Han Xing Yuan Gu

It was too uncomfortable to sleep in the combat uniform, so I had to take off my coat and get under the quilt.

Days of training made his body exhausted to the extreme, but his spirit was surprisingly good.Ji Hanxing's altar was so clear that he could even recall many small things that happened a long time ago.

It's all about Li Gu.

He was afraid that the clothes on his hands would get juice, so he held the persimmons in his hands to feed himself.Now it is the season to eat persimmons again, a slight smile appeared on his face, making this young and handsome face more vivid.He missed Li Gu very much, and also missed the big soft bed at home.

He thought of the other winters they spent together, when the family was very poor and Li Gu didn't dare to buy poor quality warm water bags.Every time I exhaled in the palm of my hand, I rubbed my hands to warm them up, and then went to cover Ji Hanxing's feet.

If a person has been well cared for once, it is very difficult to leave.He was brought up in Li Gu's hands, and he couldn't bear any kind of separation from him.

He said hurtful things before he came out, and it wasn't all because of the situation.He hoped that Li Gu could see clearly that they were not real brothers. He had ambitions and desires for Li Gu.This is the feeling of a man to a man.

Days of high-intensity physical training put him under a lot of pressure. Ji Hanxing opened the photo of Li Gu stored in his phone.The blurry pixels outline the person he is familiar with and loves. In the small room on this winter night, every inch of imagination about Li Gu makes him feel hot all over.He caressed his sensitive spots, his eyes fell on the photos on his phone, and he let out a hoarse gasp.

Then the phone turned on, it was a message from Li Gu.Ji Hanxing's pupils suddenly dilated.

It is against the rules to keep a mobile phone at the base, but Kang Shuren did not take his.Kang Shuren said that he can give up at any time, as long as the phone tells him, he will drive over to pick him up.Ji Hanxing didn't plan to leave halfway from the beginning, but he didn't express his determination in a hurry, but left his mobile phone by default.He knew that there was another Li Gu on the other end of the phone.

He was tortured to death during training, but the young man did not give in and would not give up.This blond-haired boy became a cluster of golden flames on the school field, burning away all prejudice and distrust with his solid performances time after time.

But only Ji Hanxing knew that what made him grit his teeth at the beginning was hatred, and he could imagine the face of Lao Hei in the center of every target.But when he was exhausted, what appeared in his mind was Li Gu, and he had to finish this matter well, because Li Gu was still waiting for him at home.

it was mine

Tu Yuming has been a rabbit tooth since he was a child, and the children in the mountains call him a rabbit.Tu Yuming felt a little inferior because of this, but when others called him that, he responded naively.His father said that when he has money, he will take him to the city to have his teeth fixed in a big hospital, so that he will have a mouthful of neat and beautiful teeth in the future.In the end, he only waited until Tu Qingchuan's death.

As Tu Yuming grew up, he knew that the rabbit teeth were a bit unattractive, but the family didn't have any spare money to fix his teeth.

When he went to study in the city, he was reluctant to talk to his classmates in the city, for fear that he would be made fun of if he opened his mouth.But it's not that no one can see it. They asked him, why do you look like a rabbit, so how do you eat apples when you eat them?Is it like this, chewing all the way?The other party said, pretending to be a rabbit eating a carrot, it may not be malicious, but it is so funny that it makes people laugh.

Tu Yuming didn't want to spoil the fun, so he smiled naively, the kind of smile that purses his mouth so that people can't see his teeth.On the way home alone, he would be lost for a while, and when he returned to the small courtyard, he would not mention anything.Li Gu had already worked hard to take care of him, and he didn't dare to cause trouble for others.He wants to work hard to make money in the future, and when he has money, he will fix his teeth.

One day a very beautiful older sister came to the house, and he knew that ionic perm was popular among girls at that time.The beautiful sister's hair is black, long and smooth, falling straight, like a piece of fine silk.

The rabbit was embarrassed to show his rabbit teeth in front of her. He didn't dare to say hello at first, so he could only smile shyly.Xiao Wen looked at him for a while, as if he found something interesting: "Hey, you have rabbit teeth, so cute!"

Tu Yuming's eyes widened in shock, and then he suddenly felt relieved.

Although he was in junior high school at the time, he was not young.After meeting Xiaowen, he began to have his own teenage thoughts.

