Did you hear that I love you too

If you relax your body and mind and don't take one thing to heart, you will naturally feel nothing.

Lin Yi still had this indifferent attitude at the beginning, casual, love it or not.

If they only met once or twice and didn’t know much about it, it’s okay, but later they really poured themselves into it, whether it’s feelings or friendship, and they had planned to be friends for a lifetime and would never be separated. This kind of sudden parting and inexplicable parting will really hurt the heart.

In order to alleviate this situation, you have to work hard and forget everything. If you can’t relieve it, you lie on the bed and take out your mobile phone when you are resting, type a few lines in the dialog box, delete and type again.

No matter how thick-skinned he was when he was young, he didn't care about him, but now he has to set up various emotions, whether to pretend to be doing nothing, or to be cautious, or something else.

For example, "Yi Chu, I have been waiting for you at home for so many days, why didn't you come?"

"Your uncle, are you so busy with work that you don't call me?"

Or "well, don't you like me? I like you too after thinking about it."

I think this is very frivolous, so delete it.

Typing out "I miss you so much" feels too hypocritical and nasty, and I can't stand it.

After two days, I really couldn't do it anymore. I sent out a sentence "the equipment is broken, where are you going?" quickly threw away the phone and went to take a shower, lest the embarrassment would be withdrawn.

Because I was excited, I came out after taking a shower twice, and looked at my phone without washing my body.

And no reply.

Then I was in a state of high tension. Whenever there was movement on the phone, my heart seemed to be picked up and beat for 1 minute, 2 minutes, an hour and two hours, until I fell asleep, and then woke up in the morning.

Difficult and nervous, under the double stimulation, he didn't sleep well all night, and his dream was full of blurred figures.

Lin Yi felt that he was going crazy, and as soon as he went to the factory Xiao Wang came up and asked: "Boss, I haven't seen your friend from Shanghai for a long time. What's the matter with him?"

Lin Yi was originally irritable and said directly: "You gossip, hurry up and work!"

Xiao Wang seldom saw him lose his temper, so he thought it was a joke, and continued: "I don't affect my work, I have checked everything and there is no problem."

Lin Yiyi: "Have you calculated the data? Have you recruited newcomers and trained them? Are you ready for next month?"

Asking you that Xiao Wang didn't dare to speak when he was done, and left angrily.

All in all, Lin Yi wasn't in a good mood that day. With a cigarette in his hand, he turned around and still couldn't smoke it, and finally threw it into the trash can.

He hadn't been so impulsive in doing things for a long time, so he drove directly to Shanghai in the afternoon, Lin Yi thought about it, first scolded Yi Chu for being stingy, then scolded himself for being blind to good people, and finally reconciled.

According to his current state, it is estimated that he will not have any rebellious emotions when he wants to do anything. Anyway, he has let himself go. He can kiss whenever he likes, hug whenever he likes, and he can accept anything except going to bed.

Lin Yi called when he was about to arrive, and there was no other way not to call at this time.

The result is a shutdown.

All the way to play all the way off.

It took Lin Yi a lot of courage to walk to the door of his house, and knocked on the door several times, but no one answered.

Keep calling, keep prompting to shut down, from [-]:[-] pm to [-]:[-] pm, there is still no one.

This day seems to have experienced ups and downs, and astringency.

It was past two o'clock when Lin Yi came home, and he lay down and fell asleep without eating.

A few days later, Lin Yi couldn't give up, so he went to his house again while doing errands on the weekend.

This time, he waited for more than two hours and opened the door directly with the password.

There is a gloomy atmosphere when you enter the door. It has been raining in Shanghai these days, and the windows have not been opened for an unknown period of time, so it is not popular.

Lin Yi closed the door, opened the curtains, and opened the window.

Because I was too tired, I fell asleep on the sofa.

I don't know how long I slept, but I woke up when I heard a burst of cheers outside. The room was quiet, with the breeze blowing and the curtains rustling.

Lin Yi went to Yi Chu's desk and left a note.

"call me."

