like a dog

Fu Rui knelt down and patted Guan Nian's dusty clothes: "Did you fall? Does your knee hurt?"

"No, it doesn't hurt." Guan Nian shook her head, she turned her back to Lin Xun, and whispered with Fu Rui in sign language, "But I stained that uncle's clothes."

"Whatever he does, if it's dirty, it's dirty." Fu Rui straightened Guan Nian's coat with a cold face, got up and pulled her away.Guan Nian stood still, biting his lip and looking up at Fu Rui, without saying a word.

Fu Rui saw the little tears in her eyes, and his heart trembled.He hurriedly knelt down to wipe the tears in her eyes: "I was wrong for Niannian, I shouldn't have hurt you just now, Niannian is the best, don't cry, your eyes are swollen from crying, go back and let your dad see , am I still alive?"

Guan Nian let out a chuckle, sniffled and said, "Dad doesn't know how to spank you, why are you so afraid of him?"

Fu Rui had a smile on his face, and his heart was overwhelmed, little ancestor, why don't you open which pot and which pot to carry.He gave a dry laugh twitching at the corner of his mouth, his biological one was different, he stepped on it wherever it hurt.

"Go buy another ice cream with Aunt Mo, just one. I'll take care of it here, I'm sure you'll be satisfied." Fu Rui gently squeezed Guan Nian's cheek, watching her hold Xiao Mo's hand contentedly escalator.

People passed by in twos and threes, either quietly or talking and laughing.Relaxed and happy Christmas songs echoed in the mall, and a tall Christmas tree stood in the center of the mall, decorated with colorful lights and gift boxes of all sizes.

Fu Rui walked up to Lin Xun, raised his chin and said, "Let's go, I'll buy you a new one." Lin Xun stood still, Fu Rui looked back at him and said, "Why, I need to hold you by the hand." Are you willing to move?"

"Fu Rui, I..."

"To be honest," as soon as Lin Xun opened his mouth, Fu Rui interrupted him, "I really don't want to see you." He laughed lowly, and many years passed by like a lantern in this sigh-like smile, From the small building on the other side of the Xinyang River to the messy Xiaoduchuan.

"But it's useless for me to think, you still have to dangle in front of my eyes. Do you think there was some kind of curse between the two of us before, that we have to be entangled together until we die?"

Lin Xun couldn't answer, his throat was more dry than before: "She is yours..."

"Daughter." Fu Rui looked in the direction of the escalator, "Seven years old, I'm with Guan Shan."

"At that time, there was one in Xiqiao, and it stayed in my stomach for two months. Guan Shan thought of many ways to save her. At that time, no one was optimistic about me or her. But in the end, both of us survived, but she was born unable to hear, you know what I mean?"

Lin Xun met Fu Rui's gaze, and the heat all over his body slowly turned to ice.There was a bloody smell in his mouth, which made the root of his tongue stiff, and he said hoarsely after a while: "I see..."

"So I can't forgive you." Fu Rui put his head in his pocket and looked up at the Christmas tree. The false emerald green extended from the cold tiles to the glass dome, and the gray sky was cut into pieces. He looked at the Christmas tree. In the sky, white clouds floated by, quietly, "I am not qualified to forgive you, that is not something I can decide."

"Whether Guan Shan's matter has nothing to do with you, I know it. It was Zhong Yue who pushed me downstairs, not you. You hurt me, and it was not out of intention. I know all these things. To be honest, I really What I care about is that you have been lying to me. You know everything, but you don't say anything. We..." Fu Rui sighed and laughed, "We were friends at that time, I couldn't bear to treat you like that, but you had the heart to do that To me. Lin Xun, you are really not ordinary cruel."

Fu Rui said with a soft smile: "Lin Xun, ask yourself, if it's you, and you find that the person you trust the most is actually lying to you from the beginning to the end, will you forgive me? Can you do it?"

He was asking him, and he was asking himself.He didn't have an answer to this question in his heart.

He looked at Lin Xun, for so many years, he had seen his joys, sorrows, sorrows, and joys, and the current loss of soul is really one of the few.He catches a glimpse of the ring on his finger, not seen in just a few months, and they both have new lives to begin.

It seems that the two of them are indeed separated, but they can live better for each other.

When they were in college, after playing basketball, they would grab a soda and go to barbecue, just like in Xinyang at that time, they just found a small table where they often sat.Talking about life, talking about ideals, and more often making jokes, every time I can find some new and old things to laugh at.

I remember at that time, Lin Xun was about to turn 22, and he talked about his birthday while talking.Fu Rui's own birthday is like playing, it can be today, and it can be tomorrow.He lifted the bottle cap by the table, smiled and said to Lin Xun, Ah Xun, you are almost at the legal age of marriage, why are you still so quiet?

Lin Xun raised his eyebrows and smiled, don't he still want to spend a few years with you?

