critical value

Although I think well in my heart, my actions are not always proportional to my decisions. I am a very typical daydreamer.

I've been really irritable recently, especially when I can't sit still, go out for a walk, and then come back.Sometimes it was already dark when I came back, and when I walked through the crowded hall, I saw Zhang Weiran hooking up with others, and sometimes I was bumped into by others in the short distance before the elevator. Sometimes the mood will be particularly irritable, I guess this is the source of my irritability.

Sometimes I was really in a bad mood, because I was bumped too many times in just a few steps, and suddenly I wanted to hit someone, especially when another person bumped into me.But think about it, I can't beat it myself, so forget it...

I really envy the kind of people who can fight like Shi Xiaofeng, but God is fair, generally the kind of people who don’t beat others are better at fighting, otherwise the world would have collapsed long ago... ...so my first step in wanting to beat someone is to stop wanting to fight...

I usually stand in the elevator so entangled, and I can think of killing people with it, or the most efficient way to fight, but I often have to modify it. However, I estimated my manual strength. The original modification can't be done... and what's more terrible, I may not be able to remove it from its original place.

So it always counts in the end.

Then I went back to my small room. I don’t know why, but I suddenly became very irritable. I felt my whole body was tense, and I also felt very sore. It’s like being dragged downstairs by the class teacher for not doing my homework every day before the physical education entrance examination. It's like a circle in a class.It's that kind of feeling, as if I'm about to fall, but I'm very upset. If I have to say something, I will say without thinking: "I want to die." And with a messy smile.

It's not the worst thing, the worst thing is that whether I'm rolling around in bed or trying to hug myself tight, it's always that horrible "I want to die" feeling that I'm literally About to collapse, like a zombie who just came out of a coffin, silently stretched his claws to the sky, and then curled up hard, with the sound effect of "uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh——" I'm like a little monster...

Then I will proceed to the next step, turn on the TV, watch the very inspirational "Forrest Gump", while eating the abnormally spicy chili chicken, I feel so moved with tears in my eyes... But The movie is very short, only two hours; there is very little pepper chicken, and it can be eaten in just a few bites.After I finished eating, I became even more irritable. I really wanted to throw everything on the table to the floor and smash it into pieces, but I just looked at the expensive carpet, and I decided to forget it...

Lying on the bed, looking at the ceiling, singing K to the phone, I don’t know why I suddenly wanted to cry, so I cried, but probably because there was no reason, I just shed two or three tears, and it stopped quickly .

I don't know why I am, it feels like a snake spirit disease.

Although I have decided not long ago that I must wait until summer calmly, but I still can't do it. I don't know if I was like this in previous years, but this year I am really irritable. I always feel that I want to kill everything I see. The same goes for myself.

Sometimes when I have nothing to do, I will pick a time when there are few people to go out for a stroll, and just listen to songs like a grandfather on the side of the road, wandering around leisurely.

One day, I got up early and went out for a stroll around ten o'clock. The weather was already a little hot. Even though I was not directly basking in the sun in that one-sided fleece jacket, I felt like I was going to burn. .Walking on the street that is often passed by, the trees on both sides of the road seem to become lush overnight.Thin tall and thin grass grows sparsely under the tree, and last year’s withered grass can still be seen through the gaps, and on the vegetable that lowers blood pressure, the small yellow flowers of dandelions have already opened.

It's like summer is here, I don't know why, I should feel very happy, but unexpectedly lost.

Afterwards, I went back early because it was too hot. I used the WIFI in the room and checked the chat history of QQ, but unfortunately, it seems that the little girl from the stewed meat shop hasn’t sent me a message for a long time, probably because Shi Xiaofeng and the little girl in the next city have no latest developments, or the progress is too fast and her old man has no way to report...

Generally, it is these two situations, and they will not break up. According to Shi Xiaofeng's personality, if they break up, they will definitely say in the space: "Go to your relatives, labor and capital without you and all kinds of people, no one will be allowed in the future." Say [I don’t know her name] in front of me.” Then it is accompanied by a picture that seems to be particularly hurt...

Why do I always feel that this person is a little unbelievable...

And what's even more frightening is that, according to so many horoscope divinations I have read, I have a little understanding of Leo's routines. After breaking up, he will play all the mobile games at night and have nothing to do. , Crying to death, it took about half a year like this, and suddenly posted another article saying: "Looking at the bracelet you gave me, your Doraemon pen, I tossed and turned, and couldn't sleep all night." Then All kinds of express that they are actually very sorry.

At this time, everyone will be inexplicably very tacit, no one will like him, no one will reply, and no one will even dare to click to get such a click-through rate.Because everyone is maintaining his old face.Not long after, maybe the next morning, he had a good night's sleep and he became normal. Thinking of the post he sent last night after crying and fainting, he always felt that his old face was completely humiliated, and everyone seemed to have not seen it. Fortunately, I got up early, and then deleted it with a "shua".

This is the routine, living for the sake of face, but it never seems to have no integrity and no lower limit.

This kind of person is really troublesome, because he doesn't know how to take advantage of it, so go comfort him, no, because it will immediately hurt his hypocritical old self-esteem; leave him alone, and he will feel like Abandoned by the whole world, he may go crazy all by himself in the middle of the night, or hook up with a dozen girls who have no love...

What a hassle.

The author has something to say:

Do you know why I wrote this chapter in a mess and without logic?I saw the three-dimensional Shi Xiaofeng~ He is so cute~