Who can think of a name for me

"Hey, don't tell me, you like him?"

Qin Zhi's words made me stunned for a moment, I hadn't thought about the word "like", but after hearing this moment, I seemed to understand what the feeling towards Lu Yuan these days was.

"Don't refuse to answer, I'm warning you, if this is the case, you should give up as soon as possible! He is not a member of the circle at first sight, be careful of the hardship you will have in the future!" Qin Zhi continued when he saw that I did not speak. .

"Play your game, I'm going back!" I tried to change the subject, not wanting my thoughts to be guessed by him.

"Well, it's rare for me to take care of you! Remember to close the door when you go out!" Qin Zhi said and went to play games wholeheartedly, and I also left his house.

It's already seven o'clock in the evening, and there are still a few stars looming in the sky. "He is not a member of the circle at first glance." Qin Zhi's words have been lingering in my heart, and it seems that the intention of finally understanding it has come to an end.I was going to walk back to school, and I happened to blow some air to calm down my restless mood.

"Li Mo, why did you come back so late?"

As soon as the door opened, Lu Yuan asked.Seeing his worried look, I tried my best to squeeze out a smile, "Oh, I stayed with my cousin for a while. But you, you haven't slept so late?"

"Well, I'm waiting for you."

"..." Lu Yuan spoke so directly that my heart, which was suppressed so hard, was about to move again at this moment, "What's the matter, is there something wrong?"

"It's nothing, why do you ask that?"

Lu Yuan felt it was natural, but I couldn't bear it.

"By the way, are you going home on National Day?" Lu Yuan asked suddenly.

"I don't really want to go back, I will probably stay at school!" Anyway, there is no one at home!

"Really? That's really great!" Lu Yuan looked happy, and I looked at him with some doubts.He continued, "It's like this. The instructor asked me to go to the field with him to do a plant survey on National Day, and said that I could bring one more person. I was thinking of going with you at the time, but now you don't go home. That's just right!"

"Well, it's good." I replied, but I hesitated in my heart. I was afraid that the better the relationship with him, the more uncomfortable it would be in the future.

"What did you say? You still want to go with him? I said, are you stupid!" On the other end of the phone, Qin Zhi replied with a tone of hatred.

"But I've already agreed, so I can't go back on my word now!" I really regretted it now, so much so that I actually started to confide my heart to Qin Zhi.

"Listen well, don't think about him that way again, you know? He's different from us! Let's forget it this time, and don't agree casually next time."

"I know. But, brother, what should I do if I can't let go?" I was really distressed, and I really liked Lu Yuan, he was so kind and gentle to me!And we are still roommates, and we have to go to class together every day, we spend too much time together every day, I can't just let him go like this!

"Hey, you are still young, there is nothing you can't let go of, you know? When you come back, brother, I will introduce you to someone who is a thousand times better than him. I guarantee that you will forget him as soon as you have a new love!"

"..." I heard Qin Zhi's laughter on the other side of the phone one after another, and hung up the phone without hesitation. He is too unreliable.It's just that what he said is right, Lu Yuan and I are not the same kind of people, we can't like it!

"Li Mo, hurry up!"

Lu Yuan waved to me, motioning me to hurry over, the car has already arrived.I wanted to hurry up too, but the bag I was carrying was too heavy.

As soon as I ran to Lu Yuan's side, I couldn't help panting, I was so tired!

"What on earth are you carrying, and why are you so tired?" Lu Yuan asked, holding my backpack with his hand.

"Didn't you say you were going to the mountains? I just carried my tent, thick clothes, and what else to eat..."

"Actually, you don't need to bring a tent, because I did, and you can just squeeze it when the time comes. I also brought a lot of food, so you can carry less!" Lu Yuan said, putting my backpack in the trunk .

Look, he is as gentle as ever, and how could I put this relationship on hold?Why not treat this as the last time, and start alienating him from now on!

As soon as I opened my eyes, I realized that I was actually leaning on Lu Yuan's shoulder. No wonder I could smell a faint fragrance all the time. I couldn't tell what it was.

"Are you awake? We'll be there in about half an hour."

I was so startled by Lu Yuan's voice that I quickly put my head back and sat up straight.

"Oh, I'm sorry, I fell asleep accidentally." I was a little embarrassed, I thought he had fallen asleep just now, but I was the only one who fell asleep.