Tu Yuming was mediocre academically, and joined Li Gu's company after he came out.He is reliable and reliable, he can do everything Li Gu entrusts to him well.Tu Yuming himself is more motivated than anyone else, he has already thought about it, his conditions are not good now, but he will work hard, he will buy a house in the city, then he will be able to tell Xiaowen that he likes her .

When winter comes, I want to eat warm food. Xiao Wen casually said before that he likes the egg pancakes at the entrance of No. [-] Middle School, but the place is far away, and Xiao Wen can't eat it when his business is busy.Tu Yuming got up very early, lined up to buy the egg pancakes first, and then drove them to Xiaowen's shop by speeding car to ensure that the pancakes were still warm.

He just went to her beauty salon every three days, and brought something to eat every time he went.Everyone in Xiaowen's shop knew him, and a little girl laughed teasingly when she saw him, and said, "Boss Tu, why are you here again?" Tu Yuming is not good at talking to women other than Xiaowen, holding back After holding back for a long time, I said: "The old lady at the door sells more dates, I'm afraid it will be ruined." The little girl in the shop laughed at him again: "Is that because they are not sold out, so I gave it to our lady boss?"

Tu Yuming panicked: "No, it's not, it's fresh."

Xiao Wen saw him, and came over to get the little girls away to do some work. She didn't see outside, took the jujubes and quickly washed a basket, grabbed a handful and shared them with Tu Yuming.

Xiao Wen sat down next to him, tilted his head and looked at him: "Are you paddling at work, just spending time with me every day?"

Tu Yuming waved his hand: "No, I also work seriously. If you don't believe me, you can ask Li Gu, I can do everything well."

Xiao Wen smiled: "Really, what are you working so hard for?"

Tu Yuming was very sincere: "I want to buy a house. I'm all optimistic about it, and I want to choose a location in the north of the city. Li Gu said that the traffic in that area will be good in the future, and buildings will be built, and the value will appreciate. Let me buy it there if I want to."

Xiaowen smiled even more happily.She smiled so beautifully that Tu Yuming couldn't move his eyes.Xiaowen asked him again: "What if you buy a house? What do you want to do?"

Tu Yuming said: "It's still a few years."

Xiao Wen: "Then you just haven't thought it through."

Tu Yuming shook his head, not daring to look at her this time: "No, I just want to buy a house and want to get married."

Xiaowen chased him again and asked, "With whom?" This time she got closer, and Tu Yuming smelled the fragrance of her hair, which was a kind of fragrant shampoo.He became more and more nervous, but Xiaowen waved to him: "Come here."

Tu Yuming stared at her blankly, Xiao Wen said: "Why don't you think about me?"

Tu Yuming's ears turned red.Then his eyes were red too, like a real rabbit.Xiaowen said why don't you look at me?Do you not want to agree.

Tu Yuming shook his head so that his voice was very low: "I really have such a good life?"

Xiao Wen's eyes were watery, she smiled at him, and said that you have been with me for almost a year, if I don't ask you again, when do you want to talk about it?

Tu Yuming really stuttered this time: "Buy, I haven't saved enough money to buy a house. I want to buy it myself. If I can't get married, I will ask Li Gu to borrow it."

Xiao Wen laughed: "Then tell me, yours is not enough, and mine is enough, isn't it enough?"

Tu Yuming was speechless with his mouth open, a very sour emotion welled up in his heart, but in this emotion, many, many little flowers bloomed.

The world is very desolate, and every individual who is small in itself is as small as dust in the endless river of time.But these faint light spots will attract each other and reflect each other, so that these ordinary beings in the four-dimensional universe will also have different temperatures when they meet each other.

Tu Yuming was dizzy for several weeks because of this, he had to share this joy with Li Gu.Li Gu's eyes hurt from his flashing, and while he was happy for him from the bottom of his heart, he mercilessly expressed his disgust.

Tu Yuming poked Li Gu in front of him and asked him whether he should have his teeth straightened. Li Gu said that you can figure it out. You are an adult and you should decide for yourself.Tu Yuming showed a shy face: "But she said she likes me like this."

Li Gu: "..." He was speechless.

Li Gu was annoyed by his show. Recently, he sent messages to Ji Hanxing every day, but he didn't receive a single reply.

