Can't be chased

"You, what did you say?"

An Fan's expression was blank for a moment, as if he didn't understand the meaning of Sheng Ming's words.

Sheng Ming held An Fan's shoulders, made him look into his eyes, and repeated word by word: "Son, can we stop?"

An Fan stared at him, as if judging whether he was joking, but after realizing that he was extremely serious, the expression on his face finally shattered into panic.

"You don't want me?"

A word trembled out, and the room fell into a deathly silence.

Sheng Ming tightened his hand on An Fan's shoulder, and this man who was once almost invincible in An Fan's eyes turned extremely pale in an instant.

Sheng Ming closed his eyes, blocking the sight of Kai Anfan's frantic pleading, he couldn't bear it.

He used to think that hearing An Fan say that he was a monster, touching his suppressed fear and loathing would be the ultimate pain, but it turned out not to be.Those fears about the body are only superficial, a last resort to avoid greater fears.

"No." He almost squeezed the words out between his teeth, and his throat seemed to be rubbed with sand.

"Then do you want to go back to Cat Night?"

He said so.Holding a contract and handing it to An Fan who just woke up from illness, he asked An Fan to choose in a businesslike tone, whether to choose to give birth to him, or to return to Maoye.

An Fan signed it, and from then on, all the resistance he had shown before disappeared, and he became obedient and well-behaved.

Sheng Ming opened his eyes, the suspicion and fear in An Fan's eyes had not disappeared, and he was trembling with caution.

"No." He repeated, "Never."

Confusion gradually covered Anfan's eyes, his heart was relaxed and unsteady, and he asked tentatively, "Then why?"

Sheng Ming moved his hand from An Fan's shoulder, and caressed his face: "Because, I am very scared. Because, I would rather not have this child than put you in danger."

His speaking speed was very slow, which also added a heavy texture to the words he spoke.

An Fan's eyes widened, with even more hesitation inside.The few words outside the house before could be regarded as Sheng Ming's possessiveness, but these words now...

"Sheng Ming, what do you mean?"

Today's Sheng Ming's words and actions made him unable to understand, and he faintly touched a little light, but he didn't dare to continue thinking about it.

There are so many times when people think they are passionate, and they feel ashamed to even have a similar thought.

"It has nothing to do with the cat night, and it has nothing to do with the contract. It's just because I'm afraid that something will happen to you, and I'm also afraid that you will look down on yourself." Sheng Ming's nasal cavity was a little sore, and his heart was so uncomfortable that it was about to burst. "I'm afraid that you will leave me."

An Fan almost wondered if his brain was burnt out, so that he had auditory hallucinations.

He shook his head, and some things that he had never dared to touch or think about were about to come out, but he was afraid, and he didn't dare to go forward on his own, he would only believe that thing if it was fully developed by himself.

He continued to ask rather reluctantly, the sound that came out seemed to be separated by a membrane, and most of it was filtered out, as if it came from an extremely far away place.

"Why are you afraid?"

Sheng Ming has never been a person who reveals his emotions. He even felt strangely embarrassed about his occasional overexpression of warmth.

"Why? Because I like you, I love you, Fanfan."

Why did he think it was strange to say these words before, why could he never speak?

"I want to spend my whole life with you."

It turned out that there was nothing difficult.What does love have to hide?It is pure, upright, and should be upright and magnanimous.

An Fan felt in a daze as if he had heard something extraordinary, but his brain turned slowly, and he couldn't understand the meaning of the words for a while.

"I love you, Fanfan", is Fanfan himself?

His mind was working hard, taking apart each word and putting them together again.

"You want to spend your whole life with me...with me..."

He murmured and repeated Sheng Ming's words, his eyes were blank, Sheng Ming wiped away the tears he shed unconsciously, and repeated with him softly, An Fan said what he said and he followed him.

"you like me……"

"Yes, I like you."

"you love me……"

"I love you."

"You also said that you want to spend the rest of your life with me..."

"I will spend my whole life with you, the next life, and the next life, the longer the better."

Anfan's eyes gradually faded away. He was like a beggar who was hit by a million-dollar jackpot. He was so beautiful that he doubted it was a dream. He fantasized so many times that he couldn't even believe it was real.

