Can't let go

Geng Jie has long been unable to remember what it was like to meet Nanjin for the first time. Compared with the years of companionship, no matter how amazing the first meeting is, it is not so unforgettable.But he always remembered that meeting with Nanjin, as if it was a very important matter.

Later, when his grandfather passed away, Geng Jie recalled Nanjin kneeling in the ward and weeping bitterly.He and his grandfather depended on each other, but when his grandfather passed away, he didn't feel as sad as Nanjin.Geng Jie tried his best to recall Nanjin's state at that time, but in comparison, he seemed so heartless.

Driven by some invisible thoughts, he went to find Nanjin again, and sat beside Nanjin to bask in the sun with him, as if he wanted him to share some of his grief.

At that time, he endured for several days, and although he couldn't cry, his eyes were red from the boil, and he looked a little haggard, so he wore wide sunglasses to cover his eyes.Without making a sound, Nanjin suddenly reached out to take off his sunglasses, and the world suddenly brightened up, causing him to squint his eyes unconsciously.The sky is blue and the trees are green. The young man in front of him is bathed in the sunlight leaking from the shade of the trees, his expression is numb, and he hangs the stolen sunglasses on the bridge of his nose.He has a small face, and wearing such big sunglasses looks funny and cute.

Geng Jie looked at him sideways for a while, remembering that when he was in the ward, he had just recovered from the hands of death, and there were so many medical staff around him, but he regarded them as nothing, only seeing himself in his eyes.For a moment, there seemed to be a wonderful magnetic field reaction. The world is so big that the people who come and go are all illusory excitement, and only the two of them are sitting together, two lonely souls, sitting together under the sun.Geng Jie stretched out his hand to hold Nan Jin in front of him, and gently kissed his forehead.

"Come home with me?" Geng Jie asked.

Nanjin didn't answer, just let him hold her. After a while, as if he was too bored, he reached out and grabbed Geng Jie's clothes to play around.Geng Jie squeezed his hand into his own, and since then, he never let go of his hand.

But the reality will never be like a fairy tale, where one will run to a happy ending, and then there will be no side effects.Nanjin once said that without Geng Jie, he would have died long ago.But now Geng Jie had to admit that Nanjin couldn't live well with himself by his side.His illness relapsed again, and it was more serious than he imagined. Geng Jie didn't even dare to think when something went wrong in Nanjin. Like before, he couldn't sleep, couldn't eat, was in a trance, depressed... so many symptoms , he must know it himself, but he found all kinds of reasons to fool the past.It was as if this time, he no longer expected Geng Jie to accompany him through all this and give him another new life.

When Geng Jie rushed to the hospital, Nan Jin was resting in the ward, his eyes closed and he was quiet, Geng Jie couldn't bear to see him lying like this.His wrist had been re-bandaged and tightly wrapped in gauze, but Geng Jie still couldn't help but take a closer look.

"Mu Xian?" Aunt Hua opened the door and came in. Geng Jie turned her head to signal her to be quiet, and Aunt Hua said, "It doesn't matter, the doctor prescribed medicine for him...he can sleep well after all." Even so, her The voice is still soft and slow.

"Which doctor?" Geng Jie asked.

"...Doctor Zhong."

Geng Jie didn't reply, and it took a while before he said, "I see."

"Hey."

Geng Jie and Zhong Tong sat together face to face again, the last time was in Geng Jie's office, this time it was in Zhong Tong's consultation room.

"He said that the porcelain chip accidentally cut his wrist, but I believe we should all be able to see the actual situation." Zhong Tong spoke first.

Geng Jie remained silent, his expression obviously pale.

"I met you once when I was an intern with Mr. Fang." Zhong Tong slowed down his tone, "Later he found me and asked me to prescribe some sleeping pills for him. At that time, I asked him, who are you? .”

"He told me that you were his first love."

Geng Jie finally had some reaction, he looked at Zhong Tong, although his face was pale and ugly, his eyes were very bright.

Zhong Tong smiled at him, "At that time, I didn't know if you were still together, so I asked him, what about now. He said—" Zhong Tong paused, "He thought for a long time before saying, Just told me you were the guardian of his sexual relationship."

Geng Jie was stunned by the answer, but quickly asked, "What do you want to tell me?"

"The guardian who has a sexual relationship... He smiled happily after he finished speaking, and he seemed to think that he explained it quite well." Zhong Tong still persisted and slowly finished the last sentence before saying seriously: "I want to tell you, you The Nanjin who says he understands is just the Nanjin who pleases you, not the real Nanjin."

Geng Jie frowned, but controlled himself and did not refute.

"Affected by the environment in which he grew up, his character has a strong tendency to obey. In the past, it was his sister, so his sister died unexpectedly, which caused him a strong stress mental disorder. Now, it is the You." Zhong Tong looked at Geng Jie, "He is very anxious, very anxious. How much he loves you on the show, he is anxious in private."

"And you - you didn't give him enough sense of security. It can even be said that the way you love him has exacerbated his inner anxiety."

Zhong Tong stopped and adjusted his tone, then said: "Mr. Geng, my suggestion remains unchanged."

"Suggest that we break up?" Geng Jie mocked, "Do you think I'm the culprit who made him sick? I trapped him by my side, tortured him, and made him die rather than continue living with me, right?"

Zhong Tong waited for him to finish speaking before saying: "Mr. Geng, please control your emotions. I don't mean to interfere with you, but you have too much influence on him."

Geng Jie stared at her with burning eyes: "I ask for a different doctor."

"Your influence is both good and bad, but the harm outweighs the good." Zhong Tong continued without hesitation, "As far as I know, since you got together, he has lost his decision-making power, including his studies and career. It's up to you to decide. After graduation, he has no job, and naturally he has no way to be financially independent, and even loses touch with society because of this, and is used to staying at home. You have a successful career and busy work, often only accompanied by a nanny at home Him. He has no independence, insecurity, fear of being abandoned by you one day."

The more Geng Jie heard it, the worse his complexion became, and finally he slapped the table angrily and said, "Enough!"

His hands were very strong, and in the midst of a rage, he made a bang, almost pushing the atmosphere to the critical point, but Zhong Tong showed no fear, and immediately said: "Besides the extreme desire to control, Do you still have violent tendencies? This is the second time you have slapped the table in front of me."

Compared with the confrontation between the two before, this time the situation was completely reversed, Zhong Tong became aggressive, she stared at Geng Jie, spoke sharply, and refused to take a step back.

Geng Jie said: "Did you use these words to cheat Nanjin's trust?"

"You're wrong, he never trusted me." At this point, Zhong Tong seemed to have some sadness, no longer as cold as a stone, "He only trusts what you like. He is afraid of change, afraid of treatment, afraid of being He is no longer attached to you, and you will no longer like him."

She looked up at him, and asked earnestly, "Do you really love Nanjin, or the patient who can only depend on you?"

The author says:

I wish you all a happy day