When Li Gu was in a hurry, he called Kang Shuren and asked where they were. Kang Shuren said it was a rare vacation, and of course he ran around.Li Gu asked again if he needed to send him some money, so that he would not treat Ji Hanxing badly.Kang Shuren said no, he knew it in his own mind.In fact, Li Gu felt something was wrong, after so long, the awkwardness between him and Ji Hanxing was not enough, it was either that Ji Hanxing wanted to avoid him on purpose, or Ji Hanxing and Kang Shuren were conspiring to do something.

Li Gu thought of a trick, he said: "Give me an address, it's cold, I bought a coat for Xing Xing."

Kang Shuren: "It's outside, it's hard to accept."

"Then I'll send it to your house."

So Director Kang fell into a life of being harassed by the postman every day, and someone called his mobile phone and his work unit to ask him why he didn't come back.Kang Shuren was so angry that he called and scolded Li Gu, and Li Gu felt that this trick was effective.So he sent boxes of food to Kang Shuren's home without hesitation.

In the end, the neighbors also came to complain that the corridor was full, and if they didn't take it away, they would call and report it to the fire department.Kang Shuren had no choice but to ask the comrades in the unit to help him solve it.The comrade named Xiao Wu was stunned. He called a car and moved to work together. The whole department received benefits for unknown reason.

Li Gu didn't intend to really push Kang Shuren into a hurry, since the old man didn't say anything, maybe there was his reason.Li Gu drew a bottom line for himself, if Ji Hanxing didn't come back by then, he would go find him.

On the other hand, Tu Yuming's dizziness became worse, and he smirked when he saw Li Gu.

Li Gu couldn't help but yell at him: "What are you doing, drying your teeth?"

Tu Yuming shook his head and tail: "You have never been in love, you don't understand."

Seeing that Li Gu didn't ask, Tu Yuming said to himself, I held hands with her today.

Li Gu let out a "cut", thinking that I have been kissed secretly, when did I become as shallow as your eyelids.But he couldn't say a word.

The taste of the new year is getting stronger and stronger, Xiaowen and Tu Yuming agreed to go back to Ningchuan together this year.They collected enough money for the down payment in the city, settled the real estate, and said that they would be able to hand over the house by the end of next year.At that time, grandma rabbit will be taken over to live with her.

Li Dezheng also called to ask Li Gu and Xingxing when they would go home.Li Gu had no choice but to push that there was something wrong with Xingxing School, and he might come back this year by himself.Li Dezheng was getting old, and he kept saying that he finally had a young son, and he still couldn't see him all day.

Li Gu said that there is still me, Li Dezheng booed him: "I have been watching you for many years, and I don't miss you at all." They are gone.

Li Gu put down the phone and sighed.This cold war was too long for him, until he felt that he was many years old, and a certain corner of his heart seemed to have been hollowed out.

Finally one day, Li Gu received a call from Ji Hanxing when he was in a meeting at the company. Everyone in the company looked at him. He subconsciously prepared to press the button, but when he found out that it was Ji Hanxing's name, he held back, and his movements seemed strange and awkward. , almost dropped the phone.Li Gu took a deep breath, stared at the name for two seconds, made a pause gesture, and strode out of the conference room.

Ji Hanxing's voice came from over there. His voice-changing period was over. His voice was different from that of a teenager. Through the earpiece, a low hoarse and magnetic voice passed through his heart: "Brother."

Li Gu restrained the trembling of his lips: "Where are you?"

Ji Hanxing looked up at the snow-white ceiling.His leg was injured, but it was a blessing in disguise, and he won himself a few days off.Missing is a tide that cannot be turned on. When he pressed the switch, emotions began to flood: "Brother, I miss you."

Li Gu's eyes blurred suddenly, and he reached out his hand to wipe the wetness, only to realize that he was crying.He has been an adult for a long time, and he never thought that one day he would experience such emotions.He had read martial arts novels before, and they said that those masters with unrivaled kung fu, no matter how unparalleled in the world, as long as they found the gate of their fate, they could kill them with one move.He used to think this was too mysterious, but today Ji Hanxing said "I miss you" and easily smashed the indestructible Boss Li into countless pieces.

Li Gu didn't make a sound, he walked quickly to the small conference room where there was no one, closed the door, swallowed his choked voice, and said calmly, "Xing Xing, it's almost Chinese New Year."

"Ah."

