love you very special

Lin Yi flipped through Yi Chu's book and said: "Actually, you can go to Fudan University, you don't have to go to Beijing to study. In the future, you can choose any job in Shanghai after graduation. I said before that you are too unsuitable to do finance. , that taste does not match your taste, you should conduct research to serve the people."

Lin Yi always felt that this person was too powerful, so powerful that he could do anything.

"I'm not going to Shanghai."

"Huh?" Lin Yi was surprised, "You don't want to go to Shanghai, but you still want to study at your alma mater?"

Yi Chu replied: "No."

"What the hell is that? Where are you going?"

Asked a word and answered only a few words, cherishing words like gold, was anxious to death.

"Go abroad."

Yi Chu replied, and the people behind him stopped asking.

Then I heard giggles: "It's good to go abroad, it's good to go abroad, your ability must be a full scholarship, and some research courses abroad are better than those in China."

Yi Chu put down his pen and turned around, and saw Lin Yi playing with the book with his head down.

They all know that if they want to study for a Ph. D., he will definitely pass the exam, and then... they will definitely be separated.

Farewell, what they have been doing for so many years, they met once as teenagers, and when they met again, they changed their appearance.

As soon as Lin raised his eyes to meet Yi Chu's eyes, he immediately showed a meaningless smile: "What do you look at, reading is a good thing, you should study hard, don't learn from me that I don't do anything well, everything is hard, do something every day Hard work."

Yi Chu: "Don't say these words."

Lin could tell that he was unhappy, he was unhappy, and he was even more unhappy.

When they separated back then, in addition to the economic conditions to pass the exam to study abroad, there was another point, when a sense of inferiority gradually grew in my heart, it was difficult to stand with another person on an equal footing.

People who are too good and bright can only be watched from a distance and not played with, plus they are young and want to go out and have a good time. They have high vision and many ideas, and they disdain the secular world to go to school and take exams, and some things that happen to them when they are drunk, Lin Yi thinks it is wrong Things are not right, difficult to face, more want to escape.

But what can be done, after many years, no matter how young you are, you will succumb to the present, be content with the status quo, and dare not destroy the little warmth.

Lin Yifa was stunned for a while, then took out his mobile phone to search.

"How long does it take to study for a doctorate?"

Several results came out, and when combined, it was three or four years.

Lin Yi thought about it, three or four years ago was probably the time when he was in debt and couldn't afford to eat. Thinking about gritting his teeth, he could make it through quickly.

Brainwashing himself, he turned off his phone and asked, "Yi Chu, where do you go to work in Shanghai after graduation? Research institute? State institution? Public institution?" Jokingly said: "No way, you want to be a teacher? A university professor?"

Yi Chu said: "No."

Lin Yi leaned on his face: "Where are you going? Going to Beijing?"

He didn't speak, maybe it was acquiescing.

Lin Yinian said: "Hi Beijing, you always like it there."

Lin Yi didn't dare to guess.

The house was quiet.

"Yi Chu, will you come back?"

Yi Chu didn't read a word from Lin Yijin's book, and didn't know what was written on his hand. If he wanted to ask such a question, he had to answer truthfully: "I don't know."

He knew what the word "don't know" meant.

Lin Yi couldn't even open his mouth to persuade him to stay.

Everyone wants to go higher and higher, and no one is qualified to ask a person to give up his dream. It was in the third year of high school, and it is still the same now.

Lin Yi sat beside him, his head tilted slightly on the desk.

Yi Chu was afraid that the table would be too hard to rest his head on, so he stretched out his arms for him to pillow on.

Lin raised his head and said with a smile: "It's better to lie on your body, it's so comfortable."

So leaning back against Yi Chu's shoulders, she lamented fate: "We have been separated for eight years, and we will be separated again after only seeing each other for more than three months, alas."

Yi Chu likes the feeling of sticking to each other like this, feeling a little bit of body temperature, the strokes in his hand are moving, and this sigh is so sad.

Lin Yi: "Have you ever liked someone in college?"

Lin Yi continued: "The girls and boys in your school are worthy of you."

Yi Chu said in a cold voice: "You think everyone is like you."

Lin Yi rubbed his shoulder and said, "I'm wronged! Do you think that I'm a flirt and have girlfriends everywhere? I'm very pure, okay?"

"Three girlfriends are what you said!"

Lin Yi was speechless for a moment.

Yi Chu deliberately turned his lower body, and Lin Yi almost fell off.

Lin Yidao: "Okay, is it okay if I don't fall in love in the future?"

Yi Chu continued to read the book: "It doesn't matter."