What Lin Yi is looking forward to is to meet with the previous one and make it clear that even if Yi Chu insists on not contacting and breaking up, and goes against what he said before the bed, he will still accept it.

They always have results.

Lin Yi waited too late and hadn't eaten all day. He was so tired that he called and lived with Xiao Zhou.

Xiao Zhou's newly bought house has not yet been handed over, and the rented house is not big, with one bedroom and one living room, and the rent is several thousand.

Sitting together, Xiao Zhou knew that he was very depressed, so he couldn't bear to mention Yi Chu's matter, but said: "You are good in everything, but there is one bad thing, and I haven't taught you a lesson for so many years. Even if you get married in the future When you have a child, your wife can leave, and the child will leave when he is old. You can only rely on yourself in everything. Too much dependence on others will only make you feel guilty and painful. When I was young, I thought my parents were very good. Well, one marries a wife and the other marries a man. No one wants me, no one likes me. Xiao Ling loves me so much and treats me so well, she will still break up and leave. After all these years, you still want to rely on one person. Indeed, one person is too much. Suffering is too lonely, and being lonely is better than gaining and losing again, don’t you think?”

Lin Yi smiled lightly: "You haven't said this before."

Xiao Zhou said: "I didn't say it because I didn't see what kind of person you are. He is good and treats you well, but people are selfish. He likes you so he treats you well. Once the two of you are out of balance , then there is no need to be nice to you, we are all adults, and our time and energy are limited. In terms of advantages, I didn't attack you when your mind was weak, otherwise I would definitely bend when I saw you, and I couldn't stand him."

Lin Yi "haha" smiled to himself, lying on the bed with his legs stretched against the wall.

Seeing that he was silent, Xiao Zhou continued: "I'm not trying to enlighten you, you know better than anyone else that it's better to rely on yourself than others, and you have to be more ruthless in life, or you will end up like me."

Lin Yi asked gossipingly, "No way, are you still sending money to your ex-girlfriend? How is her father sick?"

Xiao Zhou said: "I went to see it once, and it wasn't very good. Chemotherapy costs thousands of dollars a day."

Lin Yi sighed: "Maybe the girl just broke up with you when she found out that her father was sick."

Xiao Zhou laughed dryly and did not speak.

It was almost twelve o'clock when the food was delivered, Lin Yi was eating, and Xiao Zhou was washing clothes outside.

When they were studying abroad together, Xiao Zhou was like a young master, and his parents were well-off. They paid tens of thousands of 10,000+ per month, and spent more money than Lin Yi.

Nowadays, I can do everything from washing clothes to cooking, and I never say anything no matter how hard or tired I am.

Lin Yi admired him very much, because he couldn't do this, no matter how long it had passed, he still longed to be loved, cared for, and paid attention to, probably because of his personality.

They share the same bed, and usually sleep at one end of the other.

Xiao Zhou said, "I tell you a happy event, do you want to hear it?"

Lin Yixiao: "What? Are you going to get married and have children?"

Xiao Zhou said: "That's not true, I will pay you back 1 yuan tomorrow."

Lin Yi kicked him: "Get out, don't, give it to me next year."

Xiao Zhou didn't push back and forth like the others, "Do you want love or not, come to me if you need money in the future."

Lin Yi let out an "um", closed his eyes, and quickly fell asleep.

Lin Yi got up early the next morning and drove back, but he still didn't give up. He said silently for the last time in his heart that if he was not at home, he would never come again.

Put the car on the side of the road and take the elevator up, and the elevator door opened.

Similar to the movie scene, Lin Yi wants to go out, and Yi Chu wants to come in.

I miss it every day, and a person I want to see suddenly appears in front of me, my mouth is so dry that I can't speak.

Yi Chu was thinner, obviously surprised to see Lin Yi: "Why are you here?"

Lin Yi had mixed feelings, including grievance, sadness, and joy.

Yi Chu was startled when he saw that Lin's expression was particularly bad: "What's wrong? Is something wrong?"

