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Although I looked like I was sleeping very hard that day, in fact, because my neck seemed to be a little stuck when I was sleeping at the airport, the back of my neck was hurting all the time when I was lying in bed that day, so I was in a light sleep all the time, epilepsy and black lights filled the room blindly. Of course I know who scrubs and scrubs everywhere.

But very puzzled, why didn't he turn on the light?Do you just like groping in the dark so much?And since it's all about cleaning, why not vacuum the palm mat as well?Still use a rag to wipe it in vain?Thinking about it, I suddenly remembered a very important thing - I seemed to be sleeping at the time.So he didn't want to wake me up?

flattered,

And he cooked some porridge afterwards and asked me to get up to drink, I was even more flattered, although I really wanted to say something sensational to him, but I just fell asleep like a seriously injured patient with a deadpan face—see It seems that during this period of time in Sichuan, I was pretending to drink and chat with my uncles, so that I couldn't tell the truth or make real expressions.

After that, I stayed in the Northeast for a while, and I got my wish to accompany the epilepsy; I got my wish, and talked nonsense with him every day as before;until almost winter.At that time, although I got my wish, I don’t know why I can’t experience the happiness I used to have. I’m obviously doing the same stupid things as before.

Although it is easy to find the reason in retrospect now, it was impossible at the time. I just vaguely felt that I couldn't help being entangled in the two or three things with my brother. , for a while, I was reluctant to part with the old memories of the two of us running around and playing, and for a while, I complained to myself: "Why are you still thinking about those trivial things! Why do I have to think about him!"

Just like he was stabbed by him before, and the state was the same when he first arrived in the Northeast.

It would be nice if I could let it go quickly this time.

Forget it, let's talk over a cup of coffee.

I was a carefree otaku in the Northeast, letting epilepsy lie on me every day, and the two of us watched TV dramas together.In my mind, apart from what nonsense we talked about today, where we went, and how comfortable he was lying on me, it was the plot of the TV series.

I hadn't figured out how to face my brother until one night, when I was alone and had nothing to do, I really wanted to go out for a stroll.Put on the coat that epilepsy said I wore from October of the first year to May of the second year, and a pair of dirty black running shoes that are no different from usual, I walked on the deserted streets and felt the cold wind .

I don’t remember when it was, but it seemed to be an October night, the weather was already getting a little cold, the wind was blowing on my face, and before I knew it, it had blown away all the heat accumulated in the room for a day of idleness.I saw that there was no one around, and my mind was extraordinarily clear because of the cold, so I couldn't help thinking about the past.

This is called "Three Watches in the Middle of the Night - Leo's Glass Heart Theater" on Weibo.

That day, I seemed to think about it from my childhood and when my grandfather hadn’t passed away, and then I arrived at the experience in Sichuan some time ago in a messy and fragmented way. Because I was deliberately avoiding the memories related to my brother, I focused on When I was having a good time with those friends and uncles, I suddenly remembered a very important thing——

It happened to be the hottest few days of the year, and I was drinking Laobaigan in the box of a hotpot restaurant with Ba Bawo of Wang Jiafang’s three families. Probably the reason why the decoration of the box in that store is still fresh in my memory. Everything that the uncle said was forgotten, but this incident was still remembered after such a long time in the Northeast.

That box, probably because the owner was too stingy, was installed in the place where the porch should have been and took up half of the aisle. There were three uncles in it, and I, who was 180+ tall, had a hot pot. I couldn’t help but secretly After opening the sliding door, he stretched half his legs out, and while eating hot pot and drinking Lao Baigan, he beat the beat outside with his feet.

Chatting with the bully of the Wang Jiafang family, the topic is also unconventional. At first, it was a topic that was delicious or not, and then it became the recent price rise, the political situation continues to deteriorate, and the national life will one day be different. Back in the Xia, Shang and Zhou times, I usually don’t want to listen to it at this time. After all, although what I said is reasonable, it is obviously nonsense. Then, during the few minutes when I diverted my attention, the topic inexplicably brought us back. The four families themselves.

——At the beginning, it was making jokes about each other's distant relatives, and then it was "how is my son in college?" It's really strange that they should have graduated long ago. Why are they still in college now? I am relatively young and promising... I gradually become something. For many generations, the relationship between the four of us is as good as in "Dream of Red Mansions". on my brother.