"Well, you accidentally slept for 4 hours. Did you not sleep well last night?" Lu Yuan looked at me with a slight smile, and I quickly turned my head away.

"Maybe it's too late to go to bed." It is true that he has been thinking about him for the past few days, and he can't fall asleep.

"But I think you went to bed at 9 o'clock! You must be insomnia, you have to rest well today, and you have to go up the mountain tomorrow!"

"Well, I'll take a good rest." Lu Yuan looked at me again with that concerned look, which made me feel really tormented.

I started climbing the mountain the next day. Originally, my instructor was going as well, but he was getting older, so he entrusted Lu Yuan and me with the task of climbing the mountain.Lu Yuan likes plants very much. Unlike me, he really loves this major, but I just have to accept it after being transferred.

"Look, there are a lot of rhododendron trees here!" Lu Yuan suddenly turned around and said to me with joy on his face.

"Well, I see it." I looked in the direction he pointed, and there were indeed many big rhododendron trees in bloom, almost stretching the entire mountain road.

After climbing for 3 hours, my physical strength was a little weak, and my hand holding the trekking pole was a little unsteady.Lu Yuan was still in good spirits, watching him go further and further away, leaving me with only his back, I felt a little sad.He simply sat down leaning against a stone next to him, unable to walk anymore, and did not want to leave.

Just then a squirrel jumped down from the tree and onto the rock, but it didn't dare to get too close to me.I took out a small piece of biscuit from my bag and put it in the palm of my hand, the squirrel walked over cautiously, quickly picked up the biscuit from my hand and ran away.Looking at its fluffy appearance, it is really cute, and its paws are so soft, I feel the long-lost joy welling up from my heart.

"Crack!"

I turned my head, only to realize that Lu Yuan had actually walked back and was still taking pictures of me with the camera in his hand.

"I said, why haven't you followed up? So you were teasing the little squirrel." Lu Yuan said and walked in front of me.

"I want to rest for a while, I really can't walk anymore." Seeing him walking back, I was a little moved. After all, it meant that he would have to climb the almost vertical uphill road again later.

"Well, but you can't rest for too long, or you won't want to climb at all later." Lu Yuan said, and took another piece of chocolate from the bag for me, "Here, add some energy!"

I took it and ate it. It was really sweet, but it was bitterly sweet, just like how I feel now.

After about 10 minutes of rest, we were ready to continue climbing.

"Let me carry your bag!" Lu Yuan said to take my bag, but I stopped him, "No, I will carry it by myself, yours is already heavy enough."

Hearing what he said before, I left the tent and a lot of food at the foot of the mountain, and there was nothing in the bag, so I didn't have the nerve to let him carry it.

Lu Yuan didn't insist on it all the time, but deliberately slowed down and kept the same level as me.Climbing the mountain is very tiring, but with him by my side, I think I can persevere!

It was already 6 p.m. when we climbed to the destination. After setting up the tent, we simply ate something and got ready to sleep, because we were really tired and we still had a lot of things to do tomorrow.

It's a little crowded for two people to sleep in a tent, the space is small, and each other's breathing can be heard.We were almost close to each other, elbows touching, but it was such a simple contact, I began to have a strange feeling.My heart was beating non-stop, I was really afraid that he would hear it, so I couldn't help but move to the side.

"Don't move around, it's very cold." Lu Yuan said, and covered me with the thin blanket.

It's really cold on the mountain, I didn't feel anything when I climbed the mountain, but when I stopped, I realized that it was as cold as winter, and I was still shivering with cold while sleeping in my thick clothes.

The sound of birds woke me up, and the light shone through the blue tent. It seemed that it was already dawn!

I found that I almost put my hands and feet on Lu Yuan's body, hugging him tightly!I quickly let go and sat up, but luckily he didn't wake up!Seeing him sleeping soundly, I began to have fantasies again, if he would like me, would I be able to wake up in his arms one day with peace of mind.

I smiled bitterly, put Qin Zhi's words in my heart again, and stopped my extravagant hopes in time, I think I'm not timid, I just don't want to get hurt!

After a while, Lu Yuan also woke up.After a simple meal, we planned to split up. He was responsible for taking one route, while I took the other route. At the same time, we recorded the plants and collected specimens if we didn’t know them.

