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Maybe I really didn't know Zhang Haoran much, nor did I get close to him.

In the first stage, he would still pester me a little bit, but he was always scolded by me, and over time he lost interest, and I don't know where he went.I only care about my sleep problems and how to make up for my homework, and what my elder sister said with a smile before, "I'll cut you if you don't pass the high school entrance examination". For Zhang Haoran, and even the pursuit and killing are getting less and less concerned.

In this way, it can be regarded as cutting off contact with him.

But at that time, of course, I didn't realize anything, and took everything for granted.

In fact, I should have discovered it by the second stage. Most people would have discovered it, and I was not particularly slow... At that time, sometimes I was on vacation, and I stayed at home to sleep, and I slept until the afternoon. It's strange why Zhang Haoran didn't come to wake me up.Then he got up, yawned and stretched, and wandered around looking for him, but couldn't find him.

I seldom saw him after that.Whether it's on vacation or in the evening when you come back from school.

Sometimes I seem to see his figure, but when I follow him, I find that it is only Zhang Weiran.

Of course, I didn't care too much about it. I was in a time when it was easier to leave early and return late, so I didn't make any guesses about his early departure and late return.Even later, I found out that he had learned badly, and when I recalled his alienation from me at that time, I suddenly regretted it, and then envied my brother's snake essence for no reason-if I was half as neurotic as him, You can definitely guess what Zhang Haoran is doing.

Maybe even being hugged by a bad girl very rarely and handing him cigarettes and alcohol.

After all, Zhang Haoran didn't learn that kind of evil eyes when he was a child, it's really cute.

At the beginning, I found that something was wrong with Zhang Haoran. It was already in my high school. It’s true that I was more ruthless than I imagined. There is no pressure, but I didn't accompany Zhang Haoran throughout the summer vacation, but ran all over the street with my classmates.Even during the whole summer vacation, counting the pursuit, the time spent seeing Zhang Haoran did not exceed 70 hours, even so, I didn't find it strange.

Maybe his heart was already cold at that time...

When I was in high school, I got busy not long after the start of school, and I felt a little unaccustomed to having just let go of a drunken summer vacation.I was admitted to a not-so-good high school, so it’s not like the three-year single-session holiday cut off like a key high school. When I was in the first year of high school, I still had the kind of weekends and winter and summer vacations that were basically at the elementary school level, but after all, the class hours were still increased. Yes, I was so lazy during the summer vacation. I still fell asleep during the first half of the first half of the first semester of high school, and went out to play with my classmates from time to time.

When I first entered high school, it was probably because Zhang Haoran stopped eating me, and the frequency of chasing and killing me gradually decreased. I had many more friends than when I was in the third year of junior high school, and my connection with people seemed to be getting closer. So I don't care about Zhang Haoran even more.The proportion of him in my heart is getting smaller and smaller. Even if we still chase and kill together, we can still be regarded as a life-and-death friend, but the two of us have long since degenerated into mere colleagues without any relationship.If left alone, it might be like an idol drama - he is about to fade out of my life.

At that time, I probably didn't care much, but Zhang Haoran still didn't think so even though he had been away from me for so long.

He may have thought a lot about the future, perhaps even spanning a year, before making that decision.

Perhaps it can also be seen from this that he has already anticipated that I will stop him after a long time, and he does not want to go down again——

It seemed to be a Saturday morning, and I was going to sleep through the afternoon like any other Saturday.But I was suddenly woken up by the ringing of the mobile phone. I was sleeping soundly, but then I was forced to wake up suddenly. I felt a little irritable. It looks like Zhang Haoran is calling.

I miss it so much.

Probably because of nostalgia, in fact, I still miss the old days, and I don’t want Zhang Haoran to fade out of my life... At that moment, I answered the phone calmly, and said in a steady tone: "What's the matter?" ?” Zhang Haoran said that he was dying, and told me to go to a place quickly, and then said the address fluently.

I can say that I am familiar with that place, but in fact I am not very familiar with it. It is just a grassroots nightclub under the Squirrel Department. I used to be there with Zhang Haoran and beat those X who owed money and were arrogant. By the way, cut them a few knives.

As for what the squirrel department does?They are an important source of our gang's finances, responsible for running various stores and reselling various things.There is also a legend in the squirrel department, that is - from the chief executive to the grassroots nightclub managers and delivery boys, no one has more dustpans than buckets, and they are all good at making money by nature. Of course, this is also easier Corruption, so the financial audit department has always been on guard against them......

