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From the day when he was crying while eating abnormally spicy oden, I started a long feeding process. On the first day of the long feeding process, I fed ice cream. As a result, he ate five wholeheartedly along the way. Six, didn't say a word to me, and didn't let me have a word.

The way he eats reminds me of a certain fan-facilitation game she played when I met the young lady in Russia a long time ago. Then there are various endings... In the end she uninstalled the game, it seems because of a virus...

Ah, it seems like I shouldn't mention this. Doesn't that mean that BOY has a virus?

That day I followed him all the way to the door of the house, and his dear Ma Ma opened the door a little, and shone a bright flashlight on my face, and it took a long time to drag his dear son into the house. He stood by the door and said a lot to me: "It's not that our family is in a bad family, and it's not that this kid has never eaten anything delicious, it's just that he is rather bad, and he likes to cheat others when he has nothing to do." Then Close the door with a bang, leaving me alone outside the door dazed.

I suspect that this BOY may really have hidden unknown bugs, maybe he has perfectly inherited his dear Mama's brain circuit?This is indeed the case.

For example, I just paid the cost of five or six ice creams that day, and I spent an extra minute at night thinking about what to buy for him the next day to feed him. The words were out of tune, the wind was a little slanted that afternoon, the big broken umbrella couldn't cover the drizzle, and my back was just wet.

When I saw him again the next day, although he just handed me a pack of "Little Crazy Crisp", he held the plastic umbrella and grinned at me—I still remember that smile, Covered by a layer of drizzle in front of him, the bluish-gray light seemed to be lightly covering his face, blurred but clearly visible, making the smile so soft and pure, obviously in a noisy environment, but As if it has never been polluted by anything in the world, it reminds me of the "Ai Lian Shuo" I learned in junior high school.At this time, my heart trembled slightly, a feeling I hadn't felt in a long time, as if I was bumped lightly by an alligator, the warmth spread from the inside to the outside, and when it spread to the limbs, it was a long-lost light feeling.

He smiled secretly while eating, I always felt that this time might be the best time to strike up a conversation, but I searched through any idol drama I have watched in my mind, but I couldn’t pick out a word, my thoughts were chaotic, and I was confused. These fragments flashed erratically, the heart was beating violently, and there was a pain in the chest.This is so similar to the sadness, despair or decadence of the past, but it is actually different, because when I look at him, I feel more relaxed and warm.

But just walking like this, I really want to chat a few words but can't find a suitable topic. It's really embarrassing... It's so embarrassing that I want to jump up and down and grab the ground with my head, In short, it was embarrassing to a state of insanity.I don't know what's going on, but I just wanted to do this all of a sudden, I suddenly stretched my feet, and tripped him staggeringly.

He looked at me with a dazed face, and I had no choice but to fool around with a silly smile of "ah ha ha ha".But why do you suddenly want to trip him?I still can't figure it out.

Along the way, I was still embarrassed to the point of being delirious, trying to trip him from time to time, or push him into a small tree ditch by the side of the road, or grab his umbrella and throw it to the surrounding shops On the eaves... In short, it was a mess, thinking of many prank ideas of elementary school students, but I still restrained myself calmly, and expressed all my impulses with my weird walking posture - shaking, shaking, shaking, shaking Leg flick leg flick...

Epilepsy looked at my legs and said silently: "You walk like a lion."

I replied: "Ahahaha, of course, I am a Leo~"

"Oh."

So this topic that was finally brought up came to an embarrassing end.Embarrassment makes me want to hug my head and then break down for a while...

On the third day, I still sang as usual, but I often lost my tune and forgot my words. When I was sitting at the gate of the No. [-] Middle School, I was also in a trance. , inexplicably feeling as if in a dream, everything is not very clear.So I just sat there that afternoon, without thinking about anything, and I didn’t even notice that the people at the school gate were almost gone. Finally, I was suddenly woken up by a gradually familiar voice. He asked me: “Do you sit every day?” What the hell are you doing here?"

I was so scared that I almost fell off the plastic chair.But I knew very well in my heart that if I fell down, I would lose face, so I could only look at him calmly, smiled calmly and said, "Wait and see the car accident. But why haven't you hit anyone at the gate of your school?" Something happened."

When he heard me say this, he didn't even frown. He still had an innocent face, and said in his usual ups and downs: "Then you can drive yourself to hit it."

"I just like to sit on the sidelines and watch the fun, and I'm not interested in getting myself involved." I also replied with a deadpan face and pretending to be serious. Sure enough, people's behavior patterns will become the same after staying together for a long time .

