like a dog

Everything happened so fast, within seconds.

And those few seconds, like a video on a cassette, have been extended to tens of minutes.

The sound and picture were all scattered in front of my eyes, and they were edited together chaotically.Panic screams, shouts and chaotic footsteps filled Fu Rui's ears.The bright red fruit rolled over the cold marble tiles, covered with warmth, and the blood-red ground slowly stood still in his trembling sight.

The blood from Fu Rui's whole body rushed to the top of his head, and then chilled down to the soles of his feet.He picked up Guan Nian and put him in Xiao Mo's arms, with a livid face, he said to take her away, then turned around and ran towards the escalator.

Guan Nian reached out to grab Fu Rui, but was in vain.She was short, she didn't see anything behind Fu Rui, she didn't understand what happened, but in a blink of an eye, the person who promised to accompany her all day just left her behind for no reason.She opened her hands blankly, tears rolling down her face.

"mom!"

Fu Rui stopped at the escalator, he hated her crying the most, but today he made her shed tears twice.He looked at her crying face, glanced downstairs, gritted his teeth and rushed back to her.Fu Rui held Guan Nian's hand, pecked on the back of her hand, and gave a fairly normal smile: "Nian Nian, be good, and wait for me in the car with Aunt Mo, I'll be here later."

Guan Nian held tears in his eyes: "Really?"

"real."

Fu Rui nodded with her, and winked at Xiao Mo.Xiao Mo understood, talked and laughed with Guan Nian and turned towards the parking lot.Fu Rui took a few steps backwards, turned around and strode towards the railing, leaning on the railing and jumping down to the second floor.

Lu Yan had already been restrained. At first, Fu Rui thought it strange to see her wearing a mask. After all, the heating in the shopping mall is quite good, but it may be that the other party is sick.It was probably because the apples were pushed out of place, and the kraft paper bag was broken by the tip of the knife. He caught a glimpse of the inconspicuous cold light, and instantly ruled out that possibility.

In the blink of an eye, he immediately understood what she wanted to do.

Fu Rui walked in front of Lu Yan, she was laughing hysterically, her hideous face twisted so creepily.

Not for reasons like the original intention, not a panacea for everything.Lin Xun hurt someone, whether it was intentional or not, it is inevitable to be hated.Lu Yan was one of the nurses who took care of him at the time. Lin Xun had just come out of the confinement room at that time, and was extremely mentally unstable and almost completely unable to control himself.

He heard Song Li talk about it, and when she spoke, her face was full of uncontrollable fear.

"...Several people couldn't pull it away, their nails were broken, and they refused to let go."

Song Li seemed to be recalling a nightmare, and unconsciously clenched his fingers: "He is a devil at all... First you, and now Sister Lu Yan, how many people does he kill is enough..."

"A person like him, why not..." Song Li stopped talking, bowed his head and began to cry.

Fu Rui sat by the window silently, the sequelae of pheromone imbalance made him dizzy, and repeated operations made him even weaker.He sniffed, but he couldn't smell the pheromone smell on Song Li's body, even his own, it was so faint that it didn't exist.The mark Guan Shan left on him completely disappeared.

He looked at the palm of his hand numbly, slowly clenched it, and then loosened it.

——For a person like him, why doesn't he die?

It would be a lie to say I never hated it.He's not a saint, not that detached.But every time he sees Lin Xun, the shadow disappears unconsciously.

He still couldn't put malice on this person.Hurting this person is like stabbing a sword without a hilt, the more you hurt him, the more you hurt yourself.Before he hit the vital point, he bled in rivers first.

It's really not worth it.

Lin Xun fell to the ground, his face was so pale that it merged with the tiles. There was already a person beside him. Fu Rui felt that his face was familiar, but he couldn't remember where he had met him.Han Zheng folded his coat and put it under Lin Xun's legs, raised his head and said to Fu Rui, "Give me the clothes."

Fu Rui unambiguously took off his coat and handed it to him. Han Zheng covered Lin Xun with the coat and his own scarf, carefully avoiding the knife.

Fu Rui knelt down beside him, his knees were buried in a pool of blood.He really wanted to smile to ease the atmosphere, but his eyes were so sore that he couldn't even hide his choking: "Why did you become so virtuous after not seeing him for a while, you... don't you have any self-consciousness?"

Lin Xun smiled weakly and hummed lightly.

"Well, your head, why did you let go when you held it? You think you are an impregnable wall, and you can still bounce this knife? I really want...I really want to slap you sober." Fu Rui said viciously, but avoided Gently grasping Lin Xun's left hand while holding the wound, "Keep your eyes open for me, do you hear me?"

