Love him deep into bone marrow Jian Hanfeng Chengyou

Fang Yan worriedly walked to Bai Fan and sat down, raised his hand to lightly cover his shoulder.

"Sailing."

Bai Fan bowed his back, covered his forehead with his hands, and squeezed out his voice with all his strength.

"I am fine."

"You can tell Dad if you feel uncomfortable, don't worry about it." Fang Yan said softly.

Bai Fan nodded, maintaining the current posture for a long time without moving.

Having lived together for more than a year, it is impossible to say that there is no relationship.

But he absolutely can't stand his lover being up and down while being with him.

In Bai Fan's eyes, the other party's pleading was extremely ridiculous, and what was even more ridiculous was that his emotions would fluctuate along with Yin Jingnan.

"Are you really going to abort the baby?" Fang Yan asked in a low voice.

Bai Fan frowned, "I don't know."

Fang Yan tightened Bai Fan's shoulders and stopped talking.

He knew the exact answer.

If he really hated it to the bone, he would definitely not hesitate.

After Yin Jingnan left Bai Fan's place, he returned to the home where the two lived. Everything was still the same as it was when Xiaoyan left, but now he is not sure whether that person will come back.

Yin Jingnan didn't live at home these days, and stayed at the company at night. He was afraid that he wouldn't see the person he wanted to see when he came back, so he felt even more panicked.

Seeing Yin Jingnan's distraught look, the nanny said worriedly.

"Have you had your breakfast, sir?"

Yin Jingnan shook his head. He stood in the middle of the living room, staring at the empty stairs in a daze.

Everywhere in this house there are shadows of Xiaoyan, smiling, crying, red-eyed, and running down the stairs towards him.

That was a long time ago.Not long after he brought Xiaoyan back from the outside, Xiaoyan was always circling around him like a little sun. Seeing him running towards him, Yin Jingnan reached out and rubbed Xiaoyan's head, telling him to be careful not to fall.

Later, it gradually changed. Yin Jingnan thought that Xiaoyan should not be so clinging to him all the time, so he purposely put on a straight face and distanced himself from him. Like to despise him.

Xiaoyan probably felt that she was hated, so she became less obsessive.

Yin Jingnan thought, if only he had opened his arms to hug Xiaoyan at that time.

Then the little sun will not go away, nor will it become the current white sail, and the words that come out of its mouth are not very pleasant, and it is really hurtful.

The nanny called Yin Jingnan several times before Yin Jingnan came back to his senses.

"Then what do you want to eat? I'll make it for you." The nanny smiled.

Yin Jingnan is still in the mood to eat now, he hasn't even drank any saliva since morning, and his voice is hoarse.

"No, I'm not hungry."

The nanny opened her mouth to persuade her, but Yin Jingnan turned and walked upstairs without waiting for her to speak.

- Step by step, the feet are filled with lead.

The door of the second bedroom was open, and it was filled with cool air.

We have been together for more than a year, although Yin Jingnan raised Xiaoyan and did not treat him badly, but he did not give him anything in a real sense. The only gift was the very big brown bear. When Xiaoyan received it, he said he liked it very much. But in the end, he didn't take it away.

Big Bear quietly leaned against the wall beside the bed, his two plastic black eyes staring blankly ahead.

If this doll had life, I don't know if it would miss Xiaoyan as much as he does.

The traces of Xiaoyan's life left in the house are very heavy, but the clothes in the closet, the household cotton mop by the bed, and the light fragrance gradually dissipating from the pillow towel are not enough to look at things and think about others, Yin Jingnanla Open the drawer of the bedside table to see if Xiaoyan has left anything else.

This led to the discovery of the glass votive jar full of stars.

The wishing bottle is hexagonal, 20 centimeters high, filled with colorful little stars, the mouth of the bottle is blocked with a cork, and a bow is tied with a golden string.

If it wasn't for a rolled up white piece of paper lying between the stars in the bottle, Yin Jingnan wouldn't know it was a wishing bottle. At first, he thought it was a gadget that children like.

Pull out the cork cover, take out the piece of paper and open it to have a look, only to realize that the glass jar was given to him.

The content on the paper was written by Xiaoyan when she was in the confinement center.

【Anan, I'm so bored here, I really want to go home with you.But I know you won't take me back, you want me to be independent...then I'll try my best. 】

[But it's really hard not to think about you, I really want you to be with me and the baby all the time.But I also know that you are very busy and you have to work hard to earn money to support us. 】

[When you came last time, I wanted to give you the wishing bottle, but when you left, I was so reluctant to part with it, so I forgot. 】

【Anyway, it's not that important, and I don't know if you will like it, so I'll give it to you as a birthday present when you celebrate your birthday. 】

[Every little star has a wish in it. 】

[Hee hee, happy birthday Anan. 】

Every time Yin Jingnan read a line of words, his heart felt like a knife was being twisted, his breathing became heavy, and tears fell on Qing Jun's handwriting, blurring the ink.

He suddenly came back to his senses, and stuck the water droplets on the paper to his clothes to seep out, and stuck them to his chest preciously.

In fact, he is not worthy of talking about love. When Xiaoyan needed company most after giving birth, he threw him into a completely unfamiliar environment and let him be anxious and anxious all day long.

