Can't be chased

Song Li felt that he had just returned home, turned around on the bed a few times, and was called back before he could sleep soundly.

With dark circles under his eyes from lack of sleep, he couldn't get angry when he saw An Fan's appearance, so he tightened the strings in his head, and his hands moved quickly and carefully. You're welcome.

"Master! Can you calm down a bit! Is it a person, or two people, can you let it go?"

Song Li yelled, but was dispirited by a yawn, and still looked at Sheng Ming angrily.

As a doctor, he was originally receiving this money, and since it involved An Fan's body, no matter how hard he was tortured, he naturally had no excuses.He was just angry that An Fan had a hard and dangerous pregnancy, and now he still had frequent fevers, so naturally he had something to do with this person.

But when he was in the room, he saw that the two seemed to be reconciled. Unlike before, Sheng Ming didn't even touch Anfan. This time, he kept holding Anfan's hand and kissed him on the forehead when he came out. Li still felt very wrong.

Song Li finished yawning, but still didn't wait to refute.Sheng Ming's brows were still tightly wrinkled, Song Li remembered the oppressive feeling brought by this person last night, and decided not to provoke him anymore.

"I won't go back in Anfan's situation. Is there a guest room for me to take a nap for a while?"

Sheng Ming pointed in one direction, and Song Li walked towards the room. He was a little tired, and it was not easy to work in this state, so it was better to take advantage of An Fan's observation time to recover his energy.

Sheng Ming spoke suddenly behind him, and Song Li stood there, his eyes widened in surprise, for a moment he almost suspected that he had heard it wrong.

"Song Li, this child, is there any way...not to let him go?"

Song Li looked back at him abruptly, and saw Sheng Ming standing at the door of the bedroom with his pockets in his pockets. He was wearing soft dark gray home clothes, which made people seem to have removed the outer shell of the ice building, revealing a somewhat fragile inside.His words were a little difficult, but he did not waver, as if he had made up his mind and was very firm.

"why?"

Sheng Ming leaned against the wall next to him, and suddenly covered his eyes with his backhand: "[-]%...I'm too scared."

Over the past few days, Song Li has seen angry Sheng Ming, indifferent Sheng Ming, domineering Sheng Ming, all kinds of Sheng Ming, and he can find out what he doesn't like about each of them, even the gentle Sheng Ming. He felt that it was hypocritical, but he had never seen the fragile and painful Sheng Ming so frequently as in the past two days.

He suddenly doubted himself, those inexplicable hostility probably shouldn't have appeared in the first place.

He always thought that Sheng Ming didn't have any basic respect for An Fan, and the tenderness he occasionally showed was nothing but alms given by the rich, and most of it was for that child.He saw some shadow of himself in Anfan, which made him have great sympathy and love for Anfan from the beginning, and correspondingly he had no good attitude towards Sheng Ming.

But the current Sheng Ming, the Sheng Ming who is so genuinely afraid, really didn't give his heart?

Song Li's lips moved, his voice was dry and hoarse: "Did An Fan also agree?"

Sheng Ming didn't speak immediately, Song Li waited patiently for him, and he put down his hand after a long time: "I want to discuss with him after confirming."

"Sheng Ming," Song Li still did not answer directly, but asked for proof, "Did you force him to have this child?"

One hit.

Song Li's voice was not loud, but Sheng Ming's hands and feet were numb from the shock, and he froze in place for a while, with complex and intertwined expressions on his face.

Seeing him like that, Song Li confirmed what he had always guessed without waiting for an answer, and the unquenched anger started to start a prairie fire again.

"Then why didn't you think of discussing it with him at the beginning, and asked him if he would like it?"

He looked away from Sheng Ming, and there was a silence between the two of them for a while. Song Li spoke slowly, as if recalling something from a long time ago: "I used to take care of a patient who was in the same situation as An Fan. He He is a very optimistic young man, and the two of them agreed to have the child together, but at the end of the pregnancy, he still couldn't do without the counseling of a psychologist, and even had to take antidepressant drugs all the time."

"You and I are neither of them. I don't know the fear in their hearts. Even they themselves can't predict how much pressure they will be under beforehand. You know An Fan better than I do. That person is optimistic, family happiness, and happiness in an increasingly weird body. How do you feel about An Fan if you have doubts about yourself?"

Song Li suddenly laughed, but he was full of helplessness inside: "An Fan is too good at pretending, really. You see, it's been five months before you caught a little trick."

Sheng Ming's lips were drawn into a line. Song Li looked at him and felt that if he said a few more words, the person in front of him would break himself, so he stopped talking.

"Monster." Sheng Ming's voice sounded low, "He said he was a monster."

A tear rolled down Sheng Ming's face, but he didn't seem to notice it.

Song Li suddenly opened his eyes wide.