Li Gu took a deep breath: "Brother, can I admit my mistake to you? You can go home. If you don't want to see me, I can go out to live. The house is yours."

"Brother." Ji Hanxing interrupted him, "Did you eat well? I want to go home and make dumplings for you."

"it is good."

……

After that, Ji Hanxing sent a report to Kang Shuren: "I have to go back, anyway, I can't train like this."

Kang Shuren's sharp eagle-like gaze wandered over his face, with a serious attitude: "Your brother, have you thought about what to do? You can't completely hide it from him. In fact, he is already a person with some social energy. Maybe he will find out by himself, and it will be more troublesome then."

Ji Hanxing pursed his lips, and lowered his eyes to hide his panic.How to explain to Li Gu, he really didn't think about it: "When I need to talk, I will talk."

Kang Shuren paused for a moment, and finally felt that there was no need to make detours: "Xing Xing, you treat your brother..."

Ji Hanxing raised his head suddenly, and the young man who was poked at the center boldly looked directly at him, his eyes were extremely frank, with the lonely courage of a young man, and a little provocation of not admitting defeat.He thought maybe Kang Shuren, who had found out about this matter, would persuade him, but he didn't need it, and he didn't need anyone to tell him that it was impossible.Ji Hanxing said: "That's what you think, I love him."

Kang Shuren took a deep breath, and then slowly said: "I have seen many things, and this is not very strange. It's just that I thought about a problem later."

"what?"

"If your father had come back in good condition, what would have happened to him and Ji Zhiqing."

Ji Hanxing understood, so he remained silent.

Kang Shuren said: "This is not an easy path."

Ji Hanxing frowned, as if he was going to refute something, Kang Shuren smiled, and there was a kind of lenient look on the face of an elder.He had heard Nie Yan say that Ji Hanxing could use it to refute him.In life, the determination to achieve perfection is similar, but the regrets are different.He felt that there was no need to be an annoying person, and at this moment he put all practical issues in front of a loving young man.

He persuaded Nie Yan at the beginning, but later, Nie Yan ended his life before he faced more realistic problems.Now facing the young Ji Hanxing, Kang Shuren has a strange understanding and compassion. He thinks that life is too short, and maybe one day the regrets that cannot be overcome will really come, so before the regrets come, he should give Ji Hanxing a gift. bless.

So Kang Shuren just patted him on the shoulder: "Li Gu is not a simple person, if you want to get him, you have to be stronger than you are now."

Ji Hanxing's eyes lit up, and his expression was stubborn and proud: "He was originally mine."

The moon hid in the stratus clouds, and the old and the young exchanged a secret in this way.

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Should be an update tomorrow.

But can't wait to collect some beautiful girl's tears after writing it.

Hastily

Ji Hanxing hadn't shown up for so long, not only Li Gu was looking for him, but also Shao Li and a group of people who usually hang out with them.Ji Hanxing's legs were not fully healed, but he could walk on the ground, so he slipped out while Li Gu was not at home.

The people sitting around were all mixed together before, talking dirty jokes in the small room filled with smoke.

Ji Hanxing told Shao Li that he had a conflict with Li Gu and went to play with his classmates who lived far away.That's how Shao Li explained to those gangsters.When they saw Ji Hanxing, they asked him if he had met some girl over there, otherwise how could he stay outside for so long.Ji Hanxing showed a little shyness. He looked at the person who asked the question, with crazy and curious flames dancing in his eyes: "Brother Xiaofei, can you suck that thing?"

The man called Xiao Fei had bangs that almost covered his eyes, and his hair was dry and yellow due to being dyed with various colors all the year round, which made him look sluggish, but his eyes were very shrewd.He raised his eyes when he heard the words: "Why, do you want to try?"

Shao Li kicked Ji Hanxing immediately, and said with a stern face: "Don't think about it." He probably felt that he was still a little older than Ji Hanxing, and he brought Ji Hanxing over to play, so he was somewhat responsible for Ji Hanxing He dare not ask Ji Hanxing to touch such untouchable things.

Ji Hanxing shrank his head and didn't speak any more, but just blinked with Fade Chen.When Shao Li went to the bathroom, Ji Hanxing moved up to him, showing an expression that he wanted to say something.

Fade Chen understood: "Do you really want to try?"

