Long-awaited

Cheng Yihe sat alone by the lake until late at night, and then walked back to the dormitory slowly under the cold moonlight and fine snow.

But the unprecedented chaos made Cheng Yihe unable to calm down. He understood rationally that when facing the girl's words, he should answer firmly: "I am not!"

But the truth is, he couldn't say it, because he was also guilty at the time.

He began to doubt himself, maybe he was gay.It's not that Cheng Yihe doesn't know what homosexuality means.

His world is like carefully placed dominoes, and with a slight push, the whole line collapses.Doubts about the past and confusion about the future made Cheng Yihe lose himself immediately, as if he suddenly stepped into a foggy forest, with no way back, no direction, ignorant and at a loss.

In the middle of the night, he tossed and turned and couldn't fall asleep, so he sat alone on the top floor against the biting cold wind.

Cheng Yihe leaned against the parapet wall, with one long leg bent and the other stretched out wide. His slender fingers holding the cigarette were already frozen, but he didn't seem to feel it at all.

His mind also seemed to be frozen, and his outstretched leg was kicked before he realized that there was a person standing beside him.

Cheng Yihe raised his eyes and watched for a long while in the dark before he recognized his classmate Liu Jiayang.

To be more precise, it was his classmate majoring in law. After Cheng Yihe started school, in addition to his original major, he also applied for a double degree, choosing law.Liu Jiayang's dormitory is behind his building, and the two have a good relationship, and he introduced the girlfriend who just broke up.

"I went to look for you in the dormitory just now, but you were not here."

Liu Jiayang sat casually beside Cheng Yihe.

Cheng Yihe seemed to have guessed the purpose of his trip, and lazily answered the question: "Oh, they haven't slept yet?"

Liu Jiayang burst out laughing, and said, "You don't think I'm here to Xingshi to inquire about crimes, do you?"

Cheng Yihe crushed out the cigarette butt and did not speak.The stern and tight jaw line showed his unhappy and embarrassed mood at the moment.

For some reason, Liu Jiayang's smile gradually disappeared, and he asked, "Are you serious about her?"

Cheng Yihe said indifferently: "So what if it is? So what if it's not?"

He choked so much that Liu Jiayang didn't speak for a while, because the hidden meaning was: none of your business.

It took Cheng Yihe more than ten seconds to realize that what he said didn't sound good. In order to ease the atmosphere, even if he was in a bad mood, he still smiled and said, "How do you think it looks like you've lost love?"

Liu Jiayang pulled the corner of his mouth reluctantly, and said: "No, I just see you are quite depressed. Could it be that I put on a smiling face to stimulate you?" His tone, if you distinguish carefully, has a strange sour taste, but Yi He has already I was used to Liu Jiayang suddenly becoming very weird from time to time, so I didn't think much about it.

And Cheng Yihe didn't want others to misunderstand that he would be sad because of the trivial matter of breaking up with his girlfriend, so he simply explained, "I'm not depressed because of breaking up with her."

Liu Jiayang said: "Really?"

"Of course it's true."

"Then why are you unhappy?"

Boys are careless when getting along, and they rarely ask the bottom line like this. After asking this sentence, Liu Jiayang also felt that he asked too much.

But Cheng Yihe hasn't sorted out his chaotic thoughts yet, and he is not unhappy because of his crossing the line.

For a while, the two fell into silence.

In front of the dormitory building, the bare tree branches were creaked and clattered by the thick snow, and even the sound of snow falling from the branches could be heard. Farther away, the rows of street lights on the campus seemed majestic. The guards loyally shed a lonely and cold light.

And their small world was shrouded in the dark night sky, which made Cheng Yihe's side face even more obscure. The long silence made Liu Jiayang more and more uneasy. Just when he thought Cheng Yihe was angry, Cheng Yihe suddenly said: "It's nothing, the girl said I was gay."

Cheng Yihe's tone was relaxed, as if he was telling a funny joke, but Liu Jiayang's heart trembled violently, even his teeth were trembling unnaturally, and his voice was extremely tense, and he asked, "Then...then you are...? "

Cheng Yihe asked indifferently: "What do you think?"

Liu Jiayang took a heavy breath, each word seemed to jump out of his tight throat, "Of course...of course...not anymore."

Cheng Yihe shook his head and smiled wryly in his heart. Unexpectedly, after entering a university, he began to doubt his own sexuality.

But since then, he has not accepted anyone's confession, and resumed his busy and monotonous study life.

Time flies, and it's winter vacation.

The day before Cheng Yihe was going to go home, he called his family in advance and only told him roughly when he would arrive home.And when he walked out of the station with the bustling crowd, he saw his parents standing in the crowd anxiously looking around.

Cheng Yihe walked up quickly and said, "What are you doing here? It's such a cold day."

The eyes of the two cruising around looking for it finally settled on Cheng Yihe. Cheng Rongjian patted his son on the shoulder vigorously, took Cheng Yihe's luggage with a smile, and said, "I'm not busy, so I'm here."

