Encounter

Xia Yuming didn't make a sound that day, and quietly let Shen Mo take him home. When he woke up the next morning, he behaved normally, got up as usual, ate as usual, silent and docile.

But Shen Mo knew that something was wrong, Shen Mo knew that nothing was wrong.

Shen Mo left Xia Yuming at home, and used magic to create a substitute to attend class for Xia Yuming.After that, Shen Mo used magic to help Xia Yuming get a suspension application.

Xia Yuming accepted Shen Mo's decision calmly and numbly, without saying anything, and he stopped talking much after he came back.

All this seemed normal, Xia Yuming seemed to have given up those terrible thoughts and never argued with Shen Mo again about life and death, but Shen Mo panicked.So Shen Mo stuck to Xia Yuming's side every day, and even started sleeping with Xia Yuming again.

After being together for a long time, Shen Mo discovered that something was wrong with Xia Yuming.

Xia Yuming was often in a daze, it was difficult to concentrate, he often stayed up all night at night, and the situation was the worst when he woke up every morning.

It often takes a long time for him to go to the toilet. When he comes out, his eyes are red, and he can tell that he has cried.He couldn't eat much, and he lost a lot of weight in a few months.Shen Mo felt distressed and forced him to eat, but he couldn't eat it, and would throw up if he ate too much.

Autumn is here, and the autumn wind has burned most of the street trees in the city. The weather is getting colder, and the vibrant insects have disappeared. Struggling forward.

Shen Mo started to make warm desserts for Xia Yuming. At this time, Xia Yuming would eat a little more, but not too much.

This situation continued until the north wind blew away all the leaves, Xia Yuming seemed to be in better condition, and began to propose to read a book by himself.

Xia Yuming often hides alone in his parents' room to look for books to read, and it takes him a whole day to see that there are many books there, all of which are covered with dust, and it looks like no one has moved them all year round.

Shen Mo thinks that it is good for Xia Yuming to have something he wants to do. If there is something he wants to do, he will gradually have hope. With hope, he will want to live. When he has the idea of ​​living, the pain will not be so so It's unbearable.

At the beginning, he would quietly hide and look at Xia Yuming, he was worried but he didn't dare to speak out, after this continued for a while, he gradually let go of his heart, and no longer accompanied Xia Yuming to read books all the time.

But Xia Yuming still didn't want to talk to Shen Mo more, and he didn't eat much, and he still couldn't sleep all night, and tears often hung on his face when he woke up in the morning.

Shen Mo didn't dare to expect too much, he thought, everything is getting better, everything will be better.

Now he understands how Xia Yuming felt before, he carefully protects the scarred and fragile treasure that he puts on his heart, he is always afraid that the treasure will shatter and fall apart in a second, taking himself with him heart together.

"Ayu, it's time to eat."

After cooking, he went to call Xia Yuming as usual, Xia Yuming usually didn't speak, but this time Xia Yuming who was sitting on the window sill put down his book, turned his head, walked towards Shen Mo with no expression and said, "Okay."

That sound made Shen Mo a little flattered, he wanted to go forward and hold Xia Yuming's hand, but in the end he didn't have the courage to reach out.

Love made him so terrified and made him so humble, but he didn't even have the slightest thought of giving up loving this person, he was willing to do so, how amazing.

At night, Xia Yuming beside him rarely slept more, and when he woke up the next morning, his eyes were dry.

Getting better, Xia Yuming is getting better, Shen Mo thought.

It was late for him to wake up, but fortunately it was not too late, and there was still time to save him. It doesn't matter if this person doesn't love him, as long as he is willing to live.

Shen Mo happily made one of Xia Yuming's favorite desserts. It took a long time from kneading the dough to the final baking. He was busy in and out of the kitchen all day, while Xia Yuming stayed in the room alone and read a book.

In the afternoon, the desserts in the oven gave off a tempting aroma. Sitting in front of the oven, Shen Mo watched the skin of the pastry turn into an attractive burnt color. Then he heard the window of the next room open.

Shen Mo's heart tightened, and he appeared in the room in the next second. The room was empty, only the north wind blowing in from the open window fluttered the curtains, and the person who was supposed to be sitting on the window sill was gone.

Without hesitation, Shen Mo jumped out from the window sill. Not far ahead, his lover was falling.

"Xia Yuming..."

Shen Mo saw a smile on Xia Yuming's face that he had never seen these days, and the smile disappeared when he saw himself.

Shen Mo felt great pain in his heart, but he still said, "I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I can't let you die, Ayu, I'm sorry."

He chased after Xia Yuming and hugged Xia Yuming, and landed slowly.

After landing, he didn't dare to let go of Xia Yuming, he felt the warmth of the person in his arms but didn't dare to face him.

He was afraid of facing Xia Yuming, he didn't know how to face Xia Yuming, he was at a loss.

But things in this world are never something that can be escaped, and there is nothing that can be escaped.

"Nothing's going to get better."

He heard Xia Yuming's voice ringing in his ears.

"Life sucks, and it's not going to get better. Nothing is better. If it does, it must be one of life's little traps, an illusion, and behind the illusion lies a deeper abyss. Life is not gentle, it is It's cruel, and no one is treated favorably by life."

"It's not like that, it's not..."

Shen Mo heard his own voice dissipating in the air pale and weakly, but Xia Yuming didn't answer.

Since then, Xia Yuming tried to commit suicide and self-mutilation many times but was stopped by Shen Mo.

Money is hard to buy, I knew earlier, there is no medicine for regret in the world.

Shen Mo loves Xia Yuming, but he is too arrogant and wakes up too late, so he can only taste the bitter fruit.

If there is any power above this sky, beyond the universe, that can control this ruthless fate, no matter what it is, Shen Mo prays sincerely, let Xia Yuming survive, he doesn't ask him to love him, just ask him to survive .

survive.