I tossed and turned and couldn't fall asleep.Afterwards, on the 11th floor, I heard a few broken dogs downstairs screaming. They barked for a long time, almost half an hour, and they didn't stop. I felt sleepy. I might as well go downstairs and kill these little dogs. thing.

Then, sadly, I stood in the elevator and pressed the wrong floor in a daze. I obviously wanted to go to the first floor, then walked through the hall, walked out through the back door, and took a shovel to kill those little things, but For some reason, when the door was opened, what I saw was not the cold hall, but light pollution and a bunch of people flashing around...

It always feels like the kind of party that is common in urban emotional dramas...

Originally, I wanted to close the door and press it again to go to the first floor, but unfortunately, a moment before the door closed, a big hand was placed in the middle of the door, which scared me so much that I thought it was a Chinese ghost story or something. of.Because the elevator is not very sensitive, Qiannv's big black hand was pinched a bit, and then the elevator made a beep, and then panicked, and opened the door with a "swish".

I seem to see a big, big head...

Nothing else was seen.

I'm sorry, but in fact, apart from having a big head, this brother is also handsome, handsome, and steps forward......

It feels strangely familiar, but in fact there is no doubt that this person is one of Shi Xiaofeng's confidantes—Fang, who seems to have been called Fang Datou by Shi Xiaofeng for more than ten years.

He smiled at me and said: "Jia Dou is going to dance soon, you go and see~" Has anyone told him that good-looking facial features can make people feel scary when placed on a scary big face... .

Under the control of fear, I let out an "oh" and walked out of the elevator stiffly. I saw Jia Doudou being dragged onto the dance floor by someone. I could tell from his expression that he was howling terribly.Then, for some reason, I became interested. After walking through the crowd for a few seconds, I found a place with a good view but not too many people. I entrenched here to watch the excitement.

The sound of the music still didn't attract the attention of most people, but a small number of people, such as me, Fang, and Shibu's followers who don't know why they like Jia Doudou... Where does it look like a popular character?Is it better to tease 13?

In fact, he is really not very popular, after all, there are still very few people watching.

I also don't understand music and dance, I don't understand at all, like a sound idiot, and I am a sound idiot in the first place.That short dance was over very quickly, and I didn't even understand what happened. Most people didn't even look at it, and Jia Doudou fled from the stage in a "crazy" manner.

At this time, I don't know why a sentence suddenly came out from behind my ear, the tone was very soft, like the voice of a midnight bell: "Jia Dou didn't even keep up with the rhythm, if Shi Xiaofeng definitely wouldn't be like this."

A very common sentence, not the content of "take your life" at all, but it shocked me a lot, I almost screamed instinctively, but I just took a breath, and "cengceng" He took a few steps forward, then immediately turned around and looked at the place where the voice came from just now.

Only now did I realize that there was a small depression in the wall behind, and Wang was standing inside, smiling faintly at me, holding his mobile phone, and his smile was even more weird when the screen was illuminated, probably what was displayed on it was the text on the junior high school language book. Which ancient text, why didn't it reflect on the face?

This is today, if calculated according to the day and night system, it is the second time I heard about Shi Xiaofeng from others.

So I was scared and ran away...

I don't know why, but I always feel that Fang Mou and Wang Mou somehow have a sense of sight in ghost movies, even though they didn't want to pretend to be ghosts at all...

I was scared away by Wang that day simply because he was really scary, as if he had just been pulled out of a TV that was playing an island ghost movie.After all, no matter how desperate I was when I heard about Shi Xiaofeng, I wouldn't run away in fright like I am now, let alone I am no longer desperate.

It's really strange, I am obviously thinking about the person I like, why do I feel hopeless, shouldn't ordinary people feel very happy?

Can't figure out who I was a few hours ago.

I finally ran into the elevator room and closed the door smoothly. Wang did not catch up with a smile, and Fang did not run over to grab the door. I successfully pressed the 11th floor, and the dog stopped barking before he had time to fight. room, get back under the quilt to catch up on sleep... Then I kept thinking that as long as I was under the quilt, Wang and Fang would not see me...

In fact, they didn't even look at me.

In fact, I still can't sleep. It's all due to Shi Xiaofeng's two confidantes. They have nothing to do to scare people in the middle of the night. Even if I ran to them to scare them, I can't scare me like that!

Tossing and turning, I just couldn't sleep, I felt like I saw a ghost when I saw everything, so I closed my eyes and didn't look at it, but all the ghosts wandered in my mind... Finally, I deliberately changed the subject and started thinking about Shi Xiaofeng again From the words of the midnight bell, I was surprised to find that the old man can still dance?

Shi Xiaofeng actually had this kind of setting——

At first glance, he has a good temper, looks very cute, seems to be very good at everything, and can make mistakes, looks very capable, talks nonsense when he sees people, talks nonsense when he sees people, is fearless, heartless He looks like, but in fact he has a big temper, is explosive, and surprisingly easy to coax, with a low EQ, and occasionally feels a bit cruel and a bit tyrant.

Just the type I like.

But maybe, this is just my conjecture. Shi Xiaofeng is actually a strong outsider and a middle-aged man. He values ​​family relationships to the point of being a lowly person. He likes to avoid things he is not good at. He doesn’t even under his own control. He likes to leave without saying goodbye. , love face, the heart is fragile to death, and always feel that he is afraid of something...

Then I fell asleep halfway through thinking about it, not knowing where my thoughts stopped.

If there is a chance one day, I must ask him to dance in front of me.

The author has something to say:

How about it, let’s go alone for a long story~ It will be over soon~ It’s Lao Zhang’s memories~

PS: If you can persist, probably start from this chapter, and the future works will be chapters with more than 3000 words. After all, the typing speed has increased a little...