I don't like doing these things at all, but I don't want to disappoint Lu Yuan, so I still record it seriously.

When I walked to a small road, I saw a very special tree beside the road. The leaves were a bit like loquat, but they were much bigger than the leaves of loquat.I wasn't sure what kind of tree it was, so I immediately decided to take a specimen back and let Lu Yuan identify it.

But without high branch shears, I have to climb trees, which is still not a problem for me.I climbed up easily, intending to choose a good branch, so I took a small step forward, but I never wanted to slip, probably because there was moss on it.

"Ah!" The sudden fall made me yell, and I was terrified. After all, half of the tree is flat and half is steep, which is simply a test of my luck!

Fortunately, I was still lucky, but my leg was scratched by those low branches under the tree, and the blood flowed out immediately, and I was so painful that I wanted to swear!

"Li Mo, are you okay!"

Lu Yuan rushed over and looked at me worriedly.

"It's okay, I accidentally fell from the tree." I said and tried to stand up, but it was really painful, so I had to continue to sit on the ground.

"Hearing your cry scared me to death, why are you so careless?" Lu Yuan walked towards me with some annoyance, gently helped me up, let me sit on a rock, "What happened to your leg? Sprained?"

"No sprain, just scratched by those branches."

"Let me see." Lu Yuan said as he rolled up my trousers, revealing two bleeding wounds, "Why is there so much bleeding, I have to stop the bleeding quickly."

Seeing Lu Yuan worried, I actually enjoyed it a little bit, but I also knew that it was just a friend's concern.

Lu Yuan didn't know where to find some herbs, smashed them up and applied them on me, "If you don't bring gauze, use my shirt to tie it up!"

"No, the shirt will get dirty."

Lu Yuan frowned suddenly, and patted my forehead with his hand, "I said, are you stupid, is the leg or the shirt more important?"

"...Understood." I was a little shy, Lu Yuan always teased me unconsciously like this.

After the leg was injured, Lu Yuan was responsible for the investigation and records alone, and I was responsible for changing the collected specimens for newspapers.

"I'm sorry, I can't help at all." I felt very guilty in my heart, especially when I saw Lu Yuan with a tired face, I felt distressed and powerless.

"What are you talking about? Go to sleep!" Lu Yuan patted my head, lay down and fell asleep, it seemed that I was really tired!I also lay down, but I couldn't fall asleep.

After a while I heard his even breathing, I turned my head, looked at Lu Yuan, and tried to shout, "Lu Yuan!"

He didn't move at all, so I continued: "I like you! It's the kind of liking for a lover!"

I seemed to see Lu Yuan move a little bit, and I started to panic all of a sudden. I thought he was asleep and said so.What if he heard it?

But I found that I was simply worrying too much, because Lu Yuan didn't wake up, and I felt both happy and lost.When you have a crush on someone, the better he treats you, the more you want to tell him, but the less you dare to say it, let alone my feelings!

Looking at his sleeping face, I also felt a little drowsy. It's so good that I can still see you by my side now!

Now I can be sure that I was not hallucinating last night, Lu Yuan, he really heard it!

When I got up in the morning, there was no one in the tent. At first I thought he was just waking up early, but then I realized that he was just trying to avoid me.He didn't even dare to look at me anymore, and when he went out to investigate, he brought dry food, saying that he would not come back until evening, because he had to go back tomorrow, so all the investigation work must be completed within today.

Of course I know this is an excuse, but I just nodded, just as I also need to calm down.

I've been alone all day, I've run out of newspapers to change, and I'm completely at a loss.

I leaned against a fir tree and looked at the clouds and mist in the fir forest. It was hazy, really like the "fog, fog, in the fog..." in the lyrics, but more like myself now.Looking at Lu Yuan's expression in the morning, I knew what his attitude towards my feelings was. His panic made me very sad, why the hell did he have to fall in love with such a person!

Lu Yuan came back when it was almost dark, and he didn't say anything to me. This is probably the first time he has been so perfunctory to me!

Lying in the same tent with me, he must feel very uncomfortable, he put his hand on the blanket deliberately, just to avoid touching me, even though it is so cold, he still has to do this, is it so disgusting?I can't even hear his breathing!

I just felt that my nose was a little sore, and I turned sideways, with my back to him, "Lu Yuan!" I yelled.

