ten years love letter

[16]

After the whole family moved to Tokyo, Heshu never returned to Haiqiu Town.

According to her mother's expectations, He Shu went to college and looked for a job... According to the common life style of ordinary people in the world, He Shuping managed his own life in a simple way.

For ten years, Kazuki has not had any contact with Shiba Aoki.

Until that day, he learned of Aoki's death from Umezu lawyer.

Heshu was really confused.

He couldn't comprehend the situation before him.

Are he and Aoki friends?

If they weren't friends, how could Aoki leave all his inheritance to him?

If they were friends, why didn't Aoki come that day?

[17]

In 2012, Aoki Shiba's body farewell ceremony.

The atmosphere of this ceremony was very serious. Since Aoki died in a car accident, it was very difficult for his body to be restored...to its original state.

The guests could not pay their respects to the face of the deceased, they could only symbolically present flowers to the portrait.

The air was filled with the solemn smell of incense, and Aoki Shiba's portrait was placed among many white wreaths.

The photo of the portrait is Aoki's ID photo, which was originally placed on the official website of the design firm Aoki founded.

In the photo, Shiba Aoki is serious and indifferent, with light brown eyes without any emotion.

From his handsome and mature facial lines, he can only vaguely see the appearance of a boy in the past.

What Kazuki was familiar with was Shibo when he was a teenager, and the designer Aoki who became an adult was a person Kazuki didn't know at all.

How did Aoki spend those ten years?

How did he get to where he is today step by step?

And the tree will never know.

"Never always."

"It should always be forever."

Kazuki also presented a flower to Aoki's portrait.

He raised his head, took a closer look, and couldn't help showing a disgusted expression.

This dork's portrait is literally the most boring photo I've ever seen.

[18]

The farewell ceremony is followed by a funeral feast.

He Shu didn't know the relatives and friends of Aoki's family at all. After presenting the flowers, he wanted to leave quietly, but a middle-aged man with gray hair stopped him.

That was Aoki's father.

Kazuki had no choice but to follow Mr. Aoki to an empty room.

This is the first time Kazuki met Aoki's father.

When He Shu was a child, his teeth grew very well, so he never went to the Aoki Dental Clinic, but his younger siblings had their teeth pulled there, and when they came back, they all said that Dr. Aoki is a masked man who can neither cry nor laugh .

He Shu silently looked at the old Mr. Aoki, thinking that his younger siblings were wrong, and Dr. Aoki would cry.

In the quiet room, old Mr. Aoki knelt and sat on the tidy tatami.

The old man held a handkerchief in his hand, and his eyes were filled with cloudy tears.He stared fixedly at Heshu, as if he wanted to see the dead soul of his son from Heshu...

He Shu really couldn't bear this atmosphere.

He asked respectfully: "Mr. Aoki, do you want to discuss the inheritance of classmate Aoki? I got his apartment key, do you want to—"

"No!" Mr. Aoki shook his head violently, "I...I dare not go in...I dare not look..."

Heshu has learned the calmness of adults.

He immediately changed the subject and said, "Then, I will send you his relic."

Old Mr. Aoki nodded, pondered for a while, and then asked: "Mr. Kosugi, you... have you seen Zhibo's laptop?"

Kazuki hesitated for a while and nodded.

Mr. Aoki suddenly took out a blank piece of paper with a string of numbers on it: "Zhibo has been in the habit of writing an electronic diary since he was a child. This is the computer power-on password. Please take a look at his diary."

He Shu was stunned: "You... how come you have the power-on password of Aoki-san?"

Old Mr. Aoki showed a blushed look, and explained: "Probably when Zhibo was in the second year of high school, one day, a female patient came to my clinic. She is the mother of Zhibo's junior high school classmate. From her mouth , I know one thing, it turns out that my son was bullied by his classmates for three years in junior high school."

He Shu remained silent.

Old Mr. Aoki smiled bitterly: "Why? My children are human beings, why do their children bully my children? Why did that parent still tell me this matter as if nothing had happened, as if telling a joke? Doesn't she have a heart?"

Trying to stay calm, Heshu asked, "So how did you handle this?"

Old Mr. Aoki lowered his head and said: "I don't want to question Zhibo, why didn't you tell me about this? Why didn't you ask Dad for help? Those painful three years have passed, and it is meaningless to dwell on these problems. My only What I can do is to protect Zhibo from any harm. I want to get close to Zhibo. Until then, I realized that the distance between us is so far away. I don’t know when Zhibo stopped sharing with me It happened at school. I was too busy at work at the time, so I found the fastest way to get to know him."

He Shu looked at the note in Mr. Aoki's hand, and suddenly had a bad feeling.

Sure enough, Mr. Aoki said: "I always knew that Zhibo had the habit of writing an electronic diary. I didn't care what he wrote in the past. Then I realized how stupid I was. When Zhibo was a sophomore in high school, I had someone hack his laptop. password. When Zhibo is away from school, I will peek into his diary. This is the best way, even better than face-to-face conversation, because I am sure that what I get is his most real psychological activity. I do all of them It's all about protecting him."

He Shu shook his head, his voice trembling: "You...you really are..."

Old Mr. Aoki said: "Please don't criticize me like this, I... Well, at that time, from Zhibo's diary, I was very relieved to see that he made friends after he went to high school, and he was not bullied again, but I also saw that the bullying life of the three years in junior high school turned into a ghost, which always haunts my son... My son's character, way of speaking, and even his future life are all controlled by those three. Years have changed. Those who hurt him will never know how badly they affected Shiba."