Cheng Yihe couldn't help but wanted to complain a few more words, but Zhao Ying, who hadn't seen his son for a long time, had not yet said anything, his eyes were red first, Cheng Yihe swallowed the words that came to his mouth after seeing it.

Cheng Rongjian borrowed a car to pick up his son. Cheng Yihe was too tired to ride the train, so he squinted on the co-pilot for a while after getting in the car.When he woke up, he was already on his way into the village.

After half a year, I didn't expect the changes to be quite big. The village has rebuilt the cement road, and the car is very stable on it. Unlike the dirt road in the past, as long as it rains and snows, it will be muddy.

Cheng Yihe said: "In this case, the road to the town will be much easier, and it will be convenient for Cheng Lin to go to and from school."

As soon as Cheng Yihe finished speaking, he keenly noticed that Cheng Rongjian's face darkened a little, and asked, "What? What happened?"

Cheng Rongjian said: "You have been outside all the time, and you know more about the family affairs. I was afraid that you would worry, so I didn't tell you. Your second uncle broke his leg two months ago, and now he is still sick in bed."

Cheng Yihe was anxious immediately, and said, "Why didn't you tell me such an important matter? I can come back and take a look even if I ask for leave. I don't know what you think all day long."

Zhao Ying was sitting in the back row. Hearing this, he reached out and hammered the co-pilot's seat, "What are you worrying about your dad? It's not like you don't know the kind of person your second aunt is. Your second uncle doesn't have enough money for hospitalization. Give her money, and she still looks like she deserves it, but it's too little, as if we owe her, you come back to see her face?"

Before Cheng Yihe opened his mouth, Cheng Rongjian said, "It's a trivial matter to send money. After all, we are brothers, and we should do it. It's her kind of thinking that normal people can't understand. No matter how the family is, she can't let Cheng Lin go to school. ah?"

Cheng Yihe's eyes widened immediately, and he exclaimed, "What!?"

Zhao Ying snorted coldly.

Cheng Rongjian sighed and shook his head while holding the steering wheel, Cheng Yihe turned around and asked Zhao Ying: "Why? Why are my second uncle's illness and Cheng Lin's failure to go to school related?"

Zhao Ying said: "Who knows what she thinks, anyway, she said that Cheng Lin will not be allowed to go to school after the New Year, and take care of your second uncle at home, and when your second uncle is completely recovered, let him go out with Lao Hei, who is working outside in our village Work to earn money."

Cheng Yihe was on fire in an instant, and felt his temples throbbing wildly, his head was about to explode in anger, and the words in his mouth could not be held back, and came out like a machine gun: "What is she! Cheng Lin is not She was born, and if you count it carefully, she was not the one who raised her. A few years ago, my grandma didn't help bring up the child. Now that grandma is gone, Cheng Lin doesn't have to worry about her..."

Zhao Ying said: "Okay, please stop talking."

Cheng Rongjian said: "It's good that you know the seriousness yourself. Your second uncle has lost his leg and can't go to work now. There is no source of income for the family. Your second aunt is inevitably worried."

Cheng Yihe snorted coldly, folded his arms and remained silent.

Cheng Rongjian said: "The child has to go to school. I also know that I will pay Cheng Lin's school money first. But this matter will not be discussed with your second aunt until years later. After all, Cheng Lin is still her child. It's hard to hear, Cheng Lin still has to make a living under her, even if you brothers have a good relationship, but you are so old, what should I say and what should not be said, you still need me to teach you?"

Cheng Yihe turned his head and looked out the window, wishing he could open his mouth and say that in the future Cheng Lin would just be part of their family and Zhang Junyan would bully him.But he also knows that this kind of matter is not something he can decide with a single word.Cheng Yihe's heart seemed to be burning with a raging fire. For the first time, he felt that his strength was so weak.

After returning home, Cheng Yihe went to his second uncle's house without much rest.

When Cheng Yihe came in, Cheng Lin was washing clothes in the yard. From the back view, he had grown a little taller, but Cheng Yihe was in good health, and he was still growing after freshman year.So in his eyes, Cheng Lin's height was not much different from before, and he was still the same thin body.What's more, Cheng Lin rolled up his sleeves above his elbows in the coldest winter, and his fine white skin was flushed red from being soaked in cold water.

Cheng Yihe sighed in his heart, every time he saw Cheng Lin, he was always a pitiful little one.

When Cheng Yihe quietly walked behind Cheng Lin, Cheng Lin was putting the clothes from the drum to the drying bucket. The heavy clothes soaked in water in winter were even more bulky, and Cheng Lin's hands were so hard that his knuckles turned white.

Cheng Yihe reached out to help him put the clothes he couldn't move in, and said, "Why don't you bring a pair of laundry gloves? It's so cold."