In this case, I would listen attentively to the uncles of the general family, and dig out their true attitude towards the Shi family from every expression and every action they say, so as to decide the next step of this person's life. Whether to die, or to develop freely without contact with him.But when it comes to the tyrants of Wang Jiafang's family, I really want to have a good chat with them, and talk about my brother's little things like biting me when he can't sleep in the middle of the night, instead of suspecting them and plotting to hurt them.

After all, they are also my good brothers' bullies, right?

But I don’t know why, when the four of them were happily hurting my brother, the atmosphere suddenly became serious. Staring at me, he said, "Shi Xiaofeng, you and your brother were the ones who grew up with us, so if you don't like something, you can listen to it and go."

When I heard this sentence, I had a bad premonition in my heart. Generally, when a pig's feet are said this sentence, they will either hear bad news about "the fiancee died" or "the mother died", or they will be caught by the other party. What kind of request is very tactful, the kind that I have to obey, so I refused in my heart at the time, but I still agreed very well, and I said: "Oh."

So Jia Dou's bully continued to say: "Actually, the three of us agree that you are more suitable to take over the Shi family than your brother, especially now that my father is gone...so... ...so what......"

He hesitated for a long time without saying anything, and his face, which had been flushed from drinking and eating spicy hot pot, suddenly turned pale, and his expression was regretful, to the extent that his intestines were broken.

Fang Datou's tyrant looked at his appearance, raised his eyebrows contemptuously, and took over the conversation: "So we want you to replace your brother." He blurted out casually, and after finishing speaking, he gnawed calmly. He took a sip of the blood clot and boasted: "This duck blood is quite tender." He took another sip of wine and buried his head to continue eating.

I was actually a little unhappy when I heard it, maybe it showed on my face, anyway, the atmosphere suddenly fell silent, and I slammed the bent long chopsticks across the mouth of the bowl, making the atmosphere even more embarrassing.Jia Dou's father saw that the situation was not going well, and immediately smoothed things over with a cheeky smile: "But don't worry, we will help you, and no one can blame you whether things work or not...Of course Hey, if you don't want to, just pretend I didn't say anything...don't take it to heart..."

I ate two more mouthfuls with a sullen face, but after thinking about it, I always felt very upset, so this time I really shook my chopsticks and left without saying goodbye.

That meal gave me two impressions, especially now that I recall this feeling even more clearly——

One is that Wang Dandan was indeed born by his father. I still remember that Wang Baba was so absorbed in eating and drinking that day that he didn't say a word to anyone else.

The second is that I seem to have really put my brother in a dangerous situation. Since ancient times, although our four families have held together to keep warm, since ancient times, it has always been the Shi family who has inexplicably held the leading position among the four families.What they said was to ask me, the prince, to usurp the throne. This way is a little better, but now I live in the northeast and look like I won’t be able to come back for a while. I guess they have long been plotting to persuade my brother. , and now his dominance may be in jeopardy.

I really thought about it and suddenly remembered what my brother said after smashing a teacup in my face that day. He said that I don’t need to hide it from him. That day in the hot pot restaurant, I and Wang Jiafang’s Ba Ba He probably already knows all about what he said, and he has no objection if he wants to seize power. The two of us will fight to the death...

I did remember it, and I remembered it very clearly, and I could even recall the tone of his speech at that time.For some reason now, I feel that tone is a bit sad.

After all, we used to be such good brothers. Although we have different fathers and mothers and are more than six years apart, we are closer than many brothers-this is an objective fact, not only for me, but also for me. So does he.To be able to say ruthless words at that moment, maybe it was because of trying my best.

That day I thought that my brother might be in danger now, but he hasn't called me for a long time... The pace involuntarily accelerated, getting faster and faster as if he was about to gallop, with various moods The seed is not good, and people can't help but rush into a tavern and drink it hard with a bottle.

Then I saw epilepsy again for some reason, and the two went home together shoulder to shoulder.

Because I just secretly made up my mind, so I guess, this time I can't stay with Epilepsy for a long time, and I have to leave him for a long time...

So when I passed a small dark alley, I said: "Epileptic, I should have said it before, you are sometimes cute, but most of the time you are stupid, I like you very much..."

......

"That is true

It's been like this since as long as you can't remember

I've been tossing and turning for so long, but you are really the best. "

But I will leave such a good you for a long time, for some things that have nothing to do with you.But I still hope very unrealistically, if I can finally come back someday, the best thing is that you can stay where you are and wait for me.