Fu Rui patted Lin Xun on the shoulder, and said to him earnestly, Comrade Lin Xun, your thinking is very dangerous.Lin Xun also sank down, frowning slightly and said, what should I do then?Comrade Fu Rui, why don't you look at it like this, when you reach the age next year, we will go to get the certificate together and solve the problem once and for all?

Fu Rui couldn't hold back anymore, he jumped up and hit him as soon as he slapped the table.With Lin Xun's reaction speed, he hid away and slapped his knees and laughed.Fu Rui pinched his face quickly and fiercely, cursed, smiled, laughed, what a fart!Lin Xun covered his face and screamed in pain, and shouted vaguely, Fu Rui, you are murdering your own husband!

The little girls from the same club sitting at the table behind them gasped.In less than a week, the unblooming peach blossoms of the two of them in college had all withered away.

Fu Rui originally thought that his life would be unclear, but luckily having such a good friend by his side was considered a blessing among misfortunes.But who knows, knowing this friend is his greatest misfortune.

"Next time we see you, just pretend you haven't met. It would be even better if we don't see each other again." Fu Rui took out his wallet, took off his card and ID card, and took a picture of it in Lin Xun's hand, "Buy it yourself."

Lin Xun held the wallet blankly, he also had the same one.

It was his birthday that day, and he didn't go out that month, locking himself in his bedroom, day and night, let alone the date.Fu Rui opened the door and came in. He also had a key to the apartment.He knocked on the bedroom door, but he didn't open it.

He hid in the quilt, the medicine bottle fell to the ground, and various pills were scattered all over the place.Panic struck him in his sleep, and a voice whispered in his ear for a long time, calling his name, shouting hoarsely.He doesn't remember the line, but always feels it's important.

He pinched his hair and yelled hysterically. He felt that he had forgotten something, but it seemed he hadn't.His hands seemed to be covered with blood, and upon closer inspection they were covered in cold sweat.

Fu Rui called him through the door, and he slammed the cup on the bedside against the door, yelling at him to leave.He buried his head in pain, and murmured in tears, "Leave me alone, please leave me alone."

"You have no idea what I've done, you have no idea..."

Fu Rui was silent at the door for a few seconds, he only heard some indistinct hoarseness.He slowly let go of the doorknob, sat down on the floor at the door of the bedroom, and took out a box of small cakes and a few cans of beer in a plastic bag. Lin Xun was 27 years old, and the candle couldn't fit anyway, so he lit it. one.

"I got off work early today, so I came over here to have a look. Why did you make the room such a mess again? Remember to wear slippers when cleaning. There are debris and water on the ground. I almost fell on the door when I came in."

Fu Rui sat alone at the door of the bedroom, talking to himself and drinking beer.

"My boss is really not a human being. He made me work six and a half days a week. After the internship period, he gave me half of my salary. If it wasn't for the good food in the canteen, I would have left long ago. Lin Xun, have you eaten at noon? What? Did I try the can I put in your freezer last time? I kinda like that taste."

"After watching the movie yesterday, I passed by the shopping mall. It happened to be on sale. The price of cabbage is good. Buy one get one free in my wallet. I just bought two. I keep the good-looking ones for myself, and I'll give you the uglier ones."

……

Fu Rui lit a cigarette with the burning candle, lowered his eyes and smiled, "Happy birthday, Ah Xun."

The door was gently opened, and Lin Xun came out barefoot. He hadn't cut his hair for several months and covered his eyes.He sat cross-legged opposite Fu Rui, and Fu Rui handed him the cigarette in his hand.Lin Xun took it and inhaled slowly, Fu Rui took out a new one, and lit it with the flame between his fingers.

Lin Xun's finger holding the cigarette trembled slightly, and there were a few tooth marks embedded in it, and the back of his hand was stained with blood.He looked at Fu Rui without saying a word, his lips moved, but he still didn't say anything.

He brushed his hair back, took another puff of the cigarette, and after slowly letting out a breath, he leaned against the door and whispered, "Can you... tell me about that movie?"

"Okay, I have a lot of nonsense, you can just listen to it. Next time the DVD comes out, let's watch it together again." Fu Rui lit a candle again, the fire was burning inconspicuously in the bright room, and said softly with a smile, "Lin Xun, make a wish."

Lin Xun blinked numbly as he stared at the flames, countless pains and struggles flashed before his eyes.He touched his fingertips, as if there was something else, it dissipated between his fingers like smoke.

He blew out the candle and made no wish.

Lin Xun clenched his wallet, and Fu Rui was already walking towards the escalator.There are more people coming and going, and the surrounding area is noisier than before.Lin Xun looked at his back through the crowd, sorry or congratulations, but the words he didn't say were all stuck in his throat, making him itchy and painful.

But in fact, since he chose to keep silent, this day was destined to happen.No one can hide from anyone for a lifetime, the wound that should be uncovered will rot open no matter how hard you try to cover it.The longer the time, the more fishy the rot.

The phone vibrated in his coat for a few seconds, Lin Xun answered the call, turned around and walked in another direction.Lu Yuan's vigorous voice came from his ear, and he was dazed when he heard it.

