like a dog

This new year was uneventful. Lin Xun had stitches removed from his wound, and he was able to get out of bed and walk around, but he still had to recuperate.That night, the family had a simple meal in the hospital. Yu Wen, Yu Qi and Lu Yuan were both there. Lin You didn't come, but he called a few hours before the New Year's Eve and told him to look out the window.

Lin Xun looked at the night sky outside the window, and a few bright fireworks rose in the distance, illuminating a corner of the dark night sky.Lin Xun looked at the fleeting light and smiled a little: "You let it go?"

"What do you think?"

Touching is touching, honesty is honesty, Lin Xun replied flatly: "I don't think so."

Lin You laughed loudly by the river bank, he was his own son.He sat on the hood and opened a can of beer with one hand: "I saw it on the road. I think you have a high floor, so you should be able to see everything."

"one person?"

Lin You took a sip of wine, the river under the moonlit night was quiet, and it was somewhat similar to the small river in the backyard of Xinyang Xiaolou, except that it was wider, deeper, and more incomprehensible.

The wind blew, and it seemed that he was still in the small courtyard, blowing wild flowers and weeds with tenacious vitality. When he turned around, Lin Xun was sitting on the other end of the bench, with bright eyes, and his smile was very like him, chatting with him about the band, saying As he spoke, he lifted the soda and touched the beer can in his hand.

Lin You glanced at the empty side, and said with a smile, "Otherwise?"

"Too."

Lin Xun also lowered his head and smiled, he looked towards the door, Lu Yuan was sending Yu Wen and Yu Qi out, Lin Xun waved to them, and whispered to Lin You, "Dad, are you watching me?"

Lin You's laughter came from the other end of the phone.

"Did you take less medicine recently?" Lin You touched the edge of the can of beer and said seriously, "Xiao Xun, you can't give up the treatment."

Lin Xun had already developed a certain degree of immunity to his natural meanness, and only thought that he asked the air, but didn't hear anything.Lin You laughed, crushed the empty can, and threw it into the trash can by the side of the road.He has long been used to New Year's Eve alone.Having walked this path, I knew it was going to be this way.

It's okay to be alone, the retribution that deserves to be suffered will not fall on others.

"Lin Xun, you and him..."

Lin You twirled the lighter in his hand, the wind was strong by the river, and the ignited flame swayed non-stop. It was fragile, but it still burned.Lin You smiled, and slammed the lid of the lighter shut: "I still have something to do, you go to bed early. Heal your injury and leave early."

"Dad," Lin Xun called to him, the words twisted in his throat, and finally he suppressed them, "Happy New Year."

Lin You also replied Happy New Year.

Lu Yuan came over and turned off the TV. He closed the curtains. Lin Xun chased him away after sleeping on the sofa for a few days. He re-made the quilt tonight. No matter what, he will not leave tonight.

He dragged the sofa to the side of the hospital bed, adjusted the quilt and sat down on the side of the bed. Lin Xun turned to look at him, and Lu Yuan held up his hand and looked carefully: "It's better."

"It's much better." Lin Xun moved his finger, Lu Yuan hurriedly held his fingertips, frowned and said, "Don't move." Lin Xun looked into his eyes and smiled, he hooked his finger, no Like him, his hands are always warm.

"I think the beach is very nice."

Lu Yuan was startled, but he understood after a while, and a smile almost climbed his brows in the blink of an eye.He held his fingertips and stroked them lightly, as if kissing instead of lips.

After all, his lips were right next to his lips.

The tip of his nose rubbed against his cheek, and his eyelashes trembled with a smile: "Just as long as you like it." He leaned on Lin Xun's shoulder, and hugged him carefully for a while, until Lin Xun urged him to wash up. Only then slowly got up.

There was a faint sound of water coming from the bathroom. Lin Xun lowered the bed and fell down slowly. The quilt was warm and the pillow was fluffy.