"Can't catch..."

Lin Xun blinked slowly, the pain seemed to have disappeared, he seemed to be floating in the cold sea tide, floating with the sound of distant and near.He sighed wearily, seeing a vast expanse of whiteness, as if heavy snow had fallen.

"Fu Rui, I didn't catch it..." Lin Xun looked at a very high and far place, but his voice was very low and soft, "I have always...can't catch..."

Fu Rui's eyes were red, and regardless of the injury on his hand, he grabbed him fiercely and said, "Why can't I catch you, why don't I just grab you now? As for Lu Yuan, have you forgotten what you're wearing on your ring finger?" ? It's all in your hands, you fucking hold it tight!"

Lin Xun's eyelids became heavier, and the wound on his hand, which was scratched by the knife, hurt suddenly as if a living thing had been buried, even more clearly than the pain on his lower abdomen.

"Lu Yuan..."

He murmured the name softly, and when he uttered the sound, the air flow rushed over his lips and teeth, and his stiff tongue became warm.The first day he came to see him, he hurt his hand.Is it the left hand, or the right hand?It seems to be left handed.

Yes, it is the left hand.

Does he have scars?Lin Xun thought about it carefully, but was still not sure.He recalled holding hands with him every time, only recalling the temperature of his palm.So warm, like holding a warmed flame out of water.

When you go out today, you should take a good look at him.

Lin Xun looked at the gradually blurred dome, under the same sky, where is he now?It looks like it's going to rain, has he brought an umbrella?If it was him, he would definitely bring it with him.

For those who have a cold, it is enough to have him alone.

Lin Xun slowly closed his eyes, instead of darkness, there was endless whiteness in front of him. "I want to see..." He closed his eyes and murmured inaudibly, and then there was no more sound.

"Lin Xun?"

Fu Rui held Lin Xun's hand in a daze, called him once, twice, but there was no response.Fu Rui shook him gently in disbelief, only to feel the blood that started to turn cold on one hand.

"Hey, don't scare me. Lin Xun, this doesn't mean anything. Open your eyes and look at me. Ah Xun, don't sleep?" Fu Rui patted his face blankly. With his eyes closed, his hands and feet were as cold as falling into an ice cave, "Where's the ambulance..."

"Where's the ambulance!" Fu Ruitong looked at Han Zheng with red eyes, knowing that it was meaningless, and still couldn't help getting angry at him, "Didn't you call an ambulance? How long has it been since it arrived!"

Han Zheng looked at him silently, his face was no less tired and pale than his.Fu Rui supported his forehead in pain, the blood on his hands made his tears red.

"None of the ones that should have arrived..."

There was a noise in the distance, and Fu Rui looked at the medical staff who were being led to rush over, and a gleam of light lit up in his eyes.He stood up in a hurry, his legs were so numb that he almost fell to his knees again.He gritted his teeth and stood up straight on his knees, and shouted at the stretcher bearer, "This way!"

Lin Xun was carried on the stretcher, Fu Rui followed and ran to the door, Han Zheng picked up the clothes on the ground and followed.The mobile phone left under the bench went dark.The phone call that I hadn't hung up on, finally came to an abrupt end.

……

"teacher?"

Lin Xun stopped in the white light, looked around blankly, and turned to see Zhong Yue's face.Zhong Yue let go of the hands around his neck, supported his shoulders and whispered: "Teacher, please let me down, I can really go by myself."

Lin Xun stared at him blankly, then hummed after a while, and put him down.The moment Zhong Yue stepped on the ground, the concrete pavement spread out from under his feet, and the sky, mountains and fields behind him also spread out.The breeze was blowing, and laughter and laughter came faintly from the direction of Xiaoanshan.

Lin Xun followed Zhong Yue, the sun was shining brightly above his head, he couldn't feel the heat.

"teacher?"

Lin Xun responded softly: "Yes."

Zhong Yue turned around and walked back a few steps, then called him again with a smile: "Teacher?"

"En." Lin Xun answered him again, but this time, he was a little choked up.

"Teacher, how are you?" Zhong Yue stopped, stood in the warm mountain wind and looked up at him, Lin Xun nodded slowly, Zhong Yue seemed to be finally relieved, and said with a smile, " That's good."

"That, can you show me?"

Lin Xun followed his gaze and lowered his head, grabbed the ring on his ring finger, hesitated for a moment, then took it off and put it in his palm.

Zhong Yue picked up the ring in her hand and looked at the sky. The sun passed through the ring, shining a dazzling light.Zhong Yue didn't seem to feel it, looked at the ring, and sighed softly: "That's great."

