five years later

"No matter how deep the sky is, no cracks can be seen

My brows are still full of dense clouds

Even if a room full of dark lights can't penetrate my body, it can still reflect your heart..."

An Yuan couldn't fall asleep, so he simply pulled out his earphones to listen to music, and the first song he heard was "Undercurrent".

The surface is calm, but the dark waves are turbulent.

An Yuan wanted to laugh, feeling that this song really fit the situation.

Liu Youxia has lived here for more than a month.During this period, the two of them really lived in peace, apart from breakfast and dinner, they probably didn't say a word.But Anyuan was still a little depressed, such emotions came out of nowhere, and they still haunted him in the middle of the night.

If asked why, An Yuan rubbed his temples, and an answer came up in his heart that he didn't want to admit.

The moonlight outside the window is like water, leaking a little through the gaps in the light beige curtains.The moonlight did not hide it, and it stuck to An Yuan's cheeks exactly.

The light is bright, but not dazzling.An Yuan followed them.

I did wake up late the next day, but luckily I didn't have to go to work on weekends.Liu Youxia didn't dare to rush into the bedroom to call him, so she could only sit on the sofa with the computer in her arms to deal with business, and glanced at him from time to time.

In the past, Anyuan would get up early in the morning and go out on weekends, trying to avoid Liu Youxia as much as possible.Unfortunately, I got up late today, and when I stepped out of the bedroom door, I happened to meet the other party's gaze.

Liu Youxia stared at him blankly, and forgot to look away for a while, but it was rare for An Yuan to look at him with a bit of shame.

After rolling all night, her hair was already a mess.An Yuan didn't realize that Liu Youxia, who was sitting on the sofa, suddenly became bolder.

He put down the computer, stepped forward and approached An Yuan.

An Yuan has just woken up, and his whole body has not yet been fully prepared, so he somewhat shows the gentleness of the past.

Liu Youxia couldn't hold it back.With a cheeky face, he reached out to comb the other party's messy hair, his eyes were calm, and a faint smile was hidden at the corner of his mouth.

An Yuan didn't refuse, so it was a good time.

The two of them were calm on the surface, but secretly spent the whole morning in a turbulent way.

If Liu Youxia has made any progress in the past few years abroad, it may be that besides the gold plating, he has good cooking skills.

The so-called nostalgia is the sour, sweet, bitter, spicy and salty in the pots and pans.After Liu Youxia figured this out, she finally gave up fast food and started cooking by herself.

No matter how talented you are, you have to go through a bloody journey on the road of cooking.Looking at the blood overflowing from his fingertips, Liu Youxia was in a daze. He couldn't remember how many years he hadn't cut his fingers.

An Yuan, who came to the kitchen to wash the fruit, accidentally caught a glimpse of it, threw the fruit away, and ran over to pinch his wound and put it under the faucet to flush.

The haste of his movements may mean nothing, but his eyes are not deceiving.

Liu Youxia looked at An Yuan obediently.During the five years abroad, many times he would not be able to sleep, would roll around on the bed, his mind and heart were full of An Yuan.

He would think about what that person on the other side of the ocean is doing at this time, how is life like, is there anyone he likes?

Liu Youxia thought so much, but he didn't come back once in five years.The great changes in Anyuan this month made him sad, but did he regret it?It was hard for Liu Youxia to answer this question. It would be a lie if he said he had no regrets, but he had expected this result from the beginning, and it would be hypocritical to say that he regretted it.

But does An Yuan still like him?

Liu Youxia looked at the man with tight lips in front of him, his hands were covering his fingers, warm and alive, just like before.Maybe An Yuan has always been like this, if it has changed, it is just that he has become less courageous, and he will never write his likes on his face again.

"Don't soak in water for a few days. The wound is not deep, just apply medicine for two days and it will be fine."

Yes, the wound is not deep.Liu Youxia recalled An Yuan's nervous expression, and a big smile appeared in his heart.They are crowded and noisy, almost spilling on the face.

So he made a bold move - he put his arms around An Yuan.

The movements were very light, and of course the sound of aggrieved and aggrieved was indispensable.

"I'll just hug you for a while, okay?"