Yi Chu can't think about these things at all, it will hurt his chest if he thinks about it, and it's useless for people to talk about it.

"You didn't like me then."

If you say it, you will regret it, and if you mention it all the time, even if it is unintentional, it will make Yi Chu feel that every time he speaks, he uses this matter as a shield, like a mockery, and appears to be of extremely low character.

Lin Yi went to the sofa next to him and lay down, blaming himself.When Yi Chu thought he was falling asleep, Lin Yi said: "I always make you angry, why don't you scold me? You scold me and I feel bad too. I haven't really felt sad and happy in these few years."

Yi Chu closed his eyes and remained silent, his hands trembling.He said this to his mother last month.The older you get, the more you have a boyfriend, and the word "happiness" is such a luxury that it is difficult to get it in this life.

After Lin Yi refused more than a month ago, Yi Chu felt that the whole sky was not gray, but dark.

It's not that a big man becomes weak and weak when he encounters a relationship, and he will die if he loses his love, but this relationship has been hidden in his heart for too long, so long that it melts into the blood, so the direct parting point is that the blood flows into rivers, and the appearance is glamorous Shiny, rotten inside.

At that time, Yi Chu was lying alone in the hospital, especially at night, with numbness all around and sadness and loneliness coming from above his head.

Yi Chu wanted to hold on, but when he saw this again, he really couldn't hold on anymore, so he borrowed the nurse's mobile phone to call his mother.

The first sentence is, "Mom, you come back, I'm sick and I'm a little scared."

This is the first time in more than 20 years that the tone of request has been raised. Over the years, I have been used to my child not worrying about anything, so I rushed over immediately.

For the first time in many years, Yi Chu saw his mother in his arms.

From the beginning of school to working for more than a year, the good children in the eyes of their parents are independent, able to take responsibility, and have ideas. They are role models for everyone along the way. Their pride still lacks the most ordinary emotions.

When the warmth of longing is transferred to other people, and after a long period of time, it will form a habit, and it will self-regulate and self-heal. After this need point is taken away by others, it will be hollowed out if you want to heal.

Unexpectedly, maternal love only lasted for a week, and Yi Chu had intermittent high and low fevers, so he could only keep taking injections and medicines, and his mother needed to come over urgently at work.

When she left, Yi Chu lay on the hospital bed like an abandoned child, and said: "Mom, I haven't been happy for many, many years."

Wanting to grasp the source of happiness desperately, was cut off.

After hearing this, the mother covered her face and wept.

No way, I still have to go.

Thinking of the past and empathizing with him, Yi Chu couldn't bear it, and couldn't be indifferent. He stood up and opened the bench, walked to Lin Yi and squatted down: "Lin Yi, I'll cook what you want."

Lin Yi opened his eyes: "Okay, give me some noodles."

Yi Chu wanted to touch his face, but he still didn't reach out.

Because the thoughts were flying, the noodles were overcooked, soft like a thick paste, Lin Yi ate it tasteless, and ate it in one bite, and jumped out a sentence.

"Yi Chu, you are so kind."

He wanted to say that he hadn't opened his mouth for a long time, but this time he opened his mouth, and it was not disgusting.

The voice came to his ears from behind, Yi Chu continued to read the book except for a beating heart.

Lin Yi washed the dishes after eating, helped clean the cooking table, and went to the door of the study: "I'm leaving."

Yi Chu didn't turn his head back, and replied: "Okay."

As soon as Lin went out, he leaned against the elevator entrance for a long time, until the phone rang before he recovered and left in a hurry.

Go home and finally return to normal, forget everything.

It was as if this person had never appeared and disappeared from his life.

During the Mid-Autumn Festival, Lin Yi ordered some dumplings, bought some peanuts, and drank a little wine.

Lie in bed and sleep.

In my sleep, I kept reminiscing about my middle school days, thinking about the mountains and lakes, thinking about riding bicycles together in the streets and alleys, fragmentary images, and finally stopped under the yellowed street lights, a figure reflected in the water, dancing in a white shirt Wu, no matter how I shouted, I couldn't make a sound.

Woke up sweating profusely, dizzy, retching and uncomfortable.

Waking up and opening my eyes, I found myself lying on the toilet and fell asleep.

Lin Yi almost went limp when he stood up, washed his face, rinsed his hair with cold water, and saw Xiao Zhou coming after washing himself out.

Xiao Zhou didn't say much, reached out and took Lin Yi's phone back, and scanned it.

Xiao Zhou said: "Why do you look like this? Hurry up and wipe your hair."

Lin Yi picked up the towel and wiped it a few times and threw it away, "You really... Forget it, whatever you want."