Cheng Lin was taken aback, and immediately turned his head to look at Cheng Yihe, blinking his eyes, and it took him a long time to react, and said pleasantly, "Brother! You're back!?"

Regardless of the water in his hands, Cheng Lin jumped up and threw himself into Cheng Yihe's arms just like when he was a child.

Cheng Yihe stretched his arms to catch him, and rubbed Cheng Lin's soft hair, "Miss me?"

Cheng Lin said, "Think."

Cheng Yihe twisted Cheng Lin Xuebai's cold face: "I'll go talk to my second uncle, and then I'll take you out to play."

Cheng Lin let go of Cheng Yihe's neck with some reluctance, and said, "Okay."

Cheng Rongyuan was resting on the bed in the room, and had already vaguely heard Cheng Yihe's voice, and Cheng Yihe said as soon as he entered the room, "You're back?"

There was a coal fire in the room, Cheng Yihe felt a burst of warmth as soon as he came in, he took off his coat, and sat on the side of the bed naturally, "Second Uncle, you are really serious, don't tell me what happened."

Cheng Rongyuan smiled and said: "It's nothing, I'm old, I don't see the way clearly."

Cheng Yihe said: "How is the recovery now? Have you checked regularly?"

Cheng Rongyuan said: "Yes, don't worry, it's much better than when it was just injured."

Cheng Yihe said: "Well, if you want to eat, let my second aunt make it for you. Don't think about spending money. Your body is the most important thing."

Cheng Rongyuan said: "I know, I know, alas, Cheng Lin has suffered a lot these days. Cheng Jin's grandma has high blood pressure and can't get up in bed. Cheng Lin's mother said that she would take Cheng to live there for a few days. God, Cheng Lin is taking care of me now, he is dragged down by my father."

Cheng Yihe thought in his heart that such a lame reason seemed to be intentional by Zhang Junyan, and the second uncle was too honest to believe her words.But he couldn't speak directly, so he could only say: "Second Uncle, you are his father, he should take care of you."

The two continued talking for a while, and when they heard Cheng Lin cooking in the kitchen, Cheng Yihe rushed to the kitchen to help.

Although Cheng Yihe is the eldest in the family, at home he stretches out his clothes and opens his mouth to eat. Zhao Ying never let him touch the stove once.Cheng Yihe didn't know how to cook, but he didn't want to tire Cheng Lin, so he took over all the cooking work. The process was stumbling, and the three of them finally had lunch after going through a lot of hardships. Then, while Cheng Rongyuan was taking a nap, Cheng Yihe brought Cheng Lin out.

As soon as he left the house, Cheng Yihe knocked Cheng Lin on the head in disgust, "Stupid!"

Cheng Lin scratched his head, not understanding why he was suddenly scolded. Then, Cheng Yihe stuffed Cheng Lin's still cold hand into the pocket of his down jacket, Cheng Lin wanted to pull it out awkwardly, and said, "Brother, let others see it. , it's time to laugh at me."

Cheng Yihe said: "Hold on, how old are you? Hmm? If your hands are frostbitten, you will have to suffer every winter from now on."

Cheng Lin said: "Where is it so exaggerated."

Cheng Yihe felt that he was not up to date, so he poked Cheng Lin's forehead and said: "You still don't listen to me, why are you always so honest, you can do whatever your mother tells you, just cook for your father , what else do you do the laundry for?”

Cheng Lindao: "The main reason is that my mother is not at home, and I usually don't know how to do it."

Cheng Yihe bothered him to say this, turned around and left, but he was still holding Cheng Lin's hand, and immediately dragged Cheng Lin to a stagger, Cheng Lin caught up with Cheng Yihe's footsteps, and said: "Brother, slow down Son."

As if Cheng Yihe didn't hear it, Cheng Lin was suddenly at a loss.

Out of the corner of Cheng Yihe's eyes, he caught a glimpse of Cheng Lin's pitiful little appearance, and his heart softened again. He slowed down and said, "You are really stupid to say that you are an idiot. No one treats you well except your father, do you know that?"

Cheng Lin stopped suddenly, and Cheng Yihe stopped at the same time.

Cheng Lin blinked his big eyes and looked at Cheng Yihe suspiciously, and said with a smile: "Brother, besides Dad, there is you."

In the next second, the cold wind picked up, the dark clouds dispersed, and the sun that had not been seen for many days suddenly descended on the earth at this moment. Cheng Lin's black hair and thick eyelashes seemed to be sprinkled with thousands of gold powder in an instant, shining a warm light Halo, beautiful like a delicate picture scroll.

I don't know if it was because of Renmei's shock, or because the words pierced his heart, Cheng Yihe was stunned suddenly, a soft place in his heart was sore and soft, and an indescribable sweetness spread in his heart.

The author has something to say:

Double majors are usually applied for at the beginning of the sophomore year, so it is still for the needs of the plot, don't take it seriously in the novel.

muah!