He Shu was silent.

Old Mr. Aoki said: "Later, I gradually reduced the frequency of peeking at the diary. It wasn't until my son graduated from high school that I realized that something was wrong with him."

He Shu raised his head in astonishment.

What does Mr. Aoki mean by this?

Could it be that……?

Mr. Aoki looked at Heshu with tears in his eyes, and said: "I cherish my son more than everything in the world. Now that he is gone, my whole body is broken... Mr. Xiaosugi, thank you, you mean a lot to my son. A lot, and...I'm sorry. I have done too much to you. If I had known earlier that Shiba would leave this world at such a young age, then I would definitely not stop him from pursuing his own happiness."

"Zhi...block?" He Shu said hoarsely, "What does this mean?"

Mr. Aoki bowed his head: "Forgive me, I don't have the face to explain this to you, please read it yourself. I know my son will definitely write these things in his diary."

After finishing speaking, Mr. Aoki left the room.

His back is bent, his back looks like a walking dead.

[19]

Kazuki went back to Shiba's apartment.

According to the note left by Mr. Aoki, Kazuki successfully opened Zhibo's laptop.

Zhibo's power-on password is a date. According to Mr. Aoki's explanation, this date is the day when Zhibo's mother eloped and left home.

After the boot animation, the computer enters the main page.

Zhibo's desktop is almost full of various drawing software and drawing files, and Heshu searched for a long time before he found a folder called "My Diary".

After clicking on the folder, He Shu found an astonishing number of electronic diaries.

A gust of wind suddenly blew outside the window, like a boy crying.

The apartment's study is quiet and lonely, and its owner will never come back.

Sit down with the tree.

From the first diary, he slowly read the diary left by Zhibo.

[20]

"April 1999, 3

I started to keep a diary.

I will enter Haiqiu High School soon, will I meet my former junior high school classmates?

I'm really scared.

I actually wanted to go to a high school farther away so no one would know about my being bullied, but my dad wouldn't listen to me, he's always so busy. "

"April 1999, 4

Today is the first day of high school, no one seems to spread my things, the day passed without incident.

It's been a long time since I've had a peaceful lunch in a classroom, it's so good.

When school was over, a classmate offered to go home with me.

His surname is Xiaoshan, but I didn't catch his name clearly.He spoke so fast that I was too embarrassed to ask him again.

We walked to the convenience store together, and then he walked the other way home.

It felt like going back to elementary school, back when my mom wasn't gone, back when no one was bullying me.

Will Kosugi-kun know about the fact that I was bullied?

The teacher left math homework today, but I don't feel very well, so I'd better go to school tomorrow and do it again. "

"April 1999, 4

I couldn't sleep, so I got up and wrote in my diary.

I went home with Kazuki again today (I finally know Kosugi-kun's name), and he said that we will go to and from school together forever.

He said always is always, huh, it should always be forever, right?

By the way, with the help of Heshu, I also met new friends.

But I feel so scared.

I'm afraid this won't last long.

I'm afraid that it won't be long before everyone will look at me with that kind of contempt and coldness...

I'm so scared...

When I close my eyes at night, there are countless voices in my head.

Countless voices shouted my name together, over and over again...

I have to put on my headphones and turn up the volume to the max. "

"April 1999, 4

I am dreaming again.

I dreamed that my textbooks and sneakers were gone again.

I found my sneakers in the dumpster, and at night the textbooks floated out of the sink.

That pool is so dirty I really don't want to climb in it again...

Then I woke up.

The textbooks are still in the bag, and I am already a high school student.

Dad is downstairs on the phone, I heard that his clinic is going to open a branch. "

"April 1999, 4

It rained heavily today.

He Shu held an umbrella and waited for me in front of the convenience store.

We went to school with an umbrella, and my shoulders were wet.

He Shu said that we are friends, I am so happy, I finally have friends.

Kazuki is a simple-minded guy with a hearty personality.Anyone would be happy to be friends with him, I really don't know why he would be my friend. "

"April 1999, 5

In physical education class today, I did warm-up activities with Heshu.

He Shu said that he also came from a single-parent family, and his father died of cancer. He also said that his father's portrait is very interesting, so I must visit his house in the future.

How can something as sad as a portrait be interesting?I really can't figure it out.

But I really want to go to his house, and no classmates have ever asked me to go to their house to play.

It would be nice if I didn't have to go to cram school. "

"April 1999, 1

It's finally winter vacation.

I went to play at Heshu's house today, and met Heshu's younger brother and sister.

The cream stew made by Kazuki's mother is really delicious.

I also want a younger brother and younger sister, and I also want an older brother like Kazuki.

This winter vacation is the happiest time of my life.

It would have been nice if mom hadn't eloped. "

"April 2000, 4

I am in the second year of high school, and I am not in the same class as He Shu.

He Shu joined the club and had to practice every day after school and on weekends, so he couldn't go to and from school with me.

He Shu cares about me very much, and I have to work hard to meet new friends. I can't let him worry about me anymore. "

"April 2001, 4

I'm in my third year of high school, but I'm still not in the same class as He Shu. "

"April 2001, 4

I actually met Kazuki in the cram school!

Too many things happened today, Heshu told me a lot, I don't have the energy to write down everything.

Fortunately, I know that I will never forget these things in my life. "