almost lonely

A large piece of pink flowers bloomed. I don't know what kind of flower it is. It's very beautiful.But these seem to have nothing to do with me, I am like a lonely outsider, unable to fit into the picture at all.

I secretly hold your hand every day, but your fingers are just stretched like that, and won't hold me.

"It's hard to like you sometimes. In a place where you can't see, I will become Prometheus imprisoned on the Caucasus Mountain. Day and night, I will gnaw my heart and gouge my bones. But as long as you look back at me, I will rot Immediately new red flesh will grow from the wound."

When will Chenchen look back at me?

I really miss you.

31 Loving You Alone

It was already nine o'clock, and the office was still brightly lit. "Brother Xu, let's go have supper together! Brother Dong said that everyone should have a barbecue." Xiao Min put the thermos cup with hot water on the desk, her face felt a little hot unconsciously.

"I'm not going. I'll go back after finishing the report here. You guys go." Xu Ye had a good impression of this newcomer, Guan Peisheng. The little girl was active in her work, she didn't talk much, she was very shy and nervous Xu Ye felt his heart soften every time he saw her habitual little movements.

Xiao Min nodded: "Okay, then I'll go, don't be too late." Xu Ye smiled while holding the thermos cup: "Thank you! Have fun!" Xiao Min's heart beat fast, Pretending to be calm, he quickly walked out of the office.

"What? Was rejected again?" The girl who spoke was named Peng Qinglin, who was also Guan Peisheng, who was new to the company this year, and the two were roommates.Xiao Min's face was already flushed red: "What are you talking about... what is it?"

"Do you want me to count how many times for you?" Peng Qinglin gave an ambiguous look, "I didn't expect Xiao Min to like this type!" Xiao Min was caught in the middle of his thoughts, and twisted her fingers awkwardly: "Don't Can you talk nonsense, what type is it..." After graduating from her undergraduate degree, she joined this securities company and was assigned to work under Xu Ye. After a long time, she inevitably developed a little fledgling with this gentle and handsome senior. .

Peng Qinglin blinked exaggeratedly: "You are the type of Brother Xu, the handsome uncle type? It seems that it is more popular to be called an old cadre now?" Xiao Min sighed helplessly: "Where is Brother Xu as an uncle..."

"Please! He's a whole round older than you, okay?" Peng Qinglin gestured casually, "I don't smoke or drink, and I take a thermos every day with a handful of goji berries in it. Those who didn't know thought he was forty or fifty years old. !" Xiao Min subconsciously expressed a little maintenance: "Young people now pay attention to health preservation! What's wrong with drinking goji berries?"

"Is your fan filter too thick? I'm a bystander. Your brother Xu is so boring! Su Tuo, who never participates in dinner parties or in the company, looks like he has nothing to love every day, a little 'popularity' None." After talking about it, Peng Qinglin lowered his voice, "You really don't want to pay too much attention to him, he has no future! I heard they said that when Xu Ye first came to the company, he was very arrogant and offended Lao Li. Stuck on him, how about he still hang around at the bottom after five years?" Xiao Min bit her lip and said nothing, she couldn't refute the last sentence, but she really couldn't imagine Xu Ye's "arrogant" appearance.

Peng Qinglin had no intention of stopping at all: "I also heard that Xu Ye was considered a golden bachelor when he first came. Many young girls from the whole company came to tease him, but he didn't even like Vivian! It is said that The next time Vivian used work as an excuse to invite him to dinner on Valentine's Day, and he said here if he didn't eat it, it made Vivian angry! But she and Lao Li...you know, so your poor brother Xu's life is very short. It's even worse. But then again, he's so mysterious, he's not married and doesn't have a girlfriend at this age, it can't be..." Xiao Min was really angry now, but it wasn't easy to get angry, and she only frowned slightly. He interrupted her with a frown: "Don't gossip, okay? The people in your office are so boring."

Xu Ye waited for a group of people outside to squeeze into the elevator, stood up, stretched, turned off the computer and packed up.These so-called dinner parties and activities are just another form of overtime work. To be honest, they are not even as good as overtime work-you need to smile, and there is no overtime pay.

He caught the last bus downstairs in the company, and began to seriously consider whether to buy a small electric car. Recently, overtime has become more and more frequent. If he misses the last bus, he has to take a taxi back. He needs to calculate and compare the two. the cost of.The carriage was empty except for him as a passenger.There was light rain falling outside the window, and the rainwater pooled into small bundles, twisted and rolled over the window glass, and it seemed a bit radiant when illuminated by the deep and shallow street lamps.

I came back a bit late today, the fast food restaurant at the entrance of the community has closed, and he ordered the cheapest fried rice noodles at a roadside stall.The old couple leave the stall on time at nine o'clock every day, rain or shine.The stall was very simple to set up. There were two small holes in the tarpaulin on the roof. The owner put two plastic basins under it, and the rainwater poured in, dripping into the basins.Xu Ye walked around carefully, squeezed into a corner and sat down.

