almost lonely

The guy's eyes were bright, and he said mysteriously: "Is my brother Sleeping Beauty?" Xu Ye's heart was sore for a moment.It's a pity that he is not, otherwise why I kissed him secretly so many times and he still hasn't woken up?Xu Ye raised his index finger and moved it to his mouth to make a silent gesture. He didn't know how to get along with children, so he could only try his best to soften his tone: "You have to keep a secret." The little girl nodded vigorously. Toss it around, it's so cute.

She came back to get her "Princess Elsa", and Xu Yi helped her find it. It fell under the bed, and it was a doll in a blue princess dress.The little girl hopped away with the toy in her arms. When she got to the door, she turned her head and said solemnly, "Don't worry, uncle! I will keep it a secret!"

Xu Ye smiled helplessly, sat back on the side of the bed, squeezed Ning Juechen's wrist, and gently stroked the butterfly-shaped wound with his thumb.

When will you come back baby?Children are starting to call me uncle and your brother, am I that old?Obviously, you will have your 34th birthday in a few months.I won't become a grandfather when you become an uncle...

This is the most ordinary day out of the more than 500 days and nights when I miss you.

I am alone, loving you.

32 but i need you

After a long and humid rainy season, the plums finally came out in mid-July, followed by the sweltering midsummer.In the morning, Xu Ye fed Ning Juechen a meal of cereal porridge, touched the sticky sweat in his collar, then took a towel and wiped him again.

Each of the three nurses said that there is no need to scrub every day, but Xu Yi didn't listen and insisted on doing it every day.He thought that Ning Juechen used to love cleanliness so much, if he couldn't take a bath every day, he would definitely feel very uncomfortable.Another reason is that the nurses are all aunts and elder sisters. Xu Ye felt that Ning Juechen didn't want to lie naked in front of them. If he found out, he would be so ashamed that his face would blush.

Xu Ye imagined a lot of "what ifs" wishful thinking. Sister Zhou was not used to his problem when she first came here, so she said in a very simple and honest Mandarin: "But he doesn't know anything." Xu Ye Smiled, bowed his head and said nothing.But even this smile was bitter, no matter how stupid Sister Zhou was, she knew she was talking too much, and she didn't dare to say these words anymore.

Because he insisted on doing full-body massage every day, Ning Juechen didn't show muscle atrophy. His body was white and clean, but he was a little thin.Xu Ye helped him wipe off a little sweat, and put on the hospital gown after wiping off.

Ning Juechen's eyes slowly opened when buttoning the button, Xu Ye has long been used to it. "I won't be fooled anymore." He leaned forward and kissed the scar on Ning Juechen's forehead, "I'm going to work baby, see you tonight."——He didn't notice that Ning Juechen's drooping fingers moved slightly move.

Monday morning was the weekly departmental meeting, Xu Ye was a little inexplicably restless, and wandered off several times.When it was his turn to give a report, Lao Li called his name three times before he recovered.Russling whispers were heard around, Peng Qinglin bumped Xiao Min's arm, and gave her a wink of "That's right", Xiao Min pretended not to notice, watching Xu Ye standing up and walking in a trance with some worry to the stage.

Almost finished speaking, Xu Ye's cell phone vibrated suddenly, and Lao Li's expression became even uglier.Xu Ye glanced down at the caller ID, his hand movements were messed up, and he directly pressed the remote control pen to turn the PPT to the last page, left a sentence "I'm sorry to answer the call", and hurriedly opened the door, leaving a table People looked at each other in blank dismay.

"Hey, sister Zhou, what's the matter?" Xu Ye was very anxious, calling during working hours must be because something happened there. "Boss, wake up! Your brother is awake!" Sister Zhou always thought he was the patient's cousin, "Can you come back?" Xu Ye's mind went blank for a moment, and he spoke incoherently: "I ...Really? Has the doctor seen it? How is it? I’ll be right back when I get back! Are you sure it’s not some kind of nervous reflex? What’s going on now?”

Sister Zhou has probably never encountered such a thing before, and she didn't get to the point for a long time: "It was in the morning, when I finished feeding him water, he grabbed me with his right hand! I didn't worry about it at first, but I just stood up , He grabbed me again! I saw that his eyes were open, and his mouth seemed to move! I immediately rang the bell to call the doctor!"

While Xu Ye was talking, he had already taken the elevator to the lobby on the first floor, and found that he didn't bring the access card, so he turned over the gate without thinking: "Sister Zhou, what's going on now?" Sister Zhou hurriedly answered : "The doctor is watching! Watching!" Xu Ye ran to the side of the road and waved his hands vigorously to stop the car: "Okay! I'll go back right away!"

