Long-awaited

The next morning, after Cheng Lin woke up, he found that he was still lying in Cheng Yihe's bed. He looked up and looked around, but Cheng Yihe didn't know where he went.

Cheng Lin rolled himself up with the quilt again, the warm quilt was especially good at sapping one's willpower, Cheng Lin was dazed for a while, and almost fell asleep again.Thinking that this was not my own home and it would be impolite to wake up too late, I slowly got up and folded the quilt neatly.

When Cheng Lin opened the door and went out, the courtyard was very quiet, except for the regular sound of chopping vegetables from the kitchen.

Cheng Lin walked to the door of the kitchen, poked his head in, and saw that only Zhao Ying was busy in the kitchen.She turned her back to him and didn't notice him coming.Cheng Lin whispered: "Ma'am."

Zhao Ying looked back at Cheng Lin, and greeted, "Wake up? Come and eat, it's getting cold."

Zhao Ying and Cheng Rongjian are used to getting up early and have already eaten breakfast. Zhao Ying is chopping dumpling stuffing for lunch.Seeing that Cheng Linchu was very embarrassed, she put down the kitchen knife in her hand and went to serve Cheng Linchu a meal.

Cheng Lin walked into the kitchen with blushing cheeks, because he didn't see Cheng Yihe in the yard, and asked, "Where's my brother?"

"Who knows where he went, I haven't seen anyone since early in the morning."

Zhao Ying filled Cheng Lin with a large bowl of rice porridge, Cheng Lin couldn't eat that much, but he was embarrassed to say so, so he took it.

Zhao Ying continued to chop vegetables. In fact, Cheng Yixin hadn't gotten up yet, but Cheng Lin was the only one eating at this time, so he stood beside Zhao Ying, and while the two were talking, he finished his breakfast.

Seeing that it was already nine o'clock in the morning and Cheng Yihe hadn't seen anyone yet, Cheng Lin couldn't help asking: "Is my brother not coming back today?"

Zhao Ying said: "I don't know, I haven't seen him since I got up today, anyway, he's always like this, so don't worry about him."

But Cheng Lin couldn't help recalling last night, Cheng Yihe's strange attitude suddenly changed, could it be that he provoked him?But he felt that it shouldn't be, if Cheng Yihe was really angry, he would definitely hit someone, and he wouldn't hold it back by himself.

But for some reason, Cheng Lin was still uneasy. On the other hand, since Cheng Yihe was not at home, Cheng Lin felt extremely awkward staying here, and finally couldn't help but said: "Mother, why don't I go home?"

Zhao Ying said: "If you're homesick, go back and have a look after dinner. Don't be in a hurry."

Cheng Lin had a stupid mouth and didn't know how to refuse. He lowered his head, rubbed his toes on the ground for a while, and finally nodded in agreement.At lunch, Cheng Yihe still didn't come back.Cheng Lin returned to his home after dinner, but when he walked to the door, he found that the door was locked. It turned out that there was no one at home, and Cheng Lin left in a hurry last night without taking the key.

Now he is homeless.

Cheng Yihe was not at home, and Cheng Lin didn't want to go back, so he strolled back and forth in the alleys with few people.

The New Year is not over yet, it is the time when it is lively, and there will always be three or two little Doudings running by from time to time, holding a box of throwing cannons in their hands, throwing them as they run, and they will leave a sound wherever they run. The sound of cannons sounded festive and lively.

Cheng Lin remembered that when he was a child, because he had no time to play, he was particularly envious of children who could throw firecrackers casually. Later, Cheng Yihe took him to buy a box. Cheng Lin will never forget that when the fiery red firecrackers were still on the ground, accompanied by With a loud noise, the great happiness that exploded in that instant.

Cheng Lin watched the children run away with a smile. He was also tired, so he stopped by the back of the village and sat by the intersection leading to the mountain. It was Chinese New Year and no one went up the mountain to farm. off the beaten track.

Cheng Lin put his hands in his pockets and sat on the big stone mill at the intersection.

When Cheng Yihe came down from the mountain, he saw such a picture.

The mountains in the distance are rolling and undulating, and because of the thin layer of snow, they look cold and lonely, like a splash-ink landscape with appropriate shades.