The phone kept vibrating, and new messages kept popping up in the work group, photos of barbecues and invitations to go to KTV.Xu Ye turned on the Do Not Disturb mode and saw the yellow rainstorm warning on the top——the difficult rainy season has arrived.The oil in the fried rice noodles was a bit heavy, and after a few mouthfuls it felt greasy, so Xu Ye ate the rest with the tea on the table.

Water was still dripping from the hole in the roof, and the rain had no sign of stopping.He turned up the collar of his coat and walked quickly to the residence.The house I rented just expired, so I changed the garage to the current garage after I quit the lease, which can save half the rent than before.

The garage is more than ten square meters in total, and the walls are simply painted white. A spring bed and a set of old wardrobes are placed when entering the door, and the kitchen and toilet are separated inside.There is no natural gas, but induction cooker and rice cooker can be used.In addition to the washbasin and squat toilet, the toilet is equipped with a very simple shower head, not surrounded by glass, and the water goes directly to the floor drain.Xu Ye thinks it's good, but the ground floor is inevitably damp, especially in this rainy season, the water stains on the floor tiles seem to be dragged away, and there are wet black footprints every time they step on it.

The ceiling light in the room was broken the day before yesterday, and Xu Ye didn't have time to buy light bulbs for the past two days, so he had to borrow the small kitchen lamp to try to illuminate it.He took off his wet coat, got into the small toilet and took a hot shower.In fact, Peng Qinglin is right, he is indeed living a very "healthy" life now, quitting smoking and drinking, eating enough and dressing warmly, going to bed early and getting up early.Anyway, don't get sick, sickness costs money.The temperature has changed greatly in the past few days. He packed a few changes of clothes in a bag, checked the water and electricity switches, and then hurried out with an umbrella.

The rain was still falling, and the raindrops were dense and heavy, making exaggerated crackling sounds when they hit the umbrella surface.Xu Ye hugged the paper bag of clothes to his chest, carefully avoided the pond on the ground, went out from the side door of the community, and took a shortcut to the inpatient department of the People's Hospital.The security guard at the door already knew him, and greeted him very familiarly: "It's a little late today!" Xu Yi smiled, and stood at the door and sprinkled a soaked umbrella: "Well, work overtime, go home and get an umbrella. "

The ward is the innermost one on the tenth floor, a very quiet and spacious single room.When she entered, Sister Zhou was skillfully turning Chenchen over. The previous nurse had resigned due to family affairs, and Sister Zhou was newly hired this month.Xu Ye and Sister Zhou are not particularly familiar with each other, and are in an awkward period of being polite to each other.

Xu Ye put down the things in his hand: "I'm sorry, Miss Zhou, I'm late because of some things today." Sister Zhou laid the patient down and covered the quilt: "I'm sorry for what you said, but I'm embarrassed It's gone!" Before Xu Ye could answer, he turned his head and saw a small figure suddenly popping out from the side of the bedside table, and was startled: "This is...?"

"This is my granddaughter! It was always taken by her grandma before. These days, her father-in-law and mother-in-law have gone on a trip. There is no other way, I have to help take it for a few days..." Sister Zhou rubbed her hands, smiling a little Embarrassed, "I know this is against the rules, but my little doll is very obedient and promises not to make noise or mess with things. Just these few days, boss, can you help me accommodate?"

Xu Ye didn't answer, and Sister Zhou pushed her granddaughter forward: "Call someone, Nini!" The little girl looked like three or four years old, with two upturned shofar braids, she looked very eccentric, and her eyes were dark. You Liang smiled crookedly, and said in a childlike voice: "Hello, Uncle!" Xu Ye was taken aback for a moment, and was defeated by the familiar smiling eyes like this: "Hello." Sister Zhou was obviously relieved.

After sending off Sister Zhou and Nini, Xu Ye went to wash the rice first, and put it in the rice cooker for an appointment, as Ning Juechen's first liquid and his own breakfast tomorrow.When they were in college, there was a popular saying: I can't hug you when I pick up the bricks; I can't support you when I put down the bricks.At that time, he felt that these words were useless and hypocritical, but now he repeats such days every day: working hard to earn money during the day, and returning to meet his lover for a short time at night.

He sat on the edge of the bed, quickly bent down and gently pressed his dry lips against Ning Juechen's.This can't even be considered a kiss, he still remembers what Ning Juechen said that he didn't want to meet or like, this is an unjustifiable stealing kiss, Chenchen will definitely be angry if he finds out.

There was a sudden creaking sound from the door, Xu Ye's heart trembled, and he stood up hastily and looked towards the door.The door of the ward was pushed open a small crack, and a round head squeezed in, Xiaojia