like a dog

"Teacher! It's Zhong Yue who has fallen behind again!"

Just as Fu Rui finished counting the number of people, Chen Qi, the chubby guy in the class, shouted loudly.Fu Rui took a deep breath, the heat was so hot that his whole body was on fire, and his smiling face was thrown into the sky.

"Why did he fall behind again?"

The little fat man shook his head: "I don't know."

The people next to him also murmured.

"Who knows what he's doing."

"He's always slow, every time."

"Aren't all Omegas like this?"

Fu Rui's eyelids twitched, just a few weeks after arriving at West Bridge No. [-] Middle School, he ran into a spring outing.On a sunny day, I took a group of teenagers to Xiao'an Mountain for a day trip.

Fu Rui patted one of them on the shoulder, and said with a smirk: "This classmate, the teacher will punish you for copying the words [-] times after class for sex discrimination."

The little classmate who was pressed on the shoulder by him remembered that the new substitute teacher was an Omega, and his face suddenly became bitter.

"Teacher Jiang, pay attention to being a teacher by example."

As soon as Fu Rui turned around, he saw Lin Xun walking over with someone on his back.

"He sprained his ankle, did you bring any medicine?" Lin Xun turned his head to look at Zhong Yue who was lying on his back. He lowered his head very low and curled up on Lin Xun's back without saying a word.Fu Rui searched all over his body and found a pack of tissues and some bandages.

Lin Xun put Zhong Yue on the concrete pile by the side of the road, rolled up his trouser legs, soaked a paper towel with mineral water, cleaned up the sand from the scratched ankle, and pasted a bandage on the wound.He half-kneeled on the ground, raised his head and said to Fu Rui: "You guys go first, I will send him back to school and then come back."

"Okay." Fu Rui glanced at Zhong Yue's feet, and estimated that he would be unable to walk for a while.He greeted dozens of flowers and bones of the motherland, and swayed to Xiao'an Mountain, which was two kilometers away.

Lin Xun walked in the opposite direction with Zhong Yue on his back.

He tried to walk in the shade as much as possible.The sun was hot and there were not many people on the road.Occasionally, a few farmers drove past on electric three-wheelers.The rice in the fields has just been planted, and the greenery is connected into one piece, the houses are low and scattered, and the breeze under the blue sky is as precious as white clouds.

"Does it hurt?"

Zhong Yue shook his head on his back.

"It hurts. If I fell like this when I was a child, I would have cried badly." Lin Xun smiled and turned to look at Zhong Yue. Zhong Yue didn't have time to lower her head, her eyes were red and she was still crying.He hastily wiped away his tears and turned his face away.

Lin Xun turned his head back and continued walking with his back behind his back.Zhong Yue was very nervous, her whole body was tense.

"Zhong Yue, can you hug my neck? It's not easy to fall, and I can relax a little bit."

"I'm sorry," Zhong Yue sniffed, wiped the tears from the corners of his eyes, and said, "I'm too heavy, teacher, please let me down, I can walk by myself."

"It's okay, you're very light, but now it's time to grow your body, it's better to be heavier." Lin Xun freed up a hand and taught Zhong Yue to hug him tighter, "Why didn't you bring lunch today?" ? I don’t think you have your schoolbag on your back. Didn’t the monitor inform you? We’re going to bring our own lunch today.”

Zhong Yue buried her head very low: "I have notified you, but I... have nothing to bring."

"Do you like bread?" Lin Xun looked back at Zhong Yue, "I have some in my dormitory, Mr. Jiang bought them, but I don't know if you like them."

Zhong Yue tentatively asked, "Is it possible?"

"Yes, there is nothing wrong with it." Lin Xun smiled, "Let's eat together when we go back. I just happened to be hungry too, and all the lunch I brought is in Teacher Jiang's bag."

Zhong Yue hugged Lin Xun's neck and slowly relaxed.He caught a glimpse of the fine beads of sweat on Lin Xun's cheeks, and the corners of his mouth that always turned up when talking to him, and silently lowered his eyes while hugging Lin Xun's neck.

"teacher."

"Ok?"

"Teacher, why, don't you think I'm very..." Zhong Yue bit her lower lip, twisted her fingers and whispered, "Don't you feel terrible when you look at me?"

Lin Xun looked back at him, there was a large black and blue mark on the left side of Zhong Yue's face, which was burned on the skin like a dark cloud.He bowed his head, avoiding the eyes of others, as he did every day.

