difficult love

Tan Yixing didn't come out all morning, sitting on the sofa watching TV, Baihui waxed the floor carefully, Xie Mingjiang didn't want to digest this emotion alone, but he never found a suitable opportunity to speak, Baihui's character I understand too well, now half of her life has been shifted to Tan Yixing, and she usually points to Tan Yixing to chat with her happily and play around, if she tells her that Tan Yixing is leaving, and it is basically impossible to come back under such circumstances, She must be very sad.

Xie Mingjiang stared at the TV screen intently. It was close to eleven o'clock, and Baihui's living room was almost cleaned up. He came over to persuade him: "Sir, don't be angry, and don't worry, you have to give Ah Xing time to think about it." I think, when he is in a better mood, we will explain to him and persuade him, his personality is definitely acceptable."

Xie Mingjiang glanced at her.Give Tan Yixing time?No, there is no time.

Baihui proposed again: "I'll make him something he likes to eat, and coax him, just make sure he's in a good mood?"

"He likes to eat my pickled cabbage. He just finished eating it some time ago. Today, no, I will start to pickle it now, and I can eat it in ten or so days." She became more and more interested, "Then we will have offal pot at noon ,OK?"

Xie Mingjiang nodded as if nothing, seeing her happily running away, then sighed calmly.

After thinking for a long time, he got up, went to the kitchen to squeeze some grapefruit juice, and knocked on Tan Yixing's door.

"Tan Yixing." Xie Mingjiang called him close to the door, and then called, "A Xing, A Xing."

After a while, when he thought that Tan Yixing would not open the door for him, the door opened, and Tan Yixing stood at the door with a stern face: "What are you doing?"

Seeing the grapefruit juice in Xie Mingjiang's hand, he frowned: "I didn't really say I want to drink it."

"I know, I just want to find a chance to talk to you."

"..." Tan Yixing stared at him for a long time, his face turned red, and he rubbed his hair, both sleepy and annoyed, "Come in."

How could he be so soft and kind.

Xie Mingjiang was moved and loved at the same time, followed into the room, put down his cup, and sat on Tan Yixing's bed.

Fortunately, he was wearing home pants, otherwise he could only stand and watch Tan Yixing writing his weekly diary. Xie Mingjiang watched deliberately, but Tan Yixing found out immediately, put away the notebook and threw it aside: "What are you looking at? Don't read it !"

Xie Mingjiang pursed his lips, looked away, the curtains covered the outside, the sunlight was dim, mainly the light from the desk lamp, spreading in front of the desk, Tan Yixing sat in his seat, packing his books: "Speak, I'm listening. "

Xie Mingjiang asked: "If you read like this, will it hurt your eyes?"

Tan Yixing said: "No." Immediately he said again: "Is that what you're talking about that doesn't matter?"

It's not unimportant, Xie Mingjiang thought, it's not unimportant, he found that the kind of company he wanted most was brought to him by Tan Yixing, and he wanted to hold Tan Yixing's hand, just for such a trivial matter.

Xie Mingjiang plucked up his courage, stretched out his hand to cover Tan Yixing's hand on the table, Tan Yixing immediately stopped moving, Xie Mingjiang turned his chair to himself, and pulled that hand to his lap——

"Axing."

Tan Yixing not moving was the greatest encouragement to himself, Xie Mingjiang lowered his head, pressed Tan Yixing's hand to his cheek, slowly kissed his palm, tried his best to express his love silently while Tan Yixing stared into his eyes.

"...Xie Mingjiang." Tan Yixing looked at the top of Xie Mingjiang's head, feeling uncomfortable.

Xie Mingjiang said very slowly: "I used to think that the door of my heart was closed, and Zhou Zhuo appeared because fate opened the door for me. In fact, fate didn't let me go out, but just let me take a look, and when I had something Yearning, it closes the door again. You are my window, when I was desperate, the window opened, I thought I could get out now, but..."

"But what?"

Xie Mingjiang rubbed Tan Yixing's hand with a smile, did not continue, but said: "There is a problem with this statement, what kind of door or window, as if I treated the two of you differently. I just want to go out, but I never thought that you are actually in different rooms. Each of us has many doors. Open this door and you will meet this person. Open that door and you will meet another person. Some people give us happiness, Some people make us suffer, happiness is not the only one, pain is not the only one, it's just the act of choice that makes it unique."