He looked up at the lamp above his head, blinked, stretched out his hand and grasped the bright yellow light vainly, so close and so bright, he was distracted, and inadvertently touched the wound on his right hand, hissed and drew his breath. The corner of the mouth seems to be smiling.

Lin Xun tightened his right hand, pressed the back of his left hand, and pressed his palm against his chest.These hands have been stained with blood and tears, clenched tightly, and missed.I hope there will be more good things in this new year.

Just a little bit.

Lin Xun let out a long breath, and the phone next to his pillow vibrated. It was a new email with only one sentence "Happy New Year" written in the title.He opened the email and scanned a few lines, then slowly sat up on the bed.He held the phone, as if his palms were throbbing, and his fingers were trembling.

Five minutes after zero, Lin Xun sat on the hospital bed and pressed delete expressionlessly.

He slept through the night without dreams.

When he woke up the next day, Lu Yuan was still asleep.Lin Xun leaned against the hospital bed, quietly looked at his sleeping face on the sofa, closed his eyes and went back to sleep.

After Lu Yuan got up, he stayed in the hospital all morning and left after having lunch with Lin Xun.Yu Qi stayed up late last night watching the New Year's Eve, and it was almost ten o'clock when he woke up.He hurried to the hospital, just in time to run into Du Chuan who brought a box of milk to see Lin Xun.

Yu Qi didn't recognize him at the beginning, it was Lin Xun who called Du Chuan's name, and he remembered that this was the bar owner, and he felt embarrassed unconsciously.While Lin Xun was talking to Du Chuan, he washed a few pears, sat on the side and lowered his head obediently to peel them for a long time.

But sitting and sitting, the two of them chatted. Lin Xun held the remote control panel and watched the TV in a daze.

"Brother, Brother Lin Xun?"

Yu Qi shook his hand in front of Lin Xun, Lin Xun hummed, and looked away from the TV screen, Yu Qi whispered to Lin Xun: "Brother, your friend is talking to you."

Brother Lin Xun is always distracted today, the wound is uncomfortable and he didn't sleep, okay?It was the same when the doctor came to round the ward just now. The doctor asked him about the wound, but he was in a daze and ignored her at all.

Yu Qi glanced at Lin Xun worriedly, but Du Chuan preempted him before he could ask.

"Did you not have a good rest again? It seems that you are not energetic." Du Chuan couldn't help frowning, "You look like this, can you really be discharged from the hospital next week?"

"The doctor said yes, of course it's fine." Lin Xun smiled, the tiredness in his eyes seemed to be swept away, "I heard that your new store has opened, and it's also on Pingzhou Road?"

"Yeah, the old place is just across the street. I didn't plan to do it, but I still can't stay idle. A small cafe, come back and sit down?" Du Chuan waved his hands again and again with a smile, "Forget it , you must not have time to come, you will be busy going abroad when you are discharged from the hospital."

"Not necessarily," Lin Xun flicked the medical tape next to the indwelling needle, lowered his eyes and said, "I should have time to go."

Yu Qi looked down at the text message, and his face turned red.

"Brother, I... still have something to do, I'm leaving first." Lin Xun nodded, didn't say much, just told him to be careful on the road.Yu Qi put on his down jacket, walked past Du Chuan, and said goodbye to him.

Du Chuan waved to him with a smile, and looked back at Lin Xun, who also just raised his head.He smiled at Du Chuan, looked out the window and said, "Du Chuan, do you believe in karma?"

Du Chuan was stunned for a moment. Fu Rui didn't tell him everything about why Lin Xun was injured, but he could probably figure out why.

He had heard about that girl Lu Yan.The little girl is also pitiful, her good age has ruined her face, her boyfriend abandoned her, her compensation was taken away by her biological father, her mother died young, and for a while, she was left alone.A good life has turned into a pool of mud in an instant.She was only in her early twenties at that time, how could she survive?