Xiao Zhou: "Don't be in the Holy Father, go cut your hair first, shave your beard, and then go shopping for a piece of clothing. You look sloppy like a slob."

Wearing a factory uniform, Lin Yi said: "Don't make an image, what do you want the image to do."

Xiao Zhou glanced at him: "You are just sick."

Lin Yi generously admitted: "I'm just sick, falling ill."

Xiao Zhou snorted: "I lost my soul every day, just like sb, you can bend if you want, you don't regret it."

Lin Yidao: "Fuck off, I'll marry a wife as soon as I earn enough money."

Xiao Zhou: "Okay, you are straight, you are the straightest."

Lin Yi rested on Xiao Zhou's shoulder: "Didn't you tell me to introduce someone to me, and I will fix my image when you introduce someone to me.

Xiao Zhou smiled once in a while: "Are you serious?"

Lin Yi: "Of course it is true, please contact me quickly."

Xiao Zhou patted Lin Yi on the shoulder: "That's good, I was scared to death by you a few days ago."

Lin Yi thought, people always have to live. Looking forward, I am not the kind of person who is immersed in pain and stagnates.

During the National Day holiday, Lin Yi took the factory workers to Beijing for a tour, and Xiao Zhou pulled Lin Yi back: "Go to hell, what's so interesting about that place, come with me to Shanghai tomorrow, and make an appointment with my sister."

Lin Yidao: "Really?"

Xiao Zhou: "Why lie to you, you come over tomorrow."

The little sister is indeed very good, she is very cute and delicate, and she always sticks next to Xiao Zhou.

In terms of appearance, Lin Yi is much more handsome than Xiao Zhou, but looking at it together, Xiao Zhou is more energetic, and Lin Yi feels sad, not humorous and doesn't talk much.

Xiao Zhou grabbed Lin Yi: "What's going on?"

Lin Yidao: "What's going on?"

Xiao Zhou pinched his arm: "How do you feel about her?"

Lin Yi pouted: "I don't like it."

Xiao Zhou glared.

Lin Yi looked like you were really a dick: "Are you stupid, she likes you."

Xiao Zhou was at a loss: "What did you say? Why does she like me? She asked me to find someone for her. Don't look down on him, but he is a normal university and a famous brand."

Lin Yi: "You stupid, out of your mind? Forget it. It's not that I don't like you, it's because I'm afraid that people will look down on me."

In fact, people just fell in love with Xiao Zhou, but Xiao Zhou rejected him in order to avoid the estrangement of brotherhood.

As a result, Lin Yi persuaded him twice, and finally the three of them broke up unhappy.

Their unhappiness was Yi Chu's complete rupture.

The discord among the three was not at first. Xiao Zhou took a selfie and posted it on Moments immediately. It happened to be seen by Yi Chu. As a person with a very sensitive heart, he was almost overwhelmed.

Immediately decided to study abroad, submit materials and procedures.

Soon after receiving the notification, Yi Chu felt that there were too few things to miss in this world, and he was so pitiful that he could do nothing but study. After going out to work for a year or two, he learned nothing and just wanted to escape. .

Originally scheduled to leave at No. 12, Yi Chu finished the resignation procedures and shed tears in the basement when he drove back. He was thinking, what is the purpose of this life, other people's pride, his own ideals, or is there a person who can communicate with each other? Accompany me for a lifetime.

Cry not for others, but for yourself.

He thought for a long time, and finally told Lin Yi in the early morning of leaving.

Leaving without saying goodbye, only after experiencing it, it is too painful.

Yi Chu didn't sleep all night, and he didn't call to tell Lin Yi until four o'clock in the morning. The sudden disappearance felt too unforgettable. It was so unforgettable that he could feel that feeling when he dreamed back at midnight. No matter what the relationship was, he just wanted to have a beginning and an end.

Lin Yi has been suffering from insomnia recently. He was in a light sleep and woke up immediately when the phone vibrated. Hearing Yi Chu's voice, he lost his sleepiness immediately.

You can tell from the sound that the condition is extremely bad.

Lin Yi put on his clothes on the phone: "Wait for me at home, okay, I'll be there right away."

Yi Chu didn't match the preface and said: "I'm leaving at night...going abroad, the air ticket for the night...you don't come...you come, we can say goodbye."

There were very few people on the road in the early morning, and Lin Yi almost rushed over with his car.

Parked the car, the basement was cold for a while.

Lin Yi ran to the elevator, entered the door according to the password, and happened to meet his eyes, and the two of them stretched out their arms and hugged each other.

A slightly bright morning, and a little cold autumn.

I don't know who is more dependent on whom, I just want to hug each other tighter.