almost lonely

He answered every question he asked, stuttered, and slowly spit out a word, and he was a little out of breath after saying a few more words.Seeing his pale face, Xu Ye felt distressed again: "Stop talking if you don't want to talk, just leave me alone, don't worry about me." Ning Juechen was so weak that it was difficult even to smile, but he still pulled the corners of his mouth to reveal a smile. A gentle smile: "No, it doesn't matter."

One day when Xu Ye came back from get off work, he saw Ning Juechen sitting on the bed in a daze, wearing a black hat he had never seen before.He asked Sister Zhou where she got the hat, and Sister Zhou said that Ning Juechen wanted it, and asked her to buy it this morning, and she sat there in a daze after putting it on.Xu Ye walked over and sat down by the bed, and called him, "Chenchen?"

Ning Juechen moved his neck softly and turned around slowly.The hat is a counterfeit version that Sister Zhou bought in the market. It has a Nike swoosh printed on the front, and the Adidas logo on the side.The brim of the hat was so low that Xu Ye couldn't see his eyes, so he wanted to raise the hat for him: "Why are you wearing the hat all of a sudden?" Ning Juechen turned his head to avoid it, and whispered, "The hair is too short, it's too short. ugly."

In order to facilitate treatment and cleaning, Ning Juechen's hair was cut short after being admitted to the hospital, and now he has a short round inch.His hair color is naturally light, and the hair is thin and soft, like a small kiwi fruit, fluffy to the touch.

Xu Ye knew that Ning Juechen was not doing it for the hair, but to cover the scar on his face, so he grabbed the brim of the hat and gently took it off, this time Ning Juechen did not refuse.The hat was airtight, and his forehead was reddened with a layer of hot sweat. The raised dark scars stretched from the right forehead to the center of the eyebrows, which looked particularly hideous against the pale skin.

Ning Juechen didn't speak, just buried his head lower.Xu Ye took a towel and came over to help him wipe off his sweat. Holding the back of his neck, he kissed the wound loudly: "It's not ugly, not ugly at all! Who dares to say ugly, I'll beat him up for you." Ning Jue Chen looked up and saw that sister Zhou was still standing at the door, his whole face turned red in an instant: "What are you doing?"

Xu Ye turned his back to the door, hugged his kiwi-like small round head and kissed again on the top of his head, his soft hair brushed his lips without prickling at all: "Are you just thinking about this today? Do your rehabilitation obediently? You won’t be allowed in the future, do you hear me?” Ning Juechen pursed his lips, shrunk into the quilt in shame.

After a period of time, Ning Juechen didn't need to eat liquid all day long, and could eat some light meals.He was embarrassed to ask sister Zhou to feed him, and he refused to ask Xu Ye to help. Every time he clumsily held the spoon and ate the hot rice in the bowl, it turned cold.To eat fruit after dinner, Xu Ye wanted to give him fruit juice as before, but Ning Juechen took the apple by himself, and gnawed it with both hands.

He hadn't recovered yet, his hands had no strength, he couldn't hold things, and the apple rolled down several times.Xu Ye tirelessly picked it up for him, washed it, picked it up, and washed it. Later, Ning Juechen was very embarrassed and refused to pick it up: "I don't want to, eat it." Xu Ye helped him get a new one and washed it clean. , Peeled, cut into pieces and served him.

Sister Zhou said that this is a small method taught by the doctor. Grabbing apples can exercise muscles and restore the flexibility of the hands. Ning Juechen often practices this silently during the day when he is free.Xu Ye's heart was so soft that water dripped out, as if Ning Juechen had really started to do rehabilitation since the last hat incident.Xu Ye went to work on time in the morning, and he also "worked". Sister Zhou accompanied him, saying that he worked hard and was obedient.

Xu Ye goes to the supermarket to buy fresh fruits every day after work, and picks the small, soft ones that are easy to hold and bite: bananas, small mangoes, oranges, kiwis...every day after dinner, Ning Juechen grabs, washes and peels them. Eat good fruit slowly. Once Xu Ye watched him eat seriously with his head buried in a kiwi, and couldn't help staring at the back of his head and burst out laughing.

Ning Juechen turned his head, thinking that something was on his mouth, he grabbed his sleeve and wiped it twice.Xu Ye quickly explained that he was not laughing at you, Ning Juechen looked at him steadily, and suddenly said: "Brother Ye, this is the first time you laugh like this." Xu Ye was stunned, and suddenly felt mixed feelings .

In the afternoon when the weather is fine, sister Zhou will push a wheelchair and take Ning Juechen to the lawn to get some fresh air.Kindergarten is on summer vacation, and sometimes sister Zhou's granddaughter will come over together. Xu Ye thinks this is good, and Ning Juechen has someone to accompany him when he is away.

Once when Xu Ye came back from work, when he arrived at the atrium, he saw one big and one young downstairs basking in the sun. Ning Juechen was holding a colorful fairy tale book in his hand, and Nini rested her elbows on Ning Juechen's lap. She propped her head up and looked at him adoringly, her small mouth was round and open enough to stuff a quail egg.

