difficult love

School will start in a few days. Tan Yixing went out to feed the cat every now and then throughout the holiday. He got carried away with his relationship and found that he still had a lot of homework to do.

Xie Mingjiang hoped that he was really struggling to cope with his studies, instead of hiding from himself. Even if he turned the TV to his favorite channel while eating, he didn't respond. He ate, remained silent, and turned a deaf ear.

Xie Mingjiang couldn't bear it, looked for an opportunity to talk to him, put down his chopsticks and tapped on the table: "Today, "Superman vs. Batman" is on TV."

"Oh." Tan Yixing just responded, without further words.

Xie Mingjiang waited for a while, then plucked up his courage and said, "Then how are you doing these few days, I'll check it for you when you're done."

Tan Yixing held the dish, half wailing and half sighing: "I just finished writing the math, I'm so worried. I put it on the study table after I take a shower, you can read it yourself when the time comes."

His voice could touch Xie Mingjiang's heartstrings, Xie Mingjiang immediately leaned forward, and said with implicit expectation: "If there is no way, don't you know to ask me?"

Tan Yixing quickly vetoed: "No."

Xie Mingjiang felt a little lost: "...Why?"

"Because I have some things I would have done, but now I have forgotten the steps, you have to scold me."

Xie Mingjiang said tenderly, "I won't scold you."

Unexpectedly, Tan Yixing didn't answer the words: "I'm full, you eat slowly, I'll go back to the house to catch up with homework."

After speaking, he stood up and went back to the house. Baihui finally found clues in the recent daily life: "Sir, what's wrong with him?"

Xie Mingjiang was waiting for her to ask questions. Feeling that the emotions that had been unable to find an outlet could be vented, he took out a cigarette from the cigarette case and lit it, and took two puffs: "I went to Xu Changfeng's son's coming-of-age ceremony two days ago, that is, Do you have any impression of his deskmate?"

That was a week ago, of course Baihui remembered, nodded, Xie Mingjiang finally turned his face: "I met Zhou Zhuo with him, he knows everything."

Baihui was stunned immediately, and when she came back to her senses, Tan Yixing's chopsticks, which had just been cleaned up, had already fallen on the table: "What, what?"

Xie Mingjiang coughed heavily from the smoke, and his mouth was full of bitterness: "Look at his attitude towards me now, it's not an exaggeration to say that there are no two of us."

Baihui couldn't speak, didn't eat, and wrung her hands tightly. Xie Mingjiang glanced at her: "You are right, I procrastinated, and I didn't expect the consequences of today, I just don't want to face it. Or I was lucky enough to think he might be able to accept it.”

He said, Baihui listened quietly.In the end, Baihui said helplessly: "Then what should I do? You have become a mess now. Ah Xing blames you, but you are not someone else. You saved his life and are still raising him now. I think he--"

The more Xie Mingjiang heard it, the more his heart became colder. Now that his relationship with Tan Yixing has to care about these things, it will deteriorate. He sneered: "Okay, I don't want to hear it anymore."

He took the cigarette case upstairs and went into the bedroom, Baihui chased after him, Xie Mingjiang lay on his back on the bed, Baihui changed the subject again and asked, "Are Zhou Zhuo and that man still together now?"

Xie Mingjiang flipped upside down, suppressing his anger: "Why are you asking this purely self-abuse question, huh?"

"..." Baihui leaned against the wall, she didn't leave, she knew that Xie Mingjiang would give her an answer.

Cigarette ash fell on Xie Mingjiang's sweater, and he took out the cigarette with trembling hands: "I lied to you that we are not together, and you must feel sorry for him. I tell you that they are so good, you may also have complicated feelings."

"They are very nice." Xie Mingjiang trembled, "What I can give, what I can't, he got everything from others, I—"

Xie Mingjiang was still in agitation, but the sound of the phone interrupted his speech, and he pressed it without even looking at it. Finally, he said dejectedly: "It's good, he doesn't bother to have anything to do with me now, why don't you still talk to him?" As a friend, you bless him."

The caller was Sato, Xie Mingjiang didn't reply him in a hurry, but waited for the shower and went to the study, flipped through Tan Yixing's homework, remembered this, and called back, Sato said urgently : "Is it convenient for you now? What I want to tell you is very complicated."

Xie Mingjiang carefully watched Tan Yixing's homework word by word, discerning his handwriting, not wanting to get distracted: "Just try to keep the story short, I still have something to do here."

"How can I summarize this for you?" Sato took a deep breath, and finally said, "Let's just say that the time for the court session has been set. In the middle of March, we plan to bring Ah Xing back."

Xie Mingjiang was stunned: "When will you pick me up?"

"I understand what you mean. We also think that the sooner the better, at the latest within half a month. There is something wrong with Yamashita. We plan to wait for him to finish and come to pick up A Xing next weekend." Sato The tone is cheerful and exaggerated, "You are liberated, how about it, are we keeping our word? Ming Jiang, Ming Jiang? Are you listening to me—"

Of course Xie Mingjiang wasn't listening, and hung up the phone, leaving only Sato busy.

next weekend?Today is Thursday and school starts next week.It's only ten days at full count, but how much time he spends at school every day, how much time he sleeps, and the time he spends under his nose may be calculated in hours.