I don't know why, when I stayed with him, although I didn't feel like we hit it off, I clearly realized that we were indeed the same person. After all, we got along so well, it was like talking to myself Every word and every action seems to be "unexpected and reasonable", but it feels "unexpected and reasonable", which is inexplicably interesting.

In the past few days, he got to know each other while feeding him. The two walked on the side of the road and talked loudly. I stretched out my feet to trip him from time to time, but it was amazing. I can't fall down, it seems that I have predicted that I will do this in advance, but I still pretend to show my face, but I don't think about anything, but I have a tumbler set that I will never trip, and I will never fall. He continued to eat in a very calm manner.

Chatting and chatting, I can’t remember how much nonsense I said happily. Anyway, I didn’t remember a single word of the nonsense. Maybe one day I finally started talking. I don’t remember exactly which day it was from the feeding session. As a dividing line, I can gradually remember some interesting topics and some interesting things.

From the No. [-] Middle School to his house, you have to pass a very narrow road. On the right side of the road is a vocational high school. The wall is covered with creepers. It is a large green area. Under the light, especially when it rains, it is inexplicable. The ground looks a little weird, but if you glance at it again under the sunshine, you will feel warm in your heart inexplicably, and you can't help but recall the scene of playing in your childhood - if I die suddenly one day, when I let go of the lantern, I say Maybe this green wall will be used as a clue for the revolving lantern?

Suddenly I remembered that when I was in elementary school, I would pass through such a wall every day when I came home from school, and then I would often catch a creeper and slap each other with my friends... Thinking of this, I There was an inexplicable impulse, so I grabbed a section of the ivy and swung it towards the epilepsy standing beside me. He jumped back in a tacit understanding, and grabbed a section of it, and we slapped each other in a tacit understanding. , for a while, swords, swords, clouds and orange waves were treacherous, but there was a tacit understanding, and no one hit anyone.

Every time the two of them cut off all the creepers at the same time, and laid out sections under their feet, there was always a little smile from the inside out, and there was a feeling of freedom and inexplicable happiness that I had never felt before. ——So the expression on his face changed from a pursed smile to a grin, from a haha ​​to a long smile.The epilepsy on one side felt contempt inexplicably—so the expression on his face changed from calm to contempt, and then from smiling without saying a word to smiling stiffly...

Inexplicably free, as if there is nothing to worry about.

There is an inexplicable tacit understanding between me and him, and there is also an inexplicable feeling that I have never experienced until now.But it didn't hit it off right away, because the only thing missing was the sense of familiarity with old friends who had known each other for many years, but it was replaced by another feeling, as if looking into a demon mirror?No, this metaphor is inappropriate, it should be like the soul looking in a mirror, tearing away the skin, flesh, tendons and bones that only exist in the world, and then looking at it, as if seeing itself in the mirror...

The usual disguises in the world are more frank than ever, so I feel more comfortable than ever.

It seems that if you give me a little more time, I will be able to figure out all his tricks.

However, this is not the case. After all, my understanding of myself is limited, not to mention that there are two layers of flesh and bones between us. After all, I still don’t understand him, and I don’t understand myself. I realized it later.

When we first started chatting with each other, we not only grabbed the ivy and chatted while fighting, and we didn’t just make up a topic when we saw anything, but we also stood downstairs in their house and chatted. Excitedly, he took a nail and poked it on the wall downstairs of their house, rubbing it back and forth, and a hole was found after a long time; he also tore the wall layer by layer with a very excited look, Layers of small advertisements are getting thicker and thicker, so that the janitor sweeps the yard every morning and sweeps out a bucket of shredded paper.

During that time, we talked about a lot of topics that I can vaguely recall now. For example, the two of us made up a lot of new terms that only two people know; we also agreed to conquer the world together, and I was responsible for stealing the arsenal for him. ; From ridiculing all the characters in the textbook to encouraging him to study hard, he will be ashamed if he fails to pass the high school entrance examination; and then he is jumping around like a primary school student, stepping on broken cars and mattresses discarded by other people's homes, Throwing small balls of paper on the side of the street, the aunt pretends not to know, or secretly laughs at others in a very unreasonable way. Usually I take the lead in doing bad things and he follows along to cheer.

During that time, Jiangnan was misty and rainy, and the feeling of joy and joy every day carried the audience from the inside out. I somehow felt that the current situation seemed to have become as simple as more than one development game, because the player himself, unexpectedly There is a feeling of being alive after a long absence.