"Sheng Ming..."

The person on the opposite side slid and sat down against the wall, with pain and depression no longer concealed nor concealed on his face.

"He told me that he was afraid. At that time, there were many troubles and illnesses, but I was too angry and jealous at that time."

"Why is he willing to have children for other people, but so resistant to having one of ours, he never even told me."

"Could it be that I'm not even as good as Li Chengfang in his heart? But yes, Li Chengfang and him are in a normal relationship, and I started with him from the contract..."

That contract was not only a sharp sword hanging in Anfan's heart, Sheng Ming never got rid of it either.On this point, he is the same as An Fan. On the one hand, the establishment of the contract makes them feel at ease about the firmness of the relationship, and at the same time, they are suspicious of the affection shown by the other party in the relationship. The contract is both poison and honey. Some people don’t like it, while others don’t Dare to give up.

Under this understanding, when he felt that the stability of his relationship was threatened, all Sheng Ming did was take out a second contract and recast a new layer of outer foundation.

"Didn't you say you like it? It's so true, but maybe you don't really like it much?"

"I can't help thinking that..."

His voice was hoarse, and he could hardly make a sentence in the end. Song Li was confused when he heard it, but he also felt uncomfortable.

Even the sorrows and joys of others, the sad people in this world can find some of the same emotions in them.

The bedroom door was opened from the inside, and the almost stagnant air in the living room was stirred, creating a gust of wind.

An Fan came out from inside, his face was still unhealthily red, his whole body wobbled a little when he walked, but his expression was calm.

Song Li was a little surprised, he didn't expect An Fan to wake up so quickly, and he didn't know how much he heard, but he was not a blind person, so he quietly walked towards the room and closed the door, leaving the two of them alone.

Before the door closed, his peripheral vision caught sight of Anfan's squatting figure, his hand was stretching out to Sheng Ming's back, and then the door was completely closed.

Song Li leaned against the door and closed his eyes.

The roles of the two seemed to be switched one by one, the one holding comfort became An Fan, and the one who couldn't hold back his emotions became Sheng Ming.

It was not easy for An Fan's body to hug Sheng Ming, but he still stretched his arms as far as he could, and hugged the squatting person in an awkward position.

"Sheng Ming, you are the best person I have ever met and the person I don't want to leave."

"What else do you want to ask, can I tell you all?"

Sheng Ming let him hug him for half a minute, twisted his shoulders, broke away from Anfan's embrace, and then wrapped his arms around him instead, laying his head on Anfan's shoulder.

The two touched each other cautiously, the sharp rose rhizomes finally put away their thorns, and the cowardly stamens finally protruded an inch out.

After the excessive exposure of emotions, Sheng Ming's extremely strong self-esteem finally regained consciousness, looking at An Fan whose eyes were also red, he felt a little embarrassed.

Seeing him like this, An Fan was feeling sad, his heart softened again, the corners of his mouth raised a slight arc and then collapsed, blowing out a snot bubble.

Sheng Ming wanted to put on his usual vicious look, but he couldn't do it, so he had to give up. He could only pinch his cheek very non-threateningly.

An Fan's fever has not subsided, repeated fever has made his mental strength a little weak, but he insisted on holding on to Sheng Ming to prevent him from leaving.

In broad daylight, Sheng Ming also went to bed and hugged the man who was like a small stove into his arms.After more than a day of emotional ups and downs, the two of them embraced each other peacefully and quietly again, feeling a little illusory.Too many things happened, but I don't know where to start. For a while, there were only the breathing of the two of them, and the heartbeat in their ears.

Sheng Ming's voice was still hoarse: "How much have you heard?"

An Fan's face became serious.He seldom defended himself. In the past, Sheng Ming wouldn't listen to him.

"You know, Li Chengfang and I... once... had a child..."

It was very difficult for him to speak, and it was very painful to dig up the bloody past and describe it in words, but An Fan insisted on talking.

"Sheng Ming, I don't want to go into details about those things, but I hope you can believe me." He tremblingly grabbed Sheng Ming's arm, "That child is not what I want to have..."

Sheng Ming covered the hand on his arm with the other hand: "Stop talking about it, it's my fault, let's turn this matter over, okay?"

"No!" An Fan interrupted him, his voice agitated, "So I killed him, I was very scared, Sheng Ming, I always felt that everyone was looking at me. There was a lot of blood, everywhere, it hurt... ..."

What should he do?What can he do for the one he loves so much?Sheng Ming closed his eyes, barely breathing.

He was very conceited back then, thinking he could see through people's hearts and knew that Li Chengfang's words were not to be trusted, but subconsciously he put something on An Fan's head.

For example, he was so willing to give birth to a child for Li Chengfang.

"Fanfan, Fanfan..."

He can't do anything.

"This child, we don't want it."