As for why they are called the Squirrel Department?Because all the stingy and money-loving people in the world basically have one characteristic—as long as they have money, no matter whether they can spend it or not, they always get it first and then hide it.It's like a squirrel stuffed a nut in its mouth, and then buried it in the ground. As a result, it was too late to eat after a whole winter, and it could only be secretly forced when it germinated in spring.Hence the name Squirrel Department.

Probably Zhang Haoran invited me out for a long time. Although it was midnight, he was really happy, so he was foolishly thinking about the anecdotes of the squirrel club all the way, and then smirking like a snake.... ..

I took a taxi that was still running in the middle of the night, cheated me with a red Mao grandpa, and finally arrived at that little place.

Turning around a corner where people often throw corpses, you come to a small dark alley. On the left side of the alley, there is a wall lamp shining on a wooden door. The wooden door is about 3 meters above the horizon, so there is a side staircase connected to it. On the ground, the steep stairs are a bit scary.Because the wall lamp was not very bright, it was not until I went up the stairs that I realized that in a small corner next to the wooden door, there were two strong men nesting there playing "one knife to the left, one knife to the right, and one knife if the situation is not good", which shocked me.

I went up quietly and poked them both, and they recognized me—"You are the one who came to pay the debt last time... Mr. Shi~", I said "Oh", They opened the door and let me in, talking about something close to me.

The hall was crowded with people, and it always looked like this at all times. At night, a bunch of teenagers and adults gathered who didn't know how good sleep was.I stood at the place where I just entered and looked around, looking for Zhang Haoran's figure. I guessed that since he was the one who asked me to come here, he should be waiting near the door.

After looking around for a few times, I finally found him. He was indeed sitting in a corner of the hall, and sometimes he was blocked by the high-flying people, but when they went to other places, he could clearly see him. It is indeed Zhang Haoran, although it is only a back view, he is still very recognizable - a child, wearing a Qing dynasty braid that few people do now, because it has entered winter, the style of dressing looks a bit like a bandit .

He didn't sit there obediently and waited for me while playing with his mobile phone, but nestled in the arms of an uncle, waiting for me while being played by others, and he looked like he was enjoying it.

Although I don't like his appearance, I'm not the type who would turn around and leave. Even if I followed Zhang Haoran and the uncle all the way with a bitter face, I wouldn't turn around and leave, so at that time , probably looked at them with a very contemptuous look.

In fact, Zhang Haoran is also more sensitive to other people's gaze, after all he chased and killed so many people with me.At that time, I kept staring at him, and within a few seconds I was discovered. He also turned his head to look at me. At least I felt embarrassed and looked at each other. He looked at me blankly, and soon sneered. one time.The uncle also noticed his abnormality, looked down at him, and then turned to look at me.

It just felt more awkward.

In short, Zhang Haoran will not feel this way. Obviously the situation has developed into an idol drama routine, and he is about to start tearing up 13, but he still maintains the previous sneer, left the uncle's arms, stood up and walked towards me. side.The uncle also felt very embarrassed, and immediately lowered his head and stopped looking at me, and within a few seconds, he took his wine glass and went to find another quiet place.

Zhang Haoran stood in front of me, I don't know if I was overthinking, he looked at me with a mocking smile, I stood there numbly, and looked at him seriously with my mouth pursed.Then there was this embarrassing picture, too embarrassing to look at each other for a long time.His smile changed and became much softer. It was originally mocking, but now it looks strangely charming.

Then he stopped looking at me, lowered his head submissively with that kind of smile, and gently took my hand——that normal action at that time made me tremble a little, probably because of that little bit of embarrassment. The trembling also reached his hands, so he must have known it.

Even though he stopped trembling, he was still a little dazed, even though he continued to drag me forward with that charming smile.At this time, I still looked at him, but the expression was completely different from the beginning. At this time, I couldn't be serious at all. Although it was still expressionless, there might be a hint of cuteness in the expressionless expression.I didn't look at my own face, and I didn't know very well.

However, with a different expression, the world I see in front of me seems to be different. It was very ordinary at the beginning, but now it seems that the portrait mode has been turned on—the whole world seems to be clear only by Zhang Haoran. And the background of the glamorous lights behind him, the lights are even more glamorous and greener, and the other extras of the glamorous people have all turned into a group of slow-moving phantoms - like stars holding the moon, under the moonlight, the stars are naturally dimmed.

Recalling this experience, I think of the portrait lens advertisement some time ago, and now I always feel that I can make up a paragraph-this is Zhang Haoran; this is your Zhang Haoran.Zhang Haoran; your Zhang Haoran.

In fact, at that time, I should have clearly realized that control freak is my most common expression of love.No, it should be said that it would be great if he could realize it at that time. If he knew it earlier, he might be able to confess his feelings before Zhang Haoran left.

Sorry,

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