critical value

After that, it has been flat, without any disturbances. Soon, the eldest lady called us all back to the old villa in the mountain forest.

Zhang Weiran and Dugu Yiyang are also there, now there are five of us, if Shi Xiaofeng comes back, it will be like the first autumn.No, there are fewer rats covering the roof.

It's still plain, summer passed, autumn passed, the eldest sister was like an old lady in her twilight during that time, she had nothing to do every day, she just lay on the recliner, closed her eyes and pretended to sleep, otherwise it would be endless Tell me some nonsense, some past events, or just talk nonsense.

Among the things that my eldest sister told me, there is one thing that I am particularly concerned about. It is the brothers of the BOSS. He has two older brothers. Waiting for the day when the old man doesn't want to do it anymore, he will inherit the family business as a matter of course, and BOSS, many years ago, when the young master, eldest sister, Zhang Weiran, Zhang Haoran, Shi Xiaofeng and others were still nobody All family property, the ancestral series of the Qing Dynasty.

As for why you care so much about those three brothers, because they feel that their relationship is so harmonious, much better than Shi Xiaofeng, and I feel that this is a normal relationship between brothers... Shi Xiaofeng doesn't have to be so aggrieved at all, why? Do you have to be so aggrieved?This is his own problem.

But still feel sorry for him.

If you are abandoned after doing everything for the family, please come back to me. I am not like Zhou Yu, and I will never let you live so aggrieved...

Everything is business as usual, I am waiting for Shi Xiaofeng.

It’s just that the eldest sister’s weakness has been weakening day by day. I don’t know why, it’s probably my illusion. I always feel that she feels relieved in the gradual weakness, and she lives more and more easily every day, even though she is so idle.

Sometimes it will be strange, her old man will suddenly lift the coffee table, and at the same time call the name of the eldest lady: "Yang Yimeng!!!" While making gestures, she is about to throw the coffee table out, but before she can let go, the whole person is in a hurry. It went down as if there was no electricity, so I had to put the tea table obediently on the floor, rubbed my old waist, and said, "I'm old~"

In fact, it felt like she was like that, and there seemed to be a faint joy in it that seemed to be gratifying.

It didn't take long before she became more and more abnormal. One night, it was almost winter, or it could be said to be late autumn. The curtains in the room were all drawn. She sat on the sofa in a daze, and I sat on the armchair beside her. daze.As a result, she suddenly covered her head with a curtain and asked me: "In this way, if the head suddenly falls off, will anyone find it?"

I replied: "No."

She continued to bury her head in the curtain, smiling "Koke Ke Ke Ke" very darkly.

At this time, she should have discovered that she was looking forward to something like this, or earlier, when her living habits suddenly changed, and she was in a daze like an old lady all day long, pretending to sleep, she should Found out - she was waiting to die.

This person did not die in the misty rain in the south of the Yangtze River in the end, but died in the heavy snow in the big refrigerator in our country very ordinary.

When I woke up that morning, I wanted to change a bottle of glucose for her old man, but I searched almost all the rooms but couldn’t find her. I had no choice but to go up to the attic, and found that there was a skylight at the end that was not closed. It leaked down together with the sunlight, and was baked into water by the heating in the room, which swelled the floor.

Out of curiosity, I quickly ran back to my small room next to Shi Xiaofeng, put on my coat, ran back slowly, and approached the skylight in the cold, only then did I find that the bottle rack on the head of the eldest sister was leaning against it. In the corner on one side—then she must be on the roof. Although it was very strenuous, it took a long time to finally climb up.

The strange thing is that she saw a piece of white snow, and there was no trace of her black clothes.

At the risk of slipping down, I walked a few steps on the snow-covered slope, and suddenly stepped on something incongruous under my feet, and almost slipped me with a "slip". The snow was dug out and burnt, and then sprinkled in the East China Sea. The snow was very thick. I dug for a long time before I dug to the depth of my feet. After two more dugs, I saw a familiar black.

——The corner of the elder sister's head.

She probably died on the night of the first day of the lunar calendar, probably because there was no moon and there were so many stars, she was frozen to death while watching the stars on the roof.

——I know it’s not like this, because she was still wearing warm season clothes, and she usually wore a bare face, but she had put on delicate makeup on the night of her death. It was found that she was waiting to die.

I don't know if she did it on purpose, but the eldest lady happened to be at home that day, so I stopped digging and went downstairs to call the eldest lady, and Zhang Weiran and Dugu Yiyang also followed in bewildered expressions.

Strangely, the eldest lady didn't respond, she just touched her sister's face covered with frost when she was dying, and said, "She has lived long enough."

Zhang Weiran was not serious, and started to make up for it casually: "It's not yet 30 years, how long has it been?"

"Because of the pain, time passes very slowly." This is the answer.

In the end, the four of us moved a prop coffin from somewhere, filled it with ice and snow, tied the head and body of the eldest sister with a rope, and lowered it directly from the fifth floor. We must be careful not to touch the frost. Drop a little.Because the frost was so thick, her black clothes seemed to have turned into white clothes.His face, which had finally become rosy due to the application of powder, was pale again.Taking advantage of the frost in his body, Dugu Yiyang hurriedly drove the car, walked on the dangerous snow-covered mountain road, gathered a lot of younger brothers, ran to some wilderness, and directly buried the head of the eldest sister.