Ji Hanxing made a look of excitement and hesitation: "But...does this mean that after one taste, you have to keep smoking? I don't seem to have that much money."

Fade Chen sneered: "It's okay to have less. Isn't your brother in business? Isn't it enough for you to suck this?"

When he mentioned Li Gu, Ji Hanxing was shocked.Ji Hanxing knew that in this small place everyone's background and wealth were almost transparent, and it was impossible for him to hide it from them, and because of this, he became more credible.But he still hates these people mentioning Li Gu, that is the most tightly circled place in his heart, and no one can violate it.Ji Hanxing smirked when he heard the words, with an easily noticeable disgust showing on his face: "He didn't give me his money, did he say that the peasants got rich suddenly, and they robbed me to death."

Fade Chen sensed his dissatisfaction with Li Gu, so he fueled his emotions: "Don't you say the house is yours? Ask him for it."

Ji Hanxing seemed to be poked into something sad: "I was young at the time, he had a lot of skills, and that house has long since ceased to be mine."

Fade Chen was silent for a moment, as if he was thinking about how much benefit he could squeeze from the young man in front of him.

After a special training during the winter vacation, Ji Hanxing's body has grown slender and beautiful muscles.His body fat has dropped rapidly, so under the cover of a large coat, he looks a bit weak, and it is hard to think of how amazing explosive power is in this body.

Fade Chen remembered what his boss said earlier, and quickly thought of a way for Ji Hanxing.He kindly came over to put Ji Hanxing's shoulder: "Let's brothers don't be so alien, I can give you a little taste. I guarantee you will be better than doing that with a girl."

Ji Hanxing was shy and eager to try, Fade Chen smiled: "Don't worry about smoking, it's not just about spending money." Ji Hanxing's heart was beating fast, he knew that his chance had come.

Ji Hanxing has long had his own plans, no matter who he wants to mix with in the future, he needs a springboard first, to become "one of his own" in this group.Knowing that Lao Hei had replaced Ma Shiyi's previous position, he became more determined in his mind.The other party acts cautiously and has a suspicious personality.If he appeared in front of Lao Hei directly as an amateur, it would probably only arouse the other party's suspicion.He must appear as a verified "person of his own".

This process may be very long, two years, five years, or even more than ten years... Kang Shuren also told him that if he wants to do this, he must be mentally prepared.Ji Hanxing couldn't let Li Gu go, but before such a decision, he could only carefully hide Li Gu in a secret corner of his heart, not thinking about what would happen if he really wanted to experience a long separation from Li Gu .

When he was with people like Shao Li, he looked sluggish and lazy, like a boneless person.That handsome and beautiful face also looked a bit disheartened because of the always sluggish expression.He hid himself well among them.The first is to learn to smoke.It was very uncomfortable to choke the smoke into the lungs, and he was afraid that Li Gu would smell it, so he chewed gum on the way home every day, making sure that he had dispelled the smell of smoke from his body and mouth before entering the house.

He also knew that this was not a long-term solution, and he had to come up with a way to tell his brother as soon as possible so that he would not doubt it.

Chen Fei didn't say a few words to Ji Hanxing, Shao Li came back from the bathroom, and the conversation between the two ended.Before leaving, Fade Chen stuffed a note into Ji Hanxing's hand. Ji Hanxing thought about it, and he subconsciously prepared to rub it into his sleeve quietly, but he realized within a short time that this move was not in line with He gave these people the usual impression, so he paused, showing a mixture of fear and excitement, Fade Chen pulled him over, suppressed a laugh in his throat and let out a "shh": "I knew you were excited. Be smart, don't let Shao Li know, let's talk about this in private."

Ji Hanxing nodded sincerely to him.His heart was beating like a drum, and Fade Chen's let go meant... what he wanted to do had really started.

This progress was even smoother than what he discussed with Kang Shuren before. Kang Shuren was still very worried on the way to take him to the drug rehabilitation center: "You have to hurry up and observe what they look like when they are addicted. Some physiological states are difficult to imitate. It has to be made in some special way. Star, I tell you again, once you actually go in, there's no turning back."

Ji Hanxing sat beside him quietly, staring down at his hands: "I understand."

Kang Shuren said: "I also told Nie Yan the following sentence. If there is a time when you have to touch that thing--Yu Gong, I hope you can survive first, but Yu private... between death and suction , I would rather you choose the former one. Because once you get on this kind of thing, you can’t get rid of it, and being destroyed is more terrifying than killing it directly.”