"... Lin Xun, are you listening to me? Is the signal bad?"

"I heard it," Lin Xun came back to his senses, cleared his throat and said, "I've already bought it, how is Xiaoyue?"

"The doctor said it's all right, maybe it's too cold to catch a cold recently. The medicine has been prescribed and I'm just about to come out. Are you okay, I heard you coughing this morning, do you still have a cold?"

"Maybe."

"I'll make some ginger tea for you when I go back. You can sleep after drinking it. Leave the manuscript alone."

"Ah."

Lin Xun stood under the Christmas tree, looking at the red and green gift boxes, as if he was looking at each delicately packaged wish.He looked up at them, slowly lowered his head and said, "Lu Yuan, come pick me up, I want to see you."

Sensing the exhaustion in his tone, Lu Yuan held the phone and said with a smile, "Okay, I'll be right there." Lin Xun was about to hang up, but Lu Yuan's voice came again.

"Lin Xun, Christmas is coming, have you bought me a present yet?"

Lin Xun smiled, how could he ask for a gift directly like this.

"No."

"Ah? No, I'm still looking forward to it." Lu Yuan sighed sullenly, "Then we can only live by eating apples."

"Isn't it enough to have me with you?"

"Enough, enough." Lu Yuan looked at the gloomy sky with a smile, the storm was coming, he really should hurry up.He reached out to stop a taxi, and said softly when it slowed down and stopped: "But I am very greedy and always want more. You don't hate me, Lin Xun?"

Lin Xun finished filling out the lost and found at the service desk, handed the wallet to the counter lady, and nodded with her with a smile.He walked to the bench beside the Christmas tree, sighed softly, smiled helplessly, but was full of warmth.

"It's all locked up by you, it's too late to hate it."

Lu Yuan closed the car door with a smile, and put down the pet box after saying the address.He teased Lizhi through the net, and asked Lin: "We will come to pick you up, and we will arrive in 15 minutes at most, just wait for me for a while."

Lin Xun sat down on the rest chair and replied, "Well, I'll wait for you to come over."

Before the words fell, he heard an exclamation.A few steps away, a girl wearing a mask accidentally dropped a bag of fruit in her hand.Apples fell from the brown paper bag one after another, rolling bright red to his feet.

She had long hair loose and wore a thick down jacket, and she bent down awkwardly to pick up fruits on the ground.People passing by helped pick up the apples that had rolled to their feet. She nodded to them through the mask and said thank you repeatedly.

The girl walked towards him, Lin Xun got up and picked up the apple at his feet and handed it to her.Holding the kraft paper bag, the girl stared fixedly at Lin Xun with a pair of dark eyes, as if she was tired, she panted slightly and said thank you.

Fu Rui was walking on the second floor of the shopping mall, holding Guan Nian's hand but absent-mindedly, he went back to the escalator he had come up before.

"Mom, didn't we go shopping here just now?"

"Oh, really?"

Confused, Fu Rui responded casually, and caught sight of Lin Xun downstairs with a casual glance.He is depressed, he is really a fucking enemy, he will see him when he looks up, and he will see him when he looks down.

He turned around to leave, but suddenly his spine felt a chill, as if he had been hit by some kind of premonition.He let go of Guan Nian's hand, and walked quickly towards the railing, something in his sight became clearer and shone with a cold light, making his scalp numb.

"Lin Xun!" Fu Rui leaned on the railing and shouted downstairs, "Don't get close to her!"

Lin Xun looked up at Fu Rui in astonishment, subconsciously took a step back, but his hands were tightly held.

"I finally... finally found you, Lin Xun."

Lu Yan stared at Lin Xun's face, and excitedly pulled out the sharp knife from the kraft paper bag. The full bag of apples and the apples in Lin Xun's hand rolled to the ground, falling around them as bright as blood.Lin Xun grasped the tip of the knife with all his strength, and there was a sharp pain in his palm.His face turned pale from the pain, staring at Lu Yan's face after the mask came off, the biting coolness poured down on his head a hundred times stronger than the pain.

There were several extremely deep scars all over her face, from the eyes to the roots of the ears, across her cheeks, as if they had been dug open by someone's hands, like cracked ravines, making her pretty face hideous and terrifying.

Lin Xun's breathing was almost stagnant, and he stared at Lu Yan with wide eyes. The sludge from the past poured out from the ground in an instant, staining him completely into blackness, and sirens were buzzing loudly in his ears.It was the same siren they sounded every time he was hysterical before.

Lin Xun was stiff all over, and unconsciously let go of his hand.Lu Yan took advantage of the situation to hug him, and completely plunged the small sharp knife into his lower abdomen.She leaned on his chest like a little bird, like a couple on a date, throwing herself into the arms of her lover.

Feeling Lin Xun's painful trembling and warm blood, she slowly turned the handle of the knife, standing among the falling apples under the Christmas tree, smiling happily and contentedly.

"Merry Christmas, Mr. Lin, I'm here... to send you to your death."