critical value

With a dull face, he was dragged into a certain room at the back of the hall. Zhang Haoran smiled at me with a pure and innocent look, and he was very happy. After that, and before that, I was able to see this kind of The number of smiles can be counted on the fingers.

He smiled and said, "Today is my birthday."

Oh, so he called me in the early hours of the morning.

That smile was still on his face, even if he was lucky enough to see this kind of smile before or after, it was only fleeting. It was the only time he smiled innocently for so long, but I didn't seize the opportunity to let him Smile even for a second.I still regret it when I think about it now, but if I had continued according to his wishes at that time, even if it might make him happy, I think I should regret it even more.

Remnant,

It was a dark room with a bed, and there were only two people. The door was tightly closed and locked automatically. No one could open it from the outside except the proprietress who had the master key.Then, there was Zhang Haoran who threw himself into my arms with a smile.

That moment was probably the happiest time for him in front of me, because he had never seen him smile like this before. Even when he was in my arms, he still didn’t put away his smile that he usually only pretended to be seen by others. I guess it might not have been a fake smile that time.Lying on top of me, because he hasn't started to grow yet, and my height is almost fixed, he can only rest his head on my chest, and even if he stands on tiptoe, he can barely hit the top of his head on his shoulders.

Even looking back now, I can still feel the cuteness rushing towards my face.

In particular, he deliberately suppressed a little sweet laughter.

Probably human beings are more pedophilic, because of the desire to protect.So facing Zhang Haoran's appearance, I basically have no ability to resist. Although at that time, if I really did it, I would definitely be on top, but he has completely controlled the initiative, and I can only let him kill him.

I still remember that it was his 13th birthday.

13 years old, Zhang Haoran, you are only 13 years old...

I have emphasized this fact to myself over and over again, but I have long forgotten the significance of reminding myself, and I don’t even understand the meaning of this sentence. I can’t even recognize my own language. The extent of being uncontrollable - after all, I was only 16 years old at that time, when I was the most impulsive and had no willpower, with a little provocation, I could do anything that I couldn't even imagine.

Zhang Haoran made a comparison—this is a fact that I have long enshrined as the truth, and it was even more vividly reflected that day.

I stood there in a daze, my mind already spinning wool.It might be better if Zhang Haoran lay quietly on his stomach, but he grabbed my hand and put it lightly on his slender waist, and deliberately let my dead dog-like palm brush against his flexible spine .The wolf paw seemed to come alive suddenly, it grabbed his soft concave curve unexpectedly, pinched wantonly, and even made him tremble with fright.

As for why the pinch is so happy, it is probably the "compassion and pity" that is exclusive to child lovers. The reason why childhood is precious is because it is fleeting, and Zhang Haoran's slender waist and soft spine are the same.I guess, in a few years, maybe sometime next year, Zhang Haoran will suddenly grow taller and become able to look directly at me easily, instead of standing on tiptoes on my shoulders.The flexible spine will no longer exist, and it will become as hard and stiff as I am now, and so will the slender waist. Soon there will be a pile of stiff muscles, and there will be no such delicate and slim touch.

Because this kind of beauty is also fleeting, so pinching is even more presumptuous, probably the same is true for the short spring night...

Zhang Haoran was obviously a little uncomfortable being pinched by me, his small body was tense in my arms, shaking irregularly from time to time.He quickly overcame this discomfort, and did what he likes freely—he tried his best to stand on his tiptoes, and raised his little hand before touching the top of my head with difficulty, and then suddenly pressed down, It almost twisted my already stiff cervical spine. I originally wanted to indulge my violent temper, and then scolded him severely. By the way, a little SM would bring a little fun to the bed later.However, before this idea took root, something soft and delicate was attached to my lips, which was still a little tender, so it looked a little cold, which completely interrupted all my thoughts.

I started twisting wool again in my mind, all kinds of colorful wool made me dizzy even more.

He seems to understand what kissing is all about. After pressing his lips together for a while, he can feel that he is secretly licking my lips, and the clumsy tip of his tongue sweeps the gap between the lips from time to time—— Knowing his intentions, I deliberately parted my lips slightly to allow his tongue to enter.

He really is still young, although he knows how to press his lips tighter and continue to lick my teeth in a friendly way, but he doesn't know about other technical issues. Only then can I feel a little progress - he can finally turn away in my mouth.

So I lightly opened my two rows of small white teeth, swallowed his tongue into my mouth, and then stuck my own tongue into his mouth.He still looked caught off guard, and the body in his arms stiffened a lot.Since he took the initiative, I don't care if he wants to be like this, one hand is still pinching his spine and thin waist lightly and heavily, while the other hand is also attached to the back of the head, pressing the back to force the lips to be tighter. They were closely connected, and after confirming that there was no gap, they began to suck something hard with a force that almost emptied his small lung capacity, while stirring in the mouth, entangled with the tongue, and stirred the saliva to flow The corners of the mouth flowed down.

