ten years love letter

[13]

In the spring of the third year of high school, a big event happened to Heshu's family.

Mom is going to marry that office worker uncle, and that uncle is called Kinoshita.

That day, Mr. Kinoshita came to Kosugi's house in a suit and leather shoes, and greeted the three children.

He Shu led Mr. Kinoshita to see his father's portrait.

Mr. Kinoshita laughed out loud at being amused, and then religiously put incense on the portrait.

Kazuki likes Mr. Kinoshita very much.

Mr. Kinoshita said, if Kazuki doesn’t want to change his surname, that’s fine. He also said, I’m going to go back to Tokyo to work. If you are willing, can you live in Tokyo with me?

Eita and Rena didn't understand what it meant, they just got excited when they heard the word "Tokyo".

Heshu hesitated.

My mother persuaded: "Your younger brother and younger sister can both transfer to Tokyo, and you can just apply for a university in Tokyo."

Mr. Kinoshita clenched his fists and said seriously: "I will work hard, and you don't have to worry about tuition fees!"

He Shu hurriedly said: "I can work part-time to save tuition fees, it's okay, don't worry about me."

Mr. Kinoshita breathed a sigh of relief, and said with a smile: "Then it's settled, after you finish the exam, we will move to Tokyo together."

He Shu saw that his mother was smiling so happily, and his younger siblings were also very excited. If they were happy, he would be willing to let He Shu move to Mars.

What's more, Tokyo is such a lively and wonderful place.

The matter of moving was settled like that.

Mr. Kinoshita was so happy, he said excitedly: "Recently, there are always moving trucks coming and going in and out of the town. By the way, I heard that the adoptive father and son of the Yamachi family have also moved out."

Mom hurriedly said: "Don't mention their things in front of the children!"

He Shu was stunned for a moment, he had never heard such a flustered tone from his mother.

Mr. Kinoshita asked stupidly: "Why don't you talk about them?"

Mom got up and drove the younger siblings away.

Then, she sat down and continued, "The adoptive father and son are actually same-sex couples. Because same-sex marriages are not allowed, they were naturalized in the name of adoptive father and son."

He Shu drank tea silently, pretending to be distracted.

His heart was pounding.

In front of the sparkling sea, at the entrance of a small alley, the boy was turning around.

His profile was as clear as a crystal, and his white shirt was bulging with the sea breeze...

For some reason, that image suddenly flashed in front of Kazuki's eyes.

An imperceptible blush appeared on the boy's wheat-colored cheeks.

At the same time, an unspeakable panic surged in his heart.

Why would he think of Aoki-san?

And the tree's heart beat faster and faster.

Mr. Kinoshita suddenly realized, and said, "Ah, so they are gay."

My mother said distressedly: "The neighbor's wife always complains to me. She says she doesn't want to greet them both, but they always bring her vegetables. Although I think it's okay to say hello, but..."

Mr. Kinoshita smiled and said, "How do two men live? It's so strange."

Mom echoed: "Yeah, it's better for people like that to move out of town."

stab-

He Shu stood up suddenly.

His chair screeched across the floor.

Mom was startled: "He Shu, what's wrong?"

He Shu came back to his senses, and quickly squeezed out a smile: "I want to go to the convenience store to buy some drinks."

"Oh, then you can go."

"Ah."

Later, Kazuki inquired around and found out that the reason why the two Mr. Yamachi moved was because someone threw household garbage in their yard.

The disturbed Yamachi gentlemen set up a camera in an attempt to catch the shameless bastard.

But after checking the surveillance video, they discovered that more than one person was dumping garbage in their yard.

The two Mr. Yamachi had to leave this town.

The lessons of the cram school are getting more and more intense.

Even Shiba is a bit too much, let alone Kazuki.

Heshu has been in a very low mood recently, because of the pressure of entering school, because of the changes in life, and because of many unexplainable things...

Zhibo also noticed the loss of Kazuki.

Shiba tries to talk to Kazuki, but he's too clumsy.

He seemed to have something to tell Kazuki, but he couldn't say it, his fair cheeks were flushed, and he looked extremely uncomfortable.

In their two-person relationship, Heshu should have played the eloquent role, but Heshu couldn't say the sentence "I'm going to move to Tokyo".

The two just confronted each other like this, they could say a lot of boring things, but they couldn't say a word of what they really wanted to say.

He Shu made up his mind, or wait until after the exam.

Then, he gave Zhibo a gentle smile and said, "Aoki-san, after the exam is over, I have something to tell you."

Sometimes, the boy Shiba is very dull.

As long as Kazuki smiled, Shiba felt that there were no problems in this world.

Zhichang breathed a long sigh of relief and said, "Okay, why don't we meet on my birthday, actually I have something to tell you."

He Shu asked curiously: "What is it?"

Zhibo hesitated for a while: "Let's talk about it after the exam."

"Okay, then we have a date, shall we?"

"Well, we've made an appointment."