"I only noticed that your eyes are beautiful, I can't see anything else." Lin Xun looked into his eyes and said softly, "Aren't you called Zhong Yue, smile more, just treat it as the homework I assigned to you .”

Zhong Yue looked at him blankly, Lin Xun said with a smile: "Really, you must look good when you smile. If anyone says you are scary, you can tell me, and I will teach him what is truly scary."

Zhong Yue couldn't help laughing, with tears in his eyes.He put his arms around Lin Xun's neck, leaned on his back, and said thank you in a low voice.

Lin Xun later recalled that that long journey seemed to be the closest they got together.

When Zhong Yue fell in love with him, he didn't quite know.Did it start when he helped him with his wound, or after that open-air movie?He tried to go back and look for traces, but he could find his small, innocent heart along the way.

But the love at this age is too immature.They are both hot and hazy, and sometimes they are wrongly defined by young people.

Lin Xun could not give him any excessive response.He can only say, wait until you grow up to talk about it.

Zhong Yue plucked up the courage, looked into his eyes and asked, "How do you grow up?" This is what he taught him. When talking to people, you have to look into the other person's eyes.

Lin Xun turned the scratch paper on the table.He had just finished explaining the definition of infinity to him and drew an infinity symbol on the paper.It represents infinity, infinity.Following the symbol, Zhong Yue traced it with her fingers and said, like do I like you.

His eyes were sincere and red hot.

Lin Xun turned the infinity symbol over and said to him, "When you reach my age, you will be considered grown up."

They are eight years apart, that's eight years.

Eight years is long enough.It is enough for a person to grow up, and it is enough for a person to forget the youthful words when he was young.

Zhong Yue glanced at the symbol, looked up at Lin Xun, blushed and stretched out his right hand and said, "Then we have agreed, I will come to you in eight years. Teacher, will you wait for me?"

Lin Xun nodded with a smile, accepted his childishness, and hooked him up.

"I will."

After that heavy rain, everything became a mirage.

Lin Xun was lying on the window sill on the third floor, and the torrential rain almost drenched him.Fu Rui fell into the shards of glass on the window sill, covered with green grass, not only the rainwater, but also his blood wet them.

A man knelt down beside him, and the black umbrella in his hand fell to the side.The rain was pouring down, and he was soon drenched too.He held Fu Rui's hand and wiped off the blood on his face.Fu Rui pressed against his palm, looking into his eyes, like a lonely boat towards his bright light.The sharpness of his body has faded away, and his softness and fragility seem to be washed away in the rain.He opened and closed his lips and said something, then closed his eyes.

The man raised his head, and Lin Xun's gaze collided with his.They looked at each other's faces, time seemed to stand still for a few seconds, almost at the same time, a trace of astonishment flashed in their eyes.But soon, the astonishment turned into a deep cold, which unilaterally froze Lin Xun's nerves.

"Do you know what you did?" Lin Xun grabbed Zhong Yue's shoulders, and he fell to the ground in front of the window, still looking at his hands in a daze, Lin Xun suppressed his voice, pain, anger and sadness mixed together , "Why are you...why!"

The rainwater hit the house, and they were in a mess like two dogs in the water.Zhong Yue's face was mixed with blood and tears, he raised his head, looked at Lin Xun and wept with a smile.

"I……"

A flash of lightning exploded, swallowing his voice.

Lin Xun closed his eyes and took a deep breath.He knelt on the ground and wiped away the tears and blood from his eyes.He wanted to stabilize his voice, but still trembled slightly: "Stay here, no matter what happens, don't come down."

"But..." Zhong Yue looked at him with trembling eyes.

"No but!" Lin Xun roared in a suppressed voice.He smiled weakly, looked into his eyes and said softly: "Stay here, I will come back."

Zhong Yue grabbed his hand tightly and choked up, "How long?"

"Didn't we make an agreement?" Lin Xun pulled out his hand and gently touched his cheek.The hands of the two of them were covered with blood, tears and rain.He kissed him on the forehead, his dirty, broken teenager.

That was their first and last kiss.

He got up and left without looking back.

A few months later, in the file that Song Yuan brought.

Lin Xun saw Zhong Yue again.

The small name is tucked into the corner of the box on the death certificate.

Holding the thin piece of paper, he cried soberly for a long time in the ward of the mental hospital.