Zhong Yue put the ring back on Lin Xun's hand, and he slowly withdrew his hand, pausing slightly when he brushed his little finger.He took a step back, looked down at his toes and smiled, then looked up into the distance again.

Lin Xun looked at his smile, he seemed happy, but also a little sad.Like the dusk where day and night meet, it is everything and nothing at the same time.

"Teacher, he was just comforting me at that time. After all, no one can say for sure what will happen after tomorrow. Of course, the agreement...is just an agreement." Zhong Yue looked at the undulating mountains and the white clouds in the sky, The birthmark on his face was like a large cloud, "But I'm still very happy, teacher, you... are really gentle, you didn't reject me at the time, but gave me a time to realize that you won't love Get on me."

"Although it doesn't take that long, I can guess it. Beside a bright person, there must be a very bright person. I thought, if possible, I also want to be a bright person like a teacher. In the future One day, I will stand by your side." Zhong Yue lowered his head and smiled, looking at his hands and said, "But it's impossible, I'm already...very dirty."

When Lin Xun touched his cheek, it was neither cold nor hot, just like touching a wisp of wind without temperature.He whispered: "Xiaoyue, why...don't you come to see me?"

For many years, he never dreamed of him once.Good or bad, not once.

"Teacher," Zhong Yue backed away from his hand, and her voice became hoarse, "I said dirty, not just blood."

The few lines in the dossier flashed before Lin Xun's eyes. Behind the simple dozens of words was an abyss he could not imagine.He grabbed his hand: "I don't care."

Zhong Yue looked at him silently, as if he didn't even blink because of reluctance.He lowered his head and smiled, his smile was full of exhaustion: "But I care."

"And that's what I should pay back." He slowly withdrew his hand and said in a low voice, "I'm actually very glad that you didn't come to see me at that time. At least in your eyes, I'm still clean."

"Zhong Yue..."

"Teacher," Zhong Yue interrupted him with tears streaming down his face. He wiped his eyes, looked at Lin Xun again, and said softly, "Teacher, you are so gentle. I've been thinking that you are so gentle. Okay, I’m so gentle that sometimes you have to pretend to be nice even when you’re sad, won’t it be too tiring. If someone can let you not pretend to be nice at those times, cry when you want, laugh when you want, that’s fine .”

"I still..." Zhong Yue murmured to himself in a low voice, when a gust of mountain wind blew in, he couldn't hear clearly, "Yes... I did it, that's great..."

Lin Xun lightened his feet and floated into the air like fallen leaves being blown up by the wind. He hurriedly grabbed Zhong Yue's wrist.Zhong Yue grabbed the back of his hand: "Teacher, let go. The person you should hold on to is not me."

He slowly opened his fingers: "I'm a person who is going to hell, it's dirty, don't touch it."

Lin Xun floated high into the sky, the light behind him was so hot that it wanted to melt him.When he opened and closed his eyes, they were all white.He wanted to cry, but there were no tears, and he wanted to speak, but he couldn't make a sound.

He rose higher and higher, and could no longer see the ground. A gust of wind brought Zhong Yue's last voice.

"Teacher, goodbye."

Lin Xun slowly opened his eyes, the smell of disinfectant was floating in the air, and the monitor was beeping beside his ears.He tried to make a fist, and there was a sharp pain in his palm.He caught a glimpse of the IV bottle, and felt the coolness running over the skin under the back of his hand.

He felt pain and cold.This is not a dream or hallucination, it is real.

Lin Xun turned his head and saw Lu Yuan lying beside the hospital bed.He was lying on the side of the bed, breathing very softly, the sun fell on his face through the blinds, a light followed a shadow.

"Lu Yuan."

"Ah."

Lu Yuan answered, like those times when he was still asleep, he heard him call him, and he answered him sleepily with his eyes closed.He opened his eyes suddenly, sat on the small stool in the ward, stared at Lin Xun in a daze.He stood up slowly, touched Lin Xun's cheeks, stroked his skin with his fingers, felt the temperature, and finally there was a smile on his face.

"You're awake."

He smiled and asked, like every ordinary morning, but his voice was slightly hoarse and his eyes were slightly red.He took Lin Xun's hand, only dared to gently hold his fingertips.

"Well, wake up."

Lin Xun responded to him softly, and glanced at his left hand that was on the side: "Did it hurt, then?" Lu Yuan stared at him in a daze, lowered his eyes and smiled in a low voice, holding his gauze-wrapped hand, hoarsely voice replied.

"It hurts, it almost... hurts to death."