And Cheng Lin was sitting on the edge of the stone, with a steep silhouette, one leg bent and the other propped on the ground, so that the line of his legs looked extraordinarily slender. As if the ink is smudged out.

Cheng Yihe's emotions, which he thought would calm down, were once again turbulent.

He didn't sleep all night last night, and he left the house just after dawn.I want to take advantage of the bitter cold wind to clear my mind.

He kept hinting to himself that everything that happened last night was definitely a misunderstanding, but what he couldn't get out of his mind was Cheng Lin, his smiling eyes, the corners of his lips and all his vivid expressions. The expression... the dull pain and sourness in his heart clearly showed his truest and most ardent desire.

But he couldn't convince himself to accept this reality at all. Cheng Lin almost grew up under his nose. In his eyes, Cheng Lin was still a child who didn't understand anything. He never thought that he would have more affection for him than a brother. feelings outside.Subconsciously, Cheng Yihe just wanted to escape this difficult problem that fell from the sky.

Cheng Lin habitually lowered his head, and it took him a while to find Cheng Yihe who was standing not far away. The moment he saw him, Cheng Lin's eyes lit up instantly, "Brother!"

Cheng Lin's cheeks were snow-white, his eyes were like spots of lacquer, and his eyebrows were like ink stains. The plain color made him look elegant and elegant.

Cheng Yihe was in a daze for a moment, and even spurned his dirty thoughts. If Cheng Lin knew, he would definitely think him a pervert, and the two of them might not even be able to be brothers.

Seeing Cheng Yihe's face was cold and hard, Cheng Lin felt apprehensive, and called him again in a low voice.

Cheng Yihe suddenly came back to his senses, and clearly saw that Cheng Lin's eyes were flickering with uneasiness, and his heart ached, thinking that his behavior was so abnormal last night, it must have made Cheng Lin very scared, so he suppressed all kinds of thoughts in his heart, He smiled and said, "What are you doing here? It's so cold."

Cheng Lin didn't dare to tell the truth, and said, "It's boring to stay at home, so I came here for a walk. Why do you get up so early?"

Cheng Yihe was usually eloquent, and he stuttered for a long while on the words he could have spoken, before he said dryly, "It's just that I can't sleep."

Cheng Lin took a step forward, tentatively pulled Cheng Yihe's wrist, and said, "Then let's go back, you can lie down for a while."

Seeing that Cheng Lin didn't ask any more questions, Cheng Yihe quietly breathed a sigh of relief. Although he resisted getting along with Cheng Lin from the bottom of his heart, he didn't dare to show any abnormalities, and forced himself to suppress himself, as if nothing had happened.

Cheng Yihe tried his best to behave very naturally in front of Cheng Lin, and for the next few days, he still slept with Cheng Lin.

But only Cheng Yihe knew that everything had changed.

His gaze always followed Cheng Lin intentionally or unintentionally.

Cheng Lin's ruddy lips after drinking water, the thin white nape of his neck when he bowed his head to write at his desk, and his bright and clear eyes when he looked at himself...all these are like sparks shining in the dark night, attracting Cheng Yihe's eyes , let Cheng Yihe realize more and more clearly that he had put Cheng Lin in that special position unconsciously.

And this discovery made him want to try his best to escape. Cheng Lin was still young, so he couldn't deliberately lead Cheng Lin to a fork.

So the only conclusion he came to was to stay away from Cheng Lin as much as possible.

Therefore, Cheng Yihe stepped on the train back to school ahead of time, and when he left, he didn't even say goodbye to Cheng Lin.

Because he left in a hurry, he only had time to buy a seat ticket. Regardless of Zhao Ying's persuasion, he insisted on going back to school.

In the middle of the night, it was dark outside the moving car window, only a few lights flashed occasionally at a very fast speed.

Cheng Yihe didn't feel sleepy, he stared at the car window blankly, but vaguely saw Cheng Lin's bright smile on it, Cheng Yihe was stunned for a moment, stood up reflexively, looked around, almost everyone in the car was asleep, everyone This posture is crooked on the seat, where is Cheng Lin's shadow?

Cheng Yihe sat down disappointed, his heart was empty, as if he had lost his soul.

Until he came back to school, he still looked like he was out of his mind. Fortunately, no one else came over, otherwise they would probably make fun of him, and he looked like he was broken in love again.

