five years later

Liu Youxia cleaned up the house after breakfast.Unable to bear the silence that spread between them, An Mi hurried back to school.

He took his clothes out of the suitcase, and hung them up one by one, ready to take them out to dry for a while, but unexpectedly saw An Yuan's white shirt.

Liu Youxia wouldn't be so surprised if it was another shirt, but he also has a shirt of the same style and size.This doesn't mean anything, An Yuan is a simple person, and it's not a big problem to wear a piece of clothing for several years.But Liu Youxia was heartbroken by the other party's indifferent attitude in the morning. He took off his clothes, and buried his face in it cautiously, almost piously.

The laundry detergent smelled very familiar, the same smell as Anyuan's bed sheets, and it also had a strong summer sunshine smell.Just like An Yuan, warm and comfortable.

Liu Youxia didn't know whether An Yuan had changed or whether he had always been like this.But no matter what the reason was, he couldn't step back, not even a step or even a centimeter.

When he was abroad alone, Liu Youxia always remembered the last words An Yuan said to him.His voice was calm, almost grim, and he didn't deviate from the tone of a word when he spoke.At that time, he was startled suddenly, as if meeting An Yuan for the first time.

He said, "Liu Youxia, we broke up."

It was a very simple eight words, and after Anyuan finished speaking, he hung up the phone neatly, without nostalgia, without a trace of procrastination.He changed his phone number, and deleted or blocked Liu Youxia from all his online contact methods.For people on the other side of the ocean, An Yuan seems to have disappeared.His phone was forgotten in a corner, and his mail and letters waited patiently to collect dust before being returned unaltered.

It was only at this time that Liu Youxia realized that the reason why he chose to go abroad was not for Anyuan at all.He is a cowardly and selfish person, and he still wants to please both sides.

In fact, everything now is what he deserves.

After dealing with the matter of her own employment, Liu Youxia went to the supermarket to buy vegetables and fruits non-stop.Although Anyuan's house is clean, there is no smoke or anything to eat.It's cold and doesn't feel like home at all, even if all the decorations in the room are still bought by the two of them back then.

An Yuan hadn't come home when he came back.Liu Youxia wanted to make a call, but when she picked up the phone, she realized that she didn't have the other party's current number. She regretted for a while that she had let Anmi go in the morning.

The dishes he bought were all Anyuan's favorites.But he has a bad stomach, and he often stayed up late when he was in school. Liu Youxia has said this many times.But An Yuanxue's design didn't know how to say hello when inspiration came, so he just ignored the other party's words with peace of mind.

Five years later, Liu Youxia guessed that An Yuan would not make any progress.Although the vegetables he bought were his favorites, he especially avoided spicy food.

Liu Youxia cleaned the lotus core and soaked it in water, preparing to cook lotus seed and lily soup.

Anyuan especially likes to eat lotus seeds, especially the ones with a glutinous taste.I also like to drink this lotus seed lily, but most people can't bear its sweetness.

In the past, Liu Youxia used to separate out his own small cup, and put sugar in the rest for An Yuan.But he is not addicted to sweets, he only shows his persistence on some special dishes.

I don't know if it was fate, but Anyuan came back within a few minutes after Liu Youxia cooked the dishes.He seemed a little unaccustomed to having another person at home, and An Yuan's expression didn't calm down until he saw the dishes on the table.

"Have you eaten yet?" Liu Youxia took out the bowl and chopsticks and looked at him carefully. "Sit down and eat together, I have something to tell you."

An Yuan glanced at him, said nothing, and stood for a while before washing his hands.

Liu Youxia's breath was finally relieved.

The silence on the table seemed to crush people to death.Neither of them spoke, only the sound of chewing each other.

"Do you want to try this?" Liu Youxia put down the chopsticks, scooped up a spoonful of lotus seed soup and handed it over, "I think it's very sweet, but I don't know if you—"

"I don't eat sweets." An Yuan interrupted him, took a chopstick of vegetables and put them in the bowl. "I don't eat sweets anymore." He said this word by word, his voice was obviously very soft, and he was not as harsh as before.But Liu Youxia's hand trembled a bit, and this time he lost his composure, splashing a few drops of sticky soup on the table.