"Who is Fanfan?"

Sheng Ming pressed against his forehead, their eyes were very close, but neither of them moved away.

"Fanfan, you promised me that you can call me that, or you can call me Huhu."

An Fan laughed a little weirdly, as if covered with a layer of veil with a sense of illusion, but the brilliance gradually lit up in his eyes, and then shattered and poured out.

"It's like a dream..."

"You can pinch me."

"Then I pinch it?"

Sheng Ming stretched out his arm obediently, and An Fan put his hand on it to make a twisting posture, but after several times of force, it was so soft that there was no strength at all.

Sheng Ming pulled his hand, bit it, exerted some strength, and left a circle of red tooth marks when he let go.

"Does it hurt?"

"pain."

He talked about the pain, but he didn't move his hand during the process. He couldn't tell whether it was real pain or fake pain, and his face still had the same smiling expression as before, as if a picture had been picked out of a corner in a chaotic state. Masks to deal with, I don't even know how to do normal reactions.

He lowered his eyes to look at the circle of red marks on his hand, put it to his mouth and looked at it for a while, and stuck it to his lips, as if he was feeling the pain and temperature just now.

Sheng Ming looked at him silently, his eyes were extremely gentle, An Fan suddenly stretched forward and reached Sheng Ming's neck, his teeth touched his skin, Sheng Ming turned his head slightly to allow him to bite, but after waiting for a long time, still No pain came.

An Fan's body trembled, and he gradually felt the dampness in his neck. After a few seconds, a whimper sounded like a small animal came out. Because the reason for being buried in his neck was not clear, it made Sheng Ming's eyes turn red.

He patted Anfan on the back, trying to make a joke, but his voice was choked with sobs: "Song Li is going to run on me again, and made you cry so many times..."

The not-so-big belly is sandwiched between the two, separating their bodies a little, but the top is tightly attached to each other, as if they will never be separated again.

Maybe it's because he has been venting his emotions these days, but An Fan is not crying like before, only a few uncontrollable whimpers occasionally, but the tears flowed violently.

Sheng Ming's heart was sour, but he didn't dare to let Anfan cry. After a while, he suppressed his emotions and began to coax Anfan.

Sheng Ming's hand protected the back of his head, stroked it gently, and from time to time turned his head to kiss the tip of An Fan's ear, and it took a long time for the person on his shoulder to stop sobbing.

Sheng Ming maintained his original position and hugged him for a while, then picked him up from his shoulders. An Fan's face was suffocated from crying or burned. How pitiful, Sheng Ming's heart melted into water with no edges anymore.

Sheng Ming was going to the bathroom to get a towel to wipe his face, but An Fan was pulled away for a few seconds and pushed up again, sticking tightly to Sheng Ming's body, his body still twitched from time to time because of the crying before.

He rarely showed such a dependent and intimate appearance. Sheng Ming couldn't let go of him, so he simply carried him to the bathroom, put him on the chair with a cushion, and the whole process Neither of them separated.

"Is it annoying that I cry all the time?"

Sheng Ming managed to wet the towel with hot water, and was holding it to wipe Anfan's face. Hearing this, his movements were a little heavy, and his tone was deliberately heavy: "Punish you."

An Fan dodged, and Sheng Ming restrained him from moving around. After thinking about it, he still answered seriously: "I don't hate it, I like it very much."

An Fan couldn't help laughing: "Why do you think it's so strange to say that?"

Sheng Ming's face was a little hot, but thinking that this person would go into the horns to commit his own evil deeds without explaining clearly, he still bit the bullet and said: "I like to see you cry in front of me, it's the same as laughing, you can make trouble casually." It doesn't matter. What I'm afraid of is that you don't cry in front of me and hide everything from me."

An Fan is actually not used to it. Although he is excited at the moment, his impression of the relationship between the two has been solidified for too long, and it is not possible to completely change his mind overnight and accept this happiness confidently and calmly.

Moreover, the Sheng Ming in front of him who opened his mouth and shut his mouth was talking about love, no matter how he looked at it, he looked fake.

