lemon early summer

Zhang Xiaoning saw that other people’s cats and dogs are very cute, and thought about raising one, but then thought that he worked a lot of overtime and came home late, so it was not suitable for him, otherwise he would be left alone at home. Pitiful.

I don’t feel it when I’m busy, but when I’m a little free, Zhang Xiaoning always feels a great sadness when she looks at the dark room. She once thought that she had money, so she breathed a sigh of relief, but she still felt that way after all. She was in vain, and she felt very tired, not just from work.

She is not a person who likes to complain, and she doesn't want to show all her emotions too much. She is afraid that when she has nothing to do, she has to do something to feel at ease.But recently, for a long time, she felt muddled, and the drawing board and brushes at the foot of the wall were dusty.

On a sunny day, Zhang Xiaoning seemed to be in a sudden mood. She packed up all the painting tools and wanted to draw something about the city outside the window, but she put it aside after a while.

After getting used to drawing with a computer, she felt a little rusty when she picked up a paintbrush again. The bright sunshine still resembled the campus in high school, but things changed and people changed, everything changed.

She is not a very nostalgic person, but she really misses the past for no reason.

Before she finished thinking about it, she remembered the phone again. She could guess without looking at it, it was probably about work.Recently, she has had a headache whenever she hears the phone ring.

"Little Ning, there is a project here that may transfer you to it. It is cooperating with the hospital over there. Their latest publicity is on October 10th. It's only a few days away..."

Zhang Xiaoning kept agreeing, but didn't pay attention to what the person on the phone was saying. Simply put, the workload was going to increase. Although she was annoying, she was used to it. She would rather be busy than idle.

Opening the notebook, it happened to be the materials sent by my colleagues, which had to be finished before the 10th.After collecting the materials, Zhang Xiaoning was a little upset. "The things that are needed on the 10th, why are you doing them so late?"

"It's not the first day I've encountered this kind of situation. Why are you complaining? I'm also very annoyed." The colleague quickly typed a few words.

"Okay, let me look at the information first."

"You have to go to the hospital with me tomorrow, and discuss the details of the plan with the leaders there."

"Oh, oh, oh." Zhang Xiaoning clicked on the information, flipped through it casually, and found the things needed on the 10th, only to realize that October 10th is World Mental Health Day. More and more, I don’t know if there will be a happy day, when that day, everyone will do happy things.”

The next day, Zhang Xiaoning and her colleagues came to the psychiatric department of the hospital. Along the way, Zhang Xiaoning felt a little strange, and said to her colleagues, "I never thought I would come to the psychiatric department in this life."

"We came to Director Chen to discuss work, not to see a doctor."

Zhang Xiaoning quietly looked around the patients waiting outside the psychiatric department, and found that everyone looked normal. A colleague explained to her: "Don't think that all people who come to the psychiatric department are mentally ill. This is also a psychological counseling center. If you are broken in love, you can come to consult if you are in a bad mood."

"Increasing knowledge." Zhang Xiaoning put away her curious eyes, thinking that she might come and see her in the future when she is in a bad mood, because sometimes she really feels very depressed and can't find a way to resolve it.

A colleague introduced Zhang Xiaoning to Chen Xiangchen, the director of the psychiatry department. Zhang Xiaoning couldn't help but smile very gently when he saw the doctor's gentle appearance.

Throughout the conversation, Chen Xiangchen seemed to have a good temper, so Zhang Xiaoning's favor in Zhang Xiaoning's heart continued to rise. It was probably because he had seen Party A's father who was not easy to serve, and suddenly met Chen Xiangchen, a person who was very skilled in speaking. Zhang Xiaoning is really comfortable.

In order to facilitate the next work communication, Zhang Xiaoning and Chen Xiangchen exchanged phone and WeChat messages.

After leaving the hospital, Zhang Xiaoning was lamenting that it had been a long time since she had met such a comfortable person to get along with.Colleagues disagree, "He is a psychologist, so he naturally knows how to say it to make people feel comfortable."

"Are all psychiatrists like him?"

"As far as I have come into contact with, most of them seem to have a good temper."

"Sure enough, it has something to do with the profession."

"That depends on whether it is a doctor who specializes in psychological counseling or a doctor who specializes in dealing with real mental patients. Those who can prescribe medicine may not be able to do consultation, and those who can do consultation may not be able to prescribe medicine, and..."

"It's so complicated..." Zhang Xiaoning asked again, "Then what did Director Chen do just now?"

"It's all right, he's an expert."

expert?Images of a group of white-haired old men appeared in Zhang Xiaoning's mind, but Chen Xiangchen didn't look very old, at most in his early forties.

Chen Xiangchen was very busy at work, but he always responded promptly to the necessary communication, even if he was not free for the time being, he would make a special announcement.It is rare for Zhang Xiaoning to meet such a humble and polite person, and she feels a lot better when she starts working in the hospital.