Xu Ye walked over and tugged at the little girl's shofar braid: "Come down, don't tire your brother Chenchen." Nini turned her head and pouted her lips in disbelief: "Huh! No! Don't mess with me!" Me, if you mess with me, I will tell my brother that you secretly kissed him!" Xu Ye was extremely embarrassed, and lifted the little girl away like a bag of rice.

Ning Juechen blinked: "What time?" Nini was holding the hat by Xu Ye, waving her limbs angrily and twisting on the spot: "It was when you fell asleep before, uncle always Kiss you secretly! Uncle is a villain! Brother Chenchen, stop playing with uncle!" Xu Ye pulled her two braids into sky braids: "You try again!" Ning Juechen said helplessly: "Ye Brother, why, you are the same as a three-year-old child..."

It was Ning Juechen's birthday in September, so Xu Ye specially asked for a day off to accompany him.Xu Ye opened his eyes in the morning and found that Ning Juechen was already awake, staring blankly at the ceiling, wondering what he was thinking.Xu Ye touched his collar, sweating a bit: "Is it too hot at night? How about changing to a thinner blanket today?" Ning Juechen shook his head, frowned and asked, "After the car accident, I haven't Have you woken up?"

Since last week, I have had strange dreams every night. They are all fragments that don’t make up the story. These days, it has become more serious. During the day, some pictures will suddenly flash in my mind, with strange hospital beds and strange medical treatment. Equipment, strange room, he was trapped in that room and couldn't get out.

Sometimes there will be Xu Ye, not the Xu Ye in his memory, nor the one in front of him now, but somewhere in between, he has never seen it before.Ning Juechen didn't know what this was. For a few days, he had this kind of dream all night long. It was obviously still a hot summer, but he woke up in a cold sweat, such as now.

Xu Ye froze for a moment, but quickly covered it up, and changed the subject naturally: "Well, do you want to get up and take a shower?" Ning Juechen can now speak long sentences smoothly: "No, go to reply Jian still has to sweat, so I'll wash it when I come back." Xu Ye joked: "I asked for leave today, and you actually have to go for rehabilitation, so can't you stay and spend more time with me!"

Ning Juechen didn't let Xu Ye go with him, and when he left, he imitated Xu Ye's usual way of going out and said to him: "I'm going to work, you wait for me to come back obediently, do you want to listen to sister Zhou's words?" Xu Ye Being stunned by him for a moment, is my usual tone of voice coaxing children like this...

Xu Ye went out to order a cake, bought cooked vegetables and noodles, and according to Jingcheng's custom, he also had cold shredded tofu on his birthday, and Xu Ye also weighed some.Ning Juechen's daily diet is still strictly in accordance with the doctor's requirements. Although Ning Juechen may not be able to eat these things, Xu Yi wants to give him a happy birthday.

When I arrived at the hospital, Ning Juechen had just finished, and was walking back step by step while leaning on the wall of the corridor. Sister Zhou followed closely.Xu Ye was startled: "What's the matter?" Sister Zhou said in relief: "It's okay, don't worry! I added an extra set of lower body exercises today, and I may be a little tired."

Ning Juechen's hair has grown a bit, and now it doesn't look like a kiwi, but like a chestnut with bristles on the outside, and the hair is full of shiny sweat, dripping down as he walks.Xu Ye went over to help him, and Ning Juechen was a little unhappy: "I can walk by myself!" Xu Ye unconsciously began to coax the child: "Okay, okay, you go by yourself, go by yourself, I won't make trouble."

After Ning Juechen returned to the ward, he went to the bathroom to take a shower. This month, he took the shower by himself.Xu Ye has a psychological shadow about this matter. Every time he sees Ning Juechen entering the bathroom alone, he starts to panic.Ning Juechen took a bath inside, he could shout a dozen or twenty times outside.

"Chenchen?" "Yeah."

"Chenchen?" "What's wrong?"

"Chenchen..." "Huh?"

"Chenchen!" "..."

"Ning Juechen!" "Why?"

"I'll call you if it's okay, you can wash it." "..."

"Is Chenchen still okay?" "Brother Yi, I just came in for a while."

After taking a shower and having lunch, it may be that he was really tired from increasing the amount of training. Ning Juechen ate quite a lot, and there was nothing left.After eating and reading for a while, the magazine that Xu Yi bought back for him, the "Pompeii" he wanted has been discontinued.When Ning Juechen heard about it, his expression was very regretful and sad. Xu Ye had already equated this magazine with Qiu Hui who instigated Ning Juechen to run away from home back then. His heart was sour, and he was unhappy alone for several days. .

It was five o'clock when he woke up, and Ning Juechen didn't know when he fell asleep.I was dreaming again, this time I was climbing a mountain, someone was holding him tightly, they walked up together, when we reached the top of the mountain, it was almost dark, he seemed to be talking to that person, what did he say..."Happy birthday baby! I was just about to call you." Xu Ye lowered his head and kissed his wrist.

Ning Juechen suddenly felt a strange feeling, as if his heart was stung by something.