Xie Mingjiang stood up straight, staring at the mobile phone screen in a daze, doubting his hearing, maybe he heard it wrong, and regretting why he hung up Sato's phone, and he hadn't asked him clearly about the ins and outs, forensic appraisal, court hearing , Tan Yixing must go?It's not safe for him to show up in Tokyo now. If he is related by blood, he will definitely get a share of the property. I'm afraid his stepmother will get rid of him quickly. The three men, Sato, Yamashita, Fujiwara, and the others can't even solve such a small matter.

His fingers unconsciously caressed Tan Yixing's handwriting word by word. Tan Yixing's hand was so heavy that he could draw pen marks on the blank pages that were not written on the back. Xie Mingjiang found that he was actually paying attention to such small details. It's not a good sign for those passionate men who missed their fate to figure out the aftertaste.

Tan Yixing finished the last two English compositions, and then sent a WeChat message to Xu Yaojia to confirm. The rest were Chinese excerpts and weekly diaries.

He was closing the book and intending to stay for a while, when there was a knock on the door, such a heavy and regular voice must be Xie Mingjiang, Tan Yixing stopped what he was doing, and he heard Xie Mingjiang through a thin door: "Tan Yixing, have you slept?"

Tan Yixing walked to the door and stuck it against the door panel without saying a word.

He is also very confused about how to get along with Xie Mingjiang now. He still wants to smile at Xie Mingjiang as before, first make trouble with him, then piss him off, and then coax him, but now everything has changed. Xie Mingjiang and himself are not what they used to be. No matter how you pretend, you can't go back to the previous state.

Xie Mingjiang put his hands on the doorknob, but he didn't open the door. He sighed silently and said, "I know you're awake."

He tentatively asked again: "You can't accept it, so do you want to break up with me?"

Tan Yixing pursed his lips, and suddenly remembered that the weather was fine that day, Xie Mingjiang took him with him, with a rare smile on his lips: "Dating, when will we fall in love, will you ask me for a date?"

Xie Mingjiang waited for a long time, but did not wait for an answer.He couldn't bear such silence, because silence couldn't represent anything, silence was just silence.

Xie Mingjiang withdrew his hand and no longer thought about opening the door. Now he understands that even if he opens the door, he will not be able to connect to the past time, and what he will see will not be Tan Yixing who was angry or blushing towards him like before.

Xie Mingjiang suffered from insomnia that night.

Baihui fried two stacks of yellow tamagoyaki in the morning, sprinkled with seaweed and sesame seeds, which whetted the appetite. Xie Mingjiang ate two pieces with coffee, and then lowered his head to browse the news on his mobile phone. Baihui didn't persuade him to eat, but just stared at Tan Yixing was in a daze.

Tan Yixing ate for a while, then looked up: "What do you see me doing?"

Baihui immediately looked away, Tan Yixing didn't seem to think about it, and continued to eat, his appetite was still good, and he got up after eating: "Then what, I'm going into the room."

"Wait." Xie Mingjiang called to stop him, "How much homework do you have left for the winter vacation?"

"Four weekly diaries and ten excerpts."

In fact, he doesn't need to do homework at all during the holidays. Anyway, he can go back to Tokyo after the first week of school. Xie Mingjiang put down his phone and raised his eyelids: "Let's put it first, today is already Friday."

Tan Yixing didn't understand what he was thinking, so he continued logically: "That's right, it's Friday, and I have to submit my registration on Sunday."

Xie Mingjiang thought, when he returns to Tokyo in the future, he will definitely not care about studying so much anymore. He is not a person who loves to study, so he rushed ducks to the shelves, bowed his head and thought for a moment: "I will copy ten excerpts for you, and I will save one for you tonight. Time to have dinner with me. I have something to talk to you."

Hearing this, Tan Yixing looked evasively, and said to Baihui, "I suddenly want to drink grapefruit juice, can you squeeze some for me? The juicer makes a sound, if you can close the door—"

Xie Mingjiang waved his hand: "She knows everything about Zhou Zhuo, you don't need to dismiss her."

Tan Yixing looked around between Xie Mingjiang and Baihui in shock, and finally sat down on the seat and looked at Baihui: "After a long time, you also know everything, why didn't you tell me?"

Baihui lowered her head and said nothing.

Tan Yixing shook his head first, then nodded, and finally turned to Xie Mingjiang: "I know you want to talk to me, and I understand what you want to talk about, but this is a hurdle in my heart." As he spoke, his eyes wandered between the two of them , "If I can make it through, you don't need to tell me anything, if I can't make it through, it's useless for both of you to say anything."

Baihui's face was ugly, but Xie Mingjiang's face was as usual, he said as sincerely as possible: "Then how can I help you there, tell me."

Tan Yixing said stubbornly: "Why did you help me over? What do you think you stand on to help me over?"

Xie Mingjiang didn't know why he still asked such a question: "Because I like you. As for the position, what position do you think I stand on. Tan Yixing, if you can't figure it out, just ask and I will try my best to explain. You are not the person involved. , no matter how much you think about it, what result do you expect to get?"

Tan Yixing's face was flushed at first, and then there was excitement in his bright eyes: "You are right, I am not the person involved. Xie Mingjiang, no matter what you think, you did that at the beginning, you are putting me on fire now Bake it! You make me suffer!"

After speaking, he stood up abruptly, turned around and went back to the room, slammed the door, and the room was silent.