Perpetrator victim, sometimes the boundaries are so unclear.

Humans are selfish animals, driven by emotion.If his friend was Lu Yan, he would definitely be more indignant.But he knew Lin Xun, so he couldn't treat him as a cold-blooded murderer, thinking he deserved it.

"I don't understand cause and effect, that's mysterious. I just care about today and live today so that I won't repeat the same mistakes. Otherwise, yesterday will repeat yesterday, let alone cause and effect, and I will trap myself to death first."

Du Chuan stood up and patted Lin Xun on the shoulder: "Don't think too much about it. Lu Yan's matter is left to the law, and the police can sentence it as they like, so don't think about it."

"The police don't care about the case."

Seeing Lin Xun laughing, Du Chuan laughed too: "With this little culture, there's nothing I can do."

Taking advantage of the good atmosphere at this moment, Du Chuan took out his mobile phone with a smile and said, "That kid Fu Rui said he wouldn't come, and he was worried that you were going to die of worry, so let him come by himself and say no, I'll record a video for him , lest he turn around and catch me asking again."

Du Chuan turned on the camera and took a picture of the ward. When he turned to the bed, he smiled and waved to him. Lin Xun smiled cooperatively at the camera.

Du Chuan didn't pay much attention to Lin Xun before. After all, Fu Rui was too conspicuous. When they stood together, their eyes would only focus on Fu Rui.They basically met in Xiaoduchuan, and when Lin Xun was silent, he was more likely to be ignored.

But at this moment, the midday sun was shining softly on the bed, and Lin Xun's smile seemed to be covered with a ray of sunshine.His eyes are not as aggressive and beautiful as Fu Rui's, nor are they as clear and bright as those of a young man, only a faint light.

Like the moon, the light is dim and does not originate from himself, but it is still beautiful.

"Calendula."

Lin Xun whispered something suddenly, Du Chuan thought he heard it wrong, put down his phone and said, "What marigold?"

"The smell of the perfume on that doctor's body is very familiar. I haven't remembered it after thinking about it for many days." Lin Xun looked at Du Chuan with a strange look on his face. "I just thought of it suddenly. It's the smell of marigolds."

Du Chuan couldn't help laughing and said, "You're just thinking about this when you're in a daze? It's just the smell of perfume. Why don't you just ask?"

Lin Xun smiled and said, "Yes, you should ask in person."

Du Chuan sat in Lin Xun's ward for a while, and looked at his watch that it was almost two o'clock. Judging by Lin Xun's state, he probably needed to rest well, so he didn't bother him much.He said goodbye to him, and drove back to the store. There was still a lot of work to do when the new store opened, so this trip was just a sneak in from the busy schedule.

The coffee shop opened opposite the original Xiaoduchuan, called Laputa, and Fu Rui helped to think of the name of the shop.What does this word mean Fu Rui told him once, but he forgot again.

As soon as Du Chuan thought of Fu Rui, he took advantage of the red light to call him, but he couldn't unlock the phone after touching it a few times.He suddenly felt strange, looked down, it was broken, and he took the wrong phone.

Lin Xun's mobile phone and one of his models did not have a mobile phone case, so he accidentally put his in his pocket.Du Chuan sighed. Fortunately, he could turn around at the intersection ahead. It would be really funny if he found out when he got to the store.

Du Chuan turned the car around and drove back to the hospital. There were not many cars just now, and when he was in a hurry to drive back, cars popped up one by one, filling the street. It took only ten minutes to drive out, but when he went back, he used for nearly half an hour.He took the elevator upstairs, hurried to Lin Xun's ward, knocked on the door, pushed the door in, and said with a smile: "Look at me, I didn't pay attention to give you your mobile phone..."

Du Chuan looked at the empty hospital bed, and slowly closed the door: "Lin Xun?" The bathroom door was ajar, with the sound of water splashing, but there was no response.He knocked on the bathroom door and called out in a low voice, "Lin Xun, are you in there?"