Lin Yi didn't expect to meet him this time when he came here. He completely forgot what he wanted to say to him when he met in this way.

Yi Chu went back and opened the door, and said, "I just saw the note you left and was about to call you."

To contact you alone, why now?Anytime is fine.

Lin Yi sat on the sofa and said nothing.

Early in the morning, he must be dressed so neatly and should go to work. Lin Yi got up just as soon as he sat on the sofa: "I just stopped by to see you. I have nothing to do."

They are as polite as strangers.

Yi Chu raised his head slightly, his eyes shifted from his face to his hand, the back of his hand was scratched by someone lifting something the day before yesterday, and there was a Band-Aid on it.

Lin Yi instinctively hid the back of his hands to prevent him from seeing, and said, "You said you were coming to see me, it has been more than a month, and I haven't seen you coming, I'm worried..."

Worry about what Lin Yi can't say, what is there to worry about?

I wanted to question before, but now I can't say anything, and I can't say anything in front of him, because it has nothing to do with others from the beginning to the end.

Yi Chu took a glass of water, and instead of handing it directly to Lin Yi as before, he put it on the table.

The tiny details made Lin Yixin sore.

"I haven't bought a new mobile phone these days. I know you will definitely call and send me a message. I'm sorry."

Yi Chu spoke very softly, like soft silk floating, feeling powerless.

As soon as Lin raised his head, he noticed that there was no needle removed from his wrist.

As soon as Lin saw this kind of thing, his whole body was tense, and he suppressed his trembling voice and asked, "Yi Chu? You..."

Yi Chu what?what can i sayCan't say anything, Lin Yi lowered his eyes.

What a pitiful look.

Yi Chu rolled up his sleeves to expose the needle tube without any shyness, pointed to his throat, and said, "I have a problem with my breathing, and my lungs."

Lin Yi's body was pierced like a knife, unable to breathe, he just sat there in a daze.

Yi Chu deliberately spoke unclearly, just wanting to see Lin Yi's reaction.

Lin Yi quietly sat beside Yi Chu: "Are you going to the hospital now?"

Yi Chu: "Well, I want to give you a call and then go there."

Lin Yi: "Are you alone?"

"No, my mother came the day before yesterday."

Lin Yi caught a smile on the corner of Yi Chu's mouth, and he didn't know how long he had to resist before letting his mother come over.

With the mother here, it seems that she can be a child who doesn't understand the worries of the world with peace of mind.

After not sitting for a few minutes, Lin Qi got up: "Then you go, I won't go with you."

Yi Chu didn't respond, he was thinking about how he would feel if this person was sick, probably he was extremely flustered and pretended to be calm, wanting to hurt and feel bad for him.In the past, he said all kinds of things, but he didn't know how true he was. He said that if he was critically ill, he would pass out sadly, which was probably just a joke.

These years, it was just a joke, and only I took it seriously.

In the elevator, be quiet.

Lin Yi opened his mouth: "Are you all alone these days?"

Yi Chu leaned against the elevator wall: "Aren't you always alone?"

Yes, they are all one, and all are used to it.

Loneliness spreads and erodes the whole body.

After getting out of the elevator, Lin Yi said, "I'll go with you."

Yi Chufang explained: "Don't worry, it's just an inflammation, and it's almost healed."

I always feel that I can bear it when I am young, but who can really resist it?

Lin Yidao: "Then you should also quit smoking in the future, it hurts your lungs."

"Ah."

Lin Yi said: "It's actually very easy to quit. As long as you are busy with other things and forget everything, you will soon forget this feeling."

"Ah."

Lin Yi stopped, turned his head to look at Yi Chu, and asked, "Yi Chu, are we still friends?"

Yi Chu stopped, and after a few seconds, he said "hmm".

Lin Yi frowned, believing in his words, believing in the past, and believing now: "Can I still look for you in the future?"

Yi Chu looked at the children in the distance who were still playing in the community, the hot summer wind dazzled his eyes, blowing away the past, that summer, and the deep memories.

The author has something to say: the next chapter will be fine