"Are you really Sheng Ming?"

Sheng Ming made a gesture to bite him again: "It seems that you can only believe it when you see blood."

An Fan withdrew his hand, looked at Sheng Ming with a smile, and when Sheng Ming finished wiping his face and hung up the towel, he couldn't help hugging him again.

It's been too long, and I don't want to be separated from this person at all.

Sheng Ming carried him back to the bedroom again, pressed him on the head of the bed and kissed again and again, as if both of them were suffering from skin hunger and neither of them wanted to let go.

"Dong dong!"

This room was full of affection and intimacy, when there was a knock on the door suddenly, Song Li's voice sounded outside the door.

"Two, is it convenient for me to come in now?"

An Fan's face was flushed, and he felt a little embarrassed.

The relationship between the two of them had just become clear, but it was too fast. He hadn't completely straightened it out yet, and he couldn't help but say that he was clinging to someone first. Suddenly, a third person would break into this atmosphere. He was a little shy, but he was inexplicably looking forward to it Know.

Song Li didn't knock any more, leaving time for the two of them: "About the child, I think I have to tell you something. I'll wait in the living room, and call me after packing."

As soon as the word "child" was uttered, the sweet atmosphere in the bedroom froze for an instant. The two of them were immersed in the ups and downs of their relationship just now, but they completely forgot about sex. This will be mentioned by Song Li, and it will be brought to the front again. Come.

Sheng Ming let go of An Fan and was about to open the door, but An Fan stopped him.

He sat on the edge of the bed, looking down at his protruding belly.The child had been with him for five months, but he had never touched it once, except as a last resort.

He used to think that he wanted this child to disappear, just like the pool of blood in the bathroom many years ago, once it was washed away, it was gone, and he could continue to pretend to be a normal person.

However, when it really came to this time, he was a little bit reluctant, and cast his eyes on Sheng Ming who was beside him.

"Doctor Song said that it will move soon, don't you really want to see it?"

Song Li said that he was a boy, he was well developed, and he would be able to move in two days.Normally, the fetus should be able to move at four months, but this child seems to be a little lazy. It has been almost five months and there is no movement.

An Fan didn't understand these things, and he never tried to understand them. It was Song Li who comforted him on his own, saying that he was not in a hurry, and the little guy would just follow him if he wanted to.

An Fan laughed it off at the time, and didn't continue to talk about this topic. Who knew that sentence would be remembered in his heart.

He couldn't breathe a little. The little guy that Sheng Ming was protecting in his palm every night would turn into a crying baby that could be held in his arms in four or five months.

Sheng Ming's gaze was also raised, he had sincerely looked forward to this child, but who knew that the journey would not be smooth, at least now he even feels annoyed by that expectation.

"Fanfan, no matter what happened before, as long as he might bring you danger, I will never look forward to his birth."

The redness on Anfan's face faded, he pursed his lips tightly, did not speak, watched for a long time, raised his arm slightly, tried to put his hand on his abdomen for the first time, only touched it and then quickly let go.

Sheng Ming took his hand and placed it on it again: "Fanfan, there is nothing to be afraid of, you are not a monster, you are just special than others."

An Fan raised his eyes to look at him, his eyelashes were trembling, and he turned his eyes to the folded hands on his abdomen.Suddenly, there was a movement from his subordinates, like a kick from a little foot.

Anfan's belly tightened, and his shoulders slumped. Sheng Ming looked at his hands in surprise, a little in disbelief. He had greeted this little baby countless times in the past few months, and this was the first time he had received him. The response, but after he decided not to have it.

He may never have a child of his own again in his life, and this may be the closest time between him and his flesh and blood.

Sheng Ming withdrew his hand, took An Fan's hand off by the way, wrapped his arms around his shoulder, and asked if it hurt.

An Fan shook his head, his eyes still glued to his stomach.That one seemed to be connected to his heart, the movement was not big, but it caused his heart to vibrate, and for the first time, he felt a special emotion.This emotion is very similar, like love.

His child.

"Sheng Ming, shall we keep him?"