Ji Hanxing didn't understand this sentence deeply at first, until Kang Shuren asked someone to invite a man out of the drug rehabilitation center.

This man couldn't tell his age, his eye sockets were deeply sunken, and his whole figure was like a bone frame covered with human skin.He was brought out by two men in uniform, but Kang Shuren treated him with respect, and introduced to Ji Hanxing: "This is your Uncle Ning."

Ji Hanxing looked at them inexplicably, and then he heard a story from the past.

Yang Ning was infected with drugs on the job. He used to be the person with the most medals in the police force.During a duty, he took the first sip due to the situation, then the second, and the third... When he came back after solving the case, he was horrified to find that he couldn't quit.He thought that justice could defeat this desire, that duty could defeat this need, but he failed in both.Drugs have destroyed his nerves, and he instinctively and urgently needs new stimulation to relieve the pain and torture that seems to come from the depths of his soul.

One day, he finally secretly found the special agent (Note 1: special agent, meaning the informant) he had contacted before, and asked him to buy a cigarette.

Looking at Yang Ning's face, it even gives people the illusion that he has no flesh and blood.Ji Hanxing stared at him for a long time, and then felt the fear of getting his back wet for the first time.

He has read a lot of materials, and he knows what drug addiction will look like in the end. He has read even more unbelievable data maps, but he was not so afraid at the time.He once thought that everyone who took this path was to blame, they were depraved and ignorant, they were weak-willed, and couldn't resist the temptation of the abyss, so they relapsed again and again.

But standing in front of him today is an old policeman whose achievements in his peak period are incomparable to the young Ji Hanxing.Ji Hanxing finally realized that he had underestimated what kind of enemy he was facing. Every anti-drug slogan was true. It was not a temptation that the will could resist, and it was not a plaything that humans could control. It's the abyss, the real abyss... As long as you get a little bit of it, you will have to stay in the abyss in this life, waiting to rot and die.

Ji Hanxing is not afraid of death or pain, and since he made up his mind to do this, he has persuaded himself to overcome this fragility.But...he didn't want to live in such a mess.Yang Ning repeatedly failed in drug rehabilitation. He couldn't bear to face his former comrades-in-arms and the honors he had won, so he voluntarily resigned from the police force.Since then, he has been living a precarious life. Every time he saves a certain amount of money, he has to find a special situation again to exchange for a short-term happiness for himself.Until one day Teqing asked him if he wanted to try to help sell something... Yang Ning was really scared.He asked Kang Shuren to lock him into this place. He knew that he was ruined. As long as he got out, he would become the kind of person he hated the most.

Yang Ning waved to him: "Come here, I'll tell you what kind of posture is right."

Ji Hanxing couldn't move, Yang Ning had already touched a stool and dragged it behind him, and sat down slowly, he was very calm, as if he didn't see the shock in Ji Hanxing's eyes at all, he said: "Pretending to be a drug addict is the best thing to do." The good way is to believe yourself that you are a drug addict first."

There was an arc in his palm, which contained the non-existent powder, and then his eyes became unclear. He buried his head and pinched a coiled tube in the void, half-enjoying the revealing process. Half pained look.After it was over, he slumped on the chair, and even his pupils began to dilate.

If he hadn't seen Yang Ning with nothing in his hands, Ji Hanxing would have believed that he was taking drugs.Yang Ning yawned in that limp posture, opened his eyes and continued to talk calmly: "You can cover your hands like this, and if others don't pay attention to you, you can hide those powders without actually sucking them." go in."

Ji Hanxing's chest echoed with a huge pounding sound. He looked at Yang Ning in place and asked him softly, "Uncle Ning, are you feeling bad?"

Yang Ning showed an indescribable expression - he showed a smile, which turned into an expression of extreme pain before the smile fully bloomed.It really hurts, so painful that he wants to ask for help, wants to cry out.But he quickly reached out and wiped his face vigorously, with three parts of self-deprecating and seven parts of madness in his eyes: "But I still have to live, I still have some use."

Ji Hanxing couldn't speak, he felt his throat was being strangled, as if he wanted to ask for help but couldn't make a sound.Does he think I'm going to be like this?If there is such a day, will he still have the courage to live?No...he can't accept himself like this, so he shouldn't live, but what about Li Gu, and Li Gu!