An Yuan's originally tense body was relieved by such a tone, and he gradually relaxed.He didn't speak, and didn't refuse.

He didn't know what he was doing, he knew that Liu Youxia was such a person who beat snakes with sticks, and he still softened his heart for him.

An Yuan felt that he was crazy.He didn't give up after falling into a pit once, and even thought about falling again.

"I'm sorry." Liu Youxia whispered something in his ear.

"It may be late, but I still want to tell you personally. When I was abroad, I often missed you. I thought we met for the first time. You still insisted on taking care of me with a pale face. I don't know how to describe these five things to you. In this year, I miss you very much, I want to love you well and I want you to still love me, but I know you don’t need it anymore.”

Having said that, Liu Youxia was really moved.He was a little choked up, recalling his youthful days, he really couldn't help it.

An Yuan couldn't listen anymore, he pushed Liu Youxia away hard, looking coldly without any emotion.

"Did you forget what you said at the beginning? I am not happy to hear these words. We broke up when you went abroad. You don't owe me anything. You don't need to apologize."

Liu Youxia smiled wryly with half of her face hanging down, she stood up with restrained emotions and said, "It's a little late, I'll make the meal quickly, just wait a little longer."

An Yuan ignored him, got up and went to the bedroom by himself.

After the study room was cleared out for Liu Youxia to sleep in, all the books that had been there were moved to Anyuan's room, along with his painting utensils.

An Yuan's mother passed away when he was a child, and his father never remarried, but he only draws in his spare time.Portraits are always incomplete, a face is missing either a mouth or an eye.

He asked his father why, the man who was always smiling and gentle did not answer his "one hundred thousand whys" for the first time, but his eyes hid some emotions that he could not understand.

An Yuan picked up the pen and felt that he understood something.

He was restless and only drew a pair of eyes.Moreover, the eyes were not fully opened, and the drooping arc coincided with the person in his heart.

An Yuan didn't dare to draw any more, fearing that he would have more meaningless thoughts.He took off the drawing paper and looked at it for a long time, and finally tore it up with a sigh.The torn drawing paper fell into the wastebasket, and the stains floated on it, like tears from the eyes.

While eating, An Yuan noticed that the other party's band-aid was stained with water, and the whole color became darker.He was a little worried, but when he thought of his previous actions, he restrained himself as if nothing had happened.

The taste of the food was good, but the two of them pretended to have something in their hearts, but they didn't know what to eat and kept silent.

After a while, An Yuan felt that his patience was really getting worse.He put the bowl on the table with a "bang", dropped his chopsticks, and said in a cold voice, "I will live in the house for a year and a half, and I will move out tomorrow."

Liu Youxia was already flustered in his heart, but his face was calm.He swallowed the last mouthful of food slowly, took out a tissue to wipe his mouth, and then looked at the person opposite with those peach-like eyes.

"Why?" He said softly, "Is there anything I can't do well?"

An Yuan was at a loss for words, except for that incident in the morning, Liu Youxia's performance was far from perfect.Washing and cooking, usually in the house, there are not many voices.

"There's no reason, I don't want to see you. If you don't think that's a good enough reason—"

"No, this reason is good enough." Liu Youxia interrupted An Yuan.He forced a smile and said, "You don't need to move out, I am the one who should move out, and I will look for a house tomorrow. You don't have to give me the money, just take it as compensation for taking care of me in college."

An Yuan was a little angry. He suppressed his anger and asked, "When did I take care of you in college?"

Liu Youxia tilted his head to look at him, rested his chin with one hand and replied half-roguely: "Then let me compensate you for taking advantage of you."

"Zi——" The sound of the chair scratching the floor was disturbing.

An Yuan stood up and looked down at Liu Youxia, "What do you mean by that?"

"What do you mean? It's not interesting!" Liu Youxia also stood up, he was a little taller than An Yuan, and he could see the other's hair twirling.

The table was not very wide, and Liu Youxia suddenly felt relieved when he saw An Yuan who was furious.He smiled abruptly, but soon, An Yuan's face was in front of him.

He still held the other's neck with one hand, stroked his cheek with the other, and kissed him like this.