He waited for a few seconds, but there was still silence except for the sound of water.He put on the doorknob and opened it slowly. There was no one in the bathroom, only the faucet of the washbasin was open wide, dripping cold water.

A razor blade lay quietly in front of the mirror, stained with uncoagulated blood.A distorted handprint was wiped on the mirror, and scarlet blood overflowed the sink, spreading all over the floor.

Du Chuan took a step back unsteadily, and immediately ran out of the corridor.

"doctor!"

On the side of the street where pedestrians come and go, Han Xun suddenly stopped, and Yu Qi also stopped, looking at him strangely: "What's wrong?"

Han Xun touched the back of his neck, looked down at his fingers and said, "It's snowing."

Yu Qi's eyes lit up at once: "Really?" He spread out his palms, and he didn't feel any snowflakes falling down for a while. He just wanted to ask Han Xun, but his palms felt cold.He looked up at the sky, and the white snowflakes were falling one after another.

Looking forward to the slowly falling snow, Yu couldn't bear to blink his eyes.Seeing that he was smiling like a child, Han Xun couldn't help laughing too: "You like it so much?"

"I like it very much." Yu Qi looked up at the sky, the snowflakes were fluttering, and his face was flushed with a smile, "It's white and clean, who doesn't like it?"

Han Xun hugged Yu Qi: "Let's go, college student." Yu Qi was bent over by him, and staggered to follow.Snow fell on the street behind them, melting in the dust.

On the roof of the hospital, snowflakes also fell leisurely.

Lin Xun stood barefoot on the ground, only wearing a blue and white hospital gown, and a scarf over his shoulders.He looked at the distant sky and reached out to catch a snowflake.

The snow fell on the blood-stained gauze and melted red, as if it had never come and never disappeared.

He looked at the palm of his hand with a smile, and laughed in a low voice, the louder and louder he laughed until his wound hurt and he couldn't stop.Holding the wound on his lower abdomen, he slowly let out a breath, and finally stopped his voice.

He looked back and saw Lu Yuan standing a few steps away from him, wearing a dark coat, the same dark coat as in Beijie Park that day.That day he knelt in front of him on one knee, holding such a beautiful future, and asked him if he would like it.

The sun seemed to be good that day.It's just that at that time, it was white doves that fell beside me, but at this time, it was snow.

He woke up early this morning and looked at his face, his eyes, eyebrows, nose and lips, everything was carefully examined.He looked at it for a long time, wondering why he fell in love with him, was it because of these clean eyes or soft lips?Is it his gentle words, or the open arms at that moment?

He wants to go back and ask himself every day, the self who ignores all clues and deceives himself.

"It's snowing and it's cold, you'll get sick like this."

Lu Yuan took a step closer to Lin Xun, reached out to him and said softly, "Lin Xun, follow me back."

Lin Xun looked at his face, the snow fell in his hair, it seemed that they had stained him.He laughed, and the past collapsed into a small piece, pressing on his heart like a thorn and pulsating with the heartbeat.It was too cold, but felt hot instead.

"I'm sick, and it's not the first day you know about it."

Lin Xun stood up straight on his knees, and the scarf slipped from his shoulders, revealing the blood-stained bandage on his neck and the large bloodstains on his back.

"I was originally crazy."

He exhaled a breath of white air, tore off the bandage that was hastily wrapped around the wound, and gritted his teeth to dig out the chip that had been stuffed back into the wound.Lu Yuan stood there silently, the ice and snow melted in his hair, but condensed in his eyes.

Lin Xun held up the chip, which was smaller than a grain of rice and soaked in blood.In the bathroom, he groped and pressed the back of his neck inch by inch, and finally found where it was buried.

His hands were bloody, and he sighed thoughtfully in a low voice.

"But Mr. Han, you... for a lunatic like me, you really paid a lot of money."