Sheng Ming pursed his lips tightly and did not speak, but he never touched An Fan's stomach again.No matter how much he looked forward to this child at the beginning, there is only one way to go now.

It was impossible for him to ask An Fan to take the 20.00% risk, and An Fan couldn't agree to it himself.

However, after that sentence, An Fan seemed to finally understand his deepest thoughts, and his thoughts became more and more determined. Seeing Sheng Ming's resolute appearance, he became anxious: "I don't want to lose..."

As soon as the words came out of Anfan's mouth, Anfan himself was taken aback. It turned out that some feelings had also quietly changed unconsciously.

Sheng Ming, however, always acted as if he was reticent and unnegotiable. He stopped responding to An Fan, and couldn't help but smile wryly in his heart. He just said that he would give him respect and listen to his opinions, so he slapped himself so quickly.

But if the price is that Anfan is in danger, he would rather be that self-willed killer.

Just as the two were in a stalemate, the knock on the door sounded again.

"I said two, I can't ignore it so obviously, can I? I guess you are entangled in the child's matter. Brother, come out quickly, I will scare you with nonsense."

Song Li's voice was a little weak at the back, as if he suddenly remembered something, his voice suddenly increased: "No, don't come out, I'm done talking and withdraw and contact me again if you have something to do."

After he finished speaking, he wanted to run, but the door was opened suddenly, and Sheng Ming grabbed him by the collar after running for three meters.

"Say what the hell you said again!" A word of gnashing of teeth came from his ear, and Song Li felt that this person was about to tear himself apart.

Normally, this beast can still be teased, but Song Li thought about it for a beast in a state of rage, and chose wisely not to touch its scales, and obediently was carried and thrown onto the sofa.

An Fan chased him out, very unclear about the situation: "What's the matter? Sheng Ming, let go of Dr. Song."

Song Li has a backer, and he has enough confidence: "I'm so angry, who made you such a bastard..."

Sheng Ming gritted his teeth and said, "So the [-]% chance you told me is false?"

An Fan continued the situation: "What [-]%?"

Song Li argued solemnly: "But it is indeed quite dangerous. His physical condition is not good, and he is very conflicted mentally. If it weren't for my high level of conditioning for him..."

"Shut up! I'll fucking ask you if the [-]% chance is fake!"

"Yes, yes, it's all right, I guarantee you, a straight man, can hug a big fat boy!"

Dr. Song is also a courageous person with high skills. He can't hold back for three seconds after doing a little push up.

How could he, Sheng Ming, resign himself?If Song Li offered to resign, he would have to be locked up, and at most he would be punched a few times.

Seeing Sheng Ming's state today, Song Li felt guilty a long time ago. It's too horrifying to make everyone cry. If he thinks about being beaten, he should be beaten, and he should take it as an apology for misunderstanding the bastard.He calculated in his heart and set a number of two or two. If it was too much, he couldn't bear it anymore and had to go back.

After waiting and waiting, only to hear Sheng Ming's heavy breathing, he retracted his fists, and sat down on the sofa next to him, covering his face with his hands, and a low laugh leaked from between his fingers.

Fuck, isn't this scary and silly?Song Li silently added two to three in his heart.

An Fan watched it for a long time, and now he roughly understood what happened.He walked over and pulled Sheng Ming's hand covering his face, and Sheng Ming hugged him around the waist.His movements were sudden but measured, so as not to bump into An Fan.

He put his face against the child who had just presented his reaction to the outside world for the first time, clasped his hands together with An Fan's: "That's great."

He was still laughing, but couldn't help trembling.Damn it, he scolded himself in his heart, where did this crying man come from, he wished he could slap himself to death on the spot.

An Fan didn't laugh at him, but laughed along with him, his brows and eyes curved, and a little blush rose on his cheeks, which was really pretty.

"Well, that's good."

He once caught a ray of light that illuminated his dark and empty life. He wanted to hold on to the beauty and warmth, but he knew that he could not be the destination of the light without virtue and incompetence.The light will continue to move forward, but it will only pass for a moment for him, and it will become a miss and a memory.

Unexpectedly, behind that ray of light, there is a round of sun, staying in his world forever.