Fear tried to swallow him inch by inch, Ji Hanxing heard his inner scream, no, he couldn't do this, he couldn't bear to die, and he couldn't bear Li Gu either.

Heart fire

The atmosphere of the New Year in the city is getting stronger and stronger. Walking on the road, you can see people selling firecrackers and Spring Festival couplets at small stalls. Roasted melon seeds and seeds are piled high in front of the shops.Li Gu and his company released a new gift box at the end of the year, and the supply was in short supply. They didn't expect the market to respond so well, and the manpower couldn't keep up for a while, so they didn't have a holiday until the New Year's Eve.

Tonight, he was going to have a celebration dinner with the staff, so Li Gu couldn't get away, so he asked Ji Hanxing if he wanted to eat with him.Ji Hanxing refused, he was not in the mood.Li Gu felt a lot of guilt towards Ji Hanxing for this, and asked the restaurant to prepare food in advance for him to deliver to his home.But he himself has to have this meal with the employees, and pay for the meals. Boss Li wants to look like a boss all year round.

Ji Hanxing sat in the small courtyard facing the table full of food until the food became cold.For a while, his mind was about Yang Ning, who was not a good person, and for a while, he had secretly seen Ji Zhiqing's fascinated look at Nie Yan's photo.

He knew that once he took this step, the least probable result was that he would come back with all his needs, and the greater possibility was that he would follow Nie Yan's or Yang Ning's old path.No one can wrestle with the abyss without paying a price.Ji Hanxing knew this truth a long time ago.But now he's scared.He thinks that those young people who do not worry about their ambitions are really because they have enough ambitions to overcome their worries?Or is it because they don't yet know how cruel life can be, and they only need a passion to move forward?

If Yang Ning knew that he would live like this for the rest of his life, would he still be proud to be an undercover agent with a medal?

And Li Gu...

After he returned home, he had prepared a bunch of excuses for himself, but Li Gu didn't ask.Li Gu's caring for him made Ji Hanxing unbearably soft-hearted. He wanted to tell Li Gu, if there was only one person left in this world that he could trust, it must be Li Gu.But now he doesn't want to talk about it.He loves Li Gu and wishes Li Gu could put his whole heart on him.This love is narrow and does not allow anyone or anything to divide Li Gu's attention, but there is also kindness and compassion in this love, and he does not want Li Gu to worry about him.He always hoped that he was strong enough to protect Li Gu, instead of dragging Li Gu into such an abyss and worrying about it ever since.

Ji Hanxing poured the cold food into the trash can, tightened the bag tightly, and carried it to the trash station outside to throw it away.He went to bed early, and the winter quilt felt a little cold to the touch. Ji Hanxing got in and hugged Li Gu's pillow in his arms.Smelling the breath that belonged to Li Gu made him feel a little relieved.

Li Gu took time out of his busy schedule to call him, maybe after drinking some wine, his voice sounded joyful, and he could feel the excitement over there, he said: "Xing Xing, Happy New Year. You have eaten without?"

"Ah."

"Brother sent the last few people home and will be back soon."

Ji Hanxing pressed the phone tightly to his ear, he didn't want to miss a bit of Li Gu's voice.But he himself could not speak.

Will there be such a day?He will lose contact with Li Gu for a long time, and he will never hear Li Gu's words of concern for him again.What was Nie Yan's mood when he made that decision?Does he love Ji Zhiqing?If he loves Ji Zhiqing, why is he so determined to leave?Ji Hanxing curled up under the quilt. He was overwhelmed by great loneliness and helplessness. Only this small mobile phone in his hand was his salvation, connecting him with Li Gu.

Hearing that he hadn't spoken for a long time, Li Gu's voice became softer, and he coaxed: "Are you upset? Brother really has something to do today, but I'll be back soon! I'll give you a big red envelope when I go home, our star is one year older La."

"Ah."

Li Gu smiled lowly over there: "Then I'll hang up first, and I'll send them home as soon as possible."

Recently, Tu Yuming has had a happy event.He originally wanted to get a marriage certificate at the end of the year, but he was too busy all the time, and things were rushed at the end of the year. He hadn't formally visited Xiaowen's house to visit the elders, so the matter of getting the certificate had to be temporarily put on hold.He and Xiaowen promised to go back to her home together on New Year's Day.

