critical value

It has always been the same, it is no longer the same as it was a few days ago, but earlier, earlier, in the first winter, or like a time I don’t remember—ordinarily, this time should be more appropriate to use daily life.

Living in an ordinary way, waiting for Shi Xiaofeng in an ordinary way.

It's rare for me not to be a daydreamer, but to do what I think of.If it had been able to be like this from before, maybe it would be easier now.But to get to the bottom of it, I like Shi Xiaofeng because he can say what I dare not say and do what I dare not do, but he never hurts the people around me. If I were like this from the beginning, maybe I could To truly see the world that Shi Xiaofeng sees, the sooner you share his pain——

If I am lucky enough to be loved by him, I have always believed that this is where my responsibility lies.

Recently, I didn’t do any cruel things anymore, but usually accompanied my eldest sister, played with her, ran errands for her to buy various gossip magazines, and hung glucose every day.It's really unimaginable that after asking her "I don't want to kill any more", she agreed so readily. She also said that she was old and easily felt lonely, so she just retired to the second line and went to play with her.

I feel that the eldest sister is really shameless, she is not even 30 years old, and she says she is old.

Playing with the eldest sister is a very easy job, because she is very lazy and really looks like an old man, or to use Shi Xiaofeng's metaphor - like a potted plant in a greenhouse.I either sit or lie down all day long, or lie on my stomach for a while, and I don’t even bother to walk. If I have to go somewhere, I stand on the shelf where the hanging bottle is hung, and slide over it with a "thorn".

Suddenly I feel that this is also a long-term illness...

The big sister’s potted life in the greenhouse here is much healthier than that in the old villa in the mountains. I don’t know if it’s because there is no WIFI next to the swimming pool. She doesn’t play with her mobile phone very much now, but holds a gossip magazine. The semi-monthly magazine, read it over and over again...or just stare at the water in the swimming pool in a daze.

Every time I stood by and asked her: "Are you free?"

She would reply: "I'm getting old~"

Probably because I was in a daze with her to get closer, she suddenly liked to tell me about the past.

I told her honestly that I was not in a daze just now, but was just thinking about Shi Xiaofeng. She said it was a coincidence that she was not in a daze just now, but was just thinking about the old and young master. Then she pretended to be merciful and started to give me Talk about Shi Xiaofeng who just came here when he was a child.

In fact, before she met Shi Xiaofeng, she was also at a loss, because the old and young master died, and it was agreed that when she was 16 years old, the two of them would move out together to become a mandarin duck thief, and when they were about the same age, they would go to a remote small town. A small dilapidated house was built in the ravine, and then turned into an old man and an old lady, but not long after, he committed suicide while performing a mission with a crazy look.

At that time, she felt as if she had been abandoned, and passed by in a daze for a long time.He also endured the pain all day long, feeling his depleted internal organs dangling like the internal organs of a mule or horse that had drunk water.Moreover, all kinds of strange medicines still hurt when dripped, even if you overeat to distract yourself, you will be in danger of death.At that time, I felt that I had to eat a good meal and then die.

In the end, I still didn’t, probably because I didn’t have the courage.

One day, I suddenly felt severe pain all over my body during the drip, so I ran to the nearest black hospital for treatment. In the corridor on the fourth floor, I heard footsteps, and then a boy stabbed a knife and ran past her. Then he shattered the glass and jumped down from the fourth floor with a "boom".

At that time, I was bored and wanted to see the little thing smashed into a puddle of tomato sauce, so I stood on the shelf hanging the bottle and slid to the window, and saw him walking like a normal person Run into the back garden of the hospital.Immediately, a group of people followed and ran into the back garden.In the end, I don't know where I went, I probably ran to the street for a blanket search.

For some reason, when she ordered the new medicine and was about to leave, when she passed the back garden, she always had an intuition telling her that the boy didn't go far, but he was actually hiding inside.Anyway, I had nothing to do that day, so I ran over to have a look.This is indeed a good place to hide.

Different from the neat and tidy gardens, the open space here is densely covered with various plants, which looks like the secondary forest commonly seen in "Survival in the Wild". Because of the dry weather, the garden is using sprinkler irrigation. Because the location is very unreasonable, it seems like there has been heavy rain everywhere. It is really wonderful here. If you are careful, you will not leave blood stains. The plants are too dense, and the leaves are blocked layer by layer. If you don't pay attention, you won't be able to find the footprints. The smell of plants and soil, as well as the water washing over and over again, probably can cover up the not so strong smell of blood.

At that time, I just thought that the child was lucky.

I chose a direction at random, pulled away the overlapping branches and vines, and saw the trunks of a large pile of trees, basically growing next to each other—the trunks, even if they were stepped on, would not leave footprints. ...and I feel that the tree is very solid...

After stepping along the pile of tree trunks, I accidentally found a small open space near the wall at the end. I don't know why there is no dense secondary forest growing, but because the terrain is relatively low, a pile of water has accumulated.

This should be the second time they met. She saw Shi Xiaofeng when he was a teenager sitting in a small puddle, covering the bleeding wound with his hands, and looking at her with desperate eyes like waiting to die.

"In the future, when you are stabbed by others, don't draw the knife yourself. That way you will bleed more and die faster." This is the first sentence she said to Shi Xiaofeng. To this day, she tells me about this experience It is still hard to forget, Shi Xiaofeng's smile after hearing these words.

What happened to that laugh?She who was pessimistic at the time, who underestimated Shi Xiaofeng, interpreted this smile as a relief that she was glad that she could die sooner.

But until today, after realizing the hidden wisdom of that silly child, and carefully recalling the time when he jumped from the fourth floor, she doubted that at that moment, that smile might have been understood from her words. It's a signal that you are about to be rescued, let's smile at ease...

Because his nature is very face-saving, no matter what kind of adversity he is in, he will not show weakness or choose to give up. This is also Shi Xiaofeng's strength.