He Shu palely smiled.

No matter what Shiba wants to say, his words will not be more cruel than what Kazuki wants to say.

It turns out that forever is neither forever nor always.

The "forever" that was said at the beginning is actually only a short three years.

He Shu felt very uncomfortable.

Besides "I'm going to move to Tokyo", he has one more thing he wants to say to Shiba.

Should that be said?

Shouldn't that be said?

If I said that, would I do Shiba any harm?

Mom, if... If I were like that, would you also call me a strange person?

Mom, will you still love me?

[14]

He Shu got good grades in the national unified examination.

Mom was so happy, and Mr. Kinoshita also said that Kazuki would definitely be admitted to a university in Tokyo.

Heshu is also very proud, but he feels extremely melancholy because of the upcoming parting.

After the mock exam, Kazuki stayed at home to review and prepare for the university special exam with all his strength.

During that time, Kazuki hadn't been able to see Shiba.

——But he has an appointment with Shiba.

After the exam, they will meet at the beach.

He Shu was going to tell Zhibo about the move, and that sentence... He Shu didn't know whether he should tell him or not.

Wait until Shiba's birthday to make a decision!

He Shu devoted himself to the review.

A few months later, He Shu went to take a special exam for the university of his choice.

He felt that he had performed well, and that the hard work of the past year had finally paid off.

Kazuki doesn't know what university Zhibo wants to go to, he always avoids this topic on purpose.

After all, if Shiba knew that Kazuki was going to Tokyo to study at university, he couldn't hide the move.

Alas, it's strange that they dare not talk about such an important topic even though they are good friends.

After waiting anxiously, Zhibo's birthday finally arrived.

[15]

The weather was gloomy that day.

In the evening, the strong wind outside the window was howling.

Countless huge gray clouds rolled across the sky, as heavy as if they were about to smash into the world.

Mom asked worriedly: "It's already so late, mom doesn't even have to go to work, will He Shu still go out?"

Kazuki put on his shoes, stood up, and said with a smile, "I'll go see Aoki-san, and I'll be right back."

Mother folded her arms helplessly: "You two, you can talk on the phone."

"Haha, I'm going out!"

He Shu waved his hands and ran out in a hurry.

The wind on the beach is stronger than the wind on the street.

He Shu has never seen such a terrifying situation in the sea of ​​his hometown:

The strong wind whizzed past, and the usually slender and soft waves were roaring at this time, and the whole sea was turbulent, as if it was about to engulf the land at any time.

Not long after Heshu arrived, it began to rain heavily.

The icy rain danced wildly, and Kazuki felt as if he was under a waterfall.He was shivering from the cold, and the rain was so heavy that he couldn't open his eyes.

And the tree has been waiting, has been waiting.

He squatted beside the embankment to avoid the wind and rain.Because he didn't dare to go to other places to take shelter from the rain, he was afraid that he would miss Zhibo.

——But Aoki didn't come.

He Shu has been comforting himself.

In 10 minutes, Aoki-san will come.

In another hour, Aoki-san will come...

So, Heshu has been waiting, and waiting.

When the heavy rain slowly subsided and a ray of morning light appeared on the clear sky, Aoki still didn't come.

He Shu finally understood.

Aoki-san must have guessed what he was going to say.

It wasn't because of the move, Aoki would definitely not avoid him because of such a stupid thing.

Aoki must have guessed that Kazuki was about to say that sentence that should not have been said.

That's why Aoki-san didn't want to see him.

Classmate Aoki must have hesitated for a long time, he has been considering the sentence, he does not know how to speak.

Later, Aoki-san felt that avoiding it was the best way.

If he avoids seeing him, He Shu will never be able to say that sentence.

That way, they can act like it never happened and they can continue to be friends.

—Is that so?

Kazuki had never experienced such coldness and disappointment in his life, and he returned home in a daze.

The mother had already left for the morning shift, and the younger siblings were terrified by Kazuki's distraught appearance.

He Shu prevaricates a few words casually, then returns to his room, and weeps silently.

That night, he developed a high fever.

It took several days for the high fever to heal.

Taking advantage of his mother's absence, Heshu climbed out of bed weakly, coughed, and dialed the number of Aoki's house.

The phone was never answered.

At that time, He Shu had to recognize such a situation: it turned out that they couldn't even be friends.

Kazuki doesn't blame Shiba, really, he doesn't blame him at all.

Aoki, who has been bullied for three years, must not want to be in a dilemma again, right?

Taking a ten thousand step back, even if Aoki-san is willing to fall into hell, do I really want to drag him down with my childish feelings?

To like someone means to be gentler to him, and then gentler, instead of hurting him.

Kazuki didn't blame Zhibo at all, he just felt... very wronged.

Aoki-san, I have always been gentle with you, right?

So why are you being so cruel to me?

It's already an appointment, why don't you come?

Heshu's young heart, like that crystal he will never get, was completely shattered.

He Shu is no longer a teenager.