An Yuan naturally had to struggle, but for some reason, his strength was not being used in the right place.It wasn't until Liu Youxia's tongue slipped into his mouth that he woke up with a start.

Subconsciously wanted to bite, but also felt that his behavior was too unmanly.As if angry, he also put his arms around Liu Youxia's neck, wrapped his tongue around and kissed him.

This war, which was originally thought to be bloody, turned into a lingering war.The atmosphere has long been intense, the sun is eagerly pouring in, like an aphrodisiac, and the man's self-esteem makes them not want to admit defeat for a moment.

I don't know when the kiss began to become lingering and gentle, gentle, like treating fragile porcelain.

An Yuan thought distractedly, what is he doing?

The first time Liu Youxia kissed him was in winter when they just came out of the gymnasium after playing badminton.It was getting dark, and there was still a little rain, and the wind whizzed past my ears.

Fortunately, the two of them had just finished exercising, and it wasn't cold at all, but the north wind was blowing, and the sweat on their backs turned cold in no time.An Yuan couldn't resist and sneezed. He thought it was enough, but he didn't want to sneeze away relatives one after another, causing Liu Youxia to bend over with a smile.

An Yuan finally stopped sneezing, his eyes were full of tears, and when he looked at Liu Youxia, he felt a little reproachful and pitiful.

Liu Youxia straightened her waist, with a smile still on the corner of her mouth, she stretched out her hand and pinched the cold red nose of the other party.

The atmosphere seemed to be suddenly charming at that time, it was obviously very cold, but the surroundings were as warm as spring, and the fragrance of flowers blew into the noses of the two of them.

Liu Youxia grabbed An Yuan's hand suddenly, the other party was surprised, but did not refuse.They have known each other for half a year, and they know each other well, it just depends on who breaks through the window paper first.

Next to it are the stairs leading to the second floor of the gymnasium.Liu Youxia looked at it, then dragged the person to run up.It was dark all around, only the faint light from the electronic screen and street lamps in front.

No one noticed that there were two people here.

Liu Youxia pressed An Yuan against the wall, and kept rubbing his cheeks with both hands, the light in his eyes seemed to eat people.

An Yuan understood what he was thinking, and he couldn't help himself.Opening his mouth slightly, the breath he exhaled condensed into a white mist, entwining Liu Youxia's body, as if two people were entangled in the next moment.

Liu Youxia should have kissed him first, but An Yuan just passively accepted it.He has no experience, and to put it mildly, this is actually his first kiss.

But Liu Youxia didn't seem to be much better, he only knew how to attack, like a little beast eating, wishing to snatch An Yuan's breath away.

An Yuan's tongue licked Liu Youxia's, which made him a little sober.It's just too gentle, it makes people feel itchy to watch, and after a while, Liu Youxia's stormy kissing method has the upper hand.

Both gasped loudly afterward, and laughed out of breath.

An Yuan hugged Liu Youxia, the sweetness in his heart almost flowed into a river.

It's just that today is not what it used to be, and such a kiss has long been meaningless.

Liu Youxia finally let go of An Yuan, the other's lips were bright red, and he couldn't hold back to caress her for a moment.

"I don't know how many times I took advantage of you in college. Isn't it right to give me some compensation?" He said this with a gentle tone and affectionate eyes, but the listeners were sweating.

"You look high, how can I be so expensive?" An Yuan was obviously sarcastic, but the other party patted his forehead as if he had suddenly realized.

"That's it, then you've paid for it."

"Slap—" An Yuan slapped him.He used a lot of strength and showed no mercy.

Liu Youxia was too lazy to pretend to be the same as before.He looked at An Yuan coldly, and said word by word: "Which of us is nobler than the other? Who is more selfish than the other?"

An Yuan panicked all of a sudden, as if someone had poked a sore spot.

Liu Youxia walked around the table and hugged him, then walked towards the bedroom.

"What are you going to do?" An Yuan could still speak, but he was a bit fragile, like a flower blown by wind and rain.

"Bang—" Liu Youxia closed the door with her foot, and put An Yuan on the bed, and she also fell on top of her.

"Nothing to do, just want to do something that makes us both happy."

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