Xu Ye kept urging the driver to hurry up, but the driver got impatient and stepped on the brakes to stop at the last intersection: "The light is red! I can't fly over!" Xu Ye took a look Using the meter, I took out 30 yuan, and without waiting for the driver to change the money, I got out of the car and ran to the hospital through the traffic and people.Break through the gate all the way, bypass the outpatient building, pass through the lawn of the atrium, and finally reach the inpatient department.While waiting for the elevator, he kept shaking and couldn't control himself at all. The strongest thought in his heart was actually: fear.

Despair can't hurt him anymore, but disappointment can.He was afraid that he would be killed by false hope.

Such thoughts filled his mind, so much so that he didn't dare to go in when he stood at the door of the ward as if he was nailed in place. It was Sister Zhou who pulled him in.Xu Ye felt like he was stepping on the air step by step, without any sense of reality.There was a white flower in front of my eyes, and several doctors and nurses surrounded the bed.

Xu Ye is tall, and he can see inside without squeezing in. The person on the hospital bed half-opened his eyes, with one hand on the edge of the quilt, his fingers twisted weakly, like a cowardly and pitiful besieged Small animals, watching the strange world around them with nervous eyes.

He slowly turned his eyes, his eyes stopped on Xu Ye's face, and then his eyelashes trembled a few times quickly, his lips moved very slowly and lightly, without making a sound.But Xu Ye knew that what he said was two words, he was calling him, "Brother Yi".

Xu Ye ran away, and fled without even giving Ning Juechen any response.He rushed to the bathroom at the end of the corridor, pinching his arm hard all the way, it hurt, but he was afraid that even the pain was fake. ——Actually, it also hurts in dreams. He has dreamed about car accidents, sunsets, photos, and aurora... But he never dreamed that Ning Juechen woke up, not even once.

He has accepted such a life, it doesn't matter if it's seven years, 17 years, 27 years, or 37 years, he doesn't feel bitter.It was obvious that he hadn't cried for a long time, but the tears couldn't stop at this moment. Xu Ye propped his hands on the sink, and his suppressed and trembling cries could be heard in the corridor.

When he came out of the bathroom, he happened to meet the doctor in charge. Xu Yi followed him to the office, and returned to the ward after chatting with the doctor.The hospital bed was shaken a little, Ning Juechen was half lying quietly, and Sister Zhou was struggling to explain to him in broken Mandarin that it was in the [-]s and you had a car accident and slept for seven and a half years.Ning Juechen looked at her flickeringly, and his hands holding the quilt became tighter and tighter, and he didn't know if he understood.Sister Zhou breathed a sigh of relief when she saw Xu Ye came back: "Boss, you are back, tell him yourself!"

Ning Juechen looked at Xu Ye, moved his lips very slowly, and his voice was so soft that he could hardly hear it: "You, you left because of..., I'm afraid of..." There was no reason for this, but Xu Ye knew that Ning Juechen Chen was asking him why he left just now.He hurriedly grabbed Ning Juechen's hand, and sat down on the side of the hospital bed: "I was wrong, I will never leave again, and I won't leave you alone!"

Seeing that he was crying miserably, Ning Juechen wanted to wipe his tears away, but his body was so heavy and his hands were so heavy, even though he was exerting great force, only his fingers twitched slightly.He twitched the stiff corners of his mouth, trying hard to force a smile, but unfortunately he didn't succeed.But this little movement alone was enough to make him struggle, and the words were so weak that only breath remained, he said, "Brother Yi, you've lost weight."

Ning Juechen's memory stopped on the day of the car accident. He only remembered that Lu Juelan came to the hotel to pick him up for the engagement banquet, but he didn't know what happened in the next six months.Xu Ye asked the doctor vaguely, and the doctor said that the patient's brain had been severely damaged before, and memory loss and disorder were normal phenomena.

Things in those six months were really messy and chaotic. After a long time, sometimes Xu Ye suspected that it was just a crazy hallucination embedded in the depths of his mind, but the photos were real, and the words behind the photos were real.Xu Ye selfishly hoped that Ning Juechen would never remember this paragraph, it was too painful, and he couldn't bear Ning Juechen to think about it again, and feel the pain again.

After waking up, Ning Juechen was very quiet every day, and hardly took the initiative to speak.He didn't ask about the accident, how about Lu Juelan who was in the same car, what happened over seven years, why Xu Ye was the only one by his side, or why they were not in Jingcheng or Lianshi, but in In a completely unfamiliar big city.

Xu Ye looked at his thin side face and thought of the phrase "like a beautiful dummy". Every second of Ning Juechen's silence made Xu Ye uneasy. He couldn't feel that Ning Juechen was real and vivid. of.He began to think of ways to get Ning Juechen to talk, asking him what fruit he wanted to eat, what day of the week it was, whether it would rain tomorrow, whether he was hot, and whether he had any water today.

Ning Juechen is very suitable