Everyone in the company also knew that Boss Tu had a beautiful girlfriend who was about to get married.At the celebration banquet at the end of the year, everyone didn't let him go, and made him dizzy. It took Li Gu a lot of effort to drag Tu Yuming back home.Rabbit patted him vaguely: "Li Gu, Brother Gu! I really am, I will go home in the future, I will build a temple for you in our village, and confess you! My son must recognize you as his godfather!"

Li Gu heard it funny, moved him with difficulty and said: "You can do it, your village is our village, I was confessed by you at a young age, and the children in the village will think what happened when they see me in the future."

Tu Yuming, a drunk, of course wouldn't answer his words, and lowered his voice mysteriously: "Brother Gu, do you know? I want to tell you a secret."

"what?"

Tu Yuming refused to say anything and insisted on calling him over, so Li Gu could only swallow his anger and put his ear to him.Tu Yuming's voice was extremely low, and in the end there was only a breathless voice: "I, want, get, get married, lah~"

Li Gu: "..."

He listened to this sentence with his ears pricked up for a long time, and he was so angry that he almost beat the drunk.After tossing and tossing for a long time, he finally pushed the man back into the house, took off his shoes and coat, and stuffed him into the quilt to sleep.

Ji Hanxing didn't come out after all the commotion outside, Li Gu guessed that he either went to bed early, or had trouble because of being alone during the Chinese New Year.He laughed helplessly. Things are always difficult to take care of. This year, he has made a lot of money, and Boss Li's business territory has increased by half, but he is helpless when it comes to Ji Hanxing.

But Li Gu thought about it, it's Chinese New Year today, so what if his attitude towards Ji Hanxing is a little softer?He only has such a brother who wants to be on the tip of his heart.

Li Gu stood by the bed and bent down, calling him softly: "Xing Xing, is my Xing Xing asleep?"

Ji Hanxing didn't want to agree, turned over and moved a little inside the bed.

Li Gu was pleased by his childish behavior, climbed onto the bed with one leg and pulled his quilt corner: "Are you really angry?"

Li Gu was so close, his body carried the chill of returning from going out on a winter night, as well as the aroma of wine steamed from his body temperature.When Ji Hanxing thought of the emotion he felt in front of Li Gu's photo in the mountains, his body instantly became hot again.Li Gu saw him curled up under the quilt with his eyes tightly closed, and asked him if he felt uncomfortable.

Ji Hanxing didn't make a sound, but shook his head perfunctorily.But he felt that Li Gu's hand reached into the quilt and grabbed his ankle.Ji Hanxing was startled: "What are you doing!"

Li Gu sighed, got out of bed and walked out, Ji Hanxing immediately asked him why he was there, Li Gu said that the medicinal oil Grandma Rabbit brought last time was still at home, so he went to rub it for Ji Hanxing. "I'm not watching at home. Did you go out again? The ankle seems to be swollen again."

Ji Hanxing heard the sound of swallowing his saliva. There was pain on his body, but it was definitely not his feet.He reached out to pull Li Gu, and touched Li Gu's hand in a panic. Ji Hanxing's hand was a little cold, but the hands he touched were warm.Ji Hanxing's voice was hoarse: "Don't go, I don't want to."

"But aren't you uncomfortable?"

Ji Hanxing wanted to scold him!His desires, desires, sorrows, joys and fears all come from Li Gu.He himself was already in a sea of ​​love, and he was dying, but this person seemed to know nothing.Ji Hanxing hated him to death, and loved him to death.He simply didn't know what to do.

"Li Gu, Li Gu!"

It was Xiaowen's voice, coming from outside the courtyard.Both of them were taken aback.

Ji Hanxing was inconvenient to go out in his pajamas, so he opened the window and looked out.He hadn't seen Xiaowen for a long time. The other party probably went back for the New Year. She had her hair done early. Her satin-like long hair was soft and beautiful. Wearing a coat with a fur collar, she looked like a happy flower.

Li Gu went out and told her that he was really sorry, the company was too busy this year, and they couldn't go home early even if it was delayed until this time.Xiaowen generously said that it doesn't matter: "Our old Tu will give it to you, just remember his year-end award."

Li Gu smiled and said that there must be no less.

Xiaowen asked him if Tu Yuming was drunk,