He sat alone in the quiet dormitory, and he was lazy. He didn't know what to do. He wanted to pick up the book and read it, but he just held the book in a daze.

At night, I remembered that I forgot to report my safety to my family.He picked up his phone and saw that there were more than a dozen missed calls!

The two belonged to his parents, and the other unfamiliar numbers belonged to Cheng Lin without thinking about it.

Cheng Yihe's heart was sour. At first, he just wanted to pretend that he didn't see her, but he had to call her mother back. While talking, Zhao Ying asked Cheng Lin to answer the phone. It turned out that Cheng Lin went to Cheng Yihe's house to look for him.

Cheng Lin was so anxious that he almost burst into tears, "Brother, why didn't you answer my call?"

Cheng Yihe heard Cheng Lin's anxious voice, his heart was full of distress and guilt, and said: "I fell asleep in the car and didn't look at my phone."

Cheng Lin said: "You didn't answer the phone, I thought something happened to you, it scared me to death."

Cheng Yihe felt an indescribable sourness and fullness in his chest, and said, "You're such a fool, don't worry, it's fine, you know?"

Cheng Lin said: "Well, I see, why did you leave so early without saying a word."

Cheng Yihe said: "The school is in an emergency, and I can't help it."

Cheng Lin paused, and asked cautiously: "Brother, are you really not because of me?"

Cheng Yihe said as if nothing had happened: "Because of you?"

Cheng Lin was worried, and he couldn't judge the truth of Cheng Yihe's words, so he didn't dare to ask any more. The two said a few words casually, and Cheng Yihe hung up the phone.

And Cheng Yihe recalled Cheng Lin's obviously lost voice, and hated himself very much. Cheng Lin was already sensitive, and his attitude would definitely make him feel uneasy for several days, but what can he do?If the two of them are allowed to continue like this, there will be a day when he can't restrain himself and do something irreversible.

However, what Cheng Yihe didn't expect was that Cheng Lin didn't seem to be aware of his deliberate indifference, and would still call at a fixed time as in the past. Cheng Yihe could only harden his heart, sometimes refusing to answer, sometimes unable to say a few words Just hang up.

Every time he heard Cheng Lin's cautious tone, Cheng Yihe's heart felt like a knife.However, the deliberate estrangement from Cheng Lin did not make his feelings fade with the passage of time. The more Cheng Yihe tried to suppress him, the more he rebounded, as if a spark could start a prairie fire, which could not be extinguished at all.

So much so that when Cheng Lin called, he would remember the string of numbers clearly. If the call came again later, even if it was a minute late, he would feel restless and couldn't help but start thinking wildly in his mind. What is Lin doing?Why didn't you call?Could it be that he was playing with his classmates, or was he bored with his big brother?

And when Cheng Lin really called, he began to look at the flickering screen of the phone like masochistic, until it fell silent, but he remained motionless.

This situation lasted for nearly three months, and Cheng Yihe was already on the verge of collapse due to the anxiety of gains and losses, and even lost a whole circle of weight visible to the naked eye.

Cheng Yihe knew that he couldn't go on like this, so he could only use his busy studies to enrich himself. He was so busy every day, sometimes he was really so busy that when he thought of looking at his phone, there would be Cheng Lin on it. However, the situation in the past where more than a dozen missed calls popped up all at once no longer occurred. If Cheng Yihe didn't answer the first call, Cheng Lin would generally not call it a second time.What made Cheng Yihe even more disappointed was that Cheng Lin's phone calls had dropped from four or five times a month to once a month. The last time he missed a call was two weeks ago.

Cheng Yihe couldn't help smiling wryly, unwilling to answer the phone, but looking forward to the call from the other party, and when he did answer, he showed an indifferent attitude of indifference.

He even started to suffer from insomnia all night long. Lying on the bed late at night, he could stare at the screen in a daze for a long time when he picked up his mobile phone.

In the end, I was really exhausted, so I went to the school infirmary and prescribed some sleeping pills, so that I could have a complete sleep.

But Cheng Yihe thought, it might as well be insomnia.Because every night that followed, Cheng Yihe would wake up profusely in sweat, and the huge gap between the beautiful dreams and the cold reality made him suffer even more.