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When I heard her say that, I froze for a few moments, but as usual, no matter what I felt, I tried my best not to show it on my expression, because I used to look in the mirror and make various expressions all afternoon. Ugly except for the expressionless face.

So even though I was shocked, even if I really wanted to complain, and I was stunned in front of other girls for a long time, but I still did the old routine, first took a bite of the meal as if nothing had happened, and looked at it with a possibly confused look Looking at her, it took a long time before he said, "Oh."

But I am really curious about the next development. Shi Xiaofeng is probably ten years behind the girl he is hooking up with now. This kind of age difference, which is often mentioned in gossip news like "how old is this star and that star?" After the development, maybe there will be people chasing the article in the newspaper office, but it’s okay. Ordinary people go to the news because of the age difference. The first is 30 years old. Wasn’t there a 60-year-old before?

But that day, I exchanged QQ numbers with my sister, added each other as friends, and specially told the Lun family: "If you have any news, you must be the first to tell me." Afraid that she didn't have a mobile phone, I borrowed 300 from Zhang Weiran. Loaned to the Lun family, and made preparations to never repay it...

Really, just for a piece of news that won't make any money when sent to a newspaper, I really...

Dead pedophile old man...

That girl is really very active, which is also different from Shi Xiaofeng, she is obviously a Leo.She seems to have bought a pirated mobile phone that afternoon, and then started chatting with me in various ways. On the first day, she chatted nonsense, but most people’s enthusiasm for small talk can’t exceed one day. She is also very diligent in terms of time, basically talking to me about her little friend and Shi Xiaofeng every few days.

For example, Shi Xiaofeng bought chocolates for that girl, and made loud noises by bouncing around in the corridor, embarrassing the Lun family; It feels like she is still very young, and if she reveals her true nature too early, she will not be ignored; and she also helps her bring home a pile of sundries hoarded in the school building every weekend...

Then I can't remember what else, but it seems that the reason why the girl lives in the next city is that although she went to school there, she did not move to the next city. This is a normal thing, this city There should be a lot of middle and high school students like this. Both I and my parents want to have a good future, but they are always opportunistic. They can’t even afford a house in the next city. They just let their children board with a relative’s house. Leave her alone at school.

Such children are often lonely in the next city for several years, so it is better to stay in this small town of this city and work hard to get into the only high school in this city that entered the top 500 in the country, but unexpectedly ranked in the top 50 in the country, and passed three years in the dark Those kids are going to be great.

(This middle school student setting is a problem that the author often faces in the city where the author lives.)

These are not my guesses, this is my intuition as a 16-year-old who should have been fooling around in a random high school.

That's right, apart from women and sharks, many creatures in this world have a sixth sense...

Shi Xiaofeng likes to hook up with girls, so he goes alone. I am here by myself, even if I am living under the fence, I only eat one meal a day, but I am very happy, and the treatment is good. I have never been forced to bring a bunch of heavy things to send others home. There's no need to buy chocolates to give away, and have to hop around the hallway in a pretentious way...  

My recent life is still the same as usual, and it hasn't changed because Shi Xiaofeng is not around, or because he has become an old pedophile.I still do what I should do every day, eat the meal I should eat as usual, and fall asleep for the 12 hours I should sleep, but I vaguely feel that there seems to be a time when it was different from now.

It is also possible to vaguely feel that the current "seeming" is also fundamentally different from the "seeming" not long ago. The previous "seeming" has no essence to follow, it is just a very simple feeling.But the "seemingly" is not now, I still have a clear memory to pursue, and I can't forget it no matter what, it is really different from before, but there is nothing to pursue before, and the little bit that pops up occasionally is not very clear , Untraceable memories are really different...

Because I can still clearly remember, really clearly, it seems that there was a period not long ago when I followed an old pervert all over the street every day, eating two meals a day, sometimes three meals when the old pervert was in a good mood, But because in the middle of the night or early in the morning, there will always be a big black hand on my face unconsciously, so I have to wake up, maybe I can’t sleep for 6 hours every day...

In fact, at that time, I really hated that old pervert Shi Xiaofeng, but it was different from now. At that time, there was a feeling of helplessness, but now there is a feeling of resentment for no reason.

But it may also be because it is spring now, looking out of the window from "the spring breeze in February is like scissors" to now "the world will be full of fragrance in April", I don't know why I always feel very scared, from seeing the first forest blossom to its peak At that time, this fear has already appeared.Probably because spring is here, and the streets are full of advertisements for outings. I always feel that I should have a lot of things to do, but doing nothing every day hinders what I do. I don’t know when summer will come. Because of this, I am here Be afraid.

Then there is also the boredom of Shi Xiaofeng, the combination is the feeling of resentment now, it is not different from usual, it is just because of the season...

As expected, human beings are all animals, and they can't handle just a little change of seasons.

But at the same time, I recalled another thing. When the willow tree was still a piece of dead branch, and the snow left by the cold winter had not yet melted away, Shi Xiaofeng was also in another place at that time. I was still looking forward to the day when the creeper sprouted , the whole green onion, in that early summer season, I must be able to think of something...

I still remember the feeling of looking forward to summer at that time...

I don't know why I suddenly thought of the post I read before, thinking of Lu Zhu's boss who looked like Shi Xiaofeng, and also remembered the sentence he wrote at the end of the post: "I still remember the day we met, it was a certain friend in early summer. It was a rainy afternoon. But Luzhu is about to have a monthly exam, so Luzhu can’t be changed, come back tomorrow and continue typing~”

That's great, if one day summer comes, Shi Xiaofeng may come back because the city next door is too hot, I really hope that the next time we meet again, it will be a rainy afternoon.

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