——This is what the eldest lady meant, because she said: "Let's be buried so cleanly."

In fact, she should be quite sad, because what she said at that time made people feel very stiff.

After that, we were quiet for a long time, and lived normally for a long time. Zhang Weiran nestled in the room and ate the ghost mother-in-law senbei for several days. Staring at the screen of the mobile phone, but couldn't read a word, the eldest lady went back to school for class, and Dugu Yiyang finished burying her that afternoon, after that, the three of us wandered around in the old villa for a long time.

The three of them didn't say a word for several days, and when they spoke again later, they suddenly had an illusion-can I speak?Is this what it feels like to speak?

It's almost like this.

In fact, the brain has been shut down for many days. Although I was in a daze for a few days, I was not thinking about any profound problems. I just sat there in a normal way, my brain was shut down, but my eyes were still open, almost like a dream. A state similar to a zombie.

The death of my eldest sister was not such a sad thing for me. Although my brain was just turned on and I was thinking about her affairs, it was not sad. I felt deeply guilty for it.But, in fact, I know her very well, because I am also the same person, she has already given all her feelings to the dead young master, and she doesn't care about other people's affairs, even life or death.But I gave all my feelings to Shi Xiaofeng who didn't know where he was, and I didn't care about other people's affairs, even life or death.

- We are the same people.

In fact, it is very sad, it will become a burden for the most important person.

If I can be a little more independent and not rely on Shi Xiaofeng a little bit, maybe I won't be a burden to him, maybe this time, he is alone, and this time when his life or death is uncertain, I can be by his side and help him a little... ...which is not OK because of limited capabilities.

Because of limited ability and limited mental power, people who can only wait in place.

I waited for Shi Xiaofeng, the eldest sister to die first, and waited until the moment when I was able to return to the dead old and young master—it was also because I didn’t have the ability and mental strength to make the choice of self-destruction.

......

The topic turned back to death.

I don't know why I started to worry about Shi Xiaofeng. I don't know where he is now, how is his life, is he doing his best for the family that should not matter?Or have you figured it out and lived your life chicly?or it could be......

The topic turned back to death——

I have a very important matter to consider, in fact, I really want to ask Shi Xiaofeng directly, "Are you still alive", but I am too embarrassed to call him, too embarrassed to send a message, I really did something bad.

I have a bad habit. Every time I think about something, I always pace the room. Sometimes when I walk, I often don’t know what I am doing, and I may walk out of the room and go to other places ——For example, now, I just keep my head down and think about Shi Xiaofeng in a mess, but when I look up, I find that I don’t know when I ran to the reading room, Zhang Weiran is alone in the corner, sitting with a small The chair was lying on the table, eyes were open, and he was in a daze as if his mind had stopped.

Are you thinking about something sad?Miss his brother?

I don't know why, but I suddenly feel that I am actually very lucky. The person I miss will come back one day, but Zhang Haoran will never come back—so I am more and more worried that one day it will become so unlucky.

In fact, I am very scared. Shi Xiaofeng alone, in a place I am not familiar with, has to support a family by himself in an environment of suspicion and exclusion, and he has to withstand all kinds of pressure. The whole family under the BOSS Looking forward to his early return to take charge of the stone department, and my thoughts, these are trivial.

He may not realize that someone is looking forward to it, nor does he realize that someone is thinking about him. If it is his personality, he will definitely want to escape from this world, and leave everything for tomorrow... .

So in fact, even if I think about him in my heart, even if I really want to tell him what I miss, and hope that he can come back as soon as possible safely, it is better not to say anything. This is the only thing I can do for him now. I don't want him to bear an extra burden on me in such a far place, although it is trivial to him...

I want to say it, but I can't say it. I heard that Sagittarius is a constellation who is used to [-] points in his heart and [-] points in his mouth, but now even if he has [-] points in his heart, he can't show it on his mouth, and he can't show it to others. It will be embarrassing for both parties.Therefore, it is really painful to be unable to say anything even though you want to say it.This pain has actually been going on for a long time. From the time he left for the first time, there were so many words he wanted to convey. As a result, he was not by his side, unable to say anything, and standing beside him was unable to say a word.

It's been so painful for a long time, maybe the words are pale...

But in fact, I still want to say that when he has solved everything and has a little time to stay by my side... The more I think about it, the more afraid he will disappear suddenly.

Probably because I was too scared, I felt groggy, as if I was about to cry, I didn't know where the courage came from at that time, but I ran directly to Zhang Weiran, crying and asking: " Shi Xiaofeng won't die, right? I'm so worried about him..."

Zhang Weiran looked at me with raised eyebrows, and said in a disdainful tone: "Hmph! He's the only one? The only one who can kill him is himself!"

Hearing this sentence, obviously he should feel relieved, but he stood there and groaned even more.Zhang Weiran added without EQ: "It's not necessarily true, my brother is stronger than him, isn't he also dead?"

(And so on, it is Lao Zhang’s memory)

The author has something to say:

I almost forgot the plot, and I was still reading the previous chapters, and suddenly felt that I might have misunderstood the three-dimensional Shi Xiaofeng. He is not what I thought, but he will be reshaped slowly...