After the event on the 10th, Zhang Xiaoning devoted herself to the planning and design of other projects, and Chen Xiangchen was temporarily forgotten by her.About half a year later, when Wen Yayi talked about her recent troubles, Zhang Xiaoning remembered the psychiatrist again.

Wen Yayi said that she wasn't bothered enough to see a psychiatrist, but Zhang Xiaoning should go see a psychiatrist. The reason is that Zhang Xiaoning is the kind of person who won't talk about her psychological grievances. What's wrong.

"I'm kind enough to give you advice, but you're even pulling on me."

"I know your kindness. If I really want to see it, I will ask you to introduce it to me." Wen Yayi verbally agreed, but did not take it at ease, because based on her understanding of the two, Zhang Xiaoning could It is the one who needs to be unraveled more.

One day after the regular meeting, Zhang Xiaoning sat on a chair, but suddenly felt that she couldn't stand up, and that huge sense of powerlessness struck again.A colleague came over and patted her on the shoulder, "What's wrong with you? The meeting is over, go back to work!"

Zhang Xiaoning grabbed her colleague's hand, "Pull me, I don't think I can get up."

The colleague pulled her up from the chair and asked what was wrong with concern. Zhang Xiaoning shook her head and said it was okay, probably because she was too tired recently.The colleague looked at her several times worriedly, and told her not to think too much about work, but to take a break while she was busy.

Ask yourself, does Zhang Xiaoning like to work?The answer is not exact, at least not annoying, because for her, there is nothing to rely on except work.She felt that she was happy like a walking dead.

After countless times of tears streaming down her face in the middle of the night, Zhang Xiaoning finally decided to take a vacation for herself. She knew that she would go crazy if she continued like this, so she immediately asked the leader for annual leave.After taking annual leave, Zhang Xiaoning didn't go anywhere, but slept at home for two days, and the more she slept, the more haggard she became. Fortunately, Gu Xia's call broke the situation.

"My good fellow, you don't go out to play even after taking annual leave, what a waste of you!"

"Where are you going? The main reason is that you don't have any desire to go anywhere recently."

Gu Xia seemed to think that Zhang Xiaoning asked a really ridiculous question, "There are so many places in the world, there is always one you can go to, right?"

After a moment of silence, Zhang Xiaoning said, "I'll come to you."

Gu Xia didn't expect Zhang Xiaoning to say this, but she agreed happily. She thought that she must enlighten this silly girl. After working for two years, she doesn't talk about love, and doesn't like to go out to play. Workaholics, earning money is only meaningful if you spend it.

"Why are you haggard like this?" Gu Xia was taken aback by Zhang Xiaoning's appearance, her complexion was dull, her eyes were dull, and her whole body's energy and energy were lost.

Zhang Xiaoning pursed her mouth, "Is there? I don't think there is any change."

"Of course you don't feel it when you see yourself every day." Gu Xia rubbed Zhang Xiaoning's head, and found that her hair had grown a lot, and said softly, "It seems that you are so lazy that you don't even cut your hair." Zhang Xiao Ning has had shoulder-length hair for a long time, and this is the first time Gu Xia has seen Zhang Xiaoning's hair grow below the vest.

"Come with me to get your hair cut."

"It's pretty, don't cut it."

"It's too long to take care of." Zhang Xiaoning's idea of ​​cutting her hair came up suddenly. She always felt that if she cut it short, she might feel a lot more relaxed. So she found a hairdresser she was familiar with.

"I want to cut it above the ears." Just as Zhang Xiaoning said her idea to the barber, Gu Xia immediately vetoed it, "Don't cut it so short!" In the end, the two argued, Zhang Xiaoning still told Gu Xia Compromise, let her talk to the barber about how she wants to make herself.

Her hair was not cut too short, similar to when she was in high school, but Gu Xia felt a little discouraged seeing Zhang Xiaoning's lack of energy. "It's like losing your soul now, your eyes are dull and your behavior is slow."

"It's the same as an old man." Zhang Xiaoning was dissatisfied with this description. She thought that she was not that bad, but since work, she became more and more tired and emotional. In short, everything was messed up. In time, it will be fine.

Gu Xia handed the mirror to Zhang Xiaoning, "Look for yourself, where is the same as before, I see, this job has almost ruined you."

"It's not about work."

"what is that?"

"I don't know." Zhang Xiaoning really doesn't know what caused her to become what she is now. To put it bluntly, she has no desires and desires. To put it bluntly, she has no joy in life and no fear of death. .

Gu Xia thought about Zhang Xiaoning's rare vacation, so she took her around to eat.

"This newly opened snack bar tastes very good. The owner is still from our hometown. You can try it." Gu Xia handed a pair of chopsticks to Zhang Xiaoning. Zhang Xiaoning picked up a piece and put it in his mouth, but his throat felt It was as if something was blocking it, and it was difficult to swallow the thing.

"Unappetizing?"

"No, it's delicious." Zhang Xiaoning has no appetite, not at all, although she didn't eat much during the two days when she slept at home before coming here.