He said something with a slurred "hmm", and beat my chest with a small fist, feeling that he had no strength and began to pinch fiercely, but there was really no strength, especially for my rough-skinned and thick-skinned physique.This should be resistance, barely counted as a powerless struggle.

Just when I felt that my whole life was bright, like the poet Fan Zhongyan described standing in the Yueyang Tower on a sunny day, I was suddenly pushed away by a force from nowhere, and my back hit the wall unexpectedly , but still a little pain.Looking down at Zhang Haoran again, the enchanting charm and all the gentle provocations just now are gone, only the original him is left, staring at me with a stubborn and somewhat fierce eyes.

Probably because I still looked at him with a very KY blank face, which made him feel that he should give in because of his futility, so he pretended to be indifferent and "hummed", turned around, kicked his shoes and threw his coat aside, and then Lie on the bed and wrap yourself in the quilt.According to the general routine of a wolf-blooded pedophile, I should be blooming with little pink bubbles, and then bouncing into the bed, scratching him, hugging him, kissing him, biting him, Until he cried and laughed and half pushed and half complied.

But I don’t know why, probably because I’m an incomplete pedophile...or not a pedophile at all, seeing his petite body under the quilt—if you cover your head, you basically can’t find it There is also a person hidden in the bed.Not only did I not get more bloody, but I was suddenly hit on the head, and then poured a large bucket of cold water, which made me feel even more chilled in the winter, and even gave me goosebumps, and I couldn't help trembling for a while——

He is still so young, only 13 years old... Shi Xiaofeng, what did you almost do just now?

Chill & After Fear

In this mood, I opened the door of the room and left.

I am a man, and I am still 16 years old, the most impulsive, unscrupulous and willless age. I just left that day, calming myself with the cold wind. I don’t know if it is to save a red Mao grandpa or for something else The thing is that I walked slowly back to the place of residence along the way, and when I returned to the cold bed, it was already late at night——

"It would be great if I stayed there, at least there would be Zhang Haoran warming the bed." I thought about it, but it was just a joke, and there was no real regret.

——Shi Xiaofeng, be a gentleman.

Otherwise, I'm sorry for those ancient prose that you have worked so hard to memorize...

After that day, Zhang Haoran and I seemed to maintain the same status as before, we didn't get close or alienated because of a kiss.It was already far enough away, no matter how far away we are, we can’t even chase and kill them together. At that time, the boss would definitely say, “Who begged me to ask you two to do the mission together!”, although Zhang Haoran begged him, but the boss He must have chipped with me in the end.

After that, I also speculated about Zhang Haoran's various psychology and reasons at that time, but he was still unable to find out.

As we all know, he is the kind of person who is unwilling to be ordinary, unwilling to be lonely, and special. Maybe he wants to experience it for the first time to find excitement, and thinks that the uncles in those nightclubs are too ugly. After thinking about it, he still feels that Shi Xiaofeng is the most handsome, and also 16 years old, so she came to hook me up~

——This is the most narcissistic one among the last few conjectures.

He may have offended someone while he was playing recklessly, and the strength of himself and the "chasing and killing department" is not enough to resist, and he had a stalemate with me some time ago, so he wants to take this opportunity to sacrifice himself and come to win My favorite, blow the pillow wind, so that I can help him clean up others together.

Although this is also very narcissistic, it actually ranks at the top of the most terrifying list-because, if this is the case, I haven't helped him until now. Did he suffer during that time? Ah, maybe he almost died? (Shaking three times) By the way, this one is also at the top of the list of most idol dramas.

It's also possible that he didn't want to go down like this anymore, but he couldn't control himself.So I want to indulge for the last time, and dedicate myself to me, so that I can manage him in an open and honest manner in the future, and pull him out of the fire pit.

——This is at the top of the most incredible list, but it is also at the top of the most likely list.

Especially a year later, the way he came to see me after taking drugs and having hallucinations made me even more convinced of this conjecture.

Of course, there are more normal ones, such as——

Because of love, he has liked me for a long time

I was so lonely that I committed adultery, I just happened to be thought of by him

Curiosity killed the cat, kids just want to find an acquaintance

I'm so attractive (happy).

The author has something to say:

Do you know why I always insist on clear water and no meat?Because I'm the kind of old hooligan who only needs a thousand words for a single kiss... It takes three or four chapters to write a complete set, plus I'm exhausted...