He is a jerk.

Yin Jingnan put the piece of paper aside, took out a light green star from the glass tube, and carefully disassembled it bit by bit.

The blank space inside is also Xiaoyan's handwriting.

[It's sunny today, the chances of Anan coming to see me and the baby should be higher, I'm happy just thinking about it...it doesn't matter if you don't come.I hope Anan will be happy and work smoothly. 】

One can imagine what kind of mood Xiaoyan was in when he wrote these words. He should have sat on the bed with a small table, wrote them carefully, folded them into stars, threw them into the jar, and then stared out the window in a daze.

Yin Jingnan couldn't remember when Xiaoyan developed the habit of being in a daze.

After reading one sheet, put it aside, and open a new one.

[It has been sunny for several days in a row, but Anan didn't come. 】

[It's going to snow tomorrow, Anan should not come here even more.Maybe he is really busy, so I have to be good and not disturb him. 】

[Anan is in good health and everything goes well. 】

[Anan came to see me and the baby yesterday, but left after dinner, as if he didn't really want to talk to me. 】

[Maybe it's because I haven't been doing very well recently.But what should I do to stay with Anan longer. 】

[It seems that I still haven't learned to be independent today, it's so difficult.Does independence mean not being able to miss the people you like? 】

[Then I don’t want to continue studying.I hope Anan will not be angry. 】

Most of the stars in the jar were dismantled, and the contents were mostly the same, nothing more than thoughts, hopes, and blessings, all for Yin Jingnan alone.

Yin Jingnan couldn't bear to watch it any longer, but he took it apart one by one and read it over and over again.

He desperately hopes to find some clues that Bai Fan still loves him, but he finds nothing in the end.

The person who loves him is Xiaoyan, and he has lost his Xiaoyan.

After reading all of them, Yin Jingnan spent nearly a day slowly stacking the stars back. He took the wishing jar to the master bedroom and put it in the most conspicuous place on the bedside table.

When I sleep at night, I like to be hugged in my arms, as if I have wrapped all Xiaoyan's love in my arms. "! Shan! Yu! Yu! Xi!"

what's the point.

Fang Yan asked someone to rent a villa in the urban area, and he and Bai Fan left the rented house the next day and moved there.

Originally, since Bai Fan recovered his memory, he would take him back to the United States, but Bai Fan never gave a positive response to this matter.

Fang Yan didn't urge him, now that Bai Fan is pregnant, there is no need to rush back to the research institute.

Fang Yan, Bai Fan, and Fang Yan's student Abel lived together in the villa.

Fang Yan immigrated to the United States with her parents when she was very young, and has never been back since then. She is not familiar with China, and Abel is a native American, so she naturally wants to have fun when she comes abroad.

It seems that Bai Fan is quite familiar with this place, but in fact, when he was with Yin Jingnan, he didn't go out much at all. In the end, the three of them picked a time and found a private tour guide to visit the Forbidden City. Dinner was set at a hotel in the capital. .

In the box, Abel was the most active, talking to Fang Yan while eating in unauthentic Mandarin.

"China is really interesting, and the Peking duck is delicious."

Fang Yan smiled, "Eat more if it tastes good."

Bai Fan sat on the side and drank the soup silently.

He has always been quiet, Abel has long been used to it, and he can't tell anything, but as a father, Fang Yan can see through his son's emotions at a glance, even though Bai Fan has no expression on his face.

"Fanfan." Fang Yan called out in a low voice.

After calling twice, Bai Fan raised his head.

"Ok?"

"You're distracted again." Fang Yan sighed.

"I'm fine." Bai Fan said lightly.

Fang Yan frowned, and persuaded, "You have been unhappy these days, I am very worried."

"Since you have decided to let go, don't think too much about it."

"Well, I will." Bai Fan responded, picked up the spoon and continued to drink the soup.

Fang Yan saw that he didn't want to continue the topic, so he stopped talking.

These things are not just persuasion.

After dinner, Fang Yan walked ahead, and when he was about to leave the private room, Bai Fan suddenly stopped him.

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Fang Yan turned around suspiciously.

Bai Fan paused, "I've decided."

"Let's go back to America."

Surprise appeared in Fang Yan's eyes, "Have you thought about it?"

"En." Bai Fan said.

Fang Yan breathed a sigh of relief, "Can you really let him go?"

Bai Fan said expressionlessly.

"There's nothing you can't let go of, it's all over."

Speaking of it, there is actually nothing worthy of Bai Fan's nostalgia in this city, and he may come back to see the lost child in the future.

Fang Yan booked a flight to Los Angeles at 12:[-] pm on the [-]th.

very soon.

For the next two days, Bai Fan didn't go out, and was bored in the room all day long. After Fang Yan reminded him, he realized that he should go to the maternity checkup, so he went to the hospital accompanied by Fang Yan.

Yin Jingnan has been sitting in the car and guarding outside Bai Fan's residence for the past few days. When he finally saw him come out, he followed behind to see what he was doing, but he didn't expect that the destination was the hospital.

He felt cold all over, and rushed out of the car in a feverish way, ran over to stop Bai Fan, and grabbed his arm.

"Are you really going to kill the baby?"