"Oh, oh." Liu Youxia wanted to take out paper to wipe the table as if waking up from a dream, but An Yuan preempted him.This way of being silent is better than talking made him completely defeated, and he didn't even care about the sweet and cloying lotus seeds.

Liu Youxia drank the whole bowl of lotus seed and lily soup, not a single drop was left.He looked like a child who was angry, but that person didn't care anymore, no matter how much he struggled, it was just a joke.

After the meal, An Yuan cleaned up the table and chopsticks, and Liu Youxia sat on the sofa a little dispirited.He wanted to smoke, and his anxiety made him lose the self-control he was usually proud of.

All the rhetoric that had been prepared all afternoon could not be uttered.Not only can't say it, but it's embarrassing.

At eight o'clock, An Yuan came out of the shower.He was already a man, his once thin body now full of strength.Still fair, but not as sticky as cream, the shadow refracted by the lines made him look more mature.

After five years, An Yuan finally became a stranger to him.

Liu Youxia didn't know how to describe this feeling, so he could only keep silent.

But An Yuan didn't seem to want to keep silent.

He took out a stack of cash from his bag and put it on the coffee table, and sat down himself.

"Here is [-], which is almost the money you paid back then."

……

"What do you mean?" Liu Youxia spoke hoarsely after a while.

An Yuan pushed the money towards him, "It's not interesting, you always have to pay back what you owe to others." After a pause, he added: "I don't like to owe others."

Liu Youxia didn't know what to say.He raised his head, his eyes seemed helpless and sad.He looked at An Yuan, opened his mouth and muttered a few times, but finally made no sound.

After a while, he finally said with some despair: "Obviously you liked me first."

An Yuan recalled that summer seven years ago, he smiled indifferently, and said, "And then?"

Then, then he betrayed him, then broke up, and then it was best not to see each other again.

In fact, not so much. Then, from the moment he made his choice, everything that happened later has nothing to do with him.

An Yuan didn't want him long ago.

Liu Youxia closed her eyes, her fingers trembling slightly.He wanted to ask if we really had no possibility?I really want to say that I still love you.But An Yuan no longer needed it.

When he opened his eyes, those fragile emotions disappeared.Like a real businessman, he doesn't hold back when negotiating terms.

"I don't want money." Liu Youxia pushed the money back. "The two of us rented this house together for three years. On average, it should be one and a half years. I just returned to China, and I am not familiar with many things, and I have no place to live."

An Yuan glanced at him, "You mean you want to live here?"

Liu Youxia didn't respond directly, "I can cook for you, wash dishes and clothes, do all the housework, and I won't do anything that makes you unhappy. If you can promise not to move out during this period, I can only live here for a year .”

An Yuan looked at his confident look, and twitched the corners of his mouth. "If I don't agree. You can live here for a year and a half, and tomorrow I will find a house and move out."

"I'm the one who should go out and live." Liu Youxia got up and approached him. The other party's bath liquid smelled so good that he calmed down immediately.

"Do I make you sick like that?"

An Yuan's expression froze.It wasn't just because Liu Youxia was too close, but because the other party said that he was pitiful, and his grievances could overflow all over the place with just a twist.

Liu Youxia used to like to act like a baby like this.

An Yuan had nothing to do with him before, but now, he is still a little soft-hearted, although the soft-heartedness came so inappropriately.

They are negotiating, either you die or I die.

An Yuan looked at Liu Youxia, thinking that my heart is not as hard as yours after all.

……

"There's no place for you to sleep."

Liu Youxia finally showed a slight smile. "It's okay, I can sleep on the sofa."

An Yuan pushed him away and got up, leaving a faint sentence: "Clean up the study room tomorrow, you sleep there."