After a long time, he replied, "Yes."

"Did you hear what I said last night?" I asked with a positive tone.

"..." is the default.

"I know you are not like me, and you don't mean that to me. I didn't think about it, can you pretend that you haven't heard anything? We can still be friends." The word friend is like a sharp knife inserted into my heart.

"……it is good."

Hearing his answer, I couldn't help but shed tears, friend?Can we still be friends?

I went down the mountain with Lu Yuan in the morning, he didn't talk to me much, but he would stop from time to time to wait for me, who had a leg injury, but as soon as I got to his side, he immediately continued walking, just This keeps me close but not far away.Oh, what a disgusting place he is!

As soon as I got back to school, I called Qin Zhi and asked him to pick me up.Because now I really don't know where to hide?But I know that if I don't hide, Lu Yuan will too!Sure enough, friends and so on are no longer possible.

"Hey, why is my leg injured!" Qin Zhi sneered when he saw me, everything was as he expected, now I'm like an ostrich with its head buried in the sand.

"Oh, don't make a sad face, it's all over!" Probably because my expression was too sad, Qin Zhi didn't continue to sarcasm me much.

"I want to move out." I thought about it, if I continue to stay in the dormitory between the two, Lu Yuan should be very uncomfortable!

"Okay, move to my place, and you will do the housework." Qin Zhi said, smiling at me.Sometimes I feel that Qin Zhi is actually pretty good, although he always looks unreliable, but he is indeed a reliable person.

For the remaining few days of vacation, I stayed at Qin Zhi's place. Because my leg was infected and I developed a fever, I asked for two more days off.During the period, Lu Yuan also called me, but I hung up, what else could I say?It's just those indifferent concerns.It was during my illness that I discovered how much I liked Lu Yuan, so much so that I missed him and thought of going crazy!But he won't be here, never will!

After recovering from the illness, the first thing I have to do is to move my things out of the dormitory. I am a little scared and a little bit looking forward to seeing Lu Yuan.

When I opened the door, something stopped, he was there!

"Well, Li Mo, you're back."

Lu Yuan still looked at me a little evasively, and I only felt a throbbing pain in my heart.Don't worry, I won't bother you so much in the future!

"Well, come back to move things, I plan to move out." I said and went to pack my things, too lazy to say any more words.

"What, you want to move out?" Lu Yuan looked at me in surprise.

"Well, it's more free to move out and live."

"Can……"

Lu Yuan's words were interrupted by Li Mo who came in suddenly, Li Mo patted my shoulder and asked: "Hey, have you packed it?"

"Well, help me move this suitcase out first!" I pointed to the suitcase next to me.

As soon as Li Mo walked out, Lu Yuan asked me: "Who is he?"

Before I said anything, Li Mo's voice came from outside the door, "Ah, I forgot to introduce myself, I'm Li Mo's boyfriend!"

I seemed to see Lu Yuan's eyes widen, but then he recovered and didn't say anything else. As for me, I didn't bother to explain, and there was no need to explain!

I still pressed the answer button, there is no way, this is already the fifth call, so, Lu Yuan, what do you want to do?

"Hello, Li Mo?" Lu Yuan's voice was slightly tentative.

"Well, what's the matter?"

"can we talk?"

"If you want to say something about friends, or care about anything, forget it. I don't want to be your friend, and I have a good life. If you have nothing to do, just hang up!" It's not that I want to be so indifferent, but that I really I don't know how to face him.

"give me sometime!"

"What do you mean?" I was a little confused.

"I've thought a lot these days. I never thought that you would have that kind of emotion for me. When I found out, my heart was really messed up, and I started to be afraid of getting along with you. But I haven't seen you for a few days. When I saw you, I found that I actually missed you; when you said you were going to move out, I was really sad; and when I heard that person said it was your boyfriend, I was actually jealous in my heart, of course I knew he was It's your cousin. I really can't figure out why I am like this, maybe I like you, maybe I'm gay, but I don't know! I can't figure it out until now, so can you give me some time? Here Let me take some time to figure it out, and, move back, okay?"

Hearing his words, I couldn't tell whether it was joy or other feelings in my heart. Maybe Lu Yuan liked me, maybe he was just used to me, but I wanted to give him a chance, and give myself a chance too!

"it is good!"