After finishing speaking, Xie Mingjiang finally raised his head and stared at Tan Yixing. Tan Yixing looked confused and blank. He obviously didn't understand what Xie Mingjiang was saying, which was normal.

Tan Yixing felt that Xie Mingjiang was very formal today, and he was hesitant to ask him to choose a place before going out for dinner at night. Later, Xie Mingjiang said that Xu Yaojia's yacht failed last time, so he took him to sit this time.

This double-decker yacht is very luxurious. It has all the kitchen, bedroom, bathroom and bar counters. It is often booked a week in advance, but Xie Mingjiang doesn't use it. The wind on the river is very strong. , behind him.

Tan Yixing stared at Jiang Mian expressionlessly, and when he noticed Xie Mingjiang, he pretended to be relaxed and said, "Why don't you make a sound, hide behind me, and imitate the Titanic?"

Xie Mingjiang took two steps and put down the cup, then came back and put the tip of his nose against his forehead: "Can I imitate hugging you?"

"Yeah." Tan Yixing likes to have physical contact with Xie Mingjiang, and letting Xie Mingjiang hug him may help him to worry less about his past.

Xie Mingjiang hugged him from behind, put his chin on his shoulder, Tan Yixing sighed unconsciously, shrank into Xie Mingjiang's arms, and said frankly: "I want to think of you more every day."

Xie Mingjiang paused, hugged him tighter, and replied in a deep voice, "Really."

Tan Yixing lowered his eyes, Jiang Feng blew his hair onto Xie Mingjiang's cheek little by little.

Tan Yixing nodded: "Of course, you treat me well, I know."

"At first I was thinking, you will definitely not bring me back, because you are not short of money, and I am in trouble, and the lives of people who are with me are likely to be in danger." Tan Yixing didn't know what to think of, and smiled dejectedly Laughter, "I'm a mediocre person. It's enough to be happy today, and I don't bother to think about tomorrow's things. Who knows where I will be tomorrow, whether I have money, who cares about my money, who cares about my little life? So I I'm old-fashioned, I did it on purpose, I think it's fun to watch you blow your hair. I don't mean to coax you, I just think that after coaxing you forget the last time, I can get angry with you again, after all, my life is too boring. "

Xie Mingjiang listened silently.

"It's clear that my attitude towards life is not serious, why do you want to turn me into a person who thinks seriously, if I can't do it, I can't." Tan Yixing spat and shook his head, "I'm fucking bad. "

Xie Mingjiang put his arms around his shoulders, knowing in his heart: "I didn't ask you to do it."

When he said it, he was taken aback for a moment, didn't he want Tan Yixing to do it?How much he thought he had to do it.

"Xie Mingjiang..."

Xie Mingjiang turned him over, hugged his head tightly in the crook of his neck, and held his head up. The wind tonight probably brought all the clouds, and the clouds covered the sky in all directions, but there was not a single star.

He finally said: "Didn't I tell you? You can still close my door and open another one, because I can no longer make you happy, I can only bring you pain now, so Tan Yixing, let's break up .”

Tan Yixing's eyes wet the shoulder line of Xie Mingjiang's coat, and he kept silent, there will be someone in the world who loves him silently like Xie Mingjiang, is it okay for him?He doesn't know either.

Xie Mingjiang stroked his back heartbroken: "I can't wait anymore, you are in pain, and I am also tormented. If you don't speak, I will take it as your agreement."

Tan Yixing suddenly hugged Xie Mingjiang, bit Xie Mingjiang's shoulder hard, and said bitterly, "Okay, let's share."

Baihui waited for a long time, and heard that they were going to have dinner on the yacht, and made some ginger tea to keep out the cold. After eleven o'clock, Xie Mingjiang finally came back with Tan Yixing, and she went to meet him. Xie Mingjiang's phone rang, and he turned around Walked to the stairs, and answered the phone while going upstairs: "Got it, I will look at the plan on Monday, and we will have a meeting to discuss it before lunch."

Baihui watched him disappear, and tugged at Tan Yixing's clothes: "You haven't reconciled yet."

Tan Yixing's eyelids were slightly red: "We broke up completely."

Baihui was startled: "Why?" But after asking, she collapsed in embarrassment again, and dragged Tan Yixing into his room: "You don't forgive Mr., you want to break up with him, right?"

Tan Yixing sat drinking tea: "..."

"Forgive Mr., he is good to you, although you just came here he always fierce you, always tell you to go, but when he really let you go, he will buy you whatever you want, and the cloakroom is also remodeled It becomes your bedroom. When you are sick, he cooks porridge for you. He checks your homework, gives you lectures, and spends less time for entertainment. What’s more, the money spent by Mr. Sato is not what Sato gave you, but what he spends. It's all his own money."

Tan Yixing listened blankly, feeling sad in his heart: "I know, he is afraid that I will have no inheritance in the future. Sato and the others treat me for a while, and they can ask for as much as they want. This is the money for my future life."

Baihui nodded sharply: "Yes, sir also helped you find your mother."

"I know." Tan Yixing looked at his hands, "It's clear that my mother is dead, and he still made up all kinds of lies to lie to me, it's hard for him."

Baihui immediately petrified, and almost fell off the edge of the bed: "Ah Xing..."

Tan Yixing looked up at her, and smiled miserably: "My mother must be dead, I can guess, Xie Mingjiang took me to find her that day, he liked to rub my head when he lied to me, and he treated me very well .”

"I doubted it before, because my dad hardly mentioned my mother, and my mother never looked for me, why didn't she look for me." Tan Yixing and Baihui looked at each other, "I also thought about it, maybe I couldn't find me. Yes, but Mrs. Jinguji must be able to find it, she has a lot of ways, if my mother is still alive, she will definitely not give up looking for her, with her ability, my mother may have been killed by her."

Baihui shook her head violently: "No, your mother was shot through the abdomen by Mo Jingxiao when she was in Hong Kong, and the rescue in the hospital was ineffective, so she died. Conflict. You were four or five years old and you were with your mother."

Tan Yixing's eyes widened, and his expression finally changed: "Then how am I doing well?"

Baihui pondered for a long time before saying, "Because when Mo Jingxiao was about to hit you, Xie Mingjiang broke Mo Jingxiao's knee."

"Witnessing two consecutive shooting incidents can easily bring psychological trauma to a child. He may selectively forget some unacceptable scenes, even things that have been happening for a long time."

Jingongsi had expanded his business in Guangdong in the early years, and his Cantonese is pretty good. He begged the doctor: "As long as he remembers his mother and his godfather."

The doctor was very troubled and said: "The child is still very young, and he has a relatively silent personality. At present, he said that he can't remember his mother's appearance, and he has no memory of what happened a few days ago. It’s not just a full reaction. In the future, it may be accompanied by stuttering, irritability or even irritability when you hear loud noises. For now, I don’t recommend taking medicine. I still hope that you can spend more time with your child and communicate with him more. Don’t let him The person who saved him often appeared in front of him to provoke him."

Jinguji said yes again and again. After meeting with the doctor, he came to the living room. He re-examined the young man named Xie Mingjiang sitting on the sofa.

Jingongsi sat down opposite him, and asked him kindly, "I didn't ask Ah Cheng to give you some money first."

Xie Mingjiang nodded: "He gave it. I took it to buy a tomb for my mother and put it in the temple." He raised his hand and gestured a small square, wrinkled his nose and smiled, "It's so small, private Yes, plus this year’s annual fee, it’s 8 yuan.”

Jinguji knew this situation, his mother died, and there was no place to put the ashes.

Jingongsi also laughed, and said to him warmly: "How did you get your name? Did it come from "Yi Tian Tu Long Ji"?"

Xie Mingjiang said: "No, my mother just picked it up casually. These two words are simple and easy to write."

This man was very poor, but he had good eyesight, courage, and a steady hand. It was the first time in his life that he shot a gun, and he hit Mo Jingxiao, one of the Twin Stars in Central.Besides, this year, he is a very good seedling. He likes honest people.

Jinguji nodded: "There is no place for you in Hong Kong anymore. You know very well that I want you to go to Japan with me."

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Jin Yong's "Yi Tian Shou Long Ji" Nine Suns